stormycreature

[stormycreature]

Dreamed of you again last night. You wanted me to stay. When I asked, you said yes with those kind all-seeing dark eyes cast down, your head on my shoulder. I pulled you closer and we rested.

[stormycreature]

the flash of your eyes

and the glances around corners

easy smiles

to communicate so much

with just a look

[stormycreature]

Listened to the freeway come alive again

The 6am train a few blocks away

Little, wild green cockatoos screeching together high in the sky, and the always first, ever alerting, bluejayy

Haven’t slept because I know that’s when the real scary part will start and now my body aches so badly I can’t sit still.

[stormycreature]

I wish I had a friend

[stormycreature]

too hard on myself

heart on my sleeve

go cry about it why don’t you

I will

fix your face

don’t be sorry

be better

[stormycreature]

It’s already late somehow again

Keep seeing light waving in the trees

Like the sun peaking through water

Other times it’s an animated shadow

As if cast with a human hand and a desk lamp

It’s never really there though

Just my imagination

[stormycreature]

there’s a spectacular craving for danger and broken things that enchant me relentlessly

you staring at me while I’m in the rain bussing a table across the patio was wild. the smirk.

then I’m on your bike and you’re leading me by hand through the crowd and everyone is watching. we talked over a beer outside, I heard everything and nothing you said.

we were tropical birds preening for the other’s attention and I was absolutely living for it. then I’m flying through euphoria again and you’re helping me out of your helmet.

it surprised me when your shoulders sagged after I said I should be scared of you. danger will always be near you but I’ve never been afraid.

moments before dawn in misting rain your nearness was all I wanted but there was a palpable, broken vulnerability between us and I held that close instead.

[stormycreature]

I cease to exist anywhere else when I’m with you

5.10.24

[stormycreature]

A fickle heart is the only constant in this world.

HOWL’S MOVING CASTLE / ハウルの動く城 2004 | dir. Hayao Miyazaki / 宮崎 駿

[stormycreature]

Staying up for days is like digging for treasure and then hitting the chest

[stormycreature]

I take the whole ocean of my being away from seeing eyes

[stormycreature]

I was in trouble tonight

No one near enough to help would call me back

They still haven’t

It’s 6:02 am now

[stormycreature]

Listened to the freeway come alive again

The 6am train a few blocks away

Little, wild green cockatoos screeching together high in the sky, and the always first, ever alerting, bluejayy

Haven’t slept because I know that’s when the real scary part will start and now my body aches so badly I can’t sit still.

[stormycreature]

Another sunrise crept up on me

She’s kinda pink, but also the color of tired bruises

Did you finally get some sleep?

Your eyes look dark…

How are you

It gets better

I promise

Death is inevitable

Are you okay

I’m sorry has felt the worst

[stormycreature]

The blue jays are already mad at someone.

It’s 7:15am - Sunday, August 27 - 80°

The first day of the rest of my life that Betty Sue Kinch won’t be a part of it.

Rest in power Queen.

[stormycreature]

If you really wanna put me through my paces

I’ll take the bait almost every time but I exist only between dusk and dawn- blue and gray

See you around

[stormycreature]

I’ve always understood the lessons I’ve learned. Whether I accept is different because I will not let anyone or any experience diminish my own.

Gotta stay my course.

I’m the only one standing in my truth after all.

Deal with it.