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two years, and some change
sirius black x fem!reader | 3.3k
summary: two years after james and lily got married, they have a baby for you to watch over while they go on a date. unexpectedly, you earn yourself an unlikely partner in the houseâsirius black. (the tag-team babysitter theme was inspired by this fic!) cw/tags: fluff, slight angst, crackfic, supreme husband material james, jily moments, baby harry potter, inaccurate one-year-old behavior, sirius and reader are bitter but friends, reader gets closure, sirius is kinda yearning, and an open ending. lmk if i missed any <3 note: after almost a year... here is pt 2 to bittersweet reminiscing! this is my take on what would happen after the wedding and everything... unfortunately, reader does not fall in love w somebody else here (or... does she?)
<- the prequel | the sequel â (but both can be read as a stand-alone)
âSo bedtimeâs at 8 PM, and if he gets fussy, thereâs formula in the cupboard. I already taught you how to make his bottle, right?â Lily said, green eyes wide with motherly worrying.Â
You nod your head, smiling reassuringly at her, âYes, you have.âÂ
The redhead takes your answer with a relieved sigh. âRight⌠what else is there⌠erââÂ
âDarling, I love you, and I love how much you love our sonâbut the reservation we made at that Muggle restaurant wonât keep waiting for us.â
A soft chuckle escapes your lips, and James winks at you as he enters the mudroom, shrugging on his coat to brave the cold outside. Since he and Lily had married, he was almost always at least a step behind his wife. Â
âOh, James,â She says, sheepish with her worrying. âYouâre rightâIâm sorry.âÂ
At the sight of her husband appearing beside her, Lily visibly deflates. Itâs a wonder how someone you once called âthe bane of your existenceâ could also be someone youâll vow to spend the rest of your life with.Â
âTsk. Never apologise for nothing, my love,â James chastises his wife with a kiss on the top of her head.Â
You watch them for a while longer. Lily looks up at James and smiles, listening to him reassuring that Harry would be just fine without his parents for a night. Your chest fills up with something wistful and longing. But not to be in Lilyâs place, not anymore. Just⌠for what it feels like to have the kind of love that they share. The love that seems too good to be true.Â
ââand who knows?â James continues. âMaybe Hazâll like hanging out with Y/N so much, sheâll have no choice but to keep babysitting him! Then weâll get to go on dates more often.â
âIâm still here, you know,â You comment dryly.
He scoffs, rolling his eyes as he steps toward you, draping an arm over your shoulder. âOf course, and the missus and I are so grateful for your service. Really! Canât thank you enough for it.â
Suddenly, a loud wail sounded from somewhere in the house, alerting all three of you at once.
âIâm assuming thatâs Harry awake from his nap?â You chuckle, slightly amused.
âYep,â Lily sighs, but sheâs got a smile on her face that tells you sheâs not bothered by the crying. âIâll be right back, guys.â
She moves back into the house, heading for the nursery to pick up the little lad youâd come to watch over for your friends.
âYou know⌠sheâs always with himâLily,â James says after a moment, eyes still trained onto the spot where his wife had just been. Then he shifts his gaze to you, smiling softly. âIt really means a lot that you get to do this for us.â
Thereâs a meaningful kind of look in his eyes as theyâre still on you. In the past, you might have taken it as something to hope for, to lose sleep on and think does he like me?Â
But times have changed, and you mirror his smile with one of your own, sincere and genuine. Youâve come a long way since Hogwartsâthe both of you have. And you wouldnât change a single thing about how things turned out.
âDonât mention it,â You eventually reply.
Just as James opens his mouth to respond, probably with a comment glorifying your âhumility,â Lily returns with their son in her arms.Â
âLook who just woke upâŚâ She announces gently, careful not to startle the one-year-old in her arms. Little Harry blinks groggily at the light overhead in the mudroom, slumped against his motherâs shoulder.
James coos at the sight of his wife and son together. But mostly, really, heâs overcome with sweetness as he nears Lily to scoop Harry up from her arms.
âHello, Hazza!â He greets Harry, who responds with a gurgle of his own.
Then, the doorbell rings. You assume Lily had it installed for Muggle reasons.
You turn to your friendsâ little family, and start walking towards the front door. âIâll go get it.â
Behind you, Lily thanks you kindly, but itâs slightly drowned out by the sound of James talking to Harry. Heâs always been loud, James⌠but you donât think youâve ever heard him love so loud before until his son was born.
Three knocks sound against the wooden front door as you go to open it.Â
âHow impatientâŚâ you mutter under your breath. Your hand twists the doorknob finally, pulling the door open andâ
Sirius looks away from behind him, turning back to face you with his own surprise on his face. He tilts his head slightly, eyes narrowed.
âWhat are you doing here?â You both chorus.Â
Then you share a short moment of laughter, soft chuckles leaving your lips while Sirius did the same.Â
But itâs him who recovers from the moment first. âIâm here toââ
âIâm here to babysit⌠HarryâŚâ You pause yourself, having just said the exact same thing as he did. Again.
Sirius chuckles, though a little unsure. âWell⌠thatâs interesting. Moons told meââ
âPadfoot?!â James calls out from behind you, carrying Harry still in his arms. âOh, this day just got so much better!â
âSirius?â Lily appears in between you and James by then, also surprised by his arrival, but she masks it instantly with a kind smile. âWhy donât you come in?â
And so, Sirius Black is let in the Potter household. You step aside, still reeling in the small shock of seeing another one of your best friends, unexpectedly. Itâs not like it was a big deal⌠but itâs been monthsânearly a year, since you last saw Sirius.
