it's true that all i do is sit and think about you. if i knew what you'd do. šøšššš¶š
šš my veins, wearing beautiful shoes. it's not living if it's not with you. all i do is sit and drink without you. if i choose, then i šµšøļæ½ļæ½š®. distract my brain from the terrible news, it's not living if it's not with you.
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hijinaeā:
JINAE: thatās okay ⦠maybe thatās something we should do soon. or, better yet, we can each bring some of our favorite ones and have a marathon of decent horror flicks ? that sounds like more fun JINAE: yes !!! honestly, i think those are some of the worst movies, but in the best ways. that one gave me nightmares, tho. which is, oddly, exactly what i look for. i mean, whatās the point otherwise, amirite ?? JINAE: stooooooooooooooop. i would be a horrible movie director. BUT if i ever /did/ make a movie, iād probably end up doing something like the blair witch project bc i think the paranormal / occult stuff is much scarier, especially when done right. JINAE: not that i was the biggest fan of that movie or the paranormal activity ones either, but still the way i would go. JINAE: maybe i could even recruit you to help with casting and critiquing ?? you seem to be the person i can trust most the help ensure i make the biggest hit.
SANGWOO: that sounds like such a good idea !! i've always wanted to have a marathon of horror movies because it sounds like itād be so fun SANGWOO: honestly thatās so true. i always get so paranoid after watching really good ones like i have to check if theres a monster or something in my bathroom before i go in but thatās how i know it was a good one SANGWOO: youāre right tbh. and also horror movies where itās told through found footage are usually the most terrifying SANGWOO: iāve never seen the paranormal activity ones were those actually good? SANGWOO: not to toot my own horn but i think i might be good at that job too. i always like when movies have characters with like an archetype but maybe there could be a twist to itĀ
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Ā Ā Ā āit hasnāt been that⦠long.ā his eyes narrowed playfully, gaze locking onto the wall as he thought. had it really been long? he doubted it had been months, but most likely a pretty long time.Ā āiām absolutely whipped, arenāt i?ā daeseong broke into a laugh, his hands moving to rub at his face. he just always enjoyed sangwooās company, they were good friends and someone dae knew he could trust and absolutely lean on whenever he needed to. of course he was one of his first thoughts on who to call when he knew he needed a little time for him and his boys.Ā āyou know i donāt drink all the time though. if i say that.. just give me a glass of water, yeah?ā he grinned, reaching forward for the controller he had moments before. it was definitely something to keep in mind; daeseong never liked the thought of bothering somebody, but if they were offering? heād surely take him up on that.Ā āif you put your mind to it? i bet you could. you just need to settle down with someone i think. get yourself tied down.ā he winked.Ā āitāll keep you out of trouble.ā
Ā Ā Ā ā yeah ,Ā youĀ kindĀ ofĀ are .Ā butĀ thatāsĀ aĀ goodĀ thing ,Ā right ? āĀ aĀ chuckleĀ leftĀ hisĀ lipsĀ asĀ heĀ spoke ,Ā amusedĀ atĀ howĀ intoĀ jinaeĀ theĀ otherĀ was .Ā itĀ wasĀ niceĀ toĀ see ,Ā though ,Ā especiallyĀ sinceĀ heĀ wasĀ friendsĀ withĀ bothĀ andĀ couldĀ tellĀ theyĀ reallyĀ madeĀ eachĀ otherĀ happy .Ā Ā ā iĀ donātĀ knowĀ ifĀ iĀ canĀ promiseĀ youĀ thatĀ iāllĀ onlyĀ giveĀ youĀ aĀ glassĀ ofĀ water ,Ā butĀ iāllĀ try , āĀ sangwooĀ jokedĀ playfully ,Ā doingĀ theĀ sameĀ asĀ daeĀ andĀ reachingĀ toĀ grabĀ theĀ secondĀ Ā controller .Ā heĀ figuredĀ thatĀ ifĀ heĀ wasĀ thereĀ toĀ spendĀ timeĀ withĀ theĀ other ,Ā heĀ mightĀ asĀ wellĀ enjoyĀ himselfĀ andĀ playĀ aĀ coupleĀ ofĀ gamesĀ withĀ him .Ā Ā ā yeah ,Ā iĀ agree .Ā thatāsĀ actuallyĀ whyĀ iāmĀ tryingĀ toĀ stayĀ outĀ ofĀ trouble ,Ā becauseĀ ofĀ aĀ certainĀ someone . āĀ hisĀ mindĀ flickeredĀ toĀ roryĀ andĀ heĀ wonderedĀ ifĀ heĀ shouldĀ evenĀ bringĀ herĀ up .Ā heĀ knewĀ thatĀ theĀ twoĀ wereĀ closeĀ andĀ thatĀ wasĀ exactlyĀ whyĀ heĀ wasĀ soĀ hesitantĀ toĀ sayĀ anythingĀ ,Ā butĀ heĀ alsoĀ feltĀ likeĀ heĀ reallyĀ neededĀ toĀ talkĀ toĀ someoneĀ aboutĀ her .Ā Ā ā letāsĀ sayĀ thatĀ thisĀ personĀ iĀ wasĀ tryingĀ toĀ fixĀ myselfĀ upĀ forĀ wasĀ someoneĀ likeĀ rory ,Ā whatĀ wouldĀ youĀ thinkĀ aboutĀ that ? ā
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for @svngwoo .
