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𝙰 𝙻𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃, 𝙴𝙼𝙿𝙰𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚃𝙸𝙲 𝙻𝙰𝚄𝙶𝙷. the kind of commiserating sound that says i understand without so many words as he takes a drag off of his cigarette and offers it between his middle and index fingers towards @m0nstrousneeds for the taking. " an’ sometimes s'all you really can do with people, cher. it's no fixin' a lotta things, no matter how hard y'try. "

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             𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁'𝚂  𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙿𝙻𝙸𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃  is  not  the  first  of  its  kind  that  has  been  offered  to  silas,  but  it  still  earns  a  lilt  of  his  mouth  in  something  that  almost  resembles  a  smile,  hands  busy  readying  the  violin to  settle  into its  proper  resting  place  inside  the  case.  there  was  never  really  a  chance  of  that  aspiration  coming  to  fruition,  but  silas  had  only  even  understood  the  concept  vaguely,  anyway.  music  was  performed  only  in  church  where  he  is  from,  for  worship  and  the  glory  of  god.  his  work  with  the  violin  is  now  dedicated  to  the  antithesis  of  this  ―  the  joy  of  people  who  stop  to  watch  him  on  the  street  corner  or  in  the  park,  the  necessary  monetary  gain  from  the  crumpled  bills  they  toss  into  the  case  from  time  to  time  when  generosity  strikes  them.  

but  here  and  now,   there’s  no  good  reason  to  unload  the  complicated  train  of  thought  on  the  stranger  who  hadn’t  asked,  and  so  his  hands  find  his  pockets  and  he  lifts  his  shoulders  in a  good  natured  shrug.

“   prefer th’outdoors if m’being  honest,  but  thanks,  all  the  same,  ”  only  half  a  lie  from  the  now  evidently  lousianian  as  he  speaks,  eventually  smiling  apologetically  at  the  stranger,  who  hasn’t  looked  away  once.   “  ‘fraid  the  show’s  about  windin’  down  for  th’night,  though.  ”

@startsfires, Silas Poe

╭┈┈⛧ Michael watches the violinist from afar. Sees some passersby sacrifice the one or other coin, others halt for a couple minutes to listen. Why did he stop by? Perhaps it's just his own interpretation but the tune strikes him as one rooted in sorrow, melancholy. Damaged souls attract him, he can't help. They tell the most intriguing stories. They have depth. It's when the music trails off and it seems like the performance ends that Michael finally approaches. Hands loosely clasped behind his black-clad frame, he halts at two arms' length distance. And simpers. ❛ Misplaced talent. ❜ He cants his head to one side, doesn't blink while pinning the musician under his unwavering stare. ❛ You should be standing on an actual stage. ❜

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diversity win! im bisexual and im going to kill you!

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there is a certain element of religious mysticism that accompanies the hunger in silas when the keening of needing to eat becomes fevered. though the roots of that devotion remain gnarled, unwatered and untended in the day to day by the otherwise atheist louisiana native, this sense of christian hued morality and rule abiding begins to seep into his bones when the hunger moves from peckishness that can be ignored to wild, aching fire in his belly.

that same fervor for justice and purity becomes equally as undeniable as the taboo need that is tied to it. he must choose wisely, has to pick the right one, and if pushed to madness by the hunger, the stringency of the burden of proof for this begins to slack. gluttons, adulterers, the lustful, and the greedy are held to the same standard as murderers when starvation begins to sting. the monstrous thing in silas cannot be indulged if it is not first pardoned and ordained in doing so, by none other than the very god he has no allegiance to. they have to have earned it, have to deserve it — at least in his mind.

it’s the only way he is able to make peace with what he cannot stop himself from doing, to tell himself the actions that leave him most assuredly hellbound ( if there is such a place ) are ridding the world of something profane and undesirable in the process.

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↪ 𝑾𝑯𝑨𝑻 𝑯𝑨𝑷𝑷𝑬𝑵𝑬𝑫 𝑻𝑶 𝑴𝑶𝑵𝑫𝑨𝒀 ? ( a collection of sentence starters from the 2017 film . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

i like it . did you write that ?

haven't i already told you that ?

tell me , [ name ] , what's your secret ?

you're looking fresh as a daisy .

are you okay ? you seem ...

i'm just tired . tomorrow's a big day .

that's very important , do you understand ?

why can't you just accept that this is your family ?

this isn't a family , it's a repressive regime .

you're driving us all crazy .

this is our life , it is what it is .

you're burning up . you running a fever ?

shut the fuck up .

all these years , i've been trying to figure out your angle .

you're not interested in anyone .

[ name ] . i'm onto you .

you can't just vanish .

is there a problem ?

there's obviously been a mistake , can you please tell me what i'm doing here ?

what a pleasure to meet you .

i know who you are .

i'm amazed you made it this far .

this is ... this is all a big mistake .

for your sake , i wish that were true .

is there another way ?

i can't believe this is happening .

we can't just sit here . we gotta do something !

i don't wanna die . i don't wanna die .

you're gonna be okay , i'm here .

i'm sorry . i'm so sorry .

you're supposed to be the believer .

i don't know what i believe . i don't know who i am .

they won't suffer .

sometimes , i think " to hell with it " . to hell with everybody .

do not underestimate [ name ] .

make this a priority .

we always work best as a team .

somebody wants us to disappear . the question is why .

this isn't a game , [ name ] . don't lose your head out there .

what's it gonna be ?

playing dumb doesn't suit you , [ name ] .

get the fuck out of there !

that's not an option .

i wanted to , uh ... try something new .

hold on , we've got a situation .

all your big talk , and you've ... never been with anyone ?

trust me , we're doing them a favor .

i'm scared , [ name ] . what are we gonna do ?

shhh , we're gonna get you out of here .

we failed miserably as a species on this planet .

anyone who's willing to sacrifice their own flesh and blood can never truly be trusted .

you sold us out . how could you ?

i thought you of all people would understand .

what do you know about family ?

i did everything i was told . i did everything right .

i didn't plan this . it got out of my control .

i was a total fuck - up .

if i could go back and change it all , i would .

promise me you won't let them take them .

stay with me , okay ?

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𝙼𝟶𝙽𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙾𝚄𝚂𝙽𝙴𝙴𝙳𝚂 & 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝚂𝙵𝙸𝚁𝙴𝚂

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𝘏𝘌𝘓𝘌𝘕𝘈 & 𝘚𝘐𝘓𝘈𝘚 𝘧𝘵. @m0nstrousneeds

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i   don’t   have   a   promo   ready   yet   but   uhhhhhhh   support   this   baby   and   my brandddd? 

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➥ 𝑷𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑺𝑬 𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑫 𝑰𝑵𝑭𝑶 𝑯𝑬𝑹𝑬. 𝘏𝘐𝘎𝘏𝘓𝘠 𝘈𝘍𝘍𝘐𝘓𝘐𝘈𝘛𝘌𝘋 𝘞𝘐𝘛𝘏 @m0nstrousneeds. 🫀