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I’m reaching my limit

I’m tired

M tired pretending

M tired be happy

M tired be useless

I don’t reply

But I appreciated a lot your replies

In made me feel happy

But it made me feel worse

Knowing someone who don’t know you is comforting instead the ones who close with you

Whoever read this

Please spread love

Please be caring towards everyone

Ask properly before blaming them

Even if they look happy, ask their day

I want to be psychologist

I study pyschology

Because I want to help people like me

But in the end I don’t save myself

I had enough

I wish I can meet BTS and Army

For making me feel contented

Guess my time is not enough

“Imagine faking depression to get attention”

I still remember that message

This is my last effort to gain love

I love you guys

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Demian and BTS

I already read a whole book of Demian. I wrote the important parts and my notebook is full of the theories.

It is too much so I want to make into parts and arrange it so it is easier to make a whole post.

I prefer you guys to read this post before I go to my analysis.

I recommend you to watch Owl Service by Kookmin World first because some of connections does relate.

Please don’t share this or tag bts because I made this specifically for jikook shippers only.

Demian plot

1: Sinclair is a main character. He is shy with girls. Sinclair is a child of light but he always think he belongs to darkness.

Dark World

= There were maids, ferent promises, journeymen, ghost stories and scandalous rumour.

= There was a motley flow of uncanny, tempting, frightening, puzzling things, things like slaughterhouse and jail, drunks and bickering woman, cows giving birth, horse collapsing, stories of burglaries, killings, suicides.

= Policemen and vagrants ran around, drunks beat their wives, clusters of young girls poured out of the factories in the evening, old women could cast spell on you and make you sick, bandits lived in the woods, arsonists were caught by the constabulary.

2: Sinclair wants to be like his parents - full of lights but he needs to go to school for that and school is too long and might leading him into darkness.

3: Page 3

Two worlds coincided there, day and night issued from two poles.

4: Sinclair’s father and maid Lina are from dark world. However they seems belongs to light.

5: “Our maid Lina sat by the parlor door at our evening prayers and joined in the hymn” - Two worlds bordered each other.

6: Bridge

- The place Kromer ( from dark world ) and Sinclair first meet.

- Sinclair swore his story about stealing best apples was true ; By God and my salvation

7: Kromer blackmailed Sinclair to give him money. He will whistle to call Sinclair.

8: Sinclair was sick. His mother gave him chocolate but he did not eat it. Doctor told him to take cold bath in morning.

9: Max Demian

- New pupil in Sinclair’s class.

- Always beside Sinclair.

- Good at mind reading

- Never go to church

- Son of widow

- Has feminine looks making Sinclair likes him

- Sinclair likes sweet smell of soap from Demian’s neck.

10: In school, they learned a story about “Cain and Abel”. Cain has a mark on his face that frightens people.

Demian rewind story about Cain and Abel to Sinclair which he thought the story was only made up =

“Someone kills his brother during an argument, he gets scared afterward and climb down a peg. That is possible.”

“But he is specially rewarded for his cowardice with a medal distinction that protects him. No matter how many times you think about it, it is obviously odd.”

11: Before that, Demian noticed and told Sinclair there is sparrowhawk icon in front of his house door shone with yellow and blue background.

12: Sinclair’s nightmare that day

Kromer gave a knife to Sinclair. They were waiting someone in the woods. Kromer told Sinclair to stab his father.

13: Sinclair has two sisters = Kromer wanted to meet the older.

14: Demian saw the meeting between Sinclair and Kromer. He helped Sinclair got rid of Kromer but he did not tell Sinclair the methods.

15: Sinclair saw Demian draw sparrowhawk with memo pad at narrow street in front of his house.

16: Page 41

- Sinclair and Demian argued.

- “We’re talking too much. Smart talk has no value, none at all. It just leads you away from yourself. To depart from yourself is a sin. A person must be able to crawl away into himself completely, like a turtle.” - Demian.

- Demian became less talk

- Demian suddenly looked ‘die’ during their lesson but became ‘alive’ again after lesson finish.

- Demian moved out of town

- Sinclair felt lonely

- Sinclair changed in bad ways

17: Alfons Beck ; an oldest boy in boarding house

“As usual my father reads aloud from Gospel the Passage about the shepherds in the fields ; watching their flocks by night.”