James hands you baby Harry, breaking you out of your trance and reminding you of reality. The baby makes a disagreeing sound as soon as heâs transferred to you, but you adjust your hold on him and make him comfortable. Soon enough, Harryâs entertained by the necklace sitting on your chest.Â
You watch James and Lily talk with Sirius. Soon, you learn that the latter had come by because apparently, Remus told him that Harry needed some babysitting. That his parents couldnât find anyone else to do it, so Sirius should. Naturally, as godfather, he showed up.
But then the raven-haired man gets told by Lily that you had been up for the job. Ever since James had phoned you about planning a date with his wife. Sirius looks confused, so does Lily, and James⌠he looks just fine.Â
He looks happy, even. But maybe a little too⌠happy.
âInterestingâŚâ James speaks up after a while, looking between you and Sirius with narrowed eyes. âVery interesting.â
Then, silenceâwhich then gets broken by the curious noises Harry was making as he pulled at your necklace.Â
âWell, the two of you make a great team!â His father exclaims, taking his wife by the hand and pulling her towards the front door, still slightly ajar.Â
Lily is startled but doesnât pull away. âWait, Jamesââ
âBut my wife and I have got some place to beââ
âJames,âYou and Sirius chorus, again.
ââand Iâd hate to disappoint her,â James stops just below the doorframe, still holding Lily who now stands outside the house.Â
Then, he turns to the baby in your arms, and smiles dopily at him. âBe good, Haz. Mumma and Dada love you.â
At that, Harry turns away from your necklace and makes grabby hands at his Dada. That warrants an alarm for all four of the adults currently in his radar at the moment.
âAlright, just call us if you need anything! Goodbye!â James gets a hand on the doorknob, pulling the door close.
âJamesââ
Lily looks mildly betrayed behind her husband. âJames Fleamont Potterââ
And the parents are finally out of sight.
For a solid five seconds, everything is quiet. You and Sirius share a wary glance with each other, before you turn to Harry in your arms.
And then, everything is not quiet. The boy squirms in your arms, and you fight to keep him still and comfortable at the same time. Then, Harry starts to whine, calling pitifully out for his Mumma, sending both you and Sirius into slight, but controlled panic.
âAlright,â Sirius says, moving to take Harry from you. âWhy donât you hand him overââ
âUh, no thank you?â You tell him, twisting your body away with Harry in tow, but youâre still struggling.Â
âLike you know how to calm him down,â you continue.
âOh, and you know how?â
Youâre rendered silent by that, now bouncing Harry up and down absentmindedly.Â
âOkay, fair point.â
âListen, we wonât get Harry to calm down if we fight,â Sirius says, glancing worriedly at his godson. âSo weâll have to cast our egos aside and help each other out, alright?â
You look down at Harry in your arms, now mumbling around his fist in his mouth. Youâre not sure if he was teething or still lamenting over the absence of his parents. You look back up at Sirius.
âSo be it, then.â
âââââââ
They say it takes a whole village to raise a child.
You have no idea how James and Lily had a whole village to raise Harry.
But in the homely space that was their kitchen, you couldnât find a place where there might be the whole village you and Sirius needed at the moment.
Harry was crying. Actually, he has been since his parents had gone off to their rare date night and left you and Sirius to take care of him. But you were growing more and more worried and panicky as the one-year-old ceased to stop. You felt awful, not because of the baby, but because of your poor handling of the baby.
You could tell Sirius was just as stressed, too. His humor and comedic attempts at distracting the baby did work a few times. But alas, Harry just wanted his Mumma and Dada back.
Now, you were trying to get the one-year-old to take the bottle you just made for him. But he keeps refusing, curling into Siriusâ neck and weeping still. You try very hard not to be frustrated with Harry himself. You donât want to traumatize the poor boy by getting stern from desperation.
You sigh heavily, running a hand over your face. âSirius, I dunno what to do.â
âSâokay, sâokayâŚâ He whispers to Harry in his arms, bouncing him slightly.Â
âThis is not how I pictured my first babysitting gig.â
âWell, that makes two of us,â Sirius snaps back, but gently.
Itâs all comical, really. Youâve both been passive-agressively bickering while trying to get Harry to calm down. You keep repeating to yourself internally to not fight for the baby, but itâs getting awfully difficult to stick to the rule.
âWait,â Sirius looks up from Harry, facing you with wide eyes. âIâve got an idea.â
âWell, it better work. Have at it.â
With that, he transfers Harry to you, and you accept him with careful arms. Considerably, heâs not crying as hard and as much as he was earlier. You feel immense relief for your eardrums as you help the baby get comfortable against you.
âAlright,â You murmur, gently thumbing away the tear streaks on Harryâs face. Then you look back up at Siriusâ
âbut he isnât there.
A bark breaks through your short moment of confusion.
At your feet, Padfoot is sitting with what looked like a smile, his tongue out and all that. The sounds of a dog panting inevitably grabs Harryâs attention, and you get the sense that the babyâs finally faced with someone he recognizes.
Because then, he babbles ba-ba-ba as if attempting to say Padfoot himself. Harry makes grabby hands at the black dog, leaning down toward him to get closer. You hold onto him tightly.
âAlright, alright,â You say, starting towards the one spacious area in the house. âLetâs take it to the living room, gentlemen.âÂ
And in less than five minutes, Harryâs lying on his stomach on the living room floor, giggling and âconversingâ with Padfoot. Meanwhile, the black dog wags his tail, barks quietly, and plays the part of a friendly animal to entertain his godson.
