svngwoo
svngwoo
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it's true that all i do is sit and think about you. if i knew what you'd do. š’øš‘œš“š“š’¶š“…š“ˆš‘’ my veins, wearing beautiful shoes. it's not living if it's not with you. all i do is sit and drink without you. if i choose, then i š“µš“øļæ½ļæ½š“®. distract my brain from the terrible news, it's not living if it's not with you.
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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hijinaeā€Œ:
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JINAE: that’s okay … maybe that’s something we should do soon. or, better yet, we can each bring some of our favorite ones and have a marathon of decent horror flicks ? that sounds like more fun JINAE: yes !!! honestly, i think those are some of the worst movies, but in the best ways. that one gave me nightmares, tho. which is, oddly, exactly what i look for. i mean, what’s the point otherwise, amirite ?? JINAE: stooooooooooooooop. i would be a horrible movie director. BUT if i ever /did/ make a movie, i’d probably end up doing something like the blair witch project bc i think the paranormal / occult stuff is much scarier, especially when done right. JINAE: not that i was the biggest fan of that movie or the paranormal activity ones either, but still the way i would go. JINAE: maybe i could even recruit you to help with casting and critiquing ?? you seem to be the person i can trust most the help ensure i make the biggest hit.
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SANGWOO: that sounds like such a good idea !! i've always wanted to have a marathon of horror movies because it sounds like it’d be so fun SANGWOO: honestly that’s so true. i always get so paranoid after watching really good ones like i have to check if theres a monster or something in my bathroom before i go in but that’s how i know it was a good one SANGWOO: you’re right tbh. and also horror movies where it’s told through found footage are usually the most terrifying SANGWOO: i’ve never seen the paranormal activity ones were those actually good? SANGWOO: not to toot my own horn but i think i might be good at that job too. i always like when movies have characters with like an archetype but maybe there could be a twist to itĀ 
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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Ā  Ā  Ā ā€œit hasn’t been that… long.ā€ his eyes narrowed playfully, gaze locking onto the wall as he thought. had it really been long? he doubted it had been months, but most likely a pretty long time.Ā ā€œi’m absolutely whipped, aren’t i?ā€ daeseong broke into a laugh, his hands moving to rub at his face. he just always enjoyed sangwoo’s company, they were good friends and someone dae knew he could trust and absolutely lean on whenever he needed to. of course he was one of his first thoughts on who to call when he knew he needed a little time for him and his boys.Ā ā€œyou know i don’t drink all the time though. if i say that.. just give me a glass of water, yeah?ā€ he grinned, reaching forward for the controller he had moments before. it was definitely something to keep in mind; daeseong never liked the thought of bothering somebody, but if they were offering? he’d surely take him up on that.Ā ā€œif you put your mind to it? i bet you could. you just need to settle down with someone i think. get yourself tied down.ā€ he winked.Ā ā€œit’ll keep you out of trouble.ā€
