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Fated Passion Pt. 1

Ok as my last post foretold this is the new improved Fated Passion pt one. This is a non idol au. The reader grew up in Australia, she has a job at an insurance company. She hates her boss and often enjoys going to the beach it is her safe place. This is kinda like a soulmate thing but not really idk what to call it hope you all enjoy!

The setting sun shone a warm light across the water as it disappeared. She sat on a rock watching the waves crash against the shore. Each one battling to make it to shore like children rushing to be the first one in line. Such beauty in something so vast she thought to herself. She then cursed the fact that she couldn't jump in and explore all the mystery it had to offer. So caught in her thoughts she didn't notice him walking up. No she didn't notice until he pulled himself up onto the rock to sit with her. That’s when she turned her head to smile at him, though she did not know him there was a certain familiarity. 

In this place everyone felt familiar, maybe she’s seen him out in town, a face that was photographed in passing kept filed away by her subconscious. In most ordinary situations like this  she would've been uncomfortable. Not here she knew she was safe in her dreams, a place where she made the rules. She observed him sitting there wearing a white cardigan and blue jeans. She noticed he was absent mindedly playing with his rings he had placed on his hand. Three rings she noted as she studied them. Looking at his face she noticed the wonder in his eyes as he stared over the vastness that stretched before them. His eyes were dark but they felt warm. His dark hair lightly blew in the wind; she would have said it was black if the fleeing rays of the sun didn't illuminate the deep brown tones. She noticed he had freckles if she was closer she could count them is what she thought to herself. 

He slowly looked over at her studying her features. How the light made her eyes sparkle and how the wind blew her hair around softly. A soft smile broke across his face causing her to raise her eyebrow in response. “You’re very beautiful.” He said softly before he looked back over to the ocean. She sat there with a light blush spreading across her cheeks raising her hand and touching her heated face. Never had she felt this way in a dream before, she could feel her heart beating fast, dreams don't feel like this she thought.

“Who are you?”

“Who are you?” 

Now he seemed confused looking at her with his eyebrows drawn together. They had asked each other the same thing: why would her dream ask her that. This is her world, her safe place no one questions who she is. If there are people in her dream her subconscious would connect together how they know her. This time this dream he was asking who she was. 

“I'm Felix.” He said this confusing her more, she has no clue he is. He looked at her waiting for her to say her name.

“Im Y/N.” He seemed to try to place where he knows her. The last bit of light now gone she could feel herself being pulled somewhere. Back down to reality she was waking up a faint alarm could be heard in the distance. To her shock Felix reacted to the sound as well, another thing that was unusual. She went to say something to him but as she blinked everything changed. She reopened her eyes and she was staring at her ceiling. Letting out a sigh she sat up trying to make sense of her dream. Not finding an answer she looked outside her window next to her bed. It was a beautiful day in australia she though maybe ill go to my favorite place later. 

Her safe place both existed in the dream world and the real one. She often visited the ocean. Something about being near water always helped her distress. Smiling to herself she got ready for work. She worked at an insurance company as a receptionist, not a very hard job if her boss wasn't an immature prick. Walking in she clocked in and walked to her desk. She smiled and waved at her coworkers that had desks nearby. Sitting in her chair she began going through the emails when she heard the office door behind her open. A cold sweat formed when she felt her boss place a hand on her shoulder. “Goodmorning Y/N!” He said as he leaned his head down next hers. Like usual she was polite to him and continued to do her job. 

There was only 30 minutes left for the day when her boss asked her to stay because he needed to talk to her. Her gut told her to just leave and go home. He would threaten to fire her if she tried to leave he's done it before she thought. As the last person left she walked to his office. He smiled and offered her a seat. Sitting before him she wait for him to say what he had to. 

“Y/N, I was wondering, are you single?”

“Why does that matter?” 

“I would like to take you on a date.”

She looked at him shocked and her stomach dropped as he stood up from behind the desk. He approached her walking behind her placing both his hands on her shoulders. She froze as her heart started pounding, not how it felt in her dream the night before. No this was feeling born from her fight or flight instinct this was what fear felt like. He leaned down and whispered in her ear. “I know you like me, why else would you be so shy huh?” His breath tickled her ear in a way that made her skin crawl; she felt her fear rising more and more.

Glancing around the room she tried to find an escape, she cursed herself for not following her gut feeling from the beginning. Just as he went to plant a wet kiss on the side of her face there was a knock at the door. 

“Excuse me sir uh.” She stood immediately taking the second chance the universe gave her to escape. As she passed her coworker she said a soft thank you to him. He looked from her to their boss he began questioning him as she left the building. It was 5:30 and the sun would be setting in two hours, the perfect time to go to her spot. This would help her forget about the fact she needs to find a new job. It took 30 minutes for her to make it to the beach. She sat on her rock watching the waves fight each other for the right to crash away into oblivion. 

She wished that she could disappear amongst them and sink down to the bottom. She wishes she could just be a lost item that got swept away in the current never to be seen again. She sighed out pulling her knees to her chest feeling the cool air here was different, not like the dream world. It was always colder in the real world she thought to herself. 

“Are you okay?” A familiar voice startled her from her thoughts and she snapped her head in the direction it came from. She looked at the man before her in shock, she shook her head slightly thinking the person standing there would change form. “Sorry if I bothered you, I was walking past and I saw you sitting here alone. For some reason it seemed familiar, wait that sounds weird. The point is you look like your head is heavy.”

“Are you saying I have a big head?” He chuckled at her as he took a seat on the rock next to her. 

“Not at all, you have a rather small head.” She smiled slightly and looked back over the ocean. “Who are you?” He asked this simple question that you felt like he asked before. 

“Who are you?” She asked him back just like he had done in the dream. This time he was shocked looking over her features trying to figure out why it all felt familiar. 

  This time she answered first, “I'm Y/N.” 

“I'm Felix.” She knew that already she remembered, that name had been stuck in her head the entire day. He was watching the waves when she looked over at him. He was wearing the same white cardigan, same blue jeans, three rings, his har fluttering in the wind was even the same. She looked over his face, his eyes the same, and again she was trying to count his freckles. As she was studying him he looked over as a smile broke out across his face. He looked across her features studying them noting the way she looked over him. “Your very beautiful.” He said causing her to break out in a blush everything was the same. 

“Do you come here often?” she asked.

“Yes, I grew up not far from here. It's my happy place.” 

“Me too.”

He smiled at her as he laid  back on the rock watching the last bit of light disappeared from the sky. She looked over the water as it turned dark, no longer having the sunlight to make it sparkle. “The stars are always the best out here.'' He said this bring her attention to the sky. She looked up at the sky with wonder at how different kind of vastness she did not really think of much. Space was bigger than the ocean and far more unpredictable. Looking over to him she could see the stars sparkle in his eyes. The way he looked at them was like how she looked at the sea.

It's strange how peaceful it felt laying there looking at the stars with someone you just met. It felt right she thought to herself like this was something they've always done. He shifted onto his side looking at her. “Why do you like the ocean?” He has a question she never really thought about the answer to. 

“I don't really know, I always want to disappear into it though.” 

What do you mean by that Y/N?” He asked softly hoping she would let him into the depths of her mind. She shrugged softly looking at him even though her answer lacked the words Felix could see the storm in her eyes begging to be free. 

“Why do you like space?” she asked him, causing him to chuckle. He followed her lead and shrugged. 

“I don't really know something about the vastness I suppose.” She looked over his soft features, committing it to memory hoping to have this conversation in the dream realm. His phone started ringing, startling him. Quickly he fished the item out of his pocket and answered it quickly.

“Yeah Mate?” He looked at her apologetically, “No, no I understand ill be there as quick as possible.” Sighing he put the phone back in his pocket. “I'm sorry Y/N, I have an emergency I need to deal with. I hope you have a great night.” He smiled and quickly rushed off before she could say anything. 

“Wait!” she called out but he was already too far away, “You could've given me your number.” she said softly into the wind. 

[straykidzstay]

Hey everyone! I'm really sorry I went away for a bit. I had to move and Halloween is a very busy time for me. I will be releasing some stuff real soon. I do have some bad news... I remade the first part to fated passion because i REALLY did not like it especially now that I've rewrote it. I promise its much better so im truly sorry to those who liked the first part and i hope you all understand. Ive been working on my writing and hope you guys enjoy.

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Hey everyone, I'm sorry I haven't been posting a lot I just started a new job. So I've been getting used to my schedule I promise I will try to have something out tonight. Thank you for all the support!

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Live For Me

WARNING TALKS ABOUT SUICIDE AND DEATH

Im back at it again with another angsty sad MinhoXFReader. Why do i keep putting him in traumatic situations? I have no clue tbh. Hope you guys like it thank you for all the support. Again im sorry if this hurts anyone at least it ends happy...

You stood on the roof of your apartment building allowing the wind of the oncoming storm to whip you in the face. The weight you felt on your shoulders was far too heavy for you to handle. A few days earlier you had gotten the news that your sister’s life was taken. To say the two of you were close would be an understatement. She was your favorite person in the world. Without her to be the light in your darkness you were lost. Not being close to very many people all you really had was your sister and your best friend Minho. 

You've always had a small voice in your head, it has been there longer than you could remember. A voice that would pick you apart continuously telling you where worthless. A voice you could ignore because your sister’s voice was louder. If you left her it would affect her, but now she was gone and it affected you. When you were younger you and your therapist had devised a coping mechanism. When you want to die think ‘would i want the people who are important to me to see me like that’. You didn't think about yourself no you always thought of others. Now that the one person that kept you grounded to this earth is gone. 