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ļ¹ćthere Ā was Ā not Ā a Ā bar Ā bogum Ā visited Ā like Ā he Ā visited Ā sangwooĀ āĀ s. Ā this was for obvious reasons . namely that sangwoo and him were good friends . bogum also quite enjoyed going out for a drink or two a few nights a week . it was one of the only times he could tell his mom where he was going and mean it . sangwoo probably usually expected him anyway with how frequently he showed himself there anyway . times were tough and a drink always seemed to ease bogum ā s mind , even if only for a little while . perhaps that is why an unusual calming feeling washes over him as he walks into the bar . without a word from his lips , he places himself exactly one seat away from the edge of the bar to keep to himself . his eyes are now searching for sangwoo . could he have had the night off ?
Ā Ā Ā Ā itĀ wasĀ aĀ slightlyĀ busierĀ dayĀ forĀ sangwooĀ atĀ theĀ bar .Ā notĀ toĀ mention ,Ā heĀ hadĀ aĀ customerĀ thatĀ wasĀ veryĀ pickyĀ andĀ askedĀ forĀ drinksĀ thatĀ seemedĀ likeĀ theyĀ wereĀ fromĀ anotherĀ century .Ā whichĀ onlyĀ addedĀ toĀ theĀ alreadyĀ busyĀ dayĀ thatĀ heĀ wasĀ having .Ā asĀ soonĀ asĀ theĀ customerĀ left ,Ā heĀ decidedĀ toĀ takeĀ aĀ breakĀ andĀ goĀ toĀ theĀ backroomĀ forĀ someĀ timeĀ toĀ himself .Ā thereĀ wasnātĀ anyoneĀ elseĀ workingĀ thatĀ night ,Ā butĀ heĀ figuredĀ anyoneĀ thatĀ wantedĀ aĀ drinkĀ couldĀ waitĀ .Ā onceĀ heĀ feltĀ readyĀ toĀ getĀ backĀ toĀ working ,Ā sangwooĀ wentĀ outĀ toĀ hisĀ usualĀ placementĀ behindĀ theĀ bar .Ā itĀ tookĀ himĀ aĀ momentĀ toĀ realizeĀ thatĀ bogumĀ hadĀ beenĀ thereĀ waitingĀ forĀ himĀ atĀ theĀ edgeĀ ofĀ theĀ bar .Ā Ā ā bogum !Ā iĀ didnātĀ knowĀ youĀ wereĀ here ,Ā iĀ wouldāveĀ gottenĀ hereĀ sooner , āĀ heĀ greeted ,Ā aĀ smileĀ onĀ hisĀ face .Ā Ā ā whatĀ willĀ youĀ beĀ havingĀ tonight ?Ā pleaseĀ sayĀ somethingĀ simpleĀ becauseĀ iāllĀ loseĀ itĀ ifĀ iĀ haveĀ toĀ serveĀ anotherĀ complicatedĀ drink . ā
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HYUNJIN:Ā Then go outside HYUNJIN:Ā I was trying to be nice and warn you but if you wanna go then go HYUNJIN: No problem
SANGWOO: i am currently outside SANGWOO: i was just joking around you sounded so serious that i had to do it SANGWOO: plus i was already outside
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hijinaeā:
JINAE: !!!!! my thoughts exactly JINAE: i do the same thing, which is probably why not many people like to watch those movies with me, but oh well. JINAE: it saddens me, tho, bc it diminishes the fright factor ā which is supposed to be the whole point of /scary/ movies, so i donāt get why they do it ⦠JINAE: actually, i do, and i know i donāt have much right to complain considering i donāt think i could do a better job since i lack the know-how regarding the making of a decent film, but i still stand by what i said š¤š¤
SANGWOO: imagine us watching a scary movie together itāll just be us yelling at the tc the whole time SANGWOO: thatās so true !! thatās why movies like the exorcist are so scary bc we donāt see the characters making dumb decisions SANGWOO: everything you said makes sense though !! you should look into becoming a movie director