18: Sinclair mad at Demian for not replying his two letters.

19: Eva ( has boyish face ) painting

Beata Beatrix by Dante Gabriel Rossetti, 1863

20: Sinclair’s painting

- “It wasn’t the face of that girl, sometime that hadn’t been my intention. It was something different, something unreal, but no less valuable. It looked more like young man’s face than a girl’s; the hair wasn’t light blonde like my pretty girl’s ( Beatrix ) but brown with a reddish tinge, the chin was strong and firm but the mouth like a red flower. It seemed to me like a sort of divine image or sacred mask, half-male, half-female, ageless, equally strong-willed and dreamy, rigid yet secretly alive.” - Page 53

- “Why had it taken me so long ? It was Demian’s face. Later I often compared the picture with Demian’s actual features, as I found them in my memory. They weren’t the same, but similar. Yet it was Demian.” - Page 54.

- “It was a face resembling the earlier one, resembling my friend Demian, but in some features resembling me, as well. One eye was noticebling higher than the other; the direction of their gaze passed over and beyond me, in the rigidity of concentration, filled with destiny.” - Page 77

21: Nietzsche ; A book Sinclair read =

“ A man’s fate and his character are two names for the same concept.”

22: Sparrowhawk letter

- Sinclair send sparrowhawk painting to Demian but nameless

- He received a reply ( a folded note in his book )

“The bird is fighting its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Whoever wishes to be born must destroy a world. The bird is flying to God. The God name is Abraxas ; Demon with magic or Devilish and Godlike.” - Herodotus book.

23: Sinclair hugged a figure combination his mother + Demian

24: Sinclair loves music ;

He met organist ( prodigal son ). The organist name is Pistorius. He knew about Abraxas.

25: Fire theory

- Sinclair and Pistorius were sitting with fireplace.

“With rigid eyes I stared at the fire as I sank into dreams and silence; a small, narrow flame shot up, in which I saw the bird with the yellow sparrowhawk’s head. In the dying glow of the fireplace gold-gleaming threads were combining into nets, letters of alphabet and images were appearing, reminiscences of faces, animals, plants, worms and snakes. When I awoke and looked at the other man, he was resting his chin on his fists and staring devotedly and fanatically at the ashes.” - Sinclair in page 67.

26: Pistorius played a piano song “Passacaglia by Buxtehude” when Sinclair felt downcast.

27: Pistorius and Demian advice to Sinclair are same.

“Look at fire, look at clouds. Listen to your soul. You don’t need to be someone else.”

“Our God name is Abraxas; he is God and Satan; both bright and dark world contained in him. He has no objections to our thoughts or any of objections.”

“Abraxas will hate you if you’re faultless and normal.”

“Then he’ll abandon you and look for a new pot to cook his ideas in.”

28: Abraxas’s wings haven’t grown yet.

29: Suburban garden - Demian’s house

30: Fake Happiness

31: A boy name as Kanuer admires Sinclair and kept bugging him with religion questions. Sinclair ignored him because he was sick of sympathy feeling. The feeling is not gone until he was in his little room and had arrange his handful of pictures around him, surrendering his own dreams with the most ardent warmth.

32: Jacob’s Fight with the Angel

“I will not let you go unless you bless me.” - page 77

33: Sinclair slept after he finished drawing Demian + him painting. When he woke up, it was no longer hanging on the wall, but wasn’t on the table either. Then he thought he could dimly recall having burnt it. Or had merely dreamt about burning it while holding it, and then eating the ashes ?

34: Sinclair met a depressed Knauer wanted to kill himself in midnight at an abandoned site; a place when he got caught meeting with Kromer by Demian. Sinclair managed to save Knauer.

35: Sinclair felt Cain’s mark on forehead when he had fight with Pistorius.

36: Sinclair’s letter to Demian but did not send it because it is silly and pointless -

“One guide has left me. I’m completely in the dark. I can’t take a step by myself. Help me !” - Page 85

37: Sinclair found Demian in a club with a Japanese man. He followed them until Japanese man left. Demian soon said he already knew it was him. Demian showed his house and invite him.

38: Demian and Sinclair have same Cain’s mark.

39: Lady Eve; Demian’s mother will recognise Sinclair.