You watch them with tired eyes and a fond smile. Padfoot trots around Harry in a circle like a prancing horse and earns himself a babyâs giggle.
You narrow your eyes at the dog, who stops his trotting and tilts his head at you, as if asking, âWhy donât you join us?â
But instead, you say, âThis doesnât make you the favorite godparent, by the way.â
Padfootâ no, Sirius (because you know the prick) responds indirectly by nudging Harryâs cheek, eliciting another giggle from the baby.Â
âââââââ
Somewhere after you manage to make Harry take a bottle, the baby dozes off miraculously against your shoulder.
Soon enough, heâs plopped down in his crib on his back, and dreaming the night away. You chose to stick behind while Sirius was off somewhere in the house, probably helping himself to the pantry.
But then the door creaks open, waking you from your half-sleep. You didnât even realize you were dozing off against the crib, while seated on the floor of the nursery.
âSorry,â Sirius whispers, holding two mugs of something steamy. âDid I wake you?â
Before you answer him, you cast a glance at your godson, sighing quietly out of relief when he doesnât stir.Â
âNo, youâre fine,â You answer him, accepting the mug he offers you as he goes to sit by the other end of the crib. âThanks.â
You look down at the mugâs contents, and unexpectedly, itâs not tea that you find. Itâs too dark in the nursery to be sure. But in the night light set above Harryâs crib, you make out the brown colour of chocolate.
Just slightly, you look back up at Sirius, whoâs sipping on his drinkâprobably teaâwhile watching his godson sleep soundly.
âThis⌠isnât tea,â You tell him, voice low and soft.
Sirius looks back at you, slightly alarmed. âDid you want tea? Here, you can have mineââ
âNo, no. I didnât mean it like thatâŚâ Youâre quick to stop him, waving a dismissive hand. âItâs justââ
âWhat?â
â...itâs hot chocolate. Not tea.â
âWell,â Sirius pauses, tucking a stray strand of hair behind his ear. âYou like hot chocolate, donât you?â
âYeah, I do.â
âSo whatâs wrong?â
You clear your throat, realizing that you were probably just imagining things. You focus back on being a babysitter by facing Harry.Â
âNothing. Nothingâs wrong.â
Sirius lets out a scoff after that, and if it werenât so quiet, you wouldnât have heard it.Â
âJust let it out already if youâve got something to say.â
At this point, you were just tired. So you donât snap back at him for the unprovoked command, but you just do as he saysâletting out what you have to say.
âI wish you reached out to me more,â You tell him, feeling defeated while youâre watching over Harry. âThis is the first time weâve seen each other in months.â
For a long moment, Sirius is quiet. Like heâs absorbing what you just told him in full detail.
âIâm sorry,â He apologizes. âI didnât realizeâŚâ
âItâs fine,â You chuckle slightly, then sigh. âI know youâre busy.â
âWell, I wasnât. I justââ
âForgot about me?â
âNo,â Sirius answers you, honest and resolute. âNo, never. I just⌠figured that you were probably busy with your own stuff. âSpecially after Prongsieâs wedding.â
âSirius, that was two years agoââ
âAnd I figured you were probably busy trying to move on back then,â He says, pausing so you could take it in. âI know what itâs like to try and move on from something impossible. Trust me.â
You may not have totally understood what Sirius meant by adding that last bit in, but you do get what he was trying to say at the start.
âIâve moved on, Sirius. Believe me, I have. I wouldnât be here babysitting Harry if I havenât yet.â
Heâs silent for a while, probably scrutinizing your face for any sign of fibbing, âDo you want me to believe you?â
âWell, donât you?âÂ
âI do. Of course, I do. But I canât help but feel like you still have something else to say about all⌠this.â Sirius gestures vaguely to the nursery room.
You sigh, shutting your eyes close for a second. âWhy do you want to know, Sirius? Itâs not like youâre gaining anything from this.â
A beat passes before he speaks.
âI might not be gaining anything, but I still care about youâ let me be cheesy for once,â Sirius quickly adds when you give him a ridiculous look. âSo out with it, please.â
So, you let a heavy sigh fall from your lips. Then, you tell him, âIt was probably for the best that I didnât end up with James.â
âI mean,â you continue, setting the mug down beside you. Itâs gone lukewarm. âLook at meâI canât even babysit properly. And James always wanted to have a family. I could never have⌠fit into that, no matter how much I loved him.â
âSo you do love him, still?â Sirius asks you.
âI do. Of course, I do,â You answer honestly. âItâs justâdifferent now, I suppose. I donât want to be with him anymore, not like that. But I still love him. Like⌠like a very annoying, very pretentious prat that I unfortunately became friends with.â
You and Sirius share a quiet moment of laughter from that alone, but itâs loud in the sense that you finally feel connected with him after so long.
You throw Harry a short glance to make sure heâs still sleeping before you continue. âSo thatâs that, basically. I still love James, I donât wanna kiss him stupid anymore, and Iâm now establishing myself as a single-blessed.â
Sirius furrows his eyebrows at that, confused. âYou donât want kids?â
âWhat, after today? No. Definitely not,â You chuckle softly. But then you look up at him, genuinely curious.
âWait⌠do you?â
âWell, I didnât,â He says, rubbing his thumb against the rim of his mug. âBut minds can change, you know? So you never knowââ
âSirius Black, do you want to be a father?â Youâre quick to ask him, intrigued now.
He chuckles, caught off guard by your sudden interest in him. âI never said that. Just that nothingâs for certain.â
You narrow your eyes at him, smirking slightly as you gear up to tease him for what he just told you.
