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I got a referral to a day psychiatric hospital, I have my first consultation in over a month, but I will have to move to another city for 12 weeks

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I think my mom thinks I'm fat

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If I died, let her know that one conversation could save me

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I think these are my last days

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I feel like I'm going to kill myself, I don't know when but I feel like I will

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omg i'm so jealous of her boyfriend, she wants to be with me but still with him, who the fuck she wants to be with, if in a few days I'll probably kill myself, she won't have to choose anymore

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I am now going to art classes at the school I want to get into and I am very stressed that others will be able to do much more than me and that I have some bad paints. It's literally so stressful

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If it wasn't for the fact that I'm meeting her on Friday, I would kill myself in this moment

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If it wasn't for the fact that I'm meeting her on Friday, I would kill myself in this moment

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I want to lie in a pool of blood

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I can't find that fucking razor blade

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I don't want treatment or anything like that, I just want to die

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What they don't understand, I don't want to heal

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od kiedy ludzie się o mnie martwią?

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Why won't they let me die, I want it so badly, I want to be dead

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I'm probably going to a mental hospital, but I guess if I don't end up there with my veins slashed, they won't take me seriously

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it's still hard for me to accept that she prefers and loves her boyfriend more than me, and I'm trying so hard