40: The mark on Sinclair hidden when Sinclair changed in bad ways.

41: Pistorius and Demian advice -

“What will come is beyond imagining.”

I reached the maximum words. Gotta continue next one.

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searching for a jikook fic

jikook are kind of in fwb relationship bc jimin is scared of what his mom thinks? but apparently she is not against it but she wants a good boyfriend for jimin and jimin thinks his mom wont approve of jeon bc tattoos??? so he starts going out with taetae? it was happy end for jikook jikook tho…help???

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Jikook and their moles… 😄😄😄

Just some cute coincidence for them to have moles in the same spots on their body

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Both from Busan

Brothers: Jihyun and Junghyun

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jikook radio!au📻

part 27/30ish?

Jimin is an idol with his fame rising steadily in Korea. To promote his new album he is being interviewed by Radio Bangtan.

Jungkook has been working for Bangtan Radio for a little over two years now and he finally gets to interview his favorite singer.

yes i know…… i’m aliveeeeee, surprise!

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💕Jikook fics with a special place in my heart 💕

Hello, this is my rec list of jikook fics I love a lot, my all times favorites. I only read complete fics so this list is full of them :) It is mostly fluff (a little fluff and agnst here and there) Also, give the writers lots of love, they deserve it.

Falling for you again by Rose_gold71

Words: 30,985

Jungkook loses all memory of the last five years of his life.Jimin is scared he will never love him again.

Finish Line by vanillapeachesandcream

Words: 50,541 

Jeon Jungkook has spent his entire life in the entertainment industry, jumping from role to role until he finally reaches the top. Jungkook has also been plagued by dreams for as long as he can remember, dreams of a life different from this, dreams of a certain boy with pitch black hair and beautiful eyes. As the dreams escalate, Jungkook prepares to take on his next role, but the last thing he expects is to meet the boy of his dreams. When he begins to notice striking similarities between the movie and his dreams and becomes increasingly sure that actor Park Jimin is truly the same Jimin he dreams of, his life turns upside down in a race to correct the wrongs in their past lives and maybe achieve a happy ending along the way.

Baby boom by heyhosam 

Tags: Words: 26,288 

The doctor didn’t stop putting pressure on his tummy, turning her head to see Jimin’s wide eyes fixed on the screen at his side that showed a little curled up form that was supposed to be his baby. He swallowed harshly, the lump on his throat barely allowing him do much as breath.

Jimin was so fucked.

Present by pinkmonnie 

Words: 21,060 

“Sometimes I wish I could fall through this wall instead. Spend a few days with just you and the beach and no other distractions. I’d love some quiet in my life.”

One night, unable to take the solitude, Jimin writes a single word on the wall of the abandoned record store. He never expected to get a reply, least of all from a kind stranger all the way back in the real world.

One afternoon, as he’s working on the repairs of the record store, Jungkook finds someone had written something on one of the walls. And he writes back.

Night Sky Feathers by Priska 

Words: 7,358 

Jungkook is more than gorgeous with his black and blue and purple feathers, wings sparkling as if he captured the stars inside, and mesmerizing silver eyes glow like the bright full moon above their heads.

Night Sky dragon is what they call him and it fits him perfectly.

I’ve Got a Lover Back in Japan by teecysh 

Words: 2,572 

It’s no secret that Jungkook always aims for the best of the very best. The art of giving Jimin birthday presents is no exception.

(a bunch of silly, fluffy snippets of jungkook and jimin’s trip to japan.)

Pull me in so there’s no space between us by earthynamjoo 

 Words: 3,669 

“the—fuck! the doors won’t open!”

“stop pushing buttons! y-you might make it worse!”

jimin felt heat brush along his face as reality crashed down on him; he was stuck in this tiny little box with the insufferable junior he was forced to be around. he was in hell.

“how am i going to make it worse?” the taller boy merely commented as he tried pushing every button on the board. jimin felt a headache brewing behind his browbone.

“just, stop— i am not going to die with jeon jungkook of all people.”

The unlikely wingmen by mxinhyuk 

Words: 3,721 

The town he lives in houses a lot of wild rabbits, because he can’t go a single day without at least one rabbit following him to school, to work, or to his apartment.

He doesn’t know why its happening, he doesn’t why these rabbits like him so much, he just knows its inconvenient most of the time.

