st4rs1ut

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save me overly codependent massively obsessive borderline sociopathic hyper controlling blindly devotional relationship save me

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gunplay.

gunplay while languidly making out. shirts discarded on the floor, hands lazily roaming, tongues gliding together. slowly getting lowered onto ur back, thighs easily straddling urs, fingers pressing gently to ur throat. feeling the shivering breath against ur lips as a stiff pressure rests against the side of ur head; cold metal against delicate skin. panic cramping in ur lungs as ur blurry brain gradually registers what it is. breath hitching as a finger lays gently over ur lips n soft shushing fills ur ears.

gunplay that starts w being told to get on ur knees. slowly lowering urself to the floor, tucking ur legs under u, gazing up w sweet eyes. a boot pushing between ur thighs and pressing down. a hand carding thru ur hair n tugging gently. a barrel resting between ur eyes w a finger on the trigger. a voice telling u to slowly undo their belt n pull down their zipper n open ur mouth. getting facefucked while they tell u to keep going or theyll blow another hole in ur head.

gunplay that happens mid-fuck. being completely lost in the sensations pulsing thru u, head reeling from lack of oxygen, cheeks flushed from the warmth of another body against urs. suddenly feeling something cold and firm pressing into ur bulging tummy. hearing “move one fucking inch and i’ll pull this trigger” through the haze of ur moans. knowing they won’t hurt you, they’d never hurt you.. right? blindly obeying even as u start trembling n crying n hyperventilating because even tho u trust them n they love you, theyd still put a bullet in u w zero hesitation n u know it.

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been thinking abt an older man corrupting me <3 starting out slow, having me come over every once in a while n teaching me how to change a tire or fix a sink or file taxes. getting me comfortable, docile, complacent. slowly adding in innocent touches and scraps of praise. patting me on the shoulder, ruffling my hair, tipping my chin up. that's it, kiddo. nice work, champ. you're a good kid, you know that?

gradually convincing me to spend more time with him, to stay for dinner, a movie, another project. slowly making me dependent and eager for his approval. initiating even more contact, even sweeter words of praise. touching my waist while moving behind me, guiding my little hands with his rougher ones, pressing his chest to my back to whisper in my ear. there you go, sport, just like that. you're such a quick learner- my smart boy. when'd you get so good at this, kid?

finally persuading me to stay later. to have my first beer with him- how old did you say you were again? to change into his clothes- those tight little shorts must be uncomfortable. to come to his bedroom- you look sleepy, kiddo, let's lie down. settling me on the bed, smiling as he locks the door behind him, telling me what a lightweight i am. climbing over me, holding me down with a hand to my tummy, humming as he slips off the too-loose pajama pants he gave me to wear. whispering about how pretty i look and how good i'll feel and how long he's been waiting for this while he pushes my thighs apart and tugs down my undies.

showing me how a real dad treats his boy <3

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dads who constantly pull you into their lap or pin you against counters or rest their hands against your waist because they just love their little boy so much and want to show him how special he is. dads who climb into your bed late at night, mumbling to stay still and slurring about how they need your help with something and apologizing over and over even as they're slowly tugging down your pajama pants and slipping your undies to the side. dads who say "biiig stretch" while forcing their thick adult cock into your kid cunt, cooing at your noises muffled by the pillow, leaning down to tell you what a good kiddo you are for letting them use you like this.

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"that's it, kid" as i slowly sink down onto his adult cock, his hands wrapped around my waist as he forces every inch inside me, feeling lightheaded as i see my tummy bulge. "come on, champ" as he guides me up and down by my hips, using me as an oversized fleshlight, moving my limp little body however he wants. "keep crying, sweetie" as i sob and whine and beg for it to stop, unable to fight or resist or run as he pins me down and ruthlessly pumps another load into my already-full belly.

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need to be taught a valuable life skill while an older man gently holds the back of my neck and goes "that's it, kiddo" in his deep rough voice. need to be walked through fixing something while a guy twice my age rests his hand on my shoulder and tells me what a smart kid i am for learning so quickly. need to be shown how to repair my own stuff while someone old enough to be my dad keeps a hand on the small of my back and whispers "good job, sport" just to watch me shiver.

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attachment issues r so dumb like why do i think hes going to leave me when he goes to sleep?? why do i get scared he doesnt want to talk anymore as hes telling me all the depraved fucked up things he wants to do to me?? why do i miss him every second im not speaking to him?? urghh </3

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slapping. slapping me to get my attention. slapping me to correct my behavior. slapping me to shut me up. slapping me to make me talk louder. slapping me to mark me. slapping me just bc u feel like it. slapping me to listen to the cry i let out. slapping me to make me go faster. slapping me to make me slow down. slapping me bc u can. slapping me bc ill never say no. slapping <33

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when hes ten years older n towers over me n is softspoken n can manhandle me however he likes n has a deep voice n big hands n strong arms n calls me kiddo n is possessive n jealous n controlling n is touchy in public n makes sure m safe n takes care of me n tells me hes proud of me n that m good n lets me call him dad djkdhjdhjks

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"stop dad no it hurts" to "uh uh uh uh" pipeline needs to be discussed more

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"im so proud of you" kiss me kiss me kiss me kiss me kiss me

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need need need to be high n sweet n sleepy while my mouth gets passed around n everyone praises me n coos when i gag n pets my hair while they call me a slut. need need need to have multiple pairs of hands on me groping n slapping n stroking while i can barely keep myself coherent n upright n functioning. need need need to get all out of it and drugged up so i get wet n pliant so quick when multiple ppl call me good n pretty n sweet.

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so why are you like this? what broke you?

early internet use or sumthn idk <3

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need to be wearing his clothes smelling like him with his marks on my neck n his fingers inside me while he talks me thru taking hits. need to be on his lap in nothing but panties n his hoodie while he pets my hair n tells me im good n pretty n his boy. need to cuddle while he tugs my undies down far enough to see n coo at how wet i am n tell me hes so proud of me.

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anyone else get so desperate n needy whenever theyre on their tummy.. s like a trained response atp <33 the second i roll over i get such an urge for no reason at all

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cumming wout permission + getting punished by cumming until i cant anymore or cumming sm times in a row + getting punished by not being allowed to.. decisions decisions <33

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so embarrassing but downtalking is such a turn on.. being spoken to like ur seven years old and are incapable of any thoughts or logic <3 being told ur too dumb to perform basic functions n tasks bc ud js mess them up anyways <3 being cooed at n pitied no matter whether ur giving or receiving.. guys who mock n tease n patronize n degrade n make me feel small i luv u all