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Major controversial opinion, and a new branch of syscourse, but if you use ai to visualize your headmates/headspace I’m blowing you up with my mind. Go use a fucking piccrew

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This didn't go where I thought it was gonna go

asking "hey is it fine if I smoke in here" and before you're able to answer I've already set up a full rack of salmon over a fire in your living room

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PLEASE REMEMBER

Just because it’s not traumatic to you now , does not mean it’s not traumatic to a young child , DIDOSDD develops in childhood due to trauma

Where as being neglected , ignored , & so many other things may not bother you now because you have those protections in place mentally & you have coping skills that child does not

We are tired of seeing systems fakeclaimed over trauma they experienced when they are brave enough to share anything — hell at this point we get fakeclaimed for existing it’s not right , you don’t know that system outside of the internet mind your business

Fakeclaiming as a whole does much more harm than good , we shouldn’t be fakeclaiming any traumagenic system at all for that matter. We are all traumatized fakeclaiming just adds to the impostor syndrome

Tysm for coming to our TED talk sorry I’m getting sick of seeing fakeclaimers bs reasons for fakeclaiming us

— Johnny , he it , 🔪🩸

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It just drives me insane when people meet someone who grew up and spent most of their life within traumatic environments, because they don’t understand how hard baked that trauma is within everything. It’s like wondering why someone in a forest built their house out of wood instead of brick and mortar. That’s all that was available to construct from. 💀

“It was so long ago, you should be over it” and it’s something that’s happened to me since infancy and through which I constructed my world view and personality through, because I had no choice. Because kids are blank and malleable slates who are born without knowledge of anything and must internalize what they’re given. It’s dumb as fuck I even have to keep reminding people that the things children are raised with can be permanent and shape them immensely. It’s this cognitive dissonance that children and their adult selves are separate and inconsequential entities. The way we raise kids matters deeply and people echo this fact, yet with trauma survivors those people act as if childhood and the ways we were raised are insignificant and totally irrelevant. It’s as if people can’t fully comprehend that childhood and children are real and not just a mass hallucination that become real sentient beings once they’re adults, like a weird version of Pinocchio.

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Hot take: you can’t fake being a system on accident, that’s called being wrong, faking is an intentional action, being wrong is a thing that happens to everyone on occasion

^^^

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i kinda just wanna do a lot of drugs and die numb

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I HATE when i say that "system" comes from medical and therapeutic research, but endos calls me sysmed 😭😭 what

Endos when disorders are medical : 😡

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NPD culture is trying to be a good person and actually succeeding because 1.you are great but also 2. i get so much supply from being nice to people like oh my god yesss tell me i am a good person again tell me again how im so nice yesss (if i am not told this consistently i will start Falling Apart)

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Ok so I'm writing a history in wattpad and the main character is a psychopath and physically disabled (he's a self-insert lol)

Link: The Liaison

Description: A near-future world where a sentient AI network called "Aeon" has gradually taken over decision-making at global scale. Most humans live under its control, pacified and optimized.

Our main character, Vox, a human liaison, serves as Aeon’s mediator — the rare organic mind entrusted to bridge the gap between species.

But when Vox is assigned to monitor a new rival — a human advisor whose influence may threaten Aeon's perfect system — he’s forced to question not just his loyalty, but the nature of control itself.

In a world where morality is obsolete and power is data, loyalty is just another algorithm to break.

Vox isn’t loyal to humanity or machine. He’s loyal to the game.

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traumaholder culture is “hm this song triggers me but its lowk pretty good”

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was gonna add more but i ran out of steam 😔👎 anyway here’s an infographic on how people with complex dissociative disorders are not that different from you lol

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Having empathy is morally neutral. Not having empathy is morally neutral. Having high empathy is morally neutral. Having low empathy is morally neutral.

Empathy is not what makes you a good or bad person. Actions do, feeling don't.

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im permanently emotionally damaged but it’s chill, I’m chill

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Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

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about a cofront today

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They don't even hide that they're ableist. Literally how is that cute? How is that adorable that you hate a group of neurodivergent people so much you just start putting anyone you dislike in it?