Or, Jungkook likes Jimin and Jimin thinks the bunny hybrid with bunnies following him everywhere is cute.

Feel a little more (and give a little less) by jellyfishes 

Words: 18,541 

Jeongguk knows he wears his heart on his sleeve, but he thinks that, given the circumstances, he does a good job of keeping a straight face. And it’s not a big deal. He can watch an interview of Park Jimin on a talkshow even though the last time he spoke to him was an awkward five message exchange on Jeongguk’s last birthday.

or

Jeongguk spends a lot of time thinking about Jimin in the eight years following BTS disbanding for someone who isn’t still in love.

Touch Starved by krispy_kream 

Words: 4,602 

How had Jin described it when he was trying to explain it to Jungkook? Touch starved. And what a relief to know it had a name, that it was a real thing and he wasn’t just insane. Now that he isn’t starving it only takes a gentle hand at the small of his back to soothe his anger, an arm thrown around his shoulders to chase away his anxiety.

It only takes a bright smile from Jungkook to send the butterflies in his stomach into a frenzy.

When You Touch Me (I Die Just a Little Inside) by TrappingLightningBugs 

Words: 10,667 

Jimin’s too proud to admit that he feels the most at home with Jeongguk’s hands on him.

Lost Stars by pjungkook 

Words: 25,406 

Park Jimin has another maknae in his life and Jeon Jungkook is completely losing it.

Wander by pinkmonnie 

*ALL OF THIS FICS ARE SUPERIOR, BUT THIS ONE TAKES THE CROWN*

Words: 19,721 

“Your eyes are like the stars.”

“Your smile is like the sunshine.”

Jungkook takes a trip to the country to forget everything else and try to find some peace of mind. He thought perhaps he’d begin to understand and see things better, maybe even enough to start taking photographs again. He didn’t think he’d end up falling in love with The Yellow House, or the forest and fields that surrounded it, or the beautiful, kind-hearted young man that managed the small hotel.

“And your hands are so small.”

Flower Talk by soranosuzu 

Words: 3,280

Jimin works in a flower shop and Jungkook is a delivery boy who drives a pastel pink van. 

Nanny by Nochucomethru 

Words: 13,097 

“I can’t believe I’m actually considering being a nanny. What did I do wrong in my life?” Jungkook sighed, leaning back in his chair.

“Probably the entire sleeve tattoo that you couldn’t afford,” Taehyung said.

You give me purpose by TsingaDark 

Words: 6,475

While on their Wings tour in Japan, Jimin starts receiving gifts from an anonymous person, but it doesn’t take long until he begins to figure out who the presents are from.

What the Fans Want by Shealezz 

*I waited so long for this one to be complete, believe me, the wait was worth it*  

Words: 78,894

Jungkook never imagined he would end up in a fake love with a tease like Park Jimin when all he wanted to do was dance. Unfortunately, this thing called “fanfiction” exists.

Start of Time by Fleurete 

Words: 33,673 

HP!AU. Perfect student Jeon Jungkook isn’t fond of new kid Park Jimin. He doesn’t care if its irrational, he just can’t stand him or his pretty face.

But as Jimin starts to worm his way into his life, everything Jungkook thought he knew about Jimin falls apart around him, and soon he is forced to discern for himself the truth of the mystery surrounding Park Jimin.

Blow Me Like Your French Horn by ohdizzy 

Words: 40,219

In which Jimin undergoes a transformation from Cinnamon Roll to Sinnamon Roll and Jeongguk is a little too competitive, a little too tsundere, and a little bit too moony-eyed for his own good.

(A tale of red converses, sandpit wrestling, shitty best friends a little too obsessed with playing Cupid, emotional constipation, existential crises, and that one body roll Jimin does that makes Jeongguk re-evaluate his life)

“i see that you adore playing your loud ass trumpet at random moments in the middle of the night, well fyi i happen to be a master at the French horn so fuck u i challenge you to a brass off” AU

Thank you for making it till the end, I hope you like them a lot ❤️❤️❤️

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Skool Luv Affair Part 13

Pairings: Jikook, Yoonseok, Namjin

Words: 1212

Genre: Hogwarts!au, enemies to lovers

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11  Part 12 Read it on AO3

“– And then he asks me for my thoughts on the goblin revolution of 1689!” Jin exclaimed, throwing his hands into the air in exasperation. “All my efforts for nothing! He’s completely oblivious, Yoongi, I swear, I could kiss him and he’d probably still think I was just trying to be friendly,”

“Sounds very trying,” Yoongi said dryly. He’d already had almost thirty minutes of this and he had lost patience with it after the first five. Unfortunately, despite his many pointed remarks, Jin was too caught up in his dramatic retelling of the many ways in which Namjoon had apparently wronged him to take any notice and probably wouldn’t care if he did.