Who would care if I was gone? The only other person would be Minho, but he has his own life. He has other people he can depend on. You and your sister had each other, that was it. Since you told him the news Minho has been there for you but being who you are didnt want to burden him with this. He was a busy person and he wouldn't even have time to miss you. Earlier you canceled plans with him, not something you usually did. He was going to come over to cook and spend the night. He was offering you a distraction but sadly nothing was going to make you forget the pain you felt.

Walking to the ledge of the building you continued to let you mind race. She would tell me to go inside, you thought. ‘She’s not here anymore’ the voice in your head pushed. “She’s not here anymore.” you repeated this out loud in a small voice that got lost in the wind. I said goodbye to Minho last night when he hugged me. I lingered in his arms longer than normal. ‘Because you already knew’ Shaking your head at that statement from deep within your mind. “I knew it was going to be the last time I hugged him.” You said this letting your mind wander.

You thought about all the times you spent with your best friend. All the times you fell asleep on him, cooked, cuddled, and laughed together. He would probably be devastated to never see you again. He was a busy person you thought again he would get past it. Right? ‘He wouldn't notice.’ The voice whispered to you, making your stomach drop. “He wouldn't notice.” you repeated out loud. Taking a deep breath you stood up on the ledge. ‘Do it. Jump!’ the voice repeated itself over and over again louder each time. Just as you went to raise your foot to jump from the ledge a voice stopped you.

“Y/N!” It was Minho, “Please! What are you doing?!” He frantically spoke to you as he approached the ledge.

Turning to face him you could see the fear written across his features. “Please, go home.” You said this as he continued to get closer, shaking his head. 

“I'm not leaving.”

“I can't do this without her!” You let your grief flow through you. “Just let me do this!” he tried to grab your arm causing you to move away stumbling slightly. Wobbling you regained your balance.

“Please get down, I don't want you to fall.” He said this in a broken voice.

“You'll be fine.” You said this looking back down to the ground at the bottom of the building. “You don't need me Minho. Please leave.” Your words dripped with poison. You heard Minho’s footsteps come up beside you before looking over to see him climbing to join you on the ledge. You were shocked looking at him with wide eyes. “What are you doing!? Get down!” You yelled at him frantically.

“If you're gonna jump I might as well jump too!” You could tell he was terrified his words sounded broken and desperate. 

Shaking your head at his statement filled you with rage. “You have too much to live for! You'd be stupid to throw your life away for me! Your fans, Music, Your cats, your family, and friends!” You yelled at him pointing out all the reasons he had to live like you had found him the way he found you.

“All of that is pointless without you dont you understand that Y/N!” He ran a hand through his hair glancing at the ground then back at you. “You'd be stupid to think I wouldn't choose you over any of that! If I don't have you, nothing matters!” 

Shaking your head at him you allowed tears to fill your eyes. “I don't understand. Why do I matter so much?” He looked at you like you were supposed to know.

“I'm in love with you Y/N.” You froze like you were a deer caught in headlights. He’s in love with you. “I thought i made it clear enough but hell i've never been good at this!”  He said this, stepping carefully as he inched his way closer to you. Still staring at him you couldn't move, nor could you find words to describe the mess that was your feelings. “I've never been good at telling you how beautiful I think you are. I never show you affection like I should always saying I'm protecting you by not giving in.” He continued to inch closer as he poured his heart out. “There's been so many times where I wanted to break, ruin our friendship for the sake of my emotions. I couldn't do that. I felt like I would be more important to you if we stayed the way we were.”

He was now standing directly in front of you. You could see the stains his tears left on his face. His eyes looked empty and strained, not their usual warm tone that made your heart flutter. He was shaking as he reached out and grabbed your hand. “If this is it then i need to tell you i've been in love with you since the day you met the cats. I fell in love with you more everyday since then even in this moment. This ridiculously crazy moment I can't help but feel my heart beating faster and slower all at the same time. I feel pings in my stomach of butterflies i dont get from anyone else.” He said this, squeezing your hand as he stepped closer to you. “I wake up everyday because of you. I can make it through the stress of my life as long as you tell me it'll be okay. Please don't leave me, not like this. As selfish as it sounds, please live for me.” 

You could see tears fall slowly down Minho’s face as you reached your hand out to cup his face. Wiping a tear away with your thumb you stepped closer looking into his eyes. So close to him you could feel his warm breath on your face. You studied his features, how eyebrows were knotted together. How his eyes searched all over your face but rested on your lips. Drawing your attention to his, you've always thought about what it would be like to kiss Minho. He leaned his head slowly to meet yours, kissing you softly. 

Closing your eyes you kissed his back as the rain started coming down. The sudden cold sprinkled causing you to break away from the kiss. You looked up laughing something you haven't done in days. He smiled and began laughing with you looking up at the sky. Looking back to him you squeezed his hand. “Can we go inside?” He smiled at you carefully stepping off the ledge.

“I thought you'd never ask.” He offered his hand to you, helping you down. Before walking inside he pulled you into a tight hug. “I love you Y/N.”

Nuzzling your head into his neck as you wrapped your arms tightly around him. “I love you too.” 

[straykidzstay]

Fated Passion Pt. 1

This is a new series im working on. I have no clue how long it will be. It is FelixXFReader you are a very popular streamer in America. Felix is well he is Felix. Reader is clueless about K-Pop (seems to be my normal go to im sorry everyone!).

Felix rushed into his room to get on discord and hop on his PC. This had been his routine for the last year all his free time had been spent on online talking and playing games with you. At this point Chan was convinced you two had an online relationship. Sadly you didn't Felix knew he liked you alot but he knew you didn't like relationships. Plus you ran your own twitch channel. He didn't think you would want to deal with the stress of a long distance relationship. 

You lived in America a whole ocean away from him it wouldn't be fair to each other. Plus he was scared what fans would do, not just his but your’s were rather unhinged. He would love to tell you how he feels that he wants to be more to you than someone you game with. He wants to be the person you call when you're having a bad day. He wants to be someone you want to travel to see. He wants you to be out in the crowd at his shows. 

That was one thing though he still hasn't told you he was in a K-Pop group. He wasn't even sure if you knew who Stray Kids was or if you even listened to that kind of music. He was sure that if you were a stay you would’ve recognized his voice. Plus you two snapped and texted you've seen pictures of him. So you've never recognized him, which is something he was grateful for. Pulling up discord he noticed you were streaming. Which meant he was going to watch and bully you through text.

As of lately you had been streaming alone but today you were streaming with your best friend Emma. Felix enjoyed when you played with her you would usually let her play music. Not that your banter was boring, he just really liked to see what music you liked. He watched your eyes flick down to the chat smiling before you said, “What’s up mate.” He laughed behind the screen at your fake aussie accent. Typing ‘hello’ in reply to the chat. The way you would always say hello to him when you saw his username always warmed his heart.

Reader's POV

“Yo! Y/N!” Emma said to you as you waited for Dead By Daylight to queue up. Humming back in response as you were talking trash in your messages with Lix. “I wanna show you some songs I found on tiktok.” 

“Oh geez.” You said this locking your phone making a cringe face into the camera. “Well everyone it's been awhile since we've done this.” Being the party leader you canceled the queue pulling youtube up. “It’s  everyone's favorite game ‘Y/N reacts to whatever the hell Em found on tiktok’.” Placing the cursor in the search bar you waited for your friend to tell you what to type, knowing she could see you.

Giggling with excitement as she figured out what she should make you watch first. After a minute she finally decided “Look up Wish you the best by Lewis Capaldi.” Instantly you searched the video pressing play. By the end of it you were tearing up a little bit.

“Why do you gotta do me like that man?” You said this, making your friend laugh. Then she showed you an animated show she had found called ‘Helluva Boss’. Honestly you loved it, the humor, the art , all of it was appealing to you. “I love that! I think i'm gonna continue watching this later.” 

She giggled to herself happy with the fact you enjoyed it. “Ok, the last thing I'm gonna expose you to before I gotta go is Stray Kids.” 

“You mean like orphans?” You asked confused about what Stray Kids could be. “I know what this is though right? Am I wrong chat?” You watched as your viewers laughed at what they thought was a joke. However you were serious. 

You could hear Emma facepalm at your lack of knowledge you had. “No dummy! It is a K-pop group.” When she said this you mouthed “oooohhh’. She laughed and told you to choose any video. Searching the group you choose Maniac as the first video to watch. “Why does this give me JoJo Bizarre Adventure vibes?” This definitely seemed like something that would be in an episode. After watching for a minute you felt like you had seen one of them somewhere before. 

As the video ended you were truly puzzled as to why the blonde with a deep voice was so familiar. “So what did ya think?” Emma excitedly waited for your opinion on her new obsession. Still assessing the video you pondered for a moment. “We could watch another one search God’s Menu.” Shrugging your shoulders you put the video on. As the video played you still had this strong feeling you've seen one of these guys before. Does the guy with a deep voice look like Felix? No Felix has freckles but everything else was spot on. 

There’s no way he wouldn't have told me about this right? Shaking the thought out of your head. “Hmm, they definitely aren't bad.” Saving the last video so they would start coming up in your playlists. “I'm definitely going to start listening to them. Emma giggled in response, clapping her hands in amusement. Both of you signed off and you immediately called Felix in discord.

Felix's POV

His worst nightmare was happening in front of him and he could do nothing about it. He watched you type Stray Kids into the search bar and every fiber of his being cringed. “Fuck!” He dragged his hands down his face in fear. You didn't seem to recognize him so far. He was genuinely hoping you would just skip over him. When you started watching God’s Menu he knew there was no way you wouldn't recognize him. He basically saw you figure out the moment he was on the screen for longer than 3 seconds standing still. 

He knew you were going to ask him about this and he wasn't prepared, not in the slightest. He felt like if he had any chance with you before now it’s completely destroyed. He saw your live end and 5 seconds later you were video calling. Taking a deep breath he answered your call. The screen loading in showed your confused expression. “Hey Y/N!” he said sweetly trying to pretend you didn't figure it out. 

