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i will die lonely, won’t i? i can feel it in my chest. i will die painfully alone.

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i wanna know what happened to olivia’s locket after she died bc she was gonna give it to nell but did nell get it? nop e

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She was at the house, Steve. She’s dead.

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“All clear. No monsters. Safe to go to sleep, okay?”

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“i can’t get up. i hurt myself.”

the way by joseph bruchac        accepting.

        “ I kinda guessed with that G A S H on your leg. What happened? ”

She knows a few paper towels won’t help much, but it’s all she has right now until they can get to a hospital. The brunette presses them against the W O U N D, because adding pressure is good, right? Despite the grimace painted on her features, Nell stays as calm as she can. Panicking will only make it W O R S E. 

        “ Right, I need to go find a phone. Stay here and try to be as still as you can. ”

// @nozoinks.

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thinking about how lonely nell was, especially in her late teens/early twenties. steve, shirley, and theo have all moved out of aunt janet’s by now. luke is never home now his addiction is grabbing hold, and janet has her own busy life. and nell hates being home alone, even though it’s not hill house, empty walls and silence remind her of the past and allow her mind to delve into the darkness. so she ends up out of the house as much as she can, mostly just wandering around, there’s a few people she’s friends with who’ll she’ll hang around, but she’s quite a loner, doesn’t know how to open herself up to new people. despite how much she longs to. 

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“when it’s time to run, run fast.”

the way by joseph bruchac        accepting.

Air is pushed out through pursed lips, arms folding together as the brunette leans back in her seat. “ Think I’ve been running since the moment I left that D A M N house,” leg is crossed over the other, and Nell finds she could probably sleep in this position if given the chance. The mere idea of running E X H A U S T S her, she’s tried so hard to escape her past and yet it continues to haunt her. Perhaps more so now than it ever did. “ I’m not sure if I can run anymore. Maybe it’s time to F A C E it.”

// @denieddeath.

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when they’re dropping luke off at rehab and nell is reading the pamphlet about the place and she keeps saying they’ve got horses, i think it’s definitely her trying to lighten the whole situation up?? mostly for herself i think because yes this is a good thing luke it finally getting help but she’s so scared for him and she won’t be able to see him, he’s gonna miss her wedding too and she can’t be there to look over him and make sure he’s okay and that scared her so much. so it’s easier for her to focus on little things like the horses and she repeats it to her siblings because maybe it’ll make them feel better too 

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endless gifs of nadine byrd

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@impiae        sc.

        “ Excuse me? You’re bleeding. ”

Finger is pointed at the other’s arm, where a small cut sits. It doesn’t look very D E E P, yet Nell can’t help but rummage through her handbag for some tissues and a bottle of water to help clean it up with. A H A B I T picked up from taking care of Luke after one of his benders. Once she finds them, she holds them out. 

        “ Here, it’s not M U C H but it should do for now. ” 

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@fandomaestheticnet locations event » hill house

Silence lay steadily against the wood and stone of Hill House, and whatever walked there, walked  a  l  o  n  e.

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the way by joseph bruchac  abuse mention.

“i’m disappointed in myself.”

“better wash your face first.”

“are you okay, honey?”

“physical abuse can break a child’s spirit, twist that child’s heart.” 

“i’m so proud of you, son.”

“give me your hand.” 

“you’re just as impatient as i was when i was your age.”

“and change your shirt. the one you like is on top of the laundry basket.”

“that wasn’t as hard for me as it was for some kids.” 

“when did i start hating people i don’t really know?”

“i finally learned where anger can take you. you don’t want to go there.”

“we’re not a family anymore.” 

“every story always seems to start one of two ways. someone goes on a journey. or a stranger comes to town and changes everything.” 

“part of me wants to jump up and run away.”

“we get frightened, and then we think we either have to fight or run away.” 

“punching bags don’t get into fights.”

“i can’t get up. i hurt myself.”

“traditional ways are often the best.”

“let me introduce you to my son.”

“give yourself a break, okay?”

“i was an angry kid.”

“when it’s time to run, run fast.” 

“everyone knew about it, of course.” 

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I don’t have paranormal experiences, I AM a paranormal experience.

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HEADCANON        OCCUPATION. 

So, the show didn’t really give us any indication of what Nell’s job was ( or if she had one at all ), so I thought I’d give my input on what her job is, and what it is in terms of my portrayal of her. 

I have this little headcanon that Nell is very creative, especially visually. As a child she liked to make up new words, and as she got older and went through school she discovered her love for drawing and painting. She is totally one of those people who scrapbooks, and has piles of them in her house. I think it serves as an outlet for her too, obviously there’s not a lot of people who want to hear her problems which bugs her to no end, so she’ll just transfer it to canvas and let a pencil or paintbrush speak for her ( there are many sketches of the bent neck lady hidden in her wardrobe ). It’s very cathartic for her. 

With this in mind, Nell’s dream is to do something that will utilise this creative side of her, but of course it’s not easy to become a famous artist overnight. So she’s actually decided to go the teaching route, and is training to become an art teacher. Whilst she’s doing this training, Nell works at a local art gallery owned by a friend of her Aunt Janet. She helps with exhibits and auctions, and she loves being around the art so it’s a really nice place for her to work. 

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@horrauer        sc.

This happens sometimes, she just completely phases out and her mind begins to wander. The sleep deprivation doesn’t help one bit, and it’s getting to the P O I N T where it’s happening in the middle of the day, when Nell’s out and about. Almost like she’s fallen asleep stood up, the horrific figure that’s H A U N T E D her dreams since she was a girl appears. And who could blame her for believing it’s real? She’s not even asleep right now. The clearing of a throat snaps her out of it, the vision disappearing as quickly as it had A R R I V E D. Nell turns, offers the person behind her in the queue an apologetic glance as she shuffles forward towards the counter.

         “ Sorry about that, got L O S T in my own world. ”

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every time i see this icon i can hear nell shouting ‘mommy’ desperately and it breaks my heart