On better days, he didn’t much mind the elder, who just about fell into the category of people he could tolerate for reasonable amounts of time. He had so far managed to avoid having to spend extended periods of time in his company as he felt that their friendship would be all the better for it, seeing as there had to be a limit to his tolerance.

“He’s supposed to be a Ravenclaw for heaven’s sake! I mean of course he’s intelligent, absurdly so – did you know he’s teaching the alchemy N.E.W.T to himself? – but he totally lacks sense. I despair of him, I really do,”

“You don’t say?”

“Yoongi-yah, I sense a certain hint of annoyance in your tone,” He narrowed his eyes at the younger.

“My sincerest apologies, hyung,” He replied sounding about as sincere as a fox claiming it knew nothing about the suspicious destruction of a chicken coop. Perhaps he could bring himself to care more if he didn’t have his own friend zone problems with a certain Hufflepuff. Though he was nowhere near as oblivious as Namjoon, Yoongi was nowhere near as obvious as Jin. It was a problem.

“Do you care nothing for my woes?” Jin cried, addressing this angst ridden exclamation to the whole classroom in an overly loud voice.

It could sometimes really hard to tell if he was being ironic or just… Jin.

“Will you keep it down?” Ken hissed, “Some of us are trying to work! Nobody cares about your fucking woes, Kim,”

“Shut the fuck up, Ken,” Yoongi snapped at him, suddenly feeling protective of his friend, “The potion’s just brewing at the moment, it’s not like you even have to concentrate – hard as that is for you, I know. And if you haven’t got to that part then I’d focus a little more on your work and a little less on shit that doesn’t concern you, cool?”

The Gryffindor flipped him the finger but turned back to fussing over their cauldron, clearly worried he had messed up.

The little interruption had put a significant dent in Jin’s previously buoyant mood and he had gone from being dramatic and whiny to withdrawn and sullen, poking his wand at the flames under their cauldron despondently. For Yoongi, this was even worse than his usual tiring exuberance.

To most, the elder came across as confident (bordering on arrogant sometimes), outgoing and charming (basically flirtatious). His “haters” as he flippantly called them, considered him a little too self-obsessed, but as he put it if everyone thinks he’s gorgeous, why can’t he? Indeed, in terms of his appearance that confidence was very much genuine.

“Maybe he’s just pretending, he probably totally knows how obvious I’m being and isn’t interested,” Jin sighed, “Maybe he actually finds me annoying and he’s just too nice to say so,”

“With all respect, when it comes to emotional intelligence Namjoon’s as thick as a plank,” Yoongi said bluntly, earning himself a disapproving frown, “Well known fact,”

“Yeah, but he could still find me annoying,” He muttered, leaning his pretty face in the crook of his elbow, taking up even more room on their shared desk. His bloody shoulders – that he secretly envied, tell anyone and he’ll kill you – were the biggest problem in their customary partnership in potions classes, they always got in the way. Admittedly he made up for it by being able to reach all the ingredients stored on higher shelves, but still.

“Look, will you stop doing that? It’s at the perfect temperature, don’t meddle with it,” He grabbed his wrist to stop him poking at the fire yet again, “You’re gonna burn yourself, idiot,”

The elder complied with another morose sigh. This was why he hated a melancholy Seokjin – he was just so shit at trying to be nice to him. He reached out to awkwardly pat him on the vast expanse of shoulder and struggled to think of some comforting words.

“Honestly, if he really didn’t like you he wouldn’t make time for you at the expense of his work, you know how he is. Better than I do in fact,”

“You think so?” He looked a little hopeful.

“Yeah,”

“I guess you’re right,” He sat up straight, face shifting back to a happy smile. “I’ll just have to try harder!”