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HYUNJIN: Donāt go outside HYUNJIN: Itās raining HYUNJIN:Ā Just fyi
RHYS: what if i want to go outside? RHYS: what if i like the rain? RHYS: thanks for the heads up though
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Ā Ā Ā ādude, i so appreciate you coming over.ā daeseong mumbled as he closed his apartment door behind sangwoo, pointing down to the slippers that were resting just beside his door.Ā āā the pink ones would definitely suit you.ā he added quickly, his smirk growing as he moved through his apartment and immediately threw himself down on the couch just where he had been resting moments before, playstation controller tossed to the side, pizza on the table and cans of juice to wash it all down.Ā āi love jinae with my heart and everything, but i just need a lil bro time.ā trust him to get all bro-ish and american on his friend.Ā ādonāt tell her that either.. tell her the love part, not the bro part.ā heās rambling. he knows that. he just canāt help himself when heās comfortable and around someone he actually likes. sangwoo is definitely high on his list in terms of friends. āhowāre things with you though? staying out of trouble i hope?ā dae questions, reaching forward to hand a tin of juice towards the other man.Ā Ā @svngwoo
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā itāsĀ aboutĀ timeĀ youāveĀ invitedĀ meĀ over !Ā itāsĀ beenĀ likeĀ fiveĀ monthsĀ sinceĀ weāveĀ hungĀ out , ā heĀ musedĀ asĀ aĀ greetingĀ asĀ soonĀ asĀ heĀ walkedĀ in ,Ā hisĀ overly dramaticĀ natureĀ makingĀ itāsĀ appearance .Ā aĀ quickĀ glanceĀ toĀ theĀ slippersĀ thatĀ daeseongĀ hadĀ pointedĀ toĀ madeĀ sangwooĀ snortĀ inĀ amusmentĀ andĀ shakeĀ hisĀ head .Ā Ā ā iĀ donātĀ wearĀ anythingĀ thatāsĀ notĀ black ,Ā soĀ iāllĀ leaveĀ themĀ forĀ youĀ toĀ enjoy . āĀ heĀ didnātĀ wasteĀ timeĀ inĀ ploppingĀ downĀ besideĀ daeĀ onĀ theĀ couchĀ andĀ realizingĀ intoĀ it .Ā daeĀ wasĀ trulyĀ aĀ veryĀ relaxingĀ presenceĀ toĀ beĀ around .Ā Ā ā iāmĀ alwaysĀ upĀ forĀ aĀ littleĀ broĀ time .Ā youĀ justĀ needĀ toĀ comeĀ aroundĀ toĀ theĀ barĀ andĀ sayĀ somethingĀ likeĀ āiĀ needĀ broĀ timeāĀ andĀ iāllĀ immediatelyĀ giveĀ youĀ aĀ freeĀ drinkĀ justĀ forĀ sayingĀ that . āĀ aĀ laughĀ leftĀ hisĀ lipsĀ asĀ heĀ spoke ,Ā butĀ heĀ wasĀ beingĀ completelyĀ serious .Ā heādĀ definitelyĀ enjoyĀ spendingĀ moreĀ timeĀ withĀ hisĀ friend .Ā Ā ā iāveĀ beenĀ tryingĀ myĀ bestĀ toĀ stayĀ outĀ ofĀ trouble .Ā iĀ thinkĀ iāmĀ readyĀ toĀ liveĀ aĀ trouble-freeĀ life . āĀ atĀ hisĀ ownĀ words ,Ā sangwooĀ couldnātĀ helpĀ butĀ burstĀ outĀ inĀ laughter . butĀ really , thinkĀ iĀ couldĀ pullĀ thatĀ off ? ā
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JINAE: it does, actually !! JINAE: but itād only be authentic if you told me to run upstairs or do something stupid JINAE: bc people in horror flicks never seem to have brains for some reason ?