“Felix.” you said sternly, raising an eyebrow at him. “Do you have something you would like to tell me?” 

He avoided looking at the screen for a long time before he sighed out. “Im Felix from a popular k-pop group called Stray Kids.” he said, slightly embarrassed. “I'm sorry I didn't tell you before.”

“It’s okay, I just wish I knew sooner.” You said this like you had something heavy on your mind. You leaned your head into your hand looking down at your desk to him you looked sad. 

Watching for a moment he tried to examine your features to determine what you were thinking. “Y/N, what's wrong. I'm really sorry i neve meant to hurt you by not telling you.” He was frantically thinking of anything he could say to make you forgive him. You looked up at him softly, not a look he'd had been expecting at this moment.

“I'm not mad, Lix.” The use of his pet name brought him immediate comfort. “It just makes things harder.” That statement confused him. Makes what harder? His eyebrows pulled together trying to find the answer in your face. As if it would be scribbled upon your features.

Finally he got his words together to ask, “Makes what harder Angel?” 

“Before I had to worry about my fans, now I have to worry about yours.” 

“What do you mean?” He asked this breathless he felt like he was dreaming. 

Looking down embarrassed he watched a small blush creep onto your cheeks. “I feel like it's obvious Lix.” Looking back up at him. “I'm in love with you.” 

[straykidzstay]

Aquarium Date

This is a very short Han JisungXReader. Very sweet and fluffy thank you for all the support i love you guys!

“Ji you said five more minutes two hours ago!” you said this as you playful shook your boyfriend. “C'mon! You promised me.” he let out a sigh before he grabbed you and pulled you down next to him. 

“I have no clue what you're talking about.” he said this as he buried his face in your neck. 

“You said after you got back you'd take me to the aquarium.” saying this as you shifted in his grip to roll towards him. “You've been back for three weeks now.”

“There's no way it's been that long.” he said this huffing at you.

Raising an eyebrow at him, “you're not getting out of this one Hannie.” sighing in defeat as he kissed your forehead. 

“Fine. get ready fast before I change my mind.” squealing in excitement you rushed to get ready. “You're lucky I like you so much.” he smiled to himself as he got ready with you.

You and Jisung have been together for 10 months now. A big chunk of your relationship had been consumed with the most recent comeback. Due to that you two haven't talked much about your feelings. You both knew you had deep feelings for each other but both of you being nervous people neither of you have said i love you yet.

This had been killing Han all he wanted to do the whole time he was gone was tell you how much he loved and missed you. He held back because he didn't want to scare you off of course he constantly told you he missed you. The i love you part on the other hand was something he was scared to do. 

Standing at the door you smiled at him almost bouncing from your excitement. He knew he loved you, your smile made his day shit honestly his life. Joining hands the two of you walked happily to the aquarium. Lucky today was a slow day, not many people were there. Walking through the halls Jisung admired your amazement. 

“Hey, have you ever been here before Y/N?” he asked as watched you look at a small school of fish. Shaking your head no to busy observing the creatures in front of you. He walked up closer behind you as he was able to see your face and he was left breathless. The way the light from the tank lit up your face, they way your eyes were so focused on the small fish. At that moment he couldn't understand how he was so lucky to be in your presence.

Feeling watched you looked over slowly tilting your head slightly. “Everything okay Ji?” 

Your voice snapped him out of his thoughts and he smiled at you. “Perfect everything is perfect baby.” taking your hand in his he started walking to his favorite part of the aquarium. Walking through the double doors he led you to a small tunnel inside a tank. Your mouth hung open in amazement as you looked around at all the different fish.

Now standing in the middle of the tunnel you feel Han pull you closer to him. Looking at his face he was blushing as he looked into your eyes. “Can I tell you something?” He said this as he wrapped his arms around your waist.

Blushing at how close he was to you so suddenly you nodded shyly. “Always Ji.” 

“I love you Y/N.” Your face broke out in the biggest smile as you leaned up and kissed him sweetly.

“I love you too.”

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Request and Questions

I feel like I should break the ice on this topic. I will write most things. I wont write anything to obscure. so please send in some request id love bring some of your ideas alive. Thank you for all the support I love all of you xx.

Also if y'all have an questions about the stories or about me I would love to answer them! xx

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Perfect Match

This is a short fluffy story about you and Hyunjin getting a puppy. That is all love you guys!

“But we already have Kami.” Hyunjin argued while picking his dog up, holding her against his chest. “You look her in the face and tell her she's not good enough for you.” he pouted at you kissing the top of Kami’s head.

Rolling your eyes at him you let out a sigh. “My love, that's not at all what I'm saying.” reaching forward to pet kami only to have your boy pull away before you could touch her. “Ok now you're being dramatic!” he huffed at you sitting on the couch. “Please, I know you hate the idea but I really want a puppy.” you said this as you sat in front of him giving him a look you know he couldn't resist.

Looking at you he rolled his eyes. “Stop, it's not fair.”

“Stop what?” you asked, blinking slowly at him.

“God dammit,” he said as he let out a groan. “Fine! We can get another dog.” jumping up excitedly you kissed him softly.

“Thank you my love!” he rolled his eyes but smiled at you. The way you would look at him and flutter your eyelashes could convince him to do murder without thinking about the consequences. 

Setting kami down he grabbed your arm pulling you into his lap. “You're just lucky you have persuasion powers.”  he said this as he kissed your cheek. No matter how long you two have been together this simple action always makes you blush. Resting his head against your shoulder he began rubbing long circles into your back. “When do you want to go Angel?”

Smiling at him kissing the top of his head. “I wanna go right now!” as you said this you stood up quickly out of his grasp.

Chuckling and running a hand through his hair. “Of course you do.” standing up joining you he walked to the door grabbing his shoe and coat. “Well, let's go.” running over to him you grabbed your jacket and slipped your shoes on. 

At the shelter you were having a hard time choosing a dog. None of them felt like the right fit and it made you sad. Hyunjin hated seeing you sad. He started to feel like it was better off if he said no. Walking through the facility defeated until you heard a little bark making you look to your right. A little corgi about 7 months old was standing there wagging its tail at you. Smiling, you approached the door as the puppy got more excited. 

Reaching your hand through the gate you softly pet the animal as it started to play with your other hand. Your boyfriend stood back and watched as you played with the small dog. Smiling at the interaction you were having he didn't notice a worker walk up next to him. “That pup has been in here for a few months now.” the lady said to him, startling him. 

“Oh! Really?” looking from the worker back to you and the puppy. It was confusing to him that the pup was still there. He was so sweet and seemed very loveable. “I don't see why he's cute and sweet.”

The lady shrugged at Hyunjin’s words. “He was a depressed little guy at first. Probably sad his owners gave him up. Usually he does not greet anyone.” the lady giggled to herself. “Maybe he senses something about her.

He smiled knowing you had found your dog. He also admired how even animals could tell how much of a sweet and gentle person you are. “I think this is the one for us.” he said this looking at the worker. She was overjoyed that another pup had found their forever home. 

[straykidzstay]

Masterlist

Fluff ⁎

Angst ⁑

Bang Chan

Nothing yet

Changbin

Nothing yet

Hyunjin

Perfect Match

Han Jisung

Small Victories

Part One

Part Two ⁑

Part Three

Part Four

Part Five

Part Six

Aquarium Date ⁎

Felix Lee

Shit He's So Pretty⁎

Fated Passion

Part One

Lee Minho

I Miss You⁑

Live For Me ⁑

Seungmin

Nothing yet

 Jeongin

Nothing yet

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I Miss You

WARNING this is sad exstremly sad. im sorry to whoever is harmmed by this story. LeeKnow x Reader

Minho sat in his chair in the studio staring at the wall ahead of him. Blinking slowly, not paying attention to his surroundings lost in his own world. He knew he'd be leaving soon and just wanted time to pass faster. Chan who previously had been focused on the screen in front of him turned his attention to Mhino. Chan noticed how Minho’s brows were pulled together slightly, his jaw was tense, and his eyes were empty. 

“Hey, are you okay?” he asked but he didn't get a response. Growing more concerned he placed his hand on Minho’s shoulder startling him back to reality. Looking at his phone he looked at Chan.

“I gotta go.” he said as he stood up quickly in reaction Chan grabbed his arm. 

Holding him in place Chan asked, “Wait, are you going to visit her.” Minho jerked his arm away harshly and turned his back to his friend. “Do you want me to go with you?” Almost like a wounded animal he turned back to his friend. Chan froze when he saw the look on Minho’s face.

“Leave me alone.” he spoke three simple words each laced with poison. He left quickly before Chan could say anything else to him. He didn't want him to be with him right now. He just wanted to be alone with you. Walking into the lobby he was reminded of all the times you brought him something. You would always be so excited to see him. He hated to bother you but he always loved how happy you were to be helpful to him. 

He shook his head and let out a sigh before walking out onto the streets. As he was walking he was reminded of all the times you wrap yourself around his arm. Smiling to himself about the times he teased you about being a leech. As he walked he passed your favorite cafe as he glanced in the window he smiled. He thought about how much you loved to come here. Cheesecake was something you and his best friend had in common. He laughed quietly remembering all the times you almost fought Jisung over him “eating your cheesecake out of YOUR boyfriend’s fridge”. To which Han would reply with, “OUR! OUR BOYFRIEND!’ he was always happy you two got along. 

Walking into a flower store he noticed the lady behind the counter was new. He approached the counter waiting a moment for the woman to notice him. When she turned around she smiled. “I'm so sorry, I was just working on an order for today.” she motioned her hands to the bouquet of Stargazer Lilies. 