“That’s the spirit,” Yoongi rolled his eyes at the elder’s excitement when he was sure he wasn’t looking.

Just mother him to death, we all had to give into that eventually.

He had only really started being friends with Jin in fourth year, before which their paths had rarely crossed apart from the odd lesson that they shared. Of course, he had been aware of him, it was kind of hard not to be when he was so loud and outgoing and seemingly friends with everyone. He had been struggling a lot at the time, suffering from the sudden increase in the workload since they were beginning to learn for O.W.L.s and from the added burden of shitty sleep. Oh the joys of insomnia.

Jin could pick up bad coping mechanisms like a blood hound on a trail and having found out that he was extremely sleep deprived and subsisting almost entirely on a fun mixture of caffeine and self-loathing, made it his mission to intervene.

To say that his rather forceful involvement in his life didn’t go down well with Yoongi would be a massive understatement. After exhausting his (exhaustive) collection of curses, insults and rejections to no effect, he took to running away whenever the Gryffindor appeared, which was a weirdly frequent occasion. Eventually his legs went on strike and he gave in and endured the hard core mothering that ensued.

As it turned out, being constantly supplied with extra (well-cooked) food and assistance did wonders for his health and mental well-being. It was also Jin who fixed his sleep problem by dragging him – literally – to the infirmary and holding him captive there until he acquiesced to a potion to correct his fucked up sleep cycle.

So, yeah, he would say he was secretly quite fond of Jin, even if he did tend to avoid spending long periods of time with him. He probably did that to everyone.

“Ok, I’ve got it! I’m going to pretend I’m failing Transfiguration so that he’ll tutor me in it,” Jin announced with a satisfied grin.

“That’s your best subject,” Yoongi pointed out.

“I know, that way I can say his amazing tutoring made me good at it! Isn’t that a wonderful plan?”

He took it back, Jin was a fucking idiot.

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I’ll be good (Only for you) (17937 words) by tinypastelmarshmallow Chapters: 6/? Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Jeon Jungkook/Park Jimin, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster/Kim Seokjin | Jin Characters: Jeon Jungkook, Park Jimin (BTS), Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Kim Taehyung | V, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster, Min Yoongi | Suga Additional Tags: Bad Boy Jeon Jungkook, Cute Park Jimin, Jeon Jungkook Is Whipped, Park Jimin is sassy, Park Jimin Is a Sweetheart, Jeon Jungkook Is Bad at Feelings, Romance, Fluff, Cute, Smut, Drama, Happy Ending, Because i have a soft heart, Kim Taehyung | V & Park Jimin Are Best Friends, Kim Namjoon and Kim Seokjin are a couple, Cliche, Jungkook has a soft side, For Jimin at least, we all know that Summary:

Jungkook was someone who no-one wanted to anger, but had tons of girls circling around him, even getting the attention of other guys. He could get anyone he wanted, until one day a small cutie fell down the stairs, bumped into him knocking them both to the floor. What made Jungkook’s blood boil was the fact that this small male wouldn’t circle around him immediately like all the other’s..

Jungkook was the bad boy that everyone knew at the University. Park Jimin was the sweet guy with a bright smile that mostly stayed with his close friends but someone whom everyone liked.

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Betrayal - Two faced friend

Out of many feelings, betrayal, feel cheated is the worst feeling ever. Worse than your heartbroken love story.

Why ?

Can you imagine you put all the trust for them to hold it securely yet they let it go as if it is the small matter ?

Can you imagine you told your dark past so you can seek an advice to turn as a new leaf but that friend took advantage of that - they spread your dirt everywhere and they also add myth in your story ?

Can you imagine the one who is always put a kindest face until you don’t believe they can be a meanest person when they are mad at you, proof your expectations are only hallucinations ?

Can you also imagine they was the ones who start the fight in friendship but they texted your friend saying it is your fault ?

They also forget your promise for boys. Where is ’ friends first before fuckboys ’ ?

I had three experiences. Sound like a little number. But all of them traumatized you ‘till the point you don’t want to befriend with everyone anymore. 'Till the point you cannot trust anybody. And until you want to kill yourself because the words “She is not changed at all. She remained the same, an evil like before” haunted you.

