sunrisefictives

[sunrisefictives]

Our Sebastian fictive is actually a father figure to me, as an o'Ciel fictive

TW // mention of a ship with age difference, mention of pstd

So, first of all, I would like you to use Ciel to refer to me even though I use another name in daily basics. I like my privacy about it. Also, I will use he/him for Sebastian because ours use them the most, but ofc it doesn't mean its the only valid pronoun.

I decided to write this post because while looking up "ciel fictive" on tumblr I only saw romantic relationship between Ciel fictives and Sebastian fictives.

I'm going to be honest, that ship has been a trigger for me since I formed, and still is. But years goes and through them I understood that we all deal with trauma in differents ways. Plus, I also understood sometimes a confort ship means something so important to someone to give it up even if they know the problematic around it.

I'm not digging so much more into it, i just want to clarify that I dont judge any of this fictives. Live your lifes, finds the way to happiness, do your own stuff without hurting nobody, take care of bad people.

Clarified this, I want to make visible other realities so other fictives can relate with.

It's ok if you see Sebastian as a threat...

It's ok if you find a platonic/fraternal confort in Sebastian...

It's ok if you don't want to have nothing to do with any Sebastian...

It's ok to have complex feeling about Sebastian...

It's ok to be friend with Sebastian...

Whatever you're feeling, sure there is someone more experiencing it

More than a decade passed since I formed. About our Sebastian fictive is unclear. He has some memories flying around the past, until finally being more concious since a year ago and so.

As I said, Sebastian was a trigger for me. So you can imagine how bad I toke his frecuenly presence at the front. Through months, I had this scuffle of trust and fear, while he was trying to clear the situation in his mind. He was trying to translate how he was feeling about his new "human" life in the system and his relationship with me. Thanks to the system partner, who i see as my parent too, Sebastian tried to talk with me about it. I toke it so badly (??) Honestly. But some time after we "broke" the contract and re-start.

He is really helping me with my ptsd symtops, he honestly seems to care... and for months I doubt it any time when i woke up. Until day by day he acted caring about me and other headmates. He is a caretaker ™️ even though he feel things different "as a demon".

So, nowadays I rely on him. And I want to embrace it as a part of my healing... i guess???

Thanks for ready my self indulgent post. Hope it make someone less lonely or confused.

Please don't tag my post as S3baci3l, i made it clear i'm not confortable with it even though I don't want to judge others!!!!

— o!Ciel fictive

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Fictives of Sunrise System

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☆ We're mostly mixtives with OC/ original stories, but to protect ourselves we choose not to talk about them (OC / Original stories)

★ We don't share our simply plural, neither our plural kit/discord

☆ LGBT+ system

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