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I love being alone <- girl who has known nothing but loneliness her entire life and so has no choice but to take comfort in it

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jenny holzer

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*through gritted teeth* you are not a child taking a test with the purpose of getting the highest score, you are an adult trying new things and finding ways to enjoy your life, make mistakes, be a beginner, be mediocre, be where you need to be, be unlikeable, just. be.

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there is no old self to get back to there’s a new u to create n nurture

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“There are so many things can make you happy. Don’t focus too much on things that make you sad.”

— Unknown

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“It’s not just other people we need to forgive. We also need to forgive ourselves. For all the things we didn’t do. All the things we should have done.”

— Mitch Albom

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The Tree of Life

The trees covered in mushy green moss and vibrant leaves. The trees look old, worn. But not worn out. They are growing. Showing signs of life. Even while dropping leaves, letting go. Still moving on, onto the next season. The leaves are hitting rock bottom, they may crumble and harden. Yet new leaves are reborn. The tree of life, this is my life. I am moving on, I am growing, I am changing, I am reborn. I can let go of my defects. One by one, just like the leaves. I will grow my roots, I will stick to these roots and rise up from the earth. I will stand my ground.

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Addiction

Hello addiction, is that you? its been 1 year since I've picked up your call. Why haven't I answered your craving calls? Well addiction, I thought you cared about me, I thought I could depend on you, I was wrong. You tricked me. I lost myself in you. Whispering sweet lies into my ears. "You need me". With you in my life I am nothing. Everytime I answer your call, you take something important from me. I lose brain cells and my heart continues to be broken. You make me hurt my family, you steal my life away. I'm taking back what is rightfully mine. We have to stop meeting this way, its toxic. I cant do this with you anymore. Do you see what you cause? I've lost friends to you, ill never get them back. R.I.P. I will spend the rest of my life leaving you behind. I will spend the rest of my life a better person. "I cant hang up because I'm hung up on you" BEEP BEEP your call cannot be completed please hang up and never pick up drugs again.

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every time i think to myself: 'this sober shit is boring' i remember there were times, when i was willing to give up anything except my next dose, for a chance to be where i am today.

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“The promise of hope is enough to feel free. In times when we’re faced with uncertainty it can sometimes feel as if there is no way out, as if you’ll forever get stuck in this cycle of darkness. But humans are made to adapt, so we will adapt to this too. It’s hard, yes, but remember the good times and your loved ones. Keep the hope. Take this time to get closer to your soul, what does it say? It is as if the earth has been put on hold, to heal, to overcome what we broke. So maybe this is what we can get out of it too. Healing, growing, becoming. In the end there is a purpose for everything. And remember; this too shall pass.”

— Annedi Bergsma 

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“Start. Start here. Start with fear. The trembling hands and the eyes stinging with tears. Stand up. Pull yourself out of bed. One step at a time. Breathe. Look around you. Begin on your path. You got a plan. Keep it in mind. Aim for your goal. Start with fear. Overcome it. See the horizon turn blue and the sun smiling back at you. Start and don’t stop.”

— Annedi Bergsma 

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“Do you ever have any emotions you can’t explain?”

— Film: Shelter (via thegoodvybe)

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