âSo youâre just gonna sit there and act all shy with me or are you gonna tell me who youâve been shagging?â
âChrist, Y/N. Thereâs a baby in the room, mind you.â
You laugh at him, then. Quietly, because you canât deny the reality of his words. But when you take a quick look at Harry again (heâs still sleeping), Sirius takes a quick look at you.
Like if he looked for longer than he allowed himself, he'll lose track of time.
#sirius black x fem!reader#sirius black x self insert#sirius black x y/n#sirius black x you#sirius black x reader#rese âď¸
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hello ??? oh my god how haven't i found you sooner. your blog is lovely, and you're also a bucky girl?
aaaaah hi beth!! i love your blog itâs so gorgeous <33 and YES bucky is my bfâŚ. bucky should be everyoneâs bfâŚ. đ
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why do people glare when i make funny faces at their babies đđđ bro im not gonna kidnap your child
#this baby on the train waved at me so i waved back and blew raspberries!!!#and the cutie laughed#then his mom turned around to look at me like đ đ đ not even kidding#san blabbers
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rem my baby you will never be a burden <//3
the first fight | 2.38k
final part of two people met once | a remus lupin x fem!reader mini series
summary: under streetlights, and on the sidewalk, you and remus reveal to each other things you didn't know you had in common.
cw/tags: heavy angst, curse words, reader and remus get into a slightly heated argument, reader-centric pov, and inspired, again, by one day (the series). lmk if i missed any <3
taglist: @jamesweather @loveyouprongs
note: this part in particular was also inspired by anything at all (stripped) by julip and party 4 u by charli xcx <3 also i kinda feel bittersweet abt this series ending finally like is that weird <///3 hope u enjoy!
Youâve always been praised for your patience.Â
âRemus, stop.â
But you had heard enough of the mansplaining.
âIâI was gonna, anyway....â He stutters, flustered by your interjection.
âNo, justâ just stop.â
And so he does stop, but you donât start talking afterwards. Not right away, at least. Youâre too busy searching his face for an answer to your question: what was the fucking point of all this?
You take a deep breath before you ask, âRemus, what do you want from me?â
âNothing,â he answers you, honest-sounding.
A scoff leaves your lips as you roll your eyes. âBullshit.â
âItâs⌠itâs not bullshit.â
âNo, it is! It is, Remus,â You emphasize, taking one step closer to him subconsciously. You take two steps back to remind yourself of the matter at hand. âYou just donât realize it.â
âAlright, soââ The pitch in his voice goes a little higher, almost like heâs trying not to cry. âSo help me then.â
You poke your tongue in your cheek, mulling the thought over. Did you really want to spoon feed Remus his own mistakes? His own bullshit that he claims isnât really bullshit?Â
Eventually, you come to a decision. Youâll take the reins of this conversation and steer it accordingly to your will.
âAlright, fine! Weâll be⌠at work. Weâll be in a briefing, in the breakroom, hellâ even in the bloody elevator. And then Iâll be glancing around and suddenlyâ I see you giving me âthe eyeâ like the broody dog you are.â
You chest heaves up and down, catching your breath after spilling out what you had been repressing for so long. Probably since you and Remus started this thrilling yet toxic dance of tango. A dance you should have refused a long, long time ago if only you knew itâd turn out like this.
âIâmââ Remus sighs heavily, eyes closing for a brief moment before glancing back up at you. âIâm not broody.â
âNo, you are!â Your voice rises. He flinches, and for a split second, you almost feel bad.Â
You gulp, your throat suddenly feeling dry. But you continue, âAnd you always call me or text me in the middle of the night, and I do come overâ I donât deny that, but then Iâm out of your place just like thatââ You snap your fingers to prove your point.Â
And as you continue to speak, your eyes never leave his face. âNo small talk, no good morningâs or leftovers for breakfast. Weââ You interrupt yourself with humorless laughter. âWe just fuck around and do nothing after.â
Admittedly, but not aloud, youâre starting to feel a bit cruel in front of Remus. Cruel, because youâve done all this talking and he only got to respond with a few words in his defense. While they clearly pissed you off, youâve always told yourself to fight fair fights. But this fight particularly did not seem fair from Remusâ place.
âBut isnât that what you want?â He finally speaks after a heavy moment of silence. âTo do nothing with me?â
A knot forms between your brows at his accusatory tone. âThat isnât what I saidââ
âIn fact,â Remus cuts you off, gaining new confidence stemming from, perhaps, his quiet anger. âWhy do you bother coming over? Why do you answer all my calls and texts?â
Youâre caught off guard with this sudden burst of his. For a moment, all you do is stare at him, and all he does is stare back with a resentful sort of look on his face.Â
So before you respond, you take a deep breath in, and let it out softly, calming yourself. Thereâs no use in fighting if youâre both going to stay angry at each other.
âThink about that question for a minute.â You say, voice considerably lower in volume than earlier. âWhy do you think I still do all those things in spite of your behavior, Remus?â
The man in question exhales through his nose. âI know what youâre trying to get at, but it isnât true.â
You shut your eyes momentarily, sighing in exasperation. âI want you to say what you think, Rem. So say it.âÂ
All of a sudden, gone is the frustration on his face. Instead, Remus struggles, saying, âY/N, it canât possibly be trueââ
âYou knowââ You pause because your voice is starting to shake.Â
âAll this timeâŚâ A crack in your voice, now smaller-sounding. âEver since uni, I thought that I was the only one who felt something. Like what we had⌠was leading up to something...âÂ
Your pacing in speech slows down significantly. As if, somehow, the unshed tears in your eyes were weighing heavily down on your shoulders.Â
âBut then you started being off and distanced and I thought you didnât like me anymore,â You continue. âAnd I just went with whatever you wanted to do just for the sake of us staying together.