He smiled at the flowers, they were exactly what he ordered. “No problem at all that happens to be for me.” 

“Wonderful! I just finished.” She turned around and grabbed the flowers, wrapping them before she handed them to Minho. “She's one lucky girl.” He smiled weakly at her nodding.

“Truly i'm the lucky one.” he said this as he placed the money on the counter. “Keep the change.” he said as he left the shop to return to his journey. Gripping the flowers as he walked he was reminded of all the times hed stop here after work to get your favorite flowers. He would hide them behind his back as he walked through the door knowing you'd be waiting right behind it. He would point behind you to make you look away so when you turned around you would be met with a surprise. 

He sighed as he made it to his destination. looking up at the hospital building he remembered that day. You went to an art show with your best friend. On the way home a drunk driver had swerved into the opposite lane causing a head on collision. You had smashed your head through the passenger window. Since that point you had been in a coma, slowly losing brain function. He frowned down at the ground before he went inside. 

Waiting in the elevator he thought about how long it had been. How long it had been since he heard your voice or seen the stars in your eyes. Two years of waiting for a phone call or waiting by your side hoping you'd wake up soon. Everyday ended with the same no phone call, and no eyes fluttering open to end his pain. It always ended with him falling asleep in a bed way too big for one person. 

The doors opening to a familiar floor he sighed before walking towards a familiar room. When he opened the door he smiled sadly at you. “Sweetheart, I'm here.” he said, closing the door behind him. “I'm happy to see you too.” he liked to pretend to have conversations with you just in case you could hear him. Placing the flowers in the vase beside your bed he looked over at you. “Why wouldn't I get you flowers? You deserve more honestly.” he sat beside you holding your hand in his. 

“Y/N, i really hope you wake up soon.” he raised your hand to his mouth softly kissing it. “I don't sleep anymore because the bed's too big without you and the cats. I barely eat Seungmin and Han have started force feeding me, Felix constantly makes brownies. I cant even eat them without thinking about how much you loved them.” he let out a shaky breath squeezing your hand tightly to his chest. “Everything makes me think about you. Every song, movie, poem, book, conversation, place, person, flower, animal everything reminds me of you. The boys are scared of me or for me I can't tell honestly. I don't talk anymore, I just disassociate to a place in my brain. A place where I can hold you again, somewhere I can still hear your voice.” 

He let a tear fall down his face onto the hand that held yours. “I'm sorry, I know I'm crying sweetheart. I just miss you.” he chuckled softly through the tears remembering all the times you made him laugh when he was sad. He looked over at you with a soft smile. “Hey do you remember.” That's all he got out before your body started ceasing and the alarms started ringing. 

Everything happened so fast for Minho he was just holding your hand and the next second he would never touch you again. He was sitting at a table with a few nurses and a doctor. They were explaining paperwork to him, getting him to sign them deciding what would happen to your remains. They gave him a few brochures for funeral homes and a few for groups that helped you deal with the loss of a loved one. He tossed them on the counter when he returned home.

Walking to the couch he sat down harshly looking at the hand that held yours just a few hours ago. Your seizure had caused a blood vessel to burst in your brain causing further damage. He sat there trying to blame himself. Maybe if he would’ve shut up maybe it wouldn't have happened. The doctor assured him that he shouldn't blame himself but he always blamed himself for all of it. 

He opened his phone and began to look through his pictures of you. All of his memories of you, every place you traveled to together, everytime you fell asleep on him. Everytime he came home to one of his cats sleeping on you. He knew they missed you as well. It hurt not coming home to them his parents watched them, now that you weren't here to care for them while he was gone. He stumbled across a picture of you blowing bubbles, it was always his favorite. The way the sun was setting behind you, the light catching your skin perfectly, making your eyes sparkle. 

He let his tears fall down his face again. He always hated crying but for you he would always cry. He sat and pleaded aloud to anyone that could hear him. “Please let me wake up. Please tell me this is a bad dream.” he shoved his face into his hands yelling his pain into his palms. Jumping at the sound of his phone ringing he quickly answered it without looking at the contact. “Hello?” he asked hopeful he had imagined everything and that he was getting the call you woke up. 

“Hey, we just got the news, are you okay?” his world shattered again when he heard Han’s voice. He yelled into the phone before he hung it up slamming it on the couch. He stood to his feet quickly before he flipped the coffee table over, knocking the small decorations on it to the ground. Still not satisfied he walked across the room swapping the contents of the bookshelf across the floor. Kicking the books he felt ridiculous he thought about how mad you would've been. Falling to his knees he let out a sob as he looked at his destroyed living room. “What did I do to deserve this!” He sobbed out slamming his fists on the ground. “I just want you to come back!” 

[straykidzstay]

Small Victories Pt. 5

The paring is Han Jisung x F!Reader. The reader isn't into K-Pop but when your best friend gets your friend group a position in a contest to win a chance to preform with stray kids. You may not want to do it but you will do anything for Gwen. What can happen its not like you'll win.

My eyes shot open with the sound of my alarm going off. Slapping the source of the noise to turn it off.  i then brought my hand to my face letting it sit there for a minute. Today was our first practice day so we had to get up early. Sitting up I looked over at my desk to my abandoned sketch books. What I would give to just stay home and draw today. Yes, I was ready for today because I would have to work directly with Han. I still had no idea how to go about getting the truth out of him. 

Letting out a frustrated sigh i moved to the edge of my bed letting my feet touch the floor. Standing up i made my way to my small closet hoping i would just know what to wear. Frowning at most of the clothing i decide to wear a dark purple jersey style tank top. It being loose fitting i wore a black sports bra underneath. For my pants I went simple just a pair of black cargo pants and my blackout converse. 

Fixing my hair in the bathroom mirror i began to get nervose. Looking at my reflection i took a deep breath and let it out. Everything is going to be okay. I've done plenty of dance practices. None of them had Han them though so i guess that makes this one different. I guess i mean it does make it different. As i said this to myself i felt my face get hot looking at the redness creep across my cheeks made me more embarrassed.

Shaking my head I rushed to my room gathering my things before heading to the kitchen. Grabbing my water bottle along with a few snacks for today. Shoving everything in my bag I continued and rushed out my door. It was about 7 am so the streets were mostly empty with just a few people walking to work. Realistically we didn't need to be at practice till 9 but Mindy demanded we be early to ensure we would be on time. 

Approaching the door of her house I quickly walked in. None of us are allowed to knock; her mother always claimed that this was our house too. She always looked at all of us as her children. I always appreciated that, especially two years ago when she let me live here until I got back on my feet. Walking into the living room everyone greeted me.

“Took you long enough!” Fefe said, throwing a pillow from the couch at me. 

Dodging the pillow I glared at her. “Oh so you chose violence today.” I said this, making everyone laugh including Fefe.

“Kids, no fighting or I will take your phones away!” Piper said in her motherly tone making us all laugh harder.

Amber  snorted looking from Piper to me. “Good luck getting Y/N’s phone! She is always texting Peter she would rather die!” Gwen and I looked at eachother then back to Amber.

“Someone’s mad she can't pull any hoes.” Gwen said, crossing her arms.

“So not true!” Amber said shocked , standing up quickly. “Just you wait! By the end of this I will have Seungmin wrapped around my finger.” all of them started busting out laughing before Mindy’s Mother called all of us for breakfast.

I love Amber with all my heart but she was always jealous of one of us no matter who or what it was. Any of us talk to a guy she, we get a boyfriend, one of us gets a good job she hates it and so on. So this kind of comment was normal for her to make but it was still bothersome. She acts like I'm dependent on talking to him. Which i'm not i do look forward to but it's not that serious. 

While we ate quietly I wondered how today would go. How long would it take Han to break? Would it be today, tomorrow, or some time next week? While I was stuck in my head Gwen leaned closer to me. I was too busy playing with my food to notice her. This made her grab my arm, stopping my movement. Slightly startled, I looked at her quickly.

“Are you okay?” she whispered this to me concerned.. I nodded to her not wanting to talk about the Peter Han situation in front of everyone. She smiled at me almost like she could read my thoughts.We all discarded our plates and began getting our stuff packed away into the vehicles. By the time we finished it was time for us to head to practice. 

Walking into the building we were greeted by Chan. “Hello girls!” he seemed like he was a morning person. We all returned a smile and wave back to him. “I'm glad you all could make it. Just follow me the boys are all waiting  in the practice room.” he said this as he turned and started walking down the hall behind him. Following close behind him we all filed into a decently sized room. The room had nice floor with one wall being a giant mirror. There was couch against the oppose wall where the boy sat. Most of them still playing on their phones. 

Changbin noticed our entrance and smiled at us, putting his phone away. “Welcome!” His words alert the whole group. I quickly glanced at Han, meeting his gaze snapping my eyes away from him. I felt myself start blushing. 

“What are we doing today?” Seungmin asked, shoving his hands in his hoodie pockets. 

Chan cleared his throat saying “Ah yes, I thought today we could get to know each other. Everyone will get 30 minutes with each other. In that time learn to find things we all have in common. That kind of stuff. Sound good?'' All of us agreed but I also don't think we really have a choice either. “Awesome! Everyone partnered up and I'll set a timer.” 

I ended up pairing with Lee Know first. sitting crisscross from each other we took a minute to find words but he spoke first. “So you did really good out there. He said this awkwardly i smiled in return to him.

“Thank you! That means a lot.” he smiled at my comment scratching the back of his head.

“Do you like animals?” He asked me this and stared at me. 

Who doesn't like animals? “Of course cats are my favorite.” He opened his mouth shocked before he smiled. 

“You're cool in my book.” We both laughed together before he started showing me pictures of his cats telling me stories about them. Before we knew it it had been 30 minutes. I was sad we had to switch. I really enjoyed talking with him. Switching partners i ended up sitting across from Jeongin

Sitting there he had a big smile on his face, “What do you do right before you fall asleep.” That was a bit of a weird question. 