RHYS: iām glad iām not the only one who noticed that !!Ā RHYS: there would be like an eerie house in the middle on nowhere thatās haunted and the people in the movie will move in there and then wonder why jason shows up and murders all of them RHYS: and i just end up yelling at my tv the whole time
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JINAE: š°š°š° JINAE: iām sorry ⦠what ?? JINAE: this is not the kinda fortune i wanna get when itās late and iām alone ? JINAE: anyway, i just wanted you to know that if anything happens to me ⦠JINAE: blame the cookie.
SANGWOO :Ā they say fortune cookies are usually correct .. SANGWOO : so maybe you should start running and donāt look behind you .. SANGWOO : just kidding !! but doesnāt this sound like the plot of a scary movie ?
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is that a bird or a plane ? nah, itās just AHN SANGWOO. word on the street is that the TWENTY-ONE year old, CISMALE, looks an awful lot like JEON JUNGKOOK. known to be CAPTIVATING and MAVERICK, yet also SELF-DESTRUCTIVE and ARROGANT; they associate themselves with a troubled past, never getting enough sleep, and finding comfort in a loverās bed.
hi everyone !! iām so late as always but iām here with my trash boi sangwoo !! heās changed a little bit from how he was before but heās mostly the same. iād love to plot with you all so pls like this or let me know if youād like to plot <3
š«šŖš¬š“š¼š½šøš»š ( gang tw, drug tw )
sangwooās parents never really got along and had very different views on almost everything. they ended up divorcing when he was seven years old and he chose to stay with his father instead of his mother because he was much closer to him.
they were much happier without his mother in the picture since she had a tendency to make them both unhappy and so they had a lot of happy times together for a few years.
when sangwoo was thirteen, his father suffered a heart attack attack Ā and that was something he didnāt take very well since he was so close to him and felt like that was the only person he had in his life.
the way sangwoo let out all his grief over it was by acting out in school and really not caring about anything. what made it even worse was that he was forced to live with his mother and her new wealthy husband who really hated the fact that sangwoo had to live with them.
the man hated sangwoo and found every opportunity to get him on his motherās bad side.
eventually, he convinced his mother to kick sangwoo out, telling her how much trouble he was at school and at home and how she was better off without him
thatās how sangwoo ended up living on the streets at age fifteen.
it was tough living with no money or a home. the people he could beg for money would turn the other way.
being young, desperate, and foolish, his only option was to resort to a gang he had heard of and join them in the dangerous life of crime.
all of it was very hard to handle. the crime, violence, danger was something he had never experienced before. thus, he turned to anything that could numb reality and that included drugs, partying, intimacy, etc.
his use of drugs developed into an addiction. he could barely go any amount of time without using them.
after three years in the gang, he decided he wanted a change and deserted the gang in the middle of the night.
it was a very dangerous move and so he had to move to daegu to get away from their threats.
his life now is slightly more stable and his addiction is something he still deals with.
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an ex either recent or before he came to daegu ( probably on bad terms )
someone he gets intro trouble with
someone that lives in the same apartment complex as him that he canāt stand
a cousin
a close friendship thatās almost like family
former/current hook up
anything tbh iām horrible with plot ideas dgjdgf
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1x22 ā 2x22
finale episode declarations of love
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Okay. Letās make a bet.
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RHYS: well in that case i suppose we can call it quits, if you think thereās nothing more to explore and learn. never mind coming to get me, iāll see which of these rich idiots fancies a fun night instead⦠RHYS: well come over here and maybe i will then, iām not against sneaking to the back and getting handsy for anyone to stumble across. if youāre so eager for me to prove a point. RHYS: and why is that? what exactly is my reward if i sit still and look pretty for you here?
SANGWOO : thatās not what i meant and thereās always more to be learned. but do you really think one of those rich idiots could do a better job than i could ? iād almost like to see them try. SANGWOO : iāll admit iām a little surprised that youād be up for that. itās a hot idea, but i also like the idea of getting handsy in a drive thru theater. maybe we could do both ? SANGWOO : iād do something for you thatās your choice, but if not itās my choice.
