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A love that i love and a love that i hate

A love which i... tolerate

A man who lives to please

i; filled with buzzing fucking bees

Who knows no other way to please

Survive; we dont exactly thrive

We certainly do not thrive.

But i persist, nonetheless it is

Worth the strife; worth that kiss

That fucking kiss

My undoing was indeed

Laid out before me but i

Chose to disregard and so i

Step on shard after shard after shard

Of fucking glass; and the cuts

The cuts! Do they deter me?

No; i survive. I do not thrive but

I do love and love with all i am until i am cut; cut!

Too deep to bandage; too shallow to pack

So harsh; and deeper even still is my lack

I only wanted for one thing

Instead my ears ring and ring and ring and ring and ring and ring and ring

Why God couldnt he just give me this one thing?

Why God couldnt you just grant me this thing?

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if you’re poor right now it’s not the time to be proud. DO NOT pull yourself up by your bootstraps! Take handouts, get benefits, squat, steal, do what you have to do! Don’t let boujee ass housies tell you how to navigate your situation.

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How cruel a fate to love something you're never meant to have. To be so fundamentally opposed to something yet so dangerously in love.

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Romeo + Juliet (1996) dir. Baz Luhrmann

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Its 4pm and i thought it was later

Im drunk and in fear mode

All men are the same i suppose

But this one is different.

He didnt try to kill me when he was mad

But i still felt my scars ache from the last one

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This pussy so good it really should be paying my bills but instead im simpin

This shit so fire it should have em kissing my mama but instead its me

akakakakkakakakakkakaka

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“We pride ourselves on faults that are opposite to those we really have; when we are weak, we boast that we are being stubborn.”

— François de La Rochefoucauld, Moral Reflections

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just scrapped an embarrassing and self pitiful vent paragraph. instead i will write another prayer request post. hospitalized today (again. yay.) worried about my son whom i'm currently pregnant with as well as my toddler son. for different reasons.

honestly i've been very standoffish with God lately. i've distanced myself from him and everybody else in just a constant state of Working to try and fix a seemingly unfixable situation. if you would be so kind, please pray for my babies, as well as for me to not completely lose my soul to the bitterness and hopelessness of the situation(s.)

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the cupcake is such a beautiful idea. oh a little cake you can hold in your hand? and decorated so cutely no less? how delightful!

but the reality of eating a cupcake is the most undignified process there's really no winning. you can lick the icing off or you can try to get a bite off the whole side of it which compromises the integrity of the whole structure crumbling the icing is all over your mouth and nose and forehead at the end of it desperately surping and sucking at the clumps stuck to the wrapper which doesn't even succeed in keeping it from getting all over your hands just total wild animal experience

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it doesn’t truly hit me how incredible “I need you” is until I realize that I myself have never said it to another person

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Sorry to make another gofundme but my landlord is selling this property & I've been served my 2 months notice.

As a poor dyke with no savings stuck on welfare I'm at risk of homelessness

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no wrong turns. my path is my path.