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Ā  Ā  Ā  ā€œ yeah ,Ā  youĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  are .Ā  butĀ  that’sĀ  aĀ  goodĀ  thing ,Ā  right ? ā€Ā  aĀ  chuckleĀ  leftĀ  hisĀ  lipsĀ  asĀ  heĀ  spoke ,Ā  amusedĀ  atĀ  howĀ  intoĀ  jinaeĀ  theĀ  otherĀ  was .Ā  itĀ  wasĀ  niceĀ  toĀ  see ,Ā  though ,Ā  especiallyĀ  sinceĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  friendsĀ  withĀ  bothĀ  andĀ  couldĀ  tellĀ  theyĀ  reallyĀ  madeĀ  eachĀ  otherĀ  happy .Ā Ā ā€œ iĀ  don’tĀ  knowĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  canĀ  promiseĀ  youĀ  thatĀ  i’llĀ  onlyĀ  giveĀ  youĀ  aĀ  glassĀ  ofĀ  water ,Ā  butĀ  i’llĀ  try , ā€Ā  sangwooĀ  jokedĀ  playfully ,Ā  doingĀ  theĀ  sameĀ  asĀ  daeĀ  andĀ  reachingĀ  toĀ  grabĀ  theĀ  secondĀ  Ā controller .Ā  heĀ  figuredĀ  thatĀ  ifĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  thereĀ  toĀ  spendĀ  timeĀ  withĀ  theĀ  other ,Ā  heĀ  mightĀ  asĀ  wellĀ  enjoyĀ  himselfĀ  andĀ  playĀ  aĀ  coupleĀ  ofĀ  gamesĀ  withĀ  him .Ā Ā ā€œ yeah ,Ā  iĀ  agree .Ā  that’sĀ  actuallyĀ  whyĀ  i’mĀ  tryingĀ  toĀ  stayĀ  outĀ  ofĀ  trouble ,Ā  becauseĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  certainĀ  someone . ā€Ā  hisĀ  mindĀ  flickeredĀ  toĀ  roryĀ  andĀ  heĀ  wonderedĀ  ifĀ  heĀ  shouldĀ  evenĀ  bringĀ  herĀ  up .Ā  heĀ  knewĀ  thatĀ  theĀ  twoĀ  wereĀ  closeĀ  andĀ  thatĀ  wasĀ  exactlyĀ  whyĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  soĀ  hesitantĀ  toĀ  sayĀ  anythingĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  alsoĀ  feltĀ  likeĀ  heĀ  reallyĀ  neededĀ  toĀ  talkĀ  toĀ  someoneĀ  aboutĀ  her .Ā Ā ā€œ let’sĀ  sayĀ  thatĀ  thisĀ  personĀ  iĀ  wasĀ  tryingĀ  toĀ  fixĀ  myselfĀ  upĀ  forĀ  wasĀ  someoneĀ  likeĀ  rory ,Ā  whatĀ  wouldĀ  youĀ  thinkĀ  aboutĀ  that ? ā€
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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for @svngwoo .
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ` + * ⋅﹒、there Ā was Ā not Ā a Ā bar Ā bogum Ā visited Ā like Ā he Ā visited Ā sangwoo ’ s. Ā  this was for obvious reasons . namely that sangwoo and him were good friends . bogum also quite enjoyed going out for a drink or two a few nights a week . it was one of the only times he could tell his mom where he was going and mean it . sangwoo probably usually expected him anyway with how frequently he showed himself there anyway . times were tough and a drink always seemed to ease bogum ’ s mind , even if only for a little while . perhaps that is why an unusual calming feeling washes over him as he walks into the bar . without a word from his lips , he places himself exactly one seat away from the edge of the bar to keep to himself . his eyes are now searching for sangwoo . could he have had the night off ?
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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā itĀ  wasĀ  aĀ  slightlyĀ  busierĀ  dayĀ  forĀ  sangwooĀ  atĀ  theĀ  bar .Ā  notĀ  toĀ  mention ,Ā  heĀ  hadĀ  aĀ  customerĀ  thatĀ  wasĀ  veryĀ  pickyĀ  andĀ  askedĀ  forĀ  drinksĀ  thatĀ  seemedĀ  likeĀ  theyĀ  wereĀ  fromĀ  anotherĀ  century .Ā  whichĀ  onlyĀ  addedĀ  toĀ  theĀ  alreadyĀ  busyĀ  dayĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  having .Ā  asĀ  soonĀ  asĀ  theĀ  customerĀ  left ,Ā  heĀ  decidedĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  aĀ  breakĀ  andĀ  goĀ  toĀ  theĀ  backroomĀ  forĀ  someĀ  timeĀ  toĀ  himself .Ā  thereĀ  wasn’tĀ  anyoneĀ  elseĀ  workingĀ  thatĀ  night ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  figuredĀ  anyoneĀ  thatĀ  wantedĀ  aĀ  drinkĀ  couldĀ  waitĀ  .Ā  onceĀ  heĀ  feltĀ  readyĀ  toĀ  getĀ  backĀ  toĀ  working ,Ā  sangwooĀ  wentĀ  outĀ  toĀ  hisĀ  usualĀ  placementĀ  behindĀ  theĀ  bar .Ā  itĀ  tookĀ  himĀ  aĀ  momentĀ  toĀ  realizeĀ  thatĀ  bogumĀ  hadĀ  beenĀ  thereĀ  waitingĀ  forĀ  himĀ  atĀ  theĀ  edgeĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  bar .Ā Ā ā€œ bogum !Ā  iĀ  didn’tĀ  knowĀ  youĀ  wereĀ  here ,Ā  iĀ  would’veĀ  gottenĀ  hereĀ  sooner , ā€Ā  heĀ  greeted ,Ā  aĀ  smileĀ  onĀ  hisĀ  face .Ā Ā ā€œ whatĀ  willĀ  youĀ  beĀ  havingĀ  tonight ?Ā  pleaseĀ  sayĀ  somethingĀ  simpleĀ  becauseĀ  i’llĀ  loseĀ  itĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  serveĀ  anotherĀ  complicatedĀ  drink . ā€