But I remain alive because there are three people who are always be with me. Who are always following me to make sure I make a right path. Who showed me the texts about my two-faced 'friend’ badmouthing me because they believe the real me.

They are my true friends.

I admit I’m a biggest jerk in my friendship. I always be the one who started the fights. But they remain as my friends. I don’t know if they are really want to be my friend inside of their heart, but for now it is already enough. It is enough they save me from betrayal.

It is hurt. Very hurt. I don’t how the feel we get stab by knife, but if this is how stab our back with betrayal feels like - I don’t want to be close with knife.

I’m a coward person. I never apologized first even if I was the cause of fight. Yet my friends forgave me and giving me advice softly. Changing my habit is hard, but I will try my best for sake of my friendship.

In the end, I realised I don’t do it well.

That betrayal, I hate their words, but I must admit I’m still the same. I was hardly to apologize first.

Sometimes, knowing what the people badmouthing us has their own benefits. We can reflect our mistakes.

Thanks for badmouthing me. Thanks for texting my friend. Thanks for be my friend, even if you act like you’re happy be with me. Thanks for every money you spent on an useless person like me.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry for be a coward. I’m sorry I don’t try my best. I’m sorry to be a same person in my past life. I’m sorry. I’m very sorry. I’m sorry I can only do in text. I’m sorry I cannot look at you the same way as before.

Because even if you betrayed me, I still think you as my friend.

All of this is not happening if I don’t be a coward. If I was the one who started the first move, all of this is not happening.

We are the same kind - lie ourselves to make the people around you happy.

I want to be your friend. But I know my own place. I’m very embarrassed to be with you. Not because of you. But because I know I always owe you everything and yet I take it without thinking how you really think of me.

If you’re reading this, I’m doing this to change you too. We are friends, in my own sight. Friends always help each other to change. I hope you realised your own mistake. Even if I said betrayal can reflect yourself, but badmouthing is remain as bad thing. I don’t want the other people hate you. I forgave you with all of my heart content.

I understand if you don’t want to be my friend anymore. I have three more people I can spend time happily. I don’t know until when this happiness will end like how our happiness end in two years, but for now I don’t want to think the future. Present is way more important and I want to focus on it only.

Last but not least, when I said I love to spend time with you, I’m not lying. I enjoyed our time together. I will remember it forever. Thanks for be a part in my life.

I love you even now.

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JK: What do you want for birthday ?

V: A dragon

JK: I’m not kidding. Be realistic.

V:

V: I want Jimin

JK: What colour do you want for your dragon ?

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Jikook Fic Rec!

Here you go @jimincentric and the other anon who asked for the long, mpreg Jikook fanfics! I tried my best to find my favourites, so I apologise if you’ve already read them? (Almost all of mine are bottom Jimin, too, so I’m sorry if you wanted something more diverse.)

Pregnant Jimin. 

(I had a hard time finding ones that were long, so please bare with me.)

Hold Tight; Hold Me Down by leegaae. (This is one of my favourites! It’s very angsty and emotional, so, be aware.)

War of Hormones by staycute1234. (Very cute and my very first mpreg fic. So, thanks for popping my mpreg cherry, haha.)

Milk and Honey by fatal (cumrich). (First off, I love this author so, so much. And second off, this fic is absolutely filthy.)

I like how desperate you seem (in the way you look at me) also by fatal (cumrich). (This one has no mpreg in it yet, but it is so well written that I think you’ll like it all the same!)

Jikook.

(This is going to be so, so long. I literally have like, 400 bookmarks that I went through and found my favourites from. And also, I’m sorry if I don’t mention you! I didn’t want this to take me all night.)

Before I start listing off fics, make sure you check out these authors for their Jikook fics. (Also it’s more convenient so that I don’t have to keep listing off multiple fics from the same author.)

Levetrate (Ahhhh. I can’t.)

fatal (cumrich) (Cries.)

empressium (Cries times 2.)

gangbang (Cries times 3.)

cocksluts (Sobs.)

wordcouture (Sobs times 2.)

goog (I love them.)

subjimin (Yes.) 

snarcsics (Please?)

Polkari Seuta (VeritasEtVita) (A legend.)

Staycute1234 (Jikook Queen.)      

And, also, check out these Tumblrs that also have really good Jikook headcanons and even drabbles! 

