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reblogging this old fic of mine because i need the comfort and wish that i wasnt trapped in the place i am rn and maybe some of you might need it too <3

hearts to heal

hi, please read this prior to reading the piece !

so, i wrote this over the last few days. I was not in a good place, and I needed to write something cathartic. I wrote this because I feel so utterly alone and to have not one, but 4 people care so deeply about you, to hold you, to comfort you, take care of you - I crave it more than anything. 

there is a trigger warning for self-harm. it is not romanticed, this isn’t a story of giving up. it’s a story of family and hope - but please do be aware that there is scenes depicting it. there is also mentions of OCD, anxiety and depression. 

please be kind about this work, as i wasn’t sure whether or not to share it. 

Word Count: 2146 (i think my longest yet? it kinda got away from me…)

Alex frowned at the text she just received. It was from your school alerting her that you had not turned up to your first class.

“Something the matter, Director?” Brainy queries, leaning across the desk.

Alex looks up, “hm?”

“Your face has contorted into a displeased expression.”

“Oh, sorry Brainy. It’s all good, it’s just y/n. She didn’t turn up at school.”

Brainy furrows his brows, “That would make it day number 4, wouldn’t it, Director Danvers?”

Alex thought for a minute - he was right. She had been so wrapped up in work that she couldn’t keep track of days. She didn’t realise this was the fourth day within a week that she had been alerted by the High School of your non-attendance. What else hadn’t she noticed?

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[supercxrpschild]

i’m sorry- what?

i’m kind of losing my mind that you followed me!

about a year ago, i was really into supergirl and i didn’t have tumblr at the time (i was scared to make a blog, so i just read through the internet), and you were my favorite writer. your blog makes me so happy!

i hope you’re doing okay, and i just want to let you know you’re an awesome writer!

STOP THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY!!!

i love that! thank you so much for loving my writing <3

omw to message you hehe

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Hi! First of all I love your writing, the fact that you’re able to write about both heavier topics and complete fluff is amazing. I’m not sure if this is how I should do it but you had said that you’re only giving your new blogs name to though’s who ask and I would really like to check it out. I’m a huge nerd and love Marvel just as much if not more than Supergirl. Thank you for all the fantastic content!

hi!, first of all - that is the sweetest thing ever and it means so so much to me <3 thank you!!

second, (confession) i haven't actually made that tumblr yet 😅, ive been dealing with a lot in various areas of my life and writing etc has taken the backseat for the last 6+ months.

thank you again for such a sweet message though!! i really appreciate it

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hey guys! so i'm gonna keep this tumblr up, but i think i'm also gonna make a new account for marvel stuff as well which i think im gonna be more active on. i will (once i get my writing mojo back) upload writings and still be around on here, i just also want a fresh start.

due to things that have happened on this blog and messages i've received, i will only be giving my new blog name (when i make it) to those who dm me for it .

:)

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I don't want to be intrusive but um are you good is there anything we can do to help? I just saw your last post.

no its all good guys!! just stuff i've dealt with on here before, thank you for caring <3

[supercxrpschild]

hi guys, dont really feel safe on here rn :/ not that i've been active anyway but,, yeah

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Were you able to complete your report?

um, what report ?

[supercxrpschild]

Hi, Hello :)) We've missed you, it's great to see you back! Hope everything goes smoothly with your return, i'm sending lots of love! 💙💙💙

hello! thank you that means a lot <3 my return is not exactly what i wanted at university has swallowed me whole at the moment kjfhfekjfh but im happy to be back here and interacting more :) <3

[supercxrpschild]

you promised to put out a new fic chapter today but your brain seems to be working against you ? totally cool, i understand !

you said you were gonna answer some asks but you’re feeling a little overwhelmed ? no worries, we can wait !

you decided you were going to post some art today but you’re just too busy to finish it ? all good, there’s always tomorrow !

give yourself a break sometimes. work at your own pace. congratulate yourself for any amount of progress.

creating content is hard, okay.

you’re already doing wonderfully. no pressure. you got this.

[supercxrpschild]

So dramatic 🙄 it’s a blog...

i’m sorry , what ?

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AAAAAAAAAA I MISSED U WELCOME BACK❤️❤️

AHHH I MISSED YOU GUYS!!!

[supercxrpschild]

Wow, so - I'm alive

Hi - its been a long few months huh guys.

I've still been on here, just haven't been writing or posting and honestly? it's been so wonderful. I didn't realise how much this was affecting me.

I think I'm coming back but things are definitely changing. I am not going to accept requests for quite a while. I'm going to write what I want (if i do end up posting).

Also - my marvel phase has come back full force so i might consider writing for marvel women as well :).

Oh! and during the months i had off - i hit 500 followers!!! thank you so so much! I can't tell you how much it means to me.

So, I'm back but I'm gonna take it slow and on my own terms - I wanna be able to enjoy writing again :)

<3

[supercxrpschild]

Are you okay?

short answer: no not really. 

sorry for my absence guys, i didn’t intend for my break to be so long. i have been thinking of coming back though so hopefully soon.

[supercxrpschild]

hi guys. sorry i’ve been m.i.a. unfortunately i dont think thats going to change for a bit. im not doing well, not that anyone cares bc im meant to be strong for everyone else. my state had 0 cases of covid for over 2 months and then all of a sudden got some and turns out i was at one of the exposure sites so i’ve been having to isolate and its tanked my mental health even further if thats possible. 

i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore lmao i’m not enough for anyone in my life and according to the asks sitting in my inbox, im not enough for anyone here either. 

im sorry. im trying my best 

[supercxrpschild]

Sometimes I get discouraged as a creator. I read a fic that’s just so achingly beautiful that I think, “What’s the point of writing if I can’t write like this?” Or I see a stunning piece of art and I almost want to give up because I know I’ll never be that good.

The truth is, there will always be someone who’s better than me at something I want to be good at. And that’s okay. The things I do can still be valuable even if someone else does them better.

When I think about my favorite works and creators, I realize how different they all are. Maybe some of those creators worry that their work isn’t that good or get frustrated because they can’t create the way someone else creates. But I love them all in different ways for different reasons, and they are all wonderful.

It helps me to remember that my favorite creators also have favorite creators that they look up to and that even they have room for improvement and that even they have bad days or weeks or months when they flounder and don’t feel satisfied with what they create. Growth is not a linear process, and beauty is possible even in our ugliest periods of struggle.

There is no one writing or art style that is The Best™️, and talent/skill can manifest in different ways. Whether you try to mimic a style you admire or create something completely unique to you, your work will still have your fingerprints all over it, and they are good fingerprints, and they are yours and no one else’s, and your work will be valuable and beautiful because of them.

In the end, all that matters is that people enjoy what you created and, most importantly, that you as a creator found fulfillment in creating it. That’s the point of creating—to express yourself in a way only you can and to find meaning in that expression. Even if that meaning is just to unwind after a long day or enjoy some time thinking about your favorite characters or laugh at your own stupid joke.

I hope all you lovely creators know how much you are valued, even when you’re in a low. Putting something you made out there for the world to judge can be really scary, especially when you’re not feeling confident in the first place. But things don’t have to be perfect for people to love and enjoy them. And honestly, as an imperfect creator, I find it strangely encouraging when I spot flaws in something I admire. Because it reminds me that I’m not the only one who’s still growing. And if I can love a flawed piece of work that much, then other people can enjoy my flawed work too. We’re all works in progress, and we can create amazing things no matter where we are in our creative journey.

I guess what I’m really trying to say is ...

@ creators: you’re doing amazing, sweetie 💖💖 Be proud, and don’t give up.

[supercxrpschild]

list of favorite things as a fanfic author:

When someone is really freaking mad at me for inducing an emotional response from them

when readers give me a background of how/when they read my writing

when readers give me a background of why they shouldn’t have been reading my writing (usually while at work)

when readers quote my work back to me in comments

the frickin’ real heroes here, the ones who comment on every chapter of an ongoing multi-chapter fic

[supercxrpschild]

I’ve been following for awhile and your stories have made me so happy when I’m sad, thank you 💙

thank you so much for sending this ❤️ one of the reasons i started posting my writing is that it helped me when im not doing well so it makes me happy to hear it can do the same for others