âBut if only I had known that weâd end up like this? Just as stunted, just as distantâŚâ You trail off, glancing up at him and feeling pathetically helpless.Â
You chuckle, albeit a bit sarcastically. âHonestly, Remus, Iâm tired.â
âThis is exactly what I was afraid of happening. So I left. But I know that it wasnât the right thing to do at the time. So Iâm sorry.â
Under your breath, you mutter, âThat doesnât justify everything you did to me. I was hurting, Rem. And I⌠I missed you so much.âÂ
âWhat?â He asks in quiet disbelief.
âYou heard me right. I know you arenât deaf. I did miss youââ
âNo. Itâs just⌠you should be mad at me.â he eventually decides to say.
âI am.âÂ
âYou should resent me.âÂ
âI do.âÂ
âYou shouldnât even be talking to me right now.âÂ
âI shouldnât,â You admit honestly, a teary smile on your face. But then it crumples as you fight back the waterworks.Â
âSo help me understand why I still am. Because I am so unbelievably tired of this, Remusââ Unfortunately, you could only handle so much all at once. The tears finally come running down your cheeks, and you hurry to cover your weeping face from Remusâ eyes.Â
You sniffle, sob, and try your hardest to sober up. âIâm sorryâŚâ
When you look back up at him, heâs closer to you than he was just a few seconds ago. Almost as if he had anticipated himself to do something about your crying⌠like hug you, amongst other things.
But he was just standing there, with a face so overcome with guilt, heartache, and helplessness all at once. So with another deep breath in, you let your eyes shut close again for a brief moment. Gaining momentum to speak again, you open your eyesâ
âI was scared, okay?â Remus tells you, voice sounding just as broken as yours was. âI was afraid that youâd see how pathetic I was that youâd end up leaving me, anyway. And I didnât want that, so I made things easier for myselfââÂ
âWhy didnât you tell me?â You plead weakly.
Almost instantly, your eyes well up with fresh tears all over again. But the sobs donât take over you. The tears just⌠make your vision blurry over time until they drop, leaving proof of your desperation running down your face.
Tears of desperation⌠for Remus to prove himself to you once more. Maybe even for the last time.
Remusâ shaky exhale makes you return your attention to him. He lifts a trembling hand, wiping quickly at the corners of his eyes before flicking the tip of his nose with his pointer finger. A habit he does when heâs anxious about something.
âI didnâtââ He starts, but stops himself for some reason. His eyes squeeze shut before opening again, and now he looks just as tired as youâd always seen him in. âI couldnât tell you. I⌠I couldnât do that to youâŚâ
âCouldnât do what, Remus? Ask me for help?â
âBe a burden to you,â He answers, the words leaving his mouth like it was a weight heâd been carrying for ages. Remus pauses for a moment, looking away from you, off into the distance, before he returns his gaze to you.Â
âYou already carry so much, Y/N,â He continues. âAnd youâve always carried a lot of thingsâ yourself included, with so much grace and composure. I couldnâtâ I told myself I couldnât ruin that for you. So I did what I did.â
You turn your eyes to the ground, looking at the tips of your shoes. You blink away the tears and let them fall to the ground.
You knew Remus well, even if he might deny that somehow. You knew how heâd rather give his place up for someone else more deserving of it. How heâd rather keep quiet than be honest about whatever mischief his friends were up to.Â
But you never knew heâd been feeling like this⌠to a certain degree.
âAnd you didnât think that I wanted to help you, Rem?â His nickname leaves your lips in a broken whisper. If you werenât careful enough, it might have been lost to the wind. But it seems like Remus hears it.
âN-No, I didââ
âJust be honest. Please.â
You look up at him, and maybe you look a little more pathetic by the second as this conversation progresses. You have this thought in mind, because Remus answersâ
âI didnât.âÂ
And thatâs when you break down crying again.Â
âFuckââ You inhale sharply, trying to repress the oncoming slaught of sobs deep in your chest. Youâre restless in your stance, desperate to get sober again for the sake of preserving your pristine image in Remusâ eyes.Â
âI loved you so much, did you know that?â You struggle to say in the midst of your anguish. âAndâ fuck, I still do.âÂ
A few minutes probably pass in silence while youâre still crying, and Remus is still helplessly watching you.Â
It will always go without sayingâlove hurts. It hurts because of a lot of factors that poets and authors always write about in their creations. For instance, love hurt Orpheus and Eurydice when the former looked back at her while trying to lead her out of the underworld. Love also hurt Romeo and Juliet when they chose their tragic fate blindly, motivated by love.
But in your case?Â
Love hurt you because in spite of all the pain Remus had âunintentionallyâ given you⌠you held out for him anyway. Loved him, anyway. You ultimately let love be a hurting experience for you because Remus ceased to leave your heart and mind completely.
But you couldnât have known that love would bring you hereânot quite back with him yet, but reunited all the same.Â
Your sobs have quieted down in their volume, and you were slightly convinced that at this point, you were just crying out of pity for yourself. Or out of blaming yourself for not noticing Remusâ plight after all these years. The floor drifts in and out hazily in your vision. Youâre desperate to stop crying, but you canât stop the tears from falling.
Until you feel arms wrap around you slowly, hesitantly. Like someoneâs trying to shield you from something dangerous but they arenât sure if theyâre doing it right.