@placeyoursinshere

@jiminthefairyprince

@staycute1234

(Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry! I have such a bad memory. I can’t think of anymore recently. If I didn’t mention you, please remind me? I forget things so easily.)

Smut.

Payback Bitch ;)) by dreamciclejimin. (An older fic, but a good one, nonetheless.)

You’re My Achilles Heel by miskeen. (My innocence was officially gone with this one.)

Phase One by TheHalesNyx. (I love hybrid Kookie so much.)

Alphas Office by Vanill4candy(?) (Typically I don’t read anything on AFF, but, I really love this story so.)

Glass Diamonds by GinForInk. (We know I don’t do angst. But this story was still really good.)

two sides; same story by namjoone. (I actually haven’t finished this yet, but from what I have read so far, it’s so good.)

listen to my heartbeat (it’s calling for you at its own will) by poplolli. (Haven’t read this in sooo long. One of my first Jikook fics.)

8 ball by suga_trash_queen. (This one is really cute, too.)

For_Yoongi.avi by strangedesires. (Technically it’s Yoonminkook.)

a boy like that by jikookah. (Honestly. This probably is one of my absolute favorites.)

Follow Me by novilunar. (Jinminkook.)

Baby Relax by write_the_impossible. (OT7 with Jimin as the centric. So. Still Jikook, haha. I’m sorry.)

Who Let His Boyfriend Be so Fucking Hot? by Halottie. (Ahahaha. Filth. And one of my only Top Jimin exceptions.)

Swamp Magic by GinForInk. (READ THIS!)

Stupid Batteries by Zelupsi. (Ahh, the A/B/O.)

Starstruck by SugaTheTurtle. (Okay, but I recently re-read this one and it is gold.)

White by KookieChim. (Accurate, to be honest.)

Beautiful by nerdybrofian_to_the_rescue. (Fuck. This one.)

Painfully good by JikookTrash. (My innocence is pretty much gone by now, haha.)

Play Fair by lunamaia. (Okay, but tease!)

Beaded by fancypinkdick.  (I can’t anymore.)

Play house (put my favorite record on) by rapsucka (sonyeondanbiased). (This is Minjoonkook.)

(Alrighty! That wraps up the smut! Not too much, but enough, right? I hope you all enjoy and please, I apologise once again if I didn’t mention anyone.)

Fluff. 

(Not as much as should be. I’m sure I have more somewhere, haha.)

Scribbles and Drawings by evil_pandabear. (Cute.)

E[Love] by yuuami. (Cute times 2.)

Flower Talk by soranosuzu. (Soooo utterly adorable.)

(Okay. That’s it. And wow, can I just say that this took me so long! I really, really hope you all enjoyed this and found some new readings to keep you busy! I love you all so, so much! And also, thank you for being such amazing friends and actually making it this far?)

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any jikook social media au that are completed and you recommend?

I know that these people have some finished au’s and I love them! 💕  💕

1. @pjimints - Masterlist (This girl is just too talented for this world *I can’t relate*🤷🤷 also her new au is everything you’ll need in life!💕)

2. @jeonslilmonster - Masterlist (Amazing, it’s just amazing!!🙊😍)

3. @kook-jimin - Masterlist (Her au’s are 😍 😍😱 😱 and her ongoing mc au is SO worth following💯 💯)

4.  @mikaela-jl - Allure of Dance Masterpost (THIS. IS. ART. AT. IT’S. FINEST)

BONUS - ONGOING AU : 

 @cloudymochi - Masterlist 💯 💯😍 😍

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The owl service

wow….

[storange262]

Jungkook: Hyungs, listen. I have a great joke.

BTS: What ?

Jungkook: Jibooty

Bts:

Bts: I don’t get it

Jungkook: Exactly so go away from my baby hun.

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✅✅VOTE 👑BTS👑 WE CANNOT❌LET THEM DOWN👇🏻 SO GRAB YA PHONE📱OR COMPUTER 💻 AND

🔍💜💜💜💜💜VOTE💜💜💜💜💜🔎

[storange262]

Jungkook: Hyung, do you know why flower is very beautiful ?

Jimin: Jungkook–

Jungkook: Because you are their first generation.

Jimin:

Jimin: So sweet but that pancake is burning.