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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HYUNJIN:Ā Then go outside HYUNJIN:Ā I was trying to be nice and warn you but if you wanna go then go HYUNJIN: No problem
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SANGWOO: i am currently outside SANGWOO: i was just joking around you sounded so serious that i had to do it SANGWOO: plus i was already outside
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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hijinaeā€Œ:
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JINAE: !!!!! my thoughts exactly JINAE: i do the same thing, which is probably why not many people like to watch those movies with me, but oh well. JINAE: it saddens me, tho, bc it diminishes the fright factor — which is supposed to be the whole point of /scary/ movies, so i don’t get why they do it … JINAE: actually, i do, and i know i don’t have much right to complain considering i don’t think i could do a better job since i lack the know-how regarding the making of a decent film, but i still stand by what i said 😤😤
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SANGWOO: imagine us watching a scary movie together it’ll just be us yelling at the tc the whole time SANGWOO: that’s so true !! that’s why movies like the exorcist are so scary bc we don’t see the characters making dumb decisions SANGWOO: everything you said makes sense though !! you should look into becoming a movie director
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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HYUNJIN: Don’t go outside HYUNJIN: It’s raining HYUNJIN:Ā Just fyi
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RHYS: what if i want to go outside? RHYS: what if i like the rain? RHYS: thanks for the heads up though
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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Ā  Ā  Ā ā€œdude, i so appreciate you coming over.ā€ daeseong mumbled as he closed his apartment door behind sangwoo, pointing down to the slippers that were resting just beside his door.Ā ā€œā€“ the pink ones would definitely suit you.ā€ he added quickly, his smirk growing as he moved through his apartment and immediately threw himself down on the couch just where he had been resting moments before, playstation controller tossed to the side, pizza on the table and cans of juice to wash it all down.Ā ā€œi love jinae with my heart and everything, but i just need a lil bro time.ā€ trust him to get all bro-ish and american on his friend.Ā ā€œdon’t tell her that either.. tell her the love part, not the bro part.ā€ he’s rambling. he knows that. he just can’t help himself when he’s comfortable and around someone he actually likes. sangwoo is definitely high on his list in terms of friends. ā€œhow’re things with you though? staying out of trouble i hope?ā€ dae questions, reaching forward to hand a tin of juice towards the other man.Ā  Ā @svngwoo