#š¶š½š šš¶ššššš Ā Ā ā· Ā š¬š§š¬#š¬š§š¬ Ā ā· Ā šæš¾š¶ ššššš#and this
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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā oh yeah, why donāt i just tell the most important person in my life and the one who has always felt like my soulmate completely that iām madly in love with him and that i havenāt even wanted to look at anyone else the entire time since iāve known him or had any kind of romantic relationship because heās all i want and need or care about. because that wouldnāt make me look like a complete fool at all. especially knowing that you were totally fine on all those fronts this entire time, you could still be with other people, even with me right here. sangwoo, i look pathetic right now ā aza unloads, tears falling more steadily now as she swallows thickly, head downcast as she chokes back the more powerful crying and intense breakdown her body wants to allow herself to unleash.Ā ā just because iām special to you, doesnāt mean iām the one for you though, there are all kinds of love out there, how was i supposed to just assume that the one you held for me was equally romantic ? and if you loved me⦠donāt you think you would be sure, so sure in what you knew that you wouldnāt need or want anyone else ? i just donāt understand how you can love me and yet be with other people romantically at the same time.Ā ā the female mused, words harder to get out through her weaker voice due to the tears streaming, it was the kind of crying where she felt as though her whole body was partaking, like a waterfall had built up inside of her all this time and now the dam had burst.Ā ā you never say where your head is at. not when it comes to me at least, now weāre stuck here and i canāt help but feel second best. i deserve better than that, youāre right. but i never once thought you wouldnāt be enough for me. iām confused and hurt sangwoo, i want to understand but i just donāt. this is a lot for me to process as well ā the girl rubbed at her eyes, swiping away the relentless tears as her eyes sharpened more at his next words, slight scoff of shock escaping her.Ā ā i canāt believe youāre making this about that. i have never, ever been with daeseong in that way and iāve always told you i donāt feel those things for him. youāre jealous over nothing, it is not the same. ā the female paused and took a heavy breath, flipping her own hair away from her face as she finally met his gaze.Ā ā look at me. please, look at me okay ? ā she whispered, voice stricken with grief as she took the others face in her hands and stepped into his space, gazing into his eyes as though she were searching for something, allowing herself a moment to soak in before she looked down and braced herself to speak again.Ā ā i love you. i love you so much, but we need time apart. we need to be away from each other, i know my head is spinning right now, and yours must be too. we both need to figure this all out, on our own terms, separately āĀ
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā youĀ ...Ā youĀ loveĀ me ?Ā thisĀ wholeĀ timeĀ thatāsĀ howĀ youĀ felt ?Ā howĀ wasĀ iĀ supposedĀ toĀ knowĀ youĀ feltĀ thatĀ way ?Ā iĀ didnātĀ thinkĀ someoneĀ likeĀ youĀ wouldĀ loveĀ meĀ inĀ thatĀ way .Ā youāveĀ seenĀ meĀ atĀ myĀ worst ,Ā howĀ couldĀ youĀ stillĀ haveĀ wantedĀ meĀ afterĀ allĀ ofĀ that ? āĀ itĀ wasĀ moreĀ ofĀ aĀ questionĀ outĀ loudĀ toĀ himselfĀ ratherĀ thanĀ directlyĀ toĀ her .Ā azaĀ hadĀ alwaysĀ seemedĀ soĀ lovingĀ andĀ gentleĀ towardsĀ himĀ andĀ soĀ heĀ wouldĀ neverĀ haveĀ thoughtĀ thatĀ sheĀ sawĀ himĀ asĀ anythingĀ moreĀ thanĀ aĀ closeĀ friendĀ sheĀ hadĀ stuckĀ withĀ throughĀ allĀ theĀ hardĀ time .Ā orĀ maybeĀ heĀ hadnātĀ allowedĀ himselfĀ toĀ thinkĀ ofĀ thatĀ becauseĀ heĀ feltĀ likeĀ heĀ wasĀ aĀ lostĀ causeĀ andĀ beingĀ aroundĀ azaĀ madeĀ himĀ thinkĀ ofĀ happyĀ endingsĀ thatĀ heĀ didnātĀ deserