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reason why I'm getting married tbfh

When they hype up your nudes and can hold intelligent conversations and they're funny and check on your mental health 🥴🥺

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dammit I read one too many fan fics & now im in a baaaadddd Lee mood.

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honestly if you dont have some type of cringe-ass autism-induced deviantart-tier fetish you arent truly living life

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I think it's funny how Tsukiyama wanting to eat Kaneki is really just a subplot after the Gourmet Arc. It's like, "at this point, Kaneki's life sucks so much that being stalked by a cannibal is the least of his concerns".

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EMDR therapy win: Confidence has increased and since processing some memories I've been able to unlock the ability to write again!

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When I was younger I used to spend hours writing stories and listening to music. I lost the motivation to do this years ago. I recently had the natural urge to re-write an original content piece I wrote when I was 15/16. I stopped after 26 pages tho. I'm re-doing it the way I wanted when I was younger and I've loved the project so far.

Healing from ptsd is exhausting sometimes but seeing the fruits of my hard work is making it worth it.

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8 months until wedding day 💚💚💚💚💚 < 2:40pm March 15th

8 months away!!! 245 days, to be exact. Ive been working on centerpieces this month. Half the tables will be the hexagon things & the other half the geometric things. My dress comes in really soon (within the next week or so) & i am SOOO excited to see it. We're finishing up finding decor & storage is like playing tetras atp 🤣 I'm really excited about the next 8 months. I've loved wedding planning so much, tho I'm genuinely going to be sad once it is over. Venue is hosting an open house next weekend 🙌🏻 We're going to start looking into honeymoon destinations soon!! We want to go to a quiet cabin in the woods & we're already hoping for snow. I can't wait to marry my best friend soon 💚

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Intimacy is not who you let touch you. Intimacy is who you text at 3am about your dreams and fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when ten other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person always in the back of your mind, no matter how distracted you are.

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Sex is cool, but 2am nights where you are cuddled just talking, laughing, appreciating and getting to know each other on a deeper level is the best shit ever>>>

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my brain is being plagued with the memories of people who aren't in my life anymore and the curiosity of how they're doing and what they became. It's exhausting.

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being in a lee mood at 2am when you're alone is sO fReAkimG FrUSTRating AGHH

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3:46pm February 15th 2024 <- 9 months away from my wedding day!!!

I got my shoes this week!!! Ahhh!!! My whole bridal look is almost completed. My dress comes in really soon. We've gathered table supplies & tons of glasses. About to get crafty and make center pieces.

I have also sent out 99% of our save the dates!!!!

Fiancé & I are starting to look at apartments. So excited to start my life with him. I'll be slowly moving in over time. Visiting often. I'm 100% confident in our ability to live together. I'm excited to begin healing from my past. I'm excited for saftey. I'm excited to be at peace in my home.

So. Freaking. Excited.

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Beast of the past

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It's 12:36am Jan. 15th 2024. I am 10 months away from my wedding.

A lot is going thru my head, and it's mostly just a LOT of excitement. After nearly a decade of friendship and 6 years of being with the person I love the most, we finally get to start our forever with each other. We finally get to spend every day together. We finally get to cook, clean, laugh, cry, chill, and enjoy each other forever. We get to do life together!!!

I started planning out decorations for our first place together. I've started mentally preparing for a physical relationship with him. I'm becoming a wife slowly over these next 10 months. I cannot wait to be by his side as we start our lives together. I'm excited to see what the future brings us & what we learn together as we go from betrothed to wedded. & no, im not some trad wife bullshit kinda girl. I'm simply just excited to be at peace with my absolute favorite human & finally feel safe 💓 (I'm diagnosed with PTSD, more on that another time)

My wedding dress comes in next month, we have a day of coordinator now & I've begun ordering decorations!! I'll send out save the dates soon once we finish gathering last minute addresses. I can't wait for you all to see them, I'm designing everything for our big day.

I'm so excited 😊

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y'all should be hella greatful. I have my likes hidden. I got some kinky shit in there. y'all would be like tf is wrong with her

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I'm 2 weeks post wisdom teeth removal today & now I have to use a syringe and like flush the back lower sites and it is the weirdest freaking thing to do 🤣🤣🤣

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Not socialist in a “I won’t have to work” type of way but socialist in a “I’ll still be working but I won’t be worried I won’t make the rent” type of way. In a “billions won’t be hoarded by one person” type of way. In a “janitors, fast-food workers, child care workers, preschool teachers, hotel clerks, personal care and home health aides, and grocery store cashiers, will live comfortably” type of way. In a “the sick and elderly will be cared for” type of way. In a “no child should work” type of way.

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if you came here from Twitter, I'm sorry for the things I post at like 2am.