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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā€œ it’sĀ  aboutĀ  timeĀ  you’veĀ  invitedĀ  meĀ  over !Ā  it’sĀ  beenĀ  likeĀ  fiveĀ  monthsĀ  sinceĀ  we’veĀ  hungĀ  out , ā€ heĀ  musedĀ  asĀ  aĀ  greetingĀ  asĀ  soonĀ  asĀ  heĀ  walkedĀ  in ,Ā  hisĀ  overly dramaticĀ  natureĀ  makingĀ  it’sĀ  appearance .Ā  aĀ  quickĀ  glanceĀ  toĀ  theĀ  slippersĀ  thatĀ  daeseongĀ  hadĀ  pointedĀ  toĀ  madeĀ  sangwooĀ  snortĀ  inĀ  amusmentĀ  andĀ  shakeĀ  hisĀ  head .Ā Ā ā€œ iĀ  don’tĀ  wearĀ  anythingĀ  that’sĀ  notĀ  black ,Ā  soĀ  i’llĀ  leaveĀ  themĀ  forĀ  youĀ  toĀ  enjoy . ā€Ā  heĀ  didn’tĀ  wasteĀ  timeĀ  inĀ  ploppingĀ  downĀ  besideĀ  daeĀ  onĀ  theĀ  couchĀ  andĀ  realizingĀ  intoĀ  it .Ā  daeĀ  wasĀ  trulyĀ  aĀ  veryĀ  relaxingĀ  presenceĀ  toĀ  beĀ  around .Ā Ā ā€œ i’mĀ  alwaysĀ  upĀ  forĀ  aĀ  littleĀ  broĀ  time .Ā  youĀ  justĀ  needĀ  toĀ  comeĀ  aroundĀ  toĀ  theĀ  barĀ  andĀ  sayĀ  somethingĀ  likeĀ ā€˜iĀ  needĀ  broĀ  time’  andĀ  i’llĀ  immediatelyĀ  giveĀ  youĀ  aĀ  freeĀ  drinkĀ  justĀ  forĀ  sayingĀ  that . ā€Ā  aĀ  laughĀ  leftĀ  hisĀ  lipsĀ  asĀ  heĀ  spoke ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  beingĀ  completelyĀ  serious .Ā  he’dĀ  definitelyĀ  enjoyĀ  spendingĀ  moreĀ  timeĀ  withĀ  hisĀ  friend .Ā Ā ā€œ i’veĀ  beenĀ  tryingĀ  myĀ  bestĀ  toĀ  stayĀ  outĀ  ofĀ  trouble .Ā  iĀ  thinkĀ  i’mĀ  readyĀ  toĀ  liveĀ  aĀ  trouble-freeĀ  life . ā€Ā  atĀ  hisĀ  ownĀ  words ,Ā  sangwooĀ  couldn’tĀ  helpĀ  butĀ  burstĀ  outĀ  inĀ  laughter . butĀ  really , thinkĀ  iĀ  couldĀ  pullĀ  thatĀ  off ? ā€
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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JINAE: it does, actually !! JINAE: but it’d only be authentic if you told me to run upstairs or do something stupid JINAE: bc people in horror flicks never seem to have brains for some reason ?
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RHYS: i’m glad i’m not the only one who noticed that !!Ā  RHYS: there would be like an eerie house in the middle on nowhere that’s haunted and the people in the movie will move in there and then wonder why jason shows up and murders all of them RHYS: and i just end up yelling at my tv the whole time
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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hijinaeā€Œ:
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JINAE: 😰😰😰 JINAE: i’m sorry … what ?? JINAE: this is not the kinda fortune i wanna get when it’s late and i’m alone ? JINAE: anyway, i just wanted you to know that if anything happens to me … JINAE: blame the cookie.
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SANGWOO :Ā  they say fortune cookies are usually correct .. SANGWOO : so maybe you should start running and don’t look behind you .. SANGWOO : just kidding !! but doesn’t this sound like the plot of a scary movie ?
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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is that a bird or a plane ? nah, it’s just AHN SANGWOO. word on the street is that the TWENTY-ONE year old, CISMALE, looks an awful lot like JEON JUNGKOOK. known to be CAPTIVATING and MAVERICK, yet also SELF-DESTRUCTIVE and ARROGANT; they associate themselves with a troubled past, never getting enough sleep, and finding comfort in a lover’s bed.
hi everyone !! i’m so late as always but i’m here with my trash boi sangwoo !! he’s changed a little bit from how he was before but he’s mostly the same. i’d love to plot with you all so pls like this or let me know if you’d like to plot <3
š“«š“Ŗš“¬š““š“¼š“½š“øš“»š”‚ ( gang tw, drug tw )
sangwoo’s parents never really got along and had very different views on almost everything. they ended up divorcing when he was seven years old and he chose to stay with his father instead of his mother because he was much closer to him.
they were much happier without his mother in the picture since she had a tendency to make them both unhappy and so they had a lot of happy times together for a few years.