“Ummm. Probably self reflect or over think about stuff in my life.” 

He gasped lightly at me covering his mouth. “Me too!” I laughed at his reaction we ended up talking about ways we try to better ourself. Once the time was up we switched. This time I was in front of Changbin.

He seemed to be thinking of a good question to ask. “What's your favorite season?” He said this confidently. Not what I thought he would say but it was easy to answer.

“That's easy, I love autumn and winter.” I said this without hesitation. I love wearing jackets. Plus halloween is in autumn who doesn't love halloween. 

Holding his hand out for a high five he said “yes that was the right answer!” We laughed as I returned his high five. We ended up talking about pranking some of the other members during future practices. Switching partners, I was now sitting witn Hyunjin.

“What are your hobbies Y/N?” What a genuine question.

“I like to draw a lot!” said this and we both smiled.

Clapping his hands together before he spoke. “I thought you looked like an artsy person.” We then started showing each other pictures of our art. He enjoyed looking at my comic book art and told me it would be popular one day. Switching partners I was now sitting with the father of the group. 

“I have a question for you Chan.” I said this holding back a laugh. He raised his eyebrow at me, not sure what I had planned for him. “Who wrote Red lights??” 

His jaw dropped at my question he scratched the back of his head not sure how to answer it. “Um well you see. Not me.” I looked at him and crossed my arms. “Really! It wasn't!” laughing at him he changed the subject and we started talking about my performance background. I explained to him my mother started me off young dancing. I would always compete for money. Eventually She got me into art and we started selling my art. “Why did you always dance for money and sell your art?” 

“Oh well my dad left us when me and my sisters were young. I was the oldest and my mom couldn't work due to an injury. So I did what my mom wanted me to do plus I wanted to make sure my siblings were okay.” I said this and looked down at my hands playing with my fingers. 

He reached over and grabbed one of my hands stopping my nervous fidgeting. “That's very selfless of you, do you still make money that way?” 

Looking up at him I could see how concerned he was. “Yes I do, but now I live on my own. My mom got remarried five years ago and now he takes care of her. My siblings are all living their own lives.” I said this and smiled at him trying to ease his worry.

“I'm sorry it sounds like you didn't have much of a childhood.” His face softened as he let go of my hand. 

I shrugged at his words. “Ehh it's okay i still turned out cool.” He laughed and agreed with me as the timer in his pocket went off. Switching partners I ended up in front of Felix.

“Hello!” he said, smiling brightly at me. “I remember you from the interview.” 

I smiled back at him as I said. “I'm glad! I remember you too.” together we laughed and we ended talking about video games. “I see what you're saying but I still prefer consoles.”

“Y/N!” he wined pouting at me making me smirk at him. “PC is so much better, please i will build you a whole computer just to prove a point.” He said this, throwing his arms up. I could feel eyes watching. Glancing in the mirror I could see Han staring at me and Felix not listening to Amber who was sitting in front of him on the floor. 

Time to see if I can make something happen. “Lex, that's very sweet of you.” I said this as I placed my hand on Felix's shoulder. “I can't let you do something like that.” I batted my eyelashes and I could see Han out the corner of my eye in the mirror. If he had laser vision I would probably be dead. 

Felix laughed and smiled. “Trust me it would be worth it to convince you PC is better.” The timer went off and I could see Han walking straight towards me. Before he got a chance to sit Seungmin plopped down in front of me. I'm glad I wanted to save Han for last anyway. 

“You did good hitting those notes.” He said this and offered me a fist bump which I returned thanking him. We ended up talking about photography. It seems he really had a love for it. Honestly he was very good at it from the pictures he showed me. If he wasn't an idol I could see him making it his career. 

The alarm went off again signaling the final switch. Finally I was face to face with Han. He looked nervous as he played with the zipper on his jacket. I decided to break the silence by asking a hard question. “Can you remember who you were before the world told you who you should be?” 

He looked at me shocked by my words like he's never thought about it before. He looked down deep in thought for a moment before he looked me in the eyes. At that moment I saw his eyes sparkle and they reminded me of that night in the park. They were the same eyes. I do realize I've already established they were the same person, but finally seeing physical proof had me shook to my core in a good way. 

“It doesn't matter who I was, it's about who I am now.” He runs a hand through his hair letting it slide down the back of his head. “I try to live in the present if i dont the i get stuck in my head.” He shrugs and searches my face trying to see if his words made any impression on me. 

I understood him completely. I often get trapped by my thoughts. I wondered if he could push past it because it certainly wasn't something I could do. This week alone i've been stuck constantly on what to do about this Peter Han situation. Hearing him chuckle made me start blushing as I looked at him. “What?” I asked this softly embarrassed he caught me overthinking. 

“It's cute when you get focused on something.” smiling, he tilted his head slightly at me. “I noticed it at the interview too. When you start thinking too hard you play with you fingers. Your eyebrows pinch together softly while you slightly pout.” I felt like my face was 100 degrees. He really has been watching me the whole time. 

Laughing nervously and messing with my hair I said. “ Yeah! I'm always thinking. I think that's why I'm so quiet too many thoughts.” I smiled, feeling like I just word vomited and made my situation worse. 

“Quiet people are the best.” He smiled at me reassuringly. “You never know what's going on in their head. Unless someone cares to ask.” I really hope he's not gonna ask me what i think about. In this moment looking at his eyes, seeing his smile, and hearing voice I would be the one to break. I would tell him about Peter, then I would tell him how I thought he was him, and finally I would demand he confess. I wouldn't care if someone else heard I needed to know. “What keeps you trapped in your mind?”

As I opened my mouth to speak the alarm went off signaling the end of practice. Slightly disappointed but at the same time grateful I didn't just embarrass myself. I stood up quickly grabbing my things glancing back and I saw Han looking at me smirking. Seeing the look on his face made me realize I lost today. I wanted to make him break but instead he broke me. I see you Jisung, next time I will win. 

Laying in bed restless my mind like normal wouldn't shut up. Tonight I couldn't stop thinking about him, About how nice it would feel to fall asleep on him listening to his heartbeat and soft breathing. I wonder what it would feel like to have his stroke my hair and kiss my forehead, clearing all of my bad thoughts. Turning roughly over to my right side I sighed loudly. A familiar chime out of my phone made me frown. Reaching over looking at the time it was 2:30 i looked down to the contact name smiling when i realized who it was. 

Texting him back that it was fine. I shut my phone off, setting it down grining as big as my face would allow. Friday I was going to see him. That would be my chance to get him to confess. Finally knowing i would have my answer in just a few days i closed my eyes letting sleep drift me away.

[straykidzstay]

Shit He's So Pretty

I wrote this while listening to Juliet by Cavetown. This is a very short one shot. The paring is Felix X GNReader. Nothing but cute fluff and a little nerves. I will have another update for Small Victories tomorrow! Thank you so much for all the support <3

Felix sat backstage with 15 minutes left before the show started. Staring at his reflection in the mirror he seemed nervous. From time to time he would get like this, but tonight was different. You were going to be there. He needed to make sure he looked perfect. Noticing his friend’s  nerves Chan walked up behind the blonde placing a hand on his shoulder. 

“Hey man! You look great.'' Chan smiled at their reflections. 

Felix looked at Chan in the mirror and smiled slightly. “Thank you mate. I'm just nervous..” he said this weakly, making Chan concerned. 

“Lix you and Y/N have been together for a while now.” He smiles at the blonde as he squeezes his shoulder. “They are going to freak out when they see you.”

He looked at Chan and then back down to his hands slowly messing with his rings. “It’s just been so long since I've seen them.” It had been six months since the last time he got to see you. He had been too busy with the most recent comeback. Finally they had their last performance for a while and you were coming to see them. Felix was terrified you'd find someone better, someone with more time for you. If he could, he'd spend every waking moment with you. sadly he couldn't always drag you around with him you had your own life to live. “I just hope they still look at me the same.”  

“Of course she will!” Chan chuckles before he can continue the group gets warned it was 5 minutes to show time. Looking back at Felix, Chan says “You have nothing to worry about I promise.” The blonde smiled and stood up hugging his group mate before they ran to the sage.

Stepping out Felix scanned the audience for you, it didn’t take long to spot you. Dead center front row you stood on the other side of the barrier smiling at him. Seeing the look in your eyes made all his earlier doubt wash away. He smiled at you and waved, blowing a kiss which you jumped in the air to catch. Blowing one back at him he blushed, catching it and holding it to his heart. The way you smile at him made him feel like he'd do anything for you. He would make a color no one has seen before,  just to impress you in hopes it would be your favorite. He would move the stars, the planets, hell even the universe if it meant you'd smile. He wants to be so much more to you. He hopes while you're standing there you're looking at him and think shit he's so pretty. 

After the show you get escorted backstage. Finally, Felix sees you tears coming to his eyes, he rushes to you, scooping you up in his arms, and squeezing you tightly to his chest.”Lix.” you gasped trying to breathe. “I can't breathe.” you giggled out as he started swinging you side to side.

He chuckles, setting you back on the ground slightly loosening his grip on you. “I'm sorry my love.” he looks down at you smiling, “so how did you like the show?” 

You smiled at him, leaning up kissing his cheek. “It was really good! But I was stuck staring at you.” 

He blushed at your comment, “Awe really? How come.” he asked innocently.

Getting bashful you look down and blush. “I could stop looking at how pretty you are” he was shocked at your words could you hear his thoughts. He couldn't stop his excitement as he squeezed you in his arms before leaning down to press a kiss to your lips.

