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vent. probably will delete later. need to go on an extended hiatus but I don’t know if I’ll actually go through with it yet

I keep having these reoccurring dreams where I apologize to everyone I ever hurt. Everyone I ever lost contact with. And they all just laugh or tell me how fucking stupid I am for even trying. And then I wake up and I realize that I’ll never, ever be able to apologize to them because they want nothing to do with me.

I had it. It was right there. Love. Friends. People who cared about me. People who worried about me. And I made them all hate me. I keep telling myself I moved on but I know that’s a lie. I’ll probably never move on. I’ll never let go of how majorly I fucked up. I’ll always know what a dense, selfish motherfucker I am. I’ll always have that text that they sent me right after I graduated- the novel telling me precisely what an utter piece of garbage I am. Everything I did and said wrong. Every way that I hurt them. And what did I do? Tried to argue my way out of it. Like any selfish piece of shit would.

And they were right. About everything. I thought I was alone before, but I obviously had no idea what loneliness really meant. I do now. God I really was a fucking moron.

I don’t know why I’m typing this. I don’t know what I hope to gain out of this. If you’re reading this, go let someone you care about know that you love them. I don’t care who it is. Friend, boyfriend, girlfriend, brother, sister, parent- fucking goldfish idk. I don’t care. Just let them know. Listen to them when they talk to you. Hold them close. Let them know they aren’t alone, and know that you aren’t alone, either. Please.

I don’t know what to do from here. I don’t know how to move on. I don’t know how to do anything. I miss my friends. I miss my friends so goddamn much.

I’m sorry

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POV: he stole your wallet

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I’m sorry but I will always react in visceral disgust when I see people who still think creating gacha life characters is a valid form of art. You’re just taking assets from a shitty mobile game and editing them, that’s not drawing.

If you want the “gacha life artstyle” that’s fine (but also why would you want that?), but you aren’t learning anything from just ripping the assets straight from the game and using those. It’s especially disheartening to see kids doing this, considering how atrocious its fandom is.

Seriously- its fandom hasn’t changed in the slightest over the years. Just go to YouTube and search “gacha life” and you’ll still immediately find “heat” content and other gross shit like that. It’s nsfw made by kids (or weird adults) for kids.

Sorry to bring up such a dark topic out of nowhere, but this is something that’s bothered me for quite a while. I feel like people kinda pushed it under the rug and stopped talking about it. Maybe I’m wrong, I dunno

Edit: read comments for a bit more context!

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I’m helping my family deep clean the house in preparation for moving rn, but that doesn’t mean I’m not constantly thinking about these goobers lol

Bonuuuusss

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Cleaning out our basement and my brother found a bunch of his old video games

Tom Clancy’s hawk tuah……

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If I was one of the last people on earth and AM hit me with this I’d be like “sooooo are you flirting with me orrrrrrr…………..”

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do you ever draw something for yourself that’s so deliciously self-indulgent that you just sit there like

[Image ID: 2 digital drawings of a short-haired person drawing on a tablet. In the first image they are looking at the screen and blushing pink. In the second image they are looking away from the screen and blushing more heavily, with the caption “…is this allowed?”. End ID]

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Rough recreation of an interaction I witnessed in a tf2 server last night

>A: it’s too chill in this server

>A: where’s all the racists

>A: somebody say the n word with the hard r already

>B: no (r)

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STANLEY FACT: Stanley is NOT human (shocking, I know). He comes from a species of humanoid aliens, known as “Huemann” (or Huemenn).

He originates from “Khroma”- a mid-sized planet known for its generous people, high biodiversity in both flora and fauna, and sprawling, prosperous farmlands. They’re also one of the most popular planets for trading goods and services across the galaxy!

Follow-up fact: despite literally being raised on a farm, Stanley is horrible at keeping plants alive- so he chooses not to keep any.

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[Cw: knife, creepy eyeball guy, Stanley in distress, shitty sketches I made while I was sleepy] [EDIT: AND SWEAR WORDS!!!!.,! 😰]

Sketched out a short comic(???????) last night. Idk what it is or if it’s canon (yet) but I just really wanna make something inspired by “Parasyte: The Maxim” rn

The creature feature. Featuring: the creature…….

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Hmmmmmmmm. I have an insatiable urge to do fucked up and evil shit to my ocs. Having a craving for angst. I need to put Stanley in a situation.

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SCREAMING SOBBING CRYING THROWING UP /POS

SHES SO CUTTTEEEE <3333

Spent way too much fucking money at the arcade today but every cent of it was worth it for

✨HER✨

I am such a responsible adult

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Spent way too much fucking money at the arcade today but every cent of it was worth it for

✨HER✨

I am such a responsible adult

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what were your oc's like as kids? How did their personalities and viewpoints on others evolve as they matured into adults?

Oooo I like these questions a lot! Here’s some sketches/infodumps that hopefully provide a bit more insight

Overall, Richard and Felicia both kinda stayed the same, in a way? They both just got better at getting away with stuff, and pretending that they aren’t assholes

Cloudia unfortunately started masking a lot of her “tomboy”-ish tendencies when she got older, in favor of fitting in with her peers.

And Stanley is a mess. As always <3

Bonus btw :3

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For those of you that have sent in OC questions, please know that there is a good chance I have seen yours and you are not being ignored! I am drawing some responses, albeit slowly lmao

also thank you to those who have sent in questions/suggestions so far! I love infodumping about my ocs to whoever will listen, and your feedback is very helpful for brainstorming new ideas and fleshing out my characters even more.

Anywaaayy,, back to the grind 💪

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[Cool and interesting caption that makes you want to look at my art]