when sangwoo was thirteen, his father suffered a heart attack attack Ā and that was something he didn’t take very well since he was so close to him and felt like that was the only person he had in his life.
the way sangwoo let out all his grief over it was by acting out in school and really not caring about anything. what made it even worse was that he was forced to live with his mother and her new wealthy husband who really hated the fact that sangwoo had to live with them.
the man hated sangwoo and found every opportunity to get him on his mother’s bad side.
eventually, he convinced his mother to kick sangwoo out, telling her how much trouble he was at school and at home and how she was better off without him
that’s how sangwoo ended up living on the streets at age fifteen.
it was tough living with no money or a home. the people he could beg for money would turn the other way.
being young, desperate, and foolish, his only option was to resort to a gang he had heard of and join them in the dangerous life of crime.
all of it was very hard to handle. the crime, violence, danger was something he had never experienced before. thus, he turned to anything that could numb reality and that included drugs, partying, intimacy, etc.
his use of drugs developed into an addiction. he could barely go any amount of time without using them.
after three years in the gang, he decided he wanted a change and deserted the gang in the middle of the night.
it was a very dangerous move and so he had to move to daegu to get away from their threats.
his life now is slightly more stable and his addiction is something he still deals with.
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an ex either recent or before he came to daegu ( probably on bad terms )
someone he gets intro trouble with
someone that lives in the same apartment complex as him that he can’t stand
a cousin
a close friendship that’s almost like family
former/current hook up
anything tbh i’m horrible with plot ideas dgjdgf
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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@ofaurcra
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1x22 → 2x22
finale episode declarations of love
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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@fircbcrn
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Okay. Let’s make a bet.
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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brightens my day
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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RHYS: well in that case i suppose we can call it quits, if you think there’s nothing more to explore and learn. never mind coming to get me, i’ll see which of these rich idiots fancies a fun night instead… RHYS: well come over here and maybe i will then, i’m not against sneaking to the back and getting handsy for anyone to stumble across. if you’re so eager for me to prove a point. RHYS: and why is that? what exactly is my reward if i sit still and look pretty for you here?
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SANGWOO : that’s not what i meant and there’s always more to be learned. but do you really think one of those rich idiots could do a better job than i could ? i’d almost like to see them try. SANGWOO : i’ll admit i’m a little surprised that you’d be up for that. it’s a hot idea, but i also like the idea of getting handsy in a drive thru theater. maybe we could do both ? SANGWOO : i’d do something for you that’s your choice, but if not it’s my choice.
