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I cannot stop wanting to d*e

I am trying to live

But I cannot stop thinking about how much of a failure I have become

I don't know how to make things better

I don't have a ton of motivation to

Everyone is getting engaged, moving to a new place, pursuing their dreams

And here I am

Trying to live

I am so tired of just existing

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I feel hopeless but I cant tell anyone

Two years of me silently pleading for someone to hear me

It's tired

I'm tired

I will stop treading water & let the depths take me away

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It's probably best if I leave

Things aren't getting better

I'm tired of being a burden

I don't know what I offer the world anymore

From flesh to ash

Everything changed May 2023 and I am tired of pretending it didn't

I am tired of pretending that people care about my dreams enough to not taint them

From flesh to ash

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Slowly removing myself from everything and everyone

They won't notice

Life will go on

I wish I had a Katie to notice me drowning

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Everything feels like too much and no one will miss me when I leave anyway

I dont want to be here anymore

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Dante e Beatrice in un'altra vita...

Domiziana

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Would do anything for a miracle for my girl ❤️‍🩹

Hey everyone, this year has been rough. On top of everything else I just learned my sweet girl Eira has cancer, so I have started a GoFundMe to help with her treatment. If you can donate it would mean a lot 💓

She is the sweetest girl and my baby, and her prognosis is good with surgery and chemo.

Link below:

https://gofund.me/b8e0ab8b

https://gofund.me/b8e0ab8b

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The grief of losing the one thing that took you years to build up the courage to finally pursue hits hard

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Maybe I did play a big part in the downfall of the work I had put into my music last year, but I really wish he wouldn't be so dismissive of the role he played in me losing a big part of myself. I feel so invisible and worthless.

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Sherilyn Fenn in Wild at Heart (1990) dir. David Lynch

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I am having the worst thoughts today

Feeling like the only way I will know peace is to end everything and be buried with my sweet Eira

No one will have to worry anymore

I have fucked my life up it is unrecognizable

I don't know where to start fixing

So instead, I will micro dose death

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Hey everyone, this year has been rough. On top of everything else I just learned my sweet girl Eira has cancer, so I have started a GoFundMe to help with her treatment. If you can donate it would mean a lot 💓

She is the sweetest girl and my baby, and her prognosis is good with surgery and chemo.

Link below:

https://gofund.me/b8e0ab8b

https://gofund.me/b8e0ab8b