[straykidzstay]

Small Victories Pt 4

The paring is Han Jisung x F!Reader. The reader isn't into K-Pop but when your best friend gets your friend group a position in a contest to win a chance to preform with stray kids. You may not want to do it but you will do anything for Gwen. What can happen its not like you'll win.

It had been three days since I last heard from him. With only two days till the contest I was so busy that it hadn't bothered me mch. Tonight it bothered me to my core. Peter made himself a part of my routine. I missed our late night conversations. As selfish as it sounds, I wanted his attention so I decided to break the silence.

I turned my phone screen off, discarding the device on my bedside table. It did hurt my feelings but at the same time my heart was beating fast. He said he did want to see me just not yet. Why not yet what is he waiting for? I tried shoving these thoughts out of my head. Closing my eyes I tried to think about anything else. Just as my mind crossed a path to a new idea I heard my phone start ringing. I slowly picked it up, shocked to see Peter's name on my screen. I answered it.

Before I had the chance to say anything he spoke. “Please don't go to bed upset with me.” he said this in a soft, concerned tone that made my breath catch in my throat. “Soon we will hangout and then you'll understand, but please don't hate me.” He seemed genuinely concerned he had to be right. He went out of his way to call me to convince me it's okay. 

“It's okay, really I get it.” I tried to stay calm as I spoke scared to say something that would make him hang up. “I don't like how I look either.” 

“Don't say that your beautiful.” he said this and it made me feel something i haven felt for a long time. I felt the familiar flutter in my stomach as the butterflies exploded back to life. We talked on the phone for a long time so long I fell asleep and I had the most beautiful dream.

Waking up I was tired today was performance day. Today was the day I had to pretend I was Han. Getting up I got dressed in my costume. I didn't mind it too much. We decided to theme our outfits after the ones the boys wore in the maniac video. I'm definitely glad we went with this design. Staring at myself in the mirror I began to shake slightly my stomach twisting. I've competed in dance competitions before but this was the first time it would be televised. No matter how many times i've done this before i'm still nervous, people make me nervous. So many people are going to see this live. 

Shaking myself from my thoughts I got my stuff together and headed out the door to meet the group before we headed to the show. Once we were all together at Mindy’s her mother decided to take a picture of us. Posing as she took the picture I began to wonder if we would win. If we won, we would be stuck in this. Would we have to give our lives and privacy taken. Also our freedom would be told who to be and how to act. I don't want any of that.

Being pulled from my thoughts by FeFe waving her hand in front of my face. “Y/N, you there?” 

Shaking my head I smiled. “Sorry, I was just thinking about how we are gonna win.” pretending to be happy is the best way to deal with this.

Mindy walked up next to me, placing her hand on my shoulder. “Heck yeah! We love to hear that!” All of us laughed together while I looked past the group to see Gwen smiling apologetically to me. She knew I didn't want to win and she especially knew I didn't want to do this. We all filled towards the cars and headed to the show.

Standing together backstage dressed as our respective members we looked at the other groups. We were the third group to go on which could be a blessing or a curse. Each Groups gets an hour and a half to impress the judges and the crowd. I was extremely nervous and I felt my hands sweating. Gwen could always tell when my nerves were getting the best of me. She grabbed my hand squeezing it telling me it was gonna be okay.

Hearing her say this made me feel better smiling back at her. We got the signal that the show was about to start. From this point on we became our personas. I studied Han For a month now. At this point I think I can out Han him. Watching the screen in the back rooms with the other groups we all danced along and even had grand reactions. Some even being replayed on the screen on stage to show how supportive we were of each other. 

Finally it was our turn as we preformed i kept noticing a pair of eye glued to me the whole time. Not having enough time between dancing and singing I couldn’t properly gauge who it was. We ended with Hellivator making the Boys and the crowd go crazy. Felix stood up first clapping and cheering for us. Chan yelled out that we did amazing while the other boys jumped up and down. Rejoining the other groups backstage they all cheered when we walked in. I never expected our competition to cheer for us. I guess in the K-Pop industry its all about being supportive of each other. 

After deliberation and rechecking audience reaction we were all invited back on stage to announce the winners. All four groups stood with our respective members anxiously waiting for the reveal. All 8 members walked out waving and smiling at all of us. Making their way to the front middle, Chan raised the microphone to his mouth. 

 “WOW! Just wow all of you did amazing. This choice was so very hard!” He said this and looked back at all of us. 

Felix leaned close to Chan speaking into his microphone. “You all deserve to win in my opinion.” he was so sweet and genuine. 

“Well I don't want to keep you guys waiting any longer!” Chan looked at his group members. “On three we will yell out your group number if you won.” Holding up three fingers he began to count. “One, two.” he paused for a moment before bringing his third finger down signaling for them to announce. 

  “GROUP 3!!!” They all yelled together making me and my friends scream and shout. The boys ran over to us congratulating us on winning. After saying farewell and thanking all the groups we went backstage to schedule practice with them for the show we would perform with them. We would be back for dance practice in a week saying goodbye we all went our separate ways. 

Riding in the car we all talked about how much fun it was when Amber chimed in. “Did you notice Han staring at you??” she asked me this, making Gwen choke on her water. 

“I couldn't notice anyone staring at me.'' I said this truthfully I had no clue if he was looking at me. 

“Come on Y/N” she rolled her eyes playfully. “How could you not notice, I think even Lee noticed.” 

Mindy laughed, “yeah you better watch out!” Everyone was laughing now as I rolled my eyes. 

“I literally have nothing to worry about. He probably was watching me because I was dressed like him and doing his parts.” I waved them away as I said this.

Amber raised an eyebrow at me, “so you admit he was staring at you.” I sighed at her looking out the window as they all continued to make jokes. Han Jisung was not staring at me and he certainly didn't like me. Getting back to mindy’s, her mother had made dinner to celebrate us winning. Sitting at the table eating while everyone was talking I'm stuck thinking. 

I was happy we won, sure I was but I was also sad or scared. I don't know how to describe how I feel about it. Why was I scared it wouldn't be horrible to be an idol maybe. I would have money but I'd probably never draw. Maybe I just need to slow down. It's not like after we perform with them we will continue this. I did see the wheels turning in the heads of all the JYP representatives. They were definitely planning something for us and even other groups. 

I felt a chopstick stab me in the cheek making me wince and look at the person who assaulted me. “Dammit Amber!” I glared at her wishing I had laser eyes.

“Hey we've been talking to you, we should be the mad ones.” She laughed at me and glanced at the rest of the group.

Piper squinted at Amber then looked at me concerned. “Are you ok kid? You seem like you're stuck in your head." I looked away from her to the rest of the group. They all looked concerned.

“Im sorry guys.'' I ran a hand through my hair and sighed. “I'm just thinking about what's going to happen with us.” 

They all seemed confused. It was quiet for a second before Bella spoke up. “We are gonna perform with Stray Kids.” then shrugged at me “after that our lives will be normal, right.” she said looking between Mindy and Piper. They both looked at each other and nodded. 

“See Y/N you have nothing to be scared of.” Gwen added as she bumped her shoulder with mine. Looking at her i smiled lightly trying to stop thinking about the situation. After we finish dinner we watched a movie which we all enjoyed. Most of the girls decided to stay at Mindys because they didnt feel like walking home. I understand that I didn't want to walk home either but I need to. Walking always helped clear my mind.

Walking down the road I looked up. It was a clear night and you could see all the stars. There was a nice breeze that made me happy this outfit included a jacket. A  part of me kinda wished I told Peter about the contest. Maybe he would've been happy for me. I wonder if he saw it on tv and he recognized me. Also if he was Han I wonder if he liked the performance did i do good. I know we won but me as an individual did i do well. Perusal my phone broke me out of my thoughts pulling my phone out i smiled seeing it was a message from Peter. 

Walking towards the park  got nervous was about to find out the truth. Walking in the entrance I could see someone sitting on the benches. I could tell they were wearing a hoodie. Approaching them I could now see their back was to me sitting the opposite way on the bench next to this person. They turned their head slightly looking at their face I felt defeated when seeing a mask hid their face, this definitely was Peter.

“Hey .” he said, bumping his shoulder against mine. 

Even though I was disappointed I couldn't see his face, I still smiled. “Hey.” i said to him looking up at the sky. His eyes flowed as he looked up too. 

“You like the stars?” he asked me sweetly 

“I love them.'' As I said this he stood up offering a hand to me. Taking his hand he pulled me to my feet then led me to the grass. He laid on the ground and patted the grass next to him.

“In that case let's look at the stars.” I couldn't see his expression but I could see how his eyes sparkled under the sky. I smiled and laid next to him he took my hand. Looking up at the sky we were silent for a while before he broke the silence. “I'm sorry.”

Looking over at him confused I said. “Why are you sorry?” 

He looked back at me then back at the sky. “Because I won't let you see me yet.” 

“Don't be sorry.” I said this as I grabbed his hand. “I understa-”

He cut off my sentence, squeezing my hand. “I know you understand, when is it my turn to understand you.” I was shocked by his words.

The one way I thought to respond was with the quote I gave in my interview. “I feel as if I'm made to understand but not to be understood..” 

He sat up still gripping my hand and said, “you cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do, and that's your pain you understand everyone but no one understands you.” I sat up next to him quickly. What he said was so poetic, nothing like he normally says. “You don't tell people about what's going on up there huh?” as he said this he raised his free hand and pointed to my head. 

Looking at his masked faced i felt my face get hot. How is he calling me out right now? This is the first time we have ever spent time together. “I feel like there is no point in telling people about what's happening inside of me.” I said this quietly, scanning his hidden features.

“I understand that.” when he said that he chuckled. “See now i'm understanding you, i don't tell anyone anything.” I smiled at him and leaned against his side causing him to wrap his arm around me.

“You understand me enough.” I said this quietly and sweetly.