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svngwoo Ā· 6 years ago
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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā€˜ oh yeah, why don’t i just tell the most important person in my life and the one who has always felt like my soulmate completely that i’m madly in love with him and that i haven’t even wanted to look at anyone else the entire time since i’ve known him or had any kind of romantic relationship because he’s all i want and need or care about. because that wouldn’t make me look like a complete fool at all. especially knowing that you were totally fine on all those fronts this entire time, you could still be with other people, even with me right here. sangwoo, i look pathetic right now ’ aza unloads, tears falling more steadily now as she swallows thickly, head downcast as she chokes back the more powerful crying and intense breakdown her body wants to allow herself to unleash.Ā ā€˜ just because i’m special to you, doesn’t mean i’m the one for you though, there are all kinds of love out there, how was i supposed to just assume that the one you held for me was equally romantic ? and if you loved me… don’t you think you would be sure, so sure in what you knew that you wouldn’t need or want anyone else ? i just don’t understand how you can love me and yet be with other people romantically at the same time. ’ the female mused, words harder to get out through her weaker voice due to the tears streaming, it was the kind of crying where she felt as though her whole body was partaking, like a waterfall had built up inside of her all this time and now the dam had burst.Ā ā€˜ you never say where your head is at. not when it comes to me at least, now we’re stuck here and i can’t help but feel second best. i deserve better than that, you’re right. but i never once thought you wouldn’t be enough for me. i’m confused and hurt sangwoo, i want to understand but i just don’t. this is a lot for me to process as well ’ the girl rubbed at her eyes, swiping away the relentless tears as her eyes sharpened more at his next words, slight scoff of shock escaping her.Ā ā€˜ i can’t believe you’re making this about that. i have never, ever been with daeseong in that way and i’ve always told you i don’t feel those things for him. you’re jealous over nothing, it is not the same. ’ the female paused and took a heavy breath, flipping her own hair away from her face as she finally met his gaze.Ā ā€˜ look at me. please, look at me okay ? ’ she whispered, voice stricken with grief as she took the others face in her hands and stepped into his space, gazing into his eyes as though she were searching for something, allowing herself a moment to soak in before she looked down and braced herself to speak again.Ā ā€˜ i love you. i love you so much, but we need time apart. we need to be away from each other, i know my head is spinning right now, and yours must be too. we both need to figure this all out, on our own terms, separately ’ 
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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā€œ youĀ  ...Ā  youĀ  loveĀ  me ?Ā  thisĀ  wholeĀ  timeĀ  that’sĀ  howĀ  youĀ  felt ?Ā  howĀ  wasĀ  iĀ  supposedĀ  toĀ  knowĀ  youĀ  feltĀ  thatĀ  way ?Ā  iĀ  didn’tĀ  thinkĀ  someoneĀ  likeĀ  youĀ  wouldĀ  loveĀ  meĀ  inĀ  thatĀ  way .Ā  you’veĀ  seenĀ  meĀ  atĀ  myĀ  worst ,Ā  howĀ  couldĀ  youĀ  stillĀ  haveĀ  wantedĀ  meĀ  afterĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  that ? ā€Ā  itĀ  wasĀ  moreĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  questionĀ  outĀ  loudĀ  toĀ  himselfĀ  ratherĀ  thanĀ  directlyĀ  toĀ  her .