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hello everyone. due to unforeseen circumstances, I will be archiving and password protecting my blog, and considering whether I want to remain on/return to tumblr.

if you would like more info or would like my contact details (and we are mutuals), you can dm me. I’ll keep this up for a while before I lock the blog.

thank you to everyone who has ever positively interacted with me on here, this has been a wonderful little blogging community and I will miss it. 💛 love to you all.

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hello everyone. due to unforeseen circumstances, I will be archiving and password protecting my blog, and considering whether I want to remain on/return to tumblr.

if you would like more info or would like my contact details (and we are mutuals), you can dm me. I’ll keep this up for a while before I lock the blog.

thank you to everyone who has ever positively interacted with me on here, this has been a wonderful little blogging community and I will miss it. 💛 love to you all.

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I know we are not mutuals, but I just wanted to let you know that it has been lovely following you. You have been a consistently intelligent and compassionate presence on my dash, so I will definitely miss seeing you and your thoughts, but I hope you take care of yourself! Wishing you all the best in the world!

thank you 🩵 it’s been so nice and unexpected to see people reaching out. I was always happy that this blog got people actually writing and replying to me, it’s been a really nice place to discuss politics, life, feminism, books, just anything with a whole bunch of mostly women!

I will really miss it, but I’ll also take a break and see where things are at, maybe I’ll return to tumblr one day. wishing the best to you also! 💛

[susansontag]

hello everyone. due to unforeseen circumstances, I will be archiving and password protecting my blog, and considering whether I want to remain on/return to tumblr.

if you would like more info or would like my contact details (and we are mutuals), you can dm me. I’ll keep this up for a while before I lock the blog.

thank you to everyone who has ever positively interacted with me on here, this has been a wonderful little blogging community and I will miss it. 💛 love to you all.

[susansontag]

hello everyone. due to unforeseen circumstances, I will be archiving and password protecting my blog, and considering whether I want to remain on/return to tumblr.

if you would like more info or would like my contact details (and we are mutuals), you can dm me. I’ll keep this up for a while before I lock the blog.

thank you to everyone who has ever positively interacted with me on here, this has been a wonderful little blogging community and I will miss it. 💛 love to you all.

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I find it absurd to suggest outfit repeating and meal repeating should be considered autistic behaviours like obviously autistic people can do that. but also I imagine 99% of people alive (adults) often cook/consume the same set of meals and outfit repeat. I can’t name one person I know who has never repeated an outfit or cooked the same meal. maybe I’m being ridiculous maybe they mean often, but also like it’s totally normal to do it often as well. maybe some people just have an ungodly number of clothes and time/thought space to cook but those people are the singular ones!!!!!!! that is what’s uncommon!!!! lol

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it’s fascinating to me how in japan reading manga (at least some of the big ones) is deemed if not ordinary then at least fairly expected, loads of varied people have read a series or two. watching anime there, though perhaps a bigger thing now, is viewed as far more nerdy (obviously there are exceptions, like ghibli/shinkai/hosada films etc). whereas over here in the uk, and I’d imagine the usa too, it’s almost the complete opposite. though I concede that even ten years ago watching anime was probably also deemed nerdy too, but in recent times some anime have achieved huge mainstream success, it’s not so weird to say you’ve watched an anime anymore.

kind of like how it’s still pretty nerdy to read superhero comics, but almost everyone nowadays has seen a marvel movie. maybe anime is now attracting a more varied crowd in japan too but I sort of love it for being the opposite. I guess I’m just biased in that I think a paper and ink activity surely beats a screen one.

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The big gingko up the street is leafing out.

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the way I’ve added a more angular look to the head of one of my characters (bc she’s star themed) and now the design rocks… she is a little beast!!!!!!!

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I got worried about something but luckily I’m already ahead on what I want to do today so I can get this back!! time to make some notes

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Hair goals

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decided in regards to this situation that I’m just going to put a lot of effort into deepening the connections I currently have and hope there’s some reciprocation there probably will be because I doubt my friends dislike me that much. it’s not as simple as it once was but oh well I’m not the only one experiencing that, everyone who is an adult knows it. so I’ll just have to put the effort in all the same

there’s something so strange about adult connections and it probably is that in order to become closer to someone you have pretty much either got to ask or else make it obvious through your actions to the point that there would be no need to ask. that isn’t me bemoaning “the humiliation of being known” or vulnerability or anything, it’s more that being in a situation in which becoming closer would develop naturally out of a minimal sense of effort is a set of circumstances you’re rarely in as an adult, compared to, say, when you’re in school and you see people every day and you just end up accidentally getting to know someone or other. it feels really organic then.

I used to know people who’d want to text me every day and have deep conversations with me out of the blue, and I’d feel the same. that sense of purpose in a relationship is something I now rarely feel, where the aim is just to know someone more fully. the comparable experience I’ve had as an adult is, I guess, dating apps or when you’re dating someone. but even then part of it is about whether it’s even worth it, if you’re even compatible in some way. it doesn’t have the same feeling of seduction. and I’m not just talking about romantic interest in this post, though I admit in some of those situations back when I was a teenager that was also probably a factor for both me and the person who wanted to know me. but I don’t think it has to be (or even if it is, sometimes it’s not apparent at the time and you only realise much later that you may also be attracted to someone, whatever. my point is it’s not an absolute requirement there in the moment when this yearning for connection with someone is happening).

everything feels very intentional now. and because it’s not someone (or multiple people) that you see every day, one person has to be obvious about wanting to get to know the other better. it’s not as easy to gauge when there’s that separation, so one of you has to make it obvious, and because how the other person is feeling is unclear, you end up unsure about whether this will turn out to be embarrassing, whether you’ll ultimately be faced with rejection because the other person isn’t interested in being close like that. it’s intentional but it also feels riskier as an adult unfortunately. I’ve felt this way a lot recently, as I consider my time and whatever. I guess it’s worth it to try because what else can you do.

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