âIâm sorry,â Remus breathes into your hairline. You squeeze your eyes shut again, fresh tears running down your cheeks. âIâm sorryâŚâ
By then, your hands go on autopilotâat least, it feels like itâwrapping around Remusâ waist to return the embrace. And you tighten your arms around him as he does the same. Soon enough, youâve both gone from just embracing to actually holding each other uprightâitâs familiar and strange at the same time.
Being in Remusâ arms again after so long, in a manner so tender like this moment...
It feels like walking into the house your childhood belonged to. But now there's strangers treating it like it was always theirs.Â
âI still love you, too,â He whispers, sharp and honest. Loud. âI always have.â
You visibly deflate against him, sighing heavily out of relief. Youâve finally managed to stop crying. Now, youâre just holding onto Remus tightly, face buried in his shoulder. Youâve lingered there for so long youâre sure youâve left tears and snot in his dress shirt.Â
But knowing Remus, he probably didnât mind that.
To look at the bigger picture, thereâs more than tears and snot left behind on Remusâ previously pristine dress shirt. Thereâs unresolved emotions, lots of it. Thereâs the elephant in the room thatâs begging to be addressedâhow and why your previous hookups did nothing to improve your relationship. And this list will get longer, without a doubt.
But who knows what the future will have in store for you and him, anyway? Thereâs always the high chance that Remus will pull back for his sake again, and youâll be there to pull him back in. Rinse and repeat.
Yet, thereâs also the possibility of a different outcome now. Youâre not young anymore, but youâre certainly a lot wiser than before. And with Remus holding youâwarm, familiar, and caringâyou decide right there and then that you were willing to see things out with him. A fresh start of sorts, not just for him, but for the both of you individually.
Lifeâs too short to dwell on past grievances and hold grudges against ex-somethings, anyway. And love⌠love will always hurt. Thereâs no doubting that.
But the thing about life is⌠it goes on amidst these experiences. Thus, that should be enough reason for you to keep going, too.Â
You and Remus stay in each otherâs embrace long enough that you start swaying slightly to an imaginary song. Thereâs no one but the both of you, and the peace and quiet of the night, to witness it.
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the set up! <3
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everything i need in a ficâŚ. remus lupinâŚ.. protective remus lupinâŚ.. angsty remus lupinâŚâŚ
because of force | 2.5k

part two of two people met once | a remus lupin x fem!reader mini series
summary: remus has always dreaded social gatherings. but when youâre in company, he finds it hard to say no. it also turns out that that applies to a lot of things in life. for instance, the liquid luck that is alcohol, and most of all, you.
cw/tags: implicit nsfw themes, sexual assault, but nothing too graphic. heavy angst, remus is an implied alcoholic, remus-centric pov, jealous!remus lupin, and inspired, again, by one day (the series). lmk if i missed any <3
taglist: @jamesweather @loveyouprongs
note: omg pt 2 is finally here! and surprise... there's a 3rd part incoming bcoz ive finally gotten around to writing the last scene but it started getting longer... anw, special thanks to @sunskisser and @wintrsoul cuz they had my back when i was losing my mind over writing this lolol enjoy!

Remus Lupin isnât really a party person. But his friends will tell you otherwise should one have to ask.
Heâs not a stranger to them, either. Everyone has gone to a party at least once in their lives, no matter how reserved or âshyâ that person may be. If anything, he was often dragged into whatever party Sirius felt like throwing at the worst possible time back in uni. Remus was in attendance at these parties, but was always the wallflower. Just watching from the sidelines, a Solo cup in hand, and making judgy comments in his mind.
That routine got disrupted whenever he spotted you, of course.Â
You werenât a wallflower like him, though. You were there for the free food and drinks. And even though Remus preferred to just let people go about their business, lest his business be invaded, he left his comfort zone just to get to you.Â
âScavenging for snacks again?â Heâd ask you.
You had chuckled, your laughter ringing in his ears like wind chimes dancing in the breeze. âWouldnât miss it for the world.â
Remus hated small talk. But he never minded it when it was with you.
Similar to his past, the man still gets dragged into public gatherings nowadays. Though theyâre a great deal tamer than the parties heâs been to when he was younger. Now, he gets dragged to team dinnersâclinking pints of Guinness, sharing finger foods with colleagues, and pretending that they all make for some great company (though Remus would rather fill his mouth with dirt than admit that to anyone).
Thankfully, it only happens every once in a while. Most days at the office are mundane and repetitive. Not even the occasional elevator run-ins Remus has had with you can deny that. So, if anything, he has a love-hate relationship with attending team dinners.
It gives him the chance to see his colleagues in a different lightâliterally. Because the lighting at the office is cool and creepy, and the pubs that these dinners take place in have warm lighting, making one feel at ease.Â
It also gives Remus a chance to drink himself dry with a perfectly reasonable excuse. Thatâs either to âlet loose!â or âhave fun!â like all his colleagues nag him about. Who was he to deny the decisions that other people make for him? He barely speaks with them, too, and he wasnât about to start denying anything now. Soâ
ââbottoms up!â
Remus downs his shot glass of gin, feeling the familiar burn of alcohol running down his throat. A resounding applause goes around him. Heâs just succumbed to what might be his thirdâor forth?âshot ever since truth-or-dare was brought up at the table.Â
Theyâd just asked him if there was anyone special in his life right now. Remus only ever had one automatic answer for that. A nameheâd answer in a heartbeat if he were around different people, in a different setting. Of course, he could always just tell them it was Sirius the rockstar or James the athlete and make up a sob story on the spot.
But he took a shot, because he wasnât willing to bullshit anyone right now.
Not while he was busy playing his own game of âTry Not to Be Triggeredâ with you at the moment.
The entire point of this dinner was for a âmorale boost,â or so the new guy on the team, Gale, had reasoned a while ago at the office. âDrinks on me!â he said, but even an infant could see right through his friendly facadeâhe was just trying to get on everybodyâs good side and rise up to the top that way.
âŚor so Remus thinks.
It certainly doesnât help him that you're sitting right beside himâor was it the other way around? He couldnât tell anymore; heâs getting another drink with a bigger glass later, Remus decides then. Ever since the team came into the pub and sat at the table, you and Gale had stuck out to him like a sore thumb.Â
The pair of you were giggling like high school lovebirds, whispering in each otherâs ears, sharing knowing smiles and glances. It all made Remus want to hurl, respectfully speaking. It took an ounce of self-restraint not to roll his eyes and make faces.
Because Remus isnât petty like that. He wasnât jealous either.Â
How could he be if it didnât concern him that you have a new fling going on with some fresh upstart now? Itâs not like you were his girlfriend or anything.Â
But that was never really the case in the beginning, was it? It never mattered if you were his girlfriend or⌠anything.
All that ever mattered to Remus was that you had him, and he had you. Whether that be in the happy times, in the sad times, in times of desire neither of you could quench indefinitelyâyou were important to him. You still are important to him.
He turns his attention to the window, watching the people and the cars pass by like they always did. Your laughter rings in his ears like an uncomfortable pitch, but they donât harm his eardrums. Instead, it makes his heart feel heavier than it did before while he was still downing shot after shot.Â
The thing is, though, youâre not the only one laughing at the table. The whole team is. Itâs just that Remus has learned over time how to become in tune with your singularity. And itâs come to the point that he knows how to pick your voice out of any background noise anywhere.Â
A shame that he isnât willing to tell that to you or anyone else, though.
âŚbut with another drink, he might.
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Remus is protective.Â
That stretches out to a lot of things in his life: his privacy, his friends, his vulnerability, and so on. And if he was being honest, he prides himself for being protective. It gives him the peace of mind heâll never not crave.
But he only ever becomes a different kind of protectiveânamely, being overprotectiveâwhen it concerns you.
An hour or so has passed since the team got settled into the pub. The tableâs a mess now with empty dishes, half-drunk glasses, alcohol spillage, and pieces of chips left over for the ants to feast on. Half the team has bid their farewells and gone home in pairs and groups, but several have decided to stick behind.
Several people including Remus, you, and Gale.
Gale, whoâs drunk off his arse, was clinging on to you like some desperate puppy.
You, on the other hand, were busy trying to refuse him politelyÂ
And Remus⌠he sat at the bar with a glass full of cider to keep him company.
But heâs been keeping an eye on you and Gale ever since the latter had started to slur his words and sway in his seat. And, mind you, Remus has seen his fair share of instances where creeps bother innocent people. He recognizes the signs, but hasnât exactly been presented with a reasonable chance yet to swoop in and save you from Gale the creep.
That is, until he clocks on to Galeâs hand reaching up to your face.
Remus has done that one himself before, but tenderly and gently.
Gale does it with force.
âNo, stop. Pleaseââ You tell him, now actively resisting his advances. Remus downs the rest of his glassâ contents and places it back down onto the bar.Â
âOh, câmon,â Gale slurs, keeping a tight arm around your shoulders and stillforcing you to face him. âA little kiss wonât hurt, eh?â
The foot of a stool drags loudly against the wooden floor of the pub. Itâs loud, even amidst the usual noise of a fairly full pub, and it catches yours and Galeâs attention. He lets out a frustrated sigh, his grip on your face loosening as he turns his headâ
âWhat are you doing?â Remus asks him, his voice low and serious. Heâs got a hand behind both of your chairs, ready to pull Galeâs back and take him to the floor.
Gale scoffs, sizes him up, then rises to his full height. But even in his stance, Remus is a great deal tallerâhas been his whole life, basically, though it doesnât seem to bother the former. In fact, he still has the audacity to come up to him in his face, staring him in the eyes.Â
Remus gets a horrid whiff of his breathâlike Gale had just gargled beer a few times. Not that far off from Remus, who was just sipping on cider earlier, but at least he knows how to keep his mouth shut when talking with another person.Â
âWhatâs it look like Iâm doing, hm?â Gale shoots back, taunting. âI was jusâ tryinâ to give âer a kiss.â
âKiss my arse, more like,â Remus comments mentally.Â
But he takes a glance back at you first, still seated in your chair and looking tense. Your eyes meet his, and you shake your head resolutely. Remus takes it as a sign to go on, but he has a slight feeling that that wasnât what you were trying to tell him.
âShe says no,â He finally replies, voice still low but still keeping composure. âActuallyâsheâs been saying no.â
âWow. You been watching us this whole time or somethinâ? Fuckinâ nasty liâl kink you got thereââ
As soon as the words had left his mouth, it was safe to say that Gale knew better than to anger Remus Lupin.
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Remus does not consider himself a saint.Â
Itâs just that he doesnât resort to violence, even with a hot head. So when he muttered a few words of âwisdomâ saved just for Galeâs ears, it had surprisingly prevented the situation from escalating.
The creep had left the pub then, stumbling over his feet and rushing to pay the tab for the team dinnerâs expenses. That was what he was there for, Remus had reminded him. Perhaps the guy just needed a âstrongâ wake-up call. One that involved bringing up the HR manager and some other well-meaning threats.
But where Gale got his much-needed slap back to reality, Remus got his from you walking out of the pub in a hurry.
âY/Nâwait!â
It all happens in a blur. Had it not been for the alcohol running through his veins since a couple hours ago, Remus would have stuck behind and returned to his cider. Instead, he had grabbed his coat, paid for his drink, and went out of the pub, rushing after you with his crossbody bag half-slung over his shoulder.Â
No time like the present, Remus thought.
âY/N, pleaseââ He pleads again, jogging after you, nearly closing the distance. Actually, it didn't take much work considering Remusâ height. But never mind the actual, physical distanceâyouâre still walking away from him, and heâs still following you.
âYou didnât have to do that,â You finally spoke, shaking your head. âI had it under control.â
ââUnder control?ââ Remus repeats indignantly. âThatâs bollocks, and you know it.â
You scoff, sparing him a brief glance over your shoulder. âWhatâs bollocks is you not minding your own business.â
âWell it might not have been my own business, but you needed help. I was the only one who saw that.â At this, you stop walking, startling Remus just slightly as he almost bumps into you.Â
You turn around to face him, arms crossed and face hardened. âAnd now what, huh? Dâyou want me to say âthank you?ââ
âWhat? No, IââÂ
âYâknow what? Forget it. Iâm not having this conversation. Not while youâre like this.â Thereâs a certain finality in your tone that scares Remus, and the fear amplifies when you turn away from him and start walking again.
âLike what?â He asks, exasperated and admittedly, tired of this conversation. Heâs not sure anymore why heâs still following you. âWill you just listen to me, please?âÂ
âOh, I am very much listening. In fact, Iâm so interested in whatever you have to tell me right now,â You tell him, voice heavy with sarcasm. Remus winces. âSo just keep talking.â
And because he knows better than to fight against your words, Remus does talk. He starts with apologizing, otherwise known as the best way he knows how to start a conversation, or introduce himself.Â
âOkay, Iâm sorry I stepped in, alright?â He admits. âI know that it didnât concern me, but had it been another girl in your placeââ
You interject with a humorless chuckle, âOh, you and your hypotheticals.â
But Remus continues to speak for himself, anyway. Yes, he knows better than to fight against youâbut he wonât let the argument go without establishing common ground. Moreover, this stubbornness that Remus doesnât realize he has is what bound him to the most important people of his life in the first place.Â
With his parents, he was stubborn in the sense that he kept reassuring them that heâd be fine. That the pain of his illness didnât hurt him as much as it hurt to see them grow wrinkles on their faces, earned from constantly worrying for their son.
With his friends, Remus was stubborn in the sense that he really tried his best to be a good influence to them amidst their troublemaking. But alas, he ended up being an unlikely accomplice to their foolishness back in high school.
With youâŚ, it seems that Remus was stubborn in the sense that given his experiences, his observances, his knowledge of youâhe knew better than to ruin what was already perfect in the first place.
So as he rambles on about where he might have gone wrong at the pub earlier, still keeping pace with you walking in front of him, Remus never dares to question the very essence of this entire conversation.Â
Why were you mad at him? Why would you say you had it under control when you were clearly uncomfortable with Gale earlier? And, most importantly, why havenât you told Remus to get out of your sight yet and just hail a cab ride home?
Heâd really like to know the answers to his questions, but alasâ
âRemus, stop.â
He nearly bumps into you again, having been so focused on getting his point across in the mess that is his internal dilemma and this entire situation with you. It is also now that Remus realizes that youâve both reached a quieter part of town, a considerably far distance from the pub now.Â
The warm orange emitting from the streetlights coats you and him in that sunlight sort of hue. The kind that you only get to bask in when youâre by the sea, watching the sun go down beneath the vast expanse of water.Â
But even in this light, Remus feels like he should be shivering under your glare right now. Â
Youâve finally turned back around to face him.

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hi angel! can i request for đ§ Sweet like Honey â remus lupin comforting reader when sheâs had a bad day <3
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Of course you did it right my love, thank you for requesting!
Chantelle's Birthday Bash
Remus can sense it the moment you walk into the roomâthe slump of your shoulders, the way you avoid eye contact, how quiet your "hi" is. He doesn't press. Just opens his arms and waits. You don't even need to say anything; he always knows.
He pulls you into a hug that lasts longer than usual, the kind where he rubs soft circles into your back and rests his chin on your head like he's anchoring you to something safe.
His voice drops even softer when you're like thisâgentle reassurances in your ear, things like, "You don't have to be okay right now," and "You're allowed to fall apart a bit, love. I'll hold the pieces."
Once he's sure you feel a little less fragile, he sets about making the world softerâlights dimmed, kettle on, a blanket draped over your lap. There's always tea involved. Sometimes cocoa. Always honey.
He never demands an explanation. But if you do want to talk, he listens in that rare, undivided way he has. Like every word matters. Like you matter.
If it's an especially bad day, he'll read to you. You curled against his side, his voice low and steady, thumbing the pages as if each sentence could stitch something in you back together.
He knows all your tellsâthe fidgeting, the way your gaze goes distantâand finds subtle ways to ground you. His hand finding yours. Knees touching. The occasional press of his lips to your temple like punctuation marks to silence.
He doesn't tell you to "cheer up." He says things like, "You don't have to be anything for me. You're already enough."
After you've calmed down, he'll convince you to go for a walk if you're up for it. The kind with no destination, just you, him, and the moon. Quiet company, steady footsteps, stars overhead.
When you finally fall asleep (usually curled into his chest, his jumper smelling like old books and safety), he stays awake a bit longer. Just watching you breathe. As if to say, I've got you. You can rest now.
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