Ā  azaĀ  hadĀ  alwaysĀ  seemedĀ  soĀ  lovingĀ  andĀ  gentleĀ  towardsĀ  himĀ  andĀ  soĀ  heĀ  wouldĀ  neverĀ  haveĀ  thoughtĀ  thatĀ  sheĀ  sawĀ  himĀ  asĀ  anythingĀ  moreĀ  thanĀ  aĀ  closeĀ  friendĀ  sheĀ  hadĀ  stuckĀ  withĀ  throughĀ  allĀ  theĀ  hardĀ  time .Ā  orĀ  maybeĀ  heĀ  hadn’tĀ  allowedĀ  himselfĀ  toĀ  thinkĀ  ofĀ  thatĀ  becauseĀ  heĀ  feltĀ  likeĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  aĀ  lostĀ  causeĀ  andĀ  beingĀ  aroundĀ  azaĀ  madeĀ  himĀ  thinkĀ  ofĀ  happyĀ  endingsĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  didn’tĀ  deserve .Ā  watchingĀ  theĀ  veryĀ  obviousĀ  tearsĀ  fallingĀ  fromĀ  herĀ  eyes ,Ā  sangwooĀ  wantedĀ  soĀ  badlyĀ  toĀ  beĀ  ableĀ  toĀ  reachĀ  outĀ  andĀ  comfortĀ  her ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  knewĀ  thatĀ  atĀ  thatĀ  momentĀ  heĀ  couldn’t .Ā  heĀ  didn’tĀ  knowĀ  whereĀ  heĀ  stoodĀ  withĀ  herĀ  orĀ  howĀ  theirĀ  relationshipĀ  wouldĀ  endĀ  upĀ  afterĀ  everything .Ā Ā ā€œ it’sĀ  notĀ  thatĀ  easyĀ  forĀ  me ,Ā  aza .Ā  i’veĀ  neverĀ  beenĀ  withĀ  someoneĀ  thatĀ  i’veĀ  trulyĀ  hadĀ  feelingsĀ  for .Ā  beingĀ  withĀ  youĀ  wouldĀ  beĀ  onĀ  anotherĀ  levelĀ  thanĀ  whatĀ  i’veĀ  hadĀ  withĀ  anyoneĀ  elseĀ  becauseĀ  thereĀ  wouldĀ  beĀ  feelingsĀ  andĀ  soĀ  muchĀ  more .Ā  andĀ  that’sĀ  alwaysĀ  scaredĀ  me , ā€Ā  heĀ  explainedĀ  inĀ  someĀ  attemptĀ  toĀ  tryĀ  toĀ  getĀ  herĀ  toĀ  understandĀ  thatĀ  theĀ  reasonĀ  forĀ  himĀ  neverĀ  pursuingĀ  anythingĀ  forĀ  herĀ  pastĀ  friendshipĀ  wasĀ  hisĀ  ownĀ  faultĀ  andĀ  notĀ  hers .Ā Ā ā€œ iĀ  knowĀ  iĀ  don’tĀ  tellĀ  youĀ  what’sĀ  goingĀ  onĀ  inĀ  myĀ  head ,Ā  butĀ  iĀ  justĀ  don’tĀ  knowĀ  how .Ā  it’sĀ  justĀ  soĀ  hardĀ  forĀ  meĀ  toĀ  talkĀ  aboutĀ  whatĀ  i’mĀ  feeling .Ā  iĀ  hateĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  hurtĀ  youĀ  byĀ  doingĀ  thatĀ  andĀ  iĀ  hopeĀ  youĀ  knowĀ  thatĀ  itĀ  hurtsĀ  meĀ  toĀ  knowĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  did . ā€Ā  lettingĀ  outĀ  aĀ  deepĀ  breath ,Ā  heĀ  desperatelyĀ  ranĀ  hisĀ  fingersĀ  throughĀ  hisĀ  longĀ  hairĀ  inĀ  desperation .Ā Ā ā€œ youĀ  stillĀ  toldĀ  himĀ  whereĀ  youĀ  wereĀ  goingĀ  whileĀ  iĀ  wasĀ  leftĀ  inĀ  theĀ  darkĀ  aboutĀ  it .Ā  iĀ  can’tĀ  helpĀ  butĀ  feelĀ  jealousĀ  aboutĀ  itĀ  evenĀ  ifĀ  there’sĀ  nothingĀ  goingĀ  on . ā€Ā  despiteĀ  hisĀ  words ,Ā  heĀ  knewĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  justĀ  comingĀ  upĀ  withĀ  thingsĀ  toĀ  deflectĀ  fromĀ  whatĀ  theyĀ  wereĀ  actuallyĀ  talkingĀ  aboutĀ  andĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  reallyĀ  shouldn’tĀ  beĀ  projectingĀ  hisĀ  jealousĀ  likeĀ  thatĀ  atĀ  thatĀ  moment .Ā  feelingĀ  herĀ  handsĀ  grippingĀ  hisĀ  face ,Ā  sangwooĀ  lookedĀ  backĀ  intoĀ  herĀ  eyesĀ  andĀ  feltĀ  hisĀ  heartĀ  tugĀ  atĀ  theĀ  sadnessĀ  heĀ  sawĀ  inĀ  them .Ā Ā ā€œ i ...Ā  yeah ,Ā  iĀ  thinkĀ  you’reĀ  right .Ā  iĀ  thinkĀ  that’sĀ  bestĀ  forĀ  usĀ  rightĀ  now , ā€Ā  heĀ  agreed ,Ā  hisĀ  voiceĀ  falteringĀ  sadlyĀ  forĀ  aĀ  moment .Ā  heĀ  thenĀ  grabbedĀ  herĀ  handĀ  inĀ  his ,Ā  givingĀ  itĀ  aĀ  smallĀ  squeeze .Ā Ā ā€œ noĀ  matterĀ  whatĀ  endsĀ  upĀ  happening ,Ā  rememberĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  careĀ  aboutĀ  youĀ  andĀ  there’sĀ  noĀ  oneĀ  thatĀ  couldĀ  takeĀ  yourĀ  place , ā€Ā  heĀ  spokeĀ  softly ,Ā  lettingĀ  herĀ  handĀ  goĀ  inĀ  theĀ  sameĀ  Ā wayĀ  heĀ  hadĀ  toĀ  letĀ  goĀ  forĀ  now .
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