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I'm afraid I'm losing the idgaf war

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Happy blissed out kevjean Thursday.

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Nora cannot give me canon Kevjean pinning and not expect me to write about it...

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andreil heard “crush” by ethel cain and decided to make it everyone’s problem

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those eyes

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NEIL JOSTEN EVERYONE

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Cat's and Jean's friendship is very important to me 🫂

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more vampire au

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will never stop thinking about Andrew rambling about random shit, maybe a book he's reading, and he's comfortable, he's with Neil, and he doesn't realize.

until he does, and he gets flustered because god why does he talk so much? but Neil is just laying there, looking at him with those eyes, and he doesn't look annoyed, or zoned out, or anything, he's just listening

Andrew hates him.

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a welcome third

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Sketch of the boys while we wait for TSC to come out and break our hearts

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The queen of exy 👑😌

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The gang at Eden's Twilight 🍸🪩

(R.I.P. Kevin 😔✌🏼)

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the kevneil arguing dynamic is deeply important to me theyre like 2 chihuahuas yapping at each other. like 2 flies buzzing at each other and then hitting the windows

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party animal

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“You are a Fox. You are always going to be nothing." Andrew stubbed his cigarette out. "I hate you."

"Nine percent of the time you don't."

"Nine percent of the time I don't want to kill you. I always hate you."

"Every time you say that I believe you a little less."

"No one asked you." With that, Andrew caught Neil's face in his hands and leaned in.

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I hope you like them :)

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i know a lot of people think that neil isn't a huge fan of touching or cuddling because his mom never showed him a lot of affection. but i think in the books he mentions how his mom never really showed affection towards him, but he knew how much she cared about him because of how tightly she held him at night while they slept--he knew, at least subconsciously, that he was her baby, and she'd do anything to keep him safe. so in my mind, one of the most important pieces of neil's love language is being held.

i think after a tiring day of class, a rough game, a sleepless night, or just a long day, neil goes to andrew and holds out his arms, question on his face. andrew will allow a couple seconds of fronted apathy, then carefully bundle neil into his arms and hold him tight. neil curls into himself, making himself and small as he can, and buries his face in andrews neck, curls his fingers in andrews shirt or locks his arms around andrew's neck. sometimes neil will wordlessly tug andrew to the couch or bed and andrew will let him curl up against andrews chest. andrew pretends to be exasperated, berates neil for being so needy; but it's obvious he enjoys it by how tender his touches become, how he breathes in neil's smell and kisses his hair. neil will make little contented sounds and andrew will kiss his head in reply.

this is how andrew starts re-associating touch with love and safety rather than danger: andrew is a protector, a caretaker, at heart, so holding neil when he needs it is easier than a lot of other kinds of touch. to andrew, this is just another part of looking after his boy. their love language is protecting/being protected; this act--not just cuddling, but holding and being held--is, in my mind, a big part of their relationship.

ugh. really i am just touch starved and andreil cuddling gives me lots of extra HP, so. yeah. here.