Sitting there in silence I could feel him looking at me. “What if I was famous, would you still like me?” Mentally noting that question I looked at him confused. 

This was a hard question to answer but at this point I'd like him either way. “Yeah i probably would.'' I raised an eyebrow at him. “Are you famous?”

He laughed at me, “wouldn't you like to know.” as he said this his phone started ringing he pulled it out and sighed. “Im sorry but i have to go. Would you want to do this again?” 

Pouting at him and playfully rolling my eyes. “Yeah maybe we can.” he chuckled at me squeezing my hand before he got up and walked off. I wonder why he had to leave who called him. Pushing these thoughts out of my head I stood up and began to walk home.

Walking through the door I couldn't help but wonder, why did he ask me that. Was he actually Han because if he wasn't why would it matter if I still like him or not. Again I'm getting too far ahead. Maybe he's like a popular streamer. That could be it but then again he did ask me about K-Pop. Npw bring that up he did also specifically as if my friends liked Stray Kids. He didn't even ask about any other group. 

Allowing myself to piece things together as I got ready for bed. The only concussion I could come up with is that Peter has to be Han. Right i feel delusional this can't be right. I need to text Gwen about this, hopefully she’s up. Is what i thought to myself as i grabbed my phone going to her contact. 

Closing my phone and dropping it on my bed, I grabbed my pillow and screamed into it. I'm an idiot, how did i not realize sooner. Why hasn't he just told me. Fine he wants to beat around the bush I will get him to confess. I'm no longer upset that we won. Now I have to spend time with him. There's only a matter of time before he says something.

[straykidzstay]

Small Victories Pt. 3

The paring is Han Jisung x F!Reader. The reader isn't into K-Pop but when your best friend gets your friend group a position in a contest to win a chance to preform with stray kids. You may not want to do it but you will do anything for Gwen. What can happen its not like you'll win.

Talks about some social anxiety also im most likely posting two parts today, hopefully

This was the final week before the competition and I was starting to get scared that we might win. Today we had to go into the JYP Company building for interviews. Riding in the car with three of the seven other members in our group. Staring out the window all I could think about was how today was going to take forever. We are one of four groups competing, that's so many people. Hopefully we would be the first group on the roster. While I was stuck in my thoughts I felt Gwen tap my shoulder. 

“Hey are you there, we've been talking to you.” I looked at her then to my other friends. They all seemed concerned.

“Sorry guys!” I scratched the back of my head. “I was just thinking about how stressful today is going to be.” 

Mindy looked at me from the passenger seat. “It's going to be okay!” she smiled at me reassuringly.

Piper waved to me from the front seat, “yeah they are gonna love you kid!” Piper was the oldest out of all of us. She was 24 while the rest of us were  21 or 22. We often looked up to her like she was our mom, she was perfect for that role. 

Gwen leaned over and whispered to me “I know it's a lot of people, that makes you anxious.” She places her hand on my shoulder. “Just have fun and it'll be okay, I promise.” I just have to put on an act before I know how to sell myself. Working as a commissions artist I constantly have to sell myself. 

Assuring my friends id be okay we arrived at the building. Getting out we were escorted inside. I was shocked to not see the other groups in the waiting room. Maybe this wouldn't take long, I thought as I sat next to gwen. 

She smiled at me “So did you tell Peter about the contest?” she asked me innocently.

Quickly looking at her embarrassed. “No, I told him I'd be busy with family today.”

“So you lied?” she asked me, raising her eyebrow at me. 

Shocked, I brought my hand to my chest. “I'll have you know all of you bitches are my family.” throwing my hands out i shrugged, “so technically not a lie.” 

“Still a lie!” Fefe added from the chair to my left. The group laughed together while I rolled my eyes. 

“Shut it all of you.” I crossed my arms as a JYP representative approached us. 

“Hello ladies!” The man smiled at us waving. “I would like for you all to break up into two groups. We will be conducting the interview in two different rooms.” we all nodded in response quickly breaking up. “Perfect! Just be yourselves I feel like you all will do great!” He led my group to a room telling us some one would call us in the room when they were ready. 

Looking at my group, it was Gwen, Me, Amber, and Mindy. We all looked nervous, I just wondered who would be sitting behind that table. A few minutes passed and we heard a distant ‘come in’ from the other side of the door. Walking in the room there was a table where four men sat. It was Felix, Han, Chan, and Chagbin. On the other side of the table about six feet away was a long couch where we all quickly sat. sitting down i looked down at my hands when i looked up i made eye contact with Han. He was staring at me confused. I began to wonder if something was on my face. He realized where he was and snapped his gaze away from mine. 

“Thank you so much for being here today ladies!” Chan said this warmly, smiling at us. “We have a few questions for you today!” we all smiled back at him saying hello and waving. 

“Let's start with the easiest one: what are your names?” Felix said giving all of us a welcoming smile, Felix was very pretty in person. We told them our names. They all smiled at us telling us we had beautiful names. When I said my name Han seemed shocked but he didn't say anything. 

After a few generic questions we all had a few good laughs. Then we got into more complex questions. “This is a good one!” Han exclaimed “give us one quote to describe yourself.” I wasn't expecting a question like that to be honest. Usually the questions at these interviews are surface level. Going down the line it finally got to me

“I feel as if I'm made to understand but not to be understood.” I looked down quickly after giving my answer. Gwen reached over and squeezed my hand looking over at her and I smiled. 

“That was really deep Y/N.” Han said, looking at me softly. “I completely understand that feeling.” I smiled at him weakly shocked he identified with it. We continued answering questions for about 10 more minutes and the interview was over. We all smiled and said our goodbyes leaving the room rejoining the other half of our group. As we walked back to our car we talked about how well our interviews went. Getting in the car I felt my phone go off in my pocket. 

It had been a few hours since I heard from Peter. It bothered me that he was so upset with me over a joke. It's just an opinion about a K-Pop group, it's not that serious. Me and the girls were having a sleep over at Mindy's house. Her parents were loaded and often not home so this was a normal occurrence for us. All sprawled out on the big living room couch we were watching a scary movie. I enjoyed scary movies. They were some of my favorites. Living alone made me very hesitant to watch them so this is the first one I've seen in awhile. Gwen never liked them much; she was completely desensitized; she found them boring. I blame that on all the horror games she plays. 

“Damn you guys.” she said, breaking everyone's emersion. “Go look at Felix's twitter, some drama is popping off.” instantly we all pulled out our phones going to the bird app. Felix made a post and Han was popping off in the comments at the other boys.

I did find it a little weird that shortly after my conversation with Peter this suddenly happened. Again there’s no way they are the same person I refuse to ever think otherwise. Amber laughed at the post claiming they were probably kidding. She had to be right. I mean Han literally called Felix cute in his replies. While everyone talked back and forth I sat there and pondered if it would be bad if it was han. I would like to point out in no way did I have a crush on Han Jisung, but I did have a crush on Peter. If in a delusional world they were the same person. There were both pros and cons to this situation. The pros would be that he isn't bad looking, he has the same interest as me, and he's funny. The cons on the other hand are he's an idol and I don't want that pressure. He would have already lied to me about his name so can i trust him. Also he would know i've already lied to him, if he was Peter then he could clearly see i was not at my parents today.

Not to mention I don't want to ruin this competition for my friends. They've worked so hard I couldn't bear to ruin that because I stumbled upon him in public. Pulling myself out of my intrusive thoughts I focused back on the movie. Once the credits rolled we all decided to try and get some sleep. Splitting up between three guest rooms and Mindy’s own we all settled in for the night. I was rooming with Gwen as we usually do. We were both laying on our phones when she set her phone down.

She looked over at me, making me lower my own device. “Did you think the interview was a little weird?” When she asked me this I was confused we all agreed the interview went well.

“I thought it went great.'' I looked at her concern and started to pick apart everything I said earlier that day.

Shaking her head at me, “no, it was awesome I just mean.” she paused and looked down like she was trying to find a way to say it. “I dont know I noticed how Han was looking at you.” Oh no here we go again she's going to make some claim about Peter. “He seemed like he was in complete shock that he was sitting across from you.” 

As much as I want to deny what she said, it was the truth even I caught his expression. “Yeah, I saw that too.” I laid on my back looking at the ceiling letting out a sigh.

“Look, I don't want to make assumptions but.” there's always a but, “we need to figure out if they are the same person.” Looking over at her expression I could tell she was serious. 

Quickly snapping my gaze away from hers I felt panic set in. When Gwen was serious about something she was usually right. I really didn't want her to be right. For the next half hour we tried to come up with a plan to figure out if Peter was Han. We settled on attempting to get him to meet me in person but there is a chance he'll cover his face again. Gwen argued that I've seen Han in person now, maybe there would be a way for me to identify him. Now all i had to do was wait for Peter to stop being mad at me.

[straykidzstay]

Small Victories Pt. 2

The paring is Han Jisung x F!Reader. The reader isn't into K-Pop but when your best friend gets your friend group a position in a contest to win a chance to preform with stray kids. You may not want to do it but you will do anything for Gwen. What can happen its not like you'll win.

Warning there is some mentions of reader's cheating ex

It had been exactly two weeks since we started preparing for this contest. We have spent nearly everyday working hard to master these performances. Working so hard that Gwen and the others decided we deserve a break day. So taking full advantage of finally being able to do whatever I want, I'm sitting at my favorite café drawing panels for my comic. I had been so deep into designing the panels I didn't realize Gwen had texted me so in her normal fashion she just called me instead of waiting for my response. Looking over at my phone I sighed, setting my pencil down, exchanging it for the annoying device. 

“Yeeees?” I answered the phone nonchalantly.

“Hey! I'm so sorry to ask but,” there's always a but. “I need you to come over and help me with the costumes..” as she said this I sighed at her.

“So much for a break day.” I know she could tell I was rolling my eyes. “Look, give me like 30 minutes and I'll be there.” 

“Thank you, I don't know what I would do without you Y/N!” I'm glad one of us is happy I hung up the call. I looked down at my artwork smiling to myself before I packed my things away into my bag. I was really starting to love how my story was playing out. As of recently I haven't had much time to work on it. Once this contest was over I could finally get back to spending most of my time on the comic. 

Standing up I waved at the barista behind the counter smiling at her before walking out the café. As I walked out I collided with a man who was a little taller than me, he was wearing a hat along with a face mask. As we collided my bag dumped out onto the sidewalk. Pure panic set in the moment I saw a few of my sketchbook pages scattered on the ground. Quickly I started trying to pick them up when the mystery man crouched down and began helping me.

“I'm so sorry! I wasn't paying attention and i didn't see you.” the stranger apologized to me as he looked down at the pages he was holding. “Whoa! Did you draw these?” He seemed impressed even though he was having a good reaction to my drawings. I was still extremely embarrassed. 

I smiled at him before taking my drawings back and repacking my bag. “Uhh, yes I did. I'm kinda writing a comic book.” saying it out loud to a stranger made me feel weird. I honestly hope this guy just glosses over it and we go about our ways. 

“That's really cool actually.'' All I could see of his face were his eyes and that definitely didn't give me much to go off of. “I'm actually a really big comic book fan.” I could tell by his voice he was smiling. 

“Oh really? Me too!” as i said this my phone went off snapping me back into reality. “I'm so sorry I really need to get going.” 

“Oh ok, umm id like to see more of your work.” he said this as he pulled his phone out of his pocket. “Could I get your number? Maybe you could send me some panels.." I blushed at his question. He wanted to see more of my art. Nervously I nodded , taking his device and typing my number in. “I'm sorry, again.”

Smiling one last time to him I said, “no worries!'' I quickly made my way to Gwen's house. She wondered why I had been a little late so I informed her of the mystery man. She was tickled to death over the situation. Talking about how I met my soulmate which I quickly shut down. I'm not worried about relationships, the last one I was in destroyed me. I'm not trying to get into anything. Even though it's been 2 years I still don't want to deal with it.

“Come on! You can't tell me if you saw his face and he was cute you would be so in love with him.” she said this, raising her eyebrows at me.

Scoffing at her I rolled my eyes, “as if! I'm not you hoe." We started laughing then dropping the conversation about the mystery man we started getting to work on piecing together costumes. After a while of sowing we decided to take a break. Gwen started scrolling on twitter and I started drawing of course. About ten minutes into our break My friend let out a dramatic gasp. I looked up at her, raising an eyebrow waiting for her to explain. 

“There's no fucking way!” She kept staring at her screen in disbelief. “I need you to look at this tweet, but don't freak out.” she held her phone out for me to take it. Still looking at her confused i took the phone in my hands. I looked at the tweet in shock trying to figure out what I was looking at.

“Do you think you ran into HAN!?” she asked as if her life depended on it causing me to shake my head. 

“There is no way I ran into Han Jisung.” I tossed her the phone. “That's just a coincidence.” It has to be true though what is the possibility that his tweet was talking about me. Plus even if it was the mystery guy still hasn't texted me so it's not like i could ask him who he was. “Even if it is, you know how I feel about men.”

Rolling her eyes at me she set her phone down. “We will just have to see if it is then.” crossing her arms she looked over at me. “Not every man is your ex Y/N. One day you're gonna find a guy you wanna date.” 

I laughed at her comment, “yeah when hell freezes over!” together we laughed off the whole situation. A few hours later we finished a lot of costume work and I decided it was time for me to get home. After saying our goodbyes I began my walk home. It was dark now and the streets were empty, usually this would make me nervous. Tonight however I found it peaceful. The stars were shining, there was a lack of clouds allowing for the moonlight to illuminate the surroundings. 

Nights like this made me think back to a time when I never walked alone. It's been a long time since I've existed like that. Having a companion who was with me for everything. When you start to depend on someone, that's when you give them a way to destroy you. They get the power to tear you down with their words and actions. It only takes one mistake to shatter someone's heart. 

It was a night much like this one. I was walking home alone, that night it was unusual. Normally i walked hand and hand with him home no matter what he was always there. Pushing down the growing fear in my stomach I wondered why I felt this way. He didn't need to be with me all the time, but this wasn't like him. I rushed home to the home we made together. When I opened the door I saw an extra pair of shoes by his. I stared at them trying to find a way to convince myself they belonged to his mom or maybe his sister. Neither of them ever wore heels but maybe they were a gift. Walking down the hall I saw no one in the kitchen or living room. I could start to feel myself shaking as I heard noises. 

I pushed the door open and that was the night I lost all the light I had in me. It was the night all the butterflies died and turned to punches that I screamed at to come back to life. Sadly, screaming doesn't make the pain better. I don't understand why something that happened so long ago could hurt like this. Still deep in thought I walked through my door setting my bag down on the counter. I ran a hand through my hair trying to decide if I was going to go to  bed or force myself to eat. Going to bed wining, I headed to my room and changed. As I laid  in my bed I heard my phone go off, sighing I picked it up it was a message from a new number. Hello mystery man I quickly opened the message.

We texted back and forth and ended up playing 20 questions until two in the morning. It was weird i didn't really talk to men or people. Unless it has to do with commission work or something with my friends I don't usually talk to anyone. I say that but here I am staring at a screen waiting for this random guy to respond to me. This honestly made me feel dumb yet still i continued to talk to him. 

For the next week I spent most of my free time getting to know Peter. We had quite a few things in common. We both enjoyed a lot of the same mangas, comics, and anime. We both loved cheese cake more than life and we both preferred cold coffee. We both could play instruments and dance. Since we started talking I've asked him what he looks like. I would get excuses about how he hates how he looks and me being an insecure person too, I respected his privacy. I still wished I had a face to place with the name one day he'll show me. 

[straykidzstay]

Small Victories

Hello this is my first time trying to write stuff like this. This is going to be a series, I have no clue how long it will be. The paring is Han Jisung x F!Reader. The reader isn't into K-Pop but when your best friend gets your friend group a position in a contest to win a chance to preform with stray kids. You may not want to do it but you will do anything for Gwen. What can happen its not like you'll win.

No warning in this part possibly in the future

Waking up to the sounds of my phone going off I groaned and snached the annoying device off of my bedside table. Fumbling with the device I managed to turn it around the screen lighting up in my face. Squinting my eyes I looked at the time it was about 1pm i shook my head at how late it was. My sleeping schedule is basically broken and the fact my room is protected from all sunlight doesn't help. My phone went off again bring my attention back to what originally woke me up. I quickly recognized the group chat letting out a sigh and I opened the messages ready to be stressed out. 

Rolling my eyes I locked my phone screen tossing the device to the side. I don't understand why they need me. I'm sure we have another friend that would take my place. When Mindy said I was the best dancer she wasn't lying. The only things i'm good at in life are dancing. Music, and drawing. So I understand the want for me to participate but still this competition's prize is performing with a famous K-Pop group called Stray Kids. Most people would die to get this opportunity, not me however. I never have been super into K-Pop. I think the dances are fun and all. I've just never really listened to it much, it's definitely something my friends judge me for. 

I guess I have no choice but to commit. They did go to a comic book convention for me and none of them are into my nerdy hobbies. Except Gwen she's my best friend and biggest supporter, she's the only one of my friends that know i'm writing a comic book. She's the biggest stray kids fan i've ever met so the only reason i'll do this is for her. I highly doubt we will win but ill give it my all. After overthinking this contest I got up and got ready for what was left of the day. As i finished eating my phone started ringing.

Picking it up I saw Gwen calling me. I answered the phone and paced it to my ear. “City morgue, can I help you?” I said smoothly, earning a laugh out of my friend. 

“Very fun! So have you thought about who in the group you wanna perform as?” she asked me this and I was dumbfounded. No, of course not. I didn't know we needed to perform as one of them.

“What are you talking about?” I questioned her i dont think ive ever been more confused about a competition.

“Dummy! Did you not read the email I sent you?” she asked me this like i just sit with my email open waiting for her to send me things. 

“No i in fact didn't but since you're here why don't you enlighten me.'' I said with a little attitude. 

She huffed at me and explained that it's not just a dance competition we have to cover songs and dances from stray kids on stage. Our judges are the group themself and a few representatives from JYP. Oh so I signed up for way too much. I thought we'd just have to dance but now we have to perform in costumes and everything. 

“Oh so the con was that bad that i'm being forced to sing and dance?” I asked half way joking.

“Y/n we got hit on by so many creepy men!” This shut me up because she was right that did happen the whole time. “I don't care if we win but I know you can sing and dance. I also know you love me enough to do this for me.” Gwen was right again and I'd do anything for her.

“Fine, i don't know you pick who i cover. I'll look into copying their stage presence." I hated having to copy somebody but sadly for these contests they want that. 

After talking for a while we decided I was gonna main Hans parts including high notes, rapping, and his choreo. I was going to switch to Felix and Hyunjin for a few parts of their choreo. Gwen and the other girls concluded their dancing was too hard to memic. We had to pick five songs to perform. My only request was Charmer, I liked it when my friends would play that song plus I've seen the dance a lot. They picked the other four songs God’s Menu, Maniac, Back Door, and Hellivator. I explicitly got told Hellevator was going to win it for us, something about how good our high notes are gonna be. 

I stayed up late working on my comic. Also if I went to sleep that meant I had to wake up. Waking up tomorrow meant that I would have to start studying Stray Kids, which I wasn't looking forward to. We have a month to be ready and I have no doubt there is no way we could win.