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Otto's Vices Draft

"So, this is your room?" she says with subtle curiosity. "It's very tidy,"

I feel a wrench in my stomach. I look at her. The air in my mouth is solidifying and sliding down my throat. If I asked her about it, she would know that I'm attracted to her for sure.

"You can sit down if you want," I say loudly enough to hide my anxiety. she sits on my bed. We both are quiet.

"So… here's the thing. I don't want to be impolite, or break your boundaries, but if I get hungry… You know what I have to do, right? Only with your permission of course,"

"Uhm… You'd have to do it… With me?" my face flush.

An abrupt laughter comes from her. "Oh my god. That's right! I forgot education on Concubi sucks! No, don't worry; you can keep your innocence,"

if only she knew…

"No, I'd just mercilessly tease you, that's all," She says with a confident grin.

My heart skips a beat. She laughs.

"By the way, you're going to have to start to calm down. You have some overwhelming vibes that could kill my ability to focus,"

"that's a bit rude, isn't it?"

"You tell me. You don't know what it's like to feel everything other's feel. Your anxiety is literally making me nauseous," I can't help but feel a little bit bad. It feels weird to have so much weight and importance being put on my emotions.

"Sorry, I know you can't help what you feel. What usually calms you down?"

I start listing all the things I do to relax, which include: Herbal tea, getting snuggled up in my blanket and listening to rain or a podcast.

She quickly rumages my room to find my tea and my blanket. Then she comes back with a smug look on her face.

"What's that look for?" I say, a bit concerned.

"Oh, I just got a weird idea,"

"What's that?"

She hesitates for a moment. "Could I tuck you in the blanket? I think it would be… very relaxing for you,"

My heart pounds at the idea, which confuses me. There is nothing s3xual about this whatsoever, yet I feel excited.

How could I say no?

Very swiftly, she traps me in the blanket, like a spider traps a fly in her web. However, I feel safe, warm, excited… and, other things.

She snickers. "Do you feel more relaxed, pet?" She says in a mocking tone. The words send a shiver down my spine.

She gasps "Is that a tent or are you just happy to see me?"

She continues to belittle me "You know, puppies should be better at hiding their toys," Her tone shifts, as she dangles it in front of me.

She becomes stern "I told you I'm not going to have s3x with you, mutt,"

I become deep red. There is nothing I could do to hide my inferiority, as my hands are trapped, and my… boner is being a lot more extroverted than me.

"But now that I've seen your beautiful collar, I have to know what you look like in it. Is it okay if I put it on?"

My head instinctively nods.

"Good, puppy!" She says in a condecending tone.

I feel my brain melt as she clicks the collar around my throat. The sound of the clicking further establishes my place.

"Oh, my god! Look at that cute little puppy!"

I couldn't help but smile a little bit. Praise has always been my achilles heel.

"As soon as I saw you, I knew you were a k1nky horndog… I just didn't know it would be this litteral," She laughs

I can feel my redness and wetness.

"Aww, is my puppy getting a little excited?"

I freeze. I can only manage to muster a few I's and Uhm's.

"Come on, use your words," She says teasingly.

"Yes,"

"Yes, what?"

"Yes, I'm excited,"

"Good puppy,"

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Mad

she saw the world with rose tinted glasses the red flags on the horizon only looked slighty more vibrant while she felt the thorns dig into her temples poison pumping into her hatred in her veins now the rose tinted glasses only seemed more red

tongue numbed with nasty words but never leaves her head why is it when she looks at people she only wants them dead the world is sadistic warm and animalistic only animals have the dicipline to follow their instinct

evil isn't born only formed and made but why is it when we rub our thumbs we do it for our selfish gain money and pride death and life words that mean nothing in our sick and twisted game

I used to want to hurt now I want to hurt all those people that turned my world into a blody ruined mess I see the evil in people I see beyond the flesh The frenzic power of biting into flesh

people are disgusting people are rotten there seems to be a truth I've unwillingly forgotten

violence comes from hate the gluttonous need for power So maybe instead of turning bitter I should take a boiling shower

you hear them talking in your mind leaves you falling behind so before you're far to gone yell in their ear "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I don't deserve bullies like you telling me what to do so LEAVE ME ALONE

I will kick and scream leave you whimpering hear you begging me "LEAVE ME ALONE!"

"That's what you get for being a social shark," that's what you get for leaving me in the dark didn't like me from the start, but decieved me anyway because self-reflection brings you pain I don't subscribe to your ways

You don't know the amount of times I cried every night not being near my friends but where was the invite had to invite myself had to ask for help where you ever at all my friends?

Yes, I'm angry, still and I will die on this hill You trampled on my respect I will trample on yours You weren't even happy, so what was I good for?

sometimes I wish you were dead Not taking back what you said even though I never heard those words at all People like you makes my skin crawl

The bare minimum: that you respect instead of being invested you just infected me with your self-loathing, heavy, boiling poison CONGRATS: I'M ON YOUR FUCKING LEVEL NOW MEDAL TO YOU INFACT A FUCKING MEDAL TO EVRYONE YOUR PHENOMENAL ACTING SKILLS DESERVES A FUCKING REWARD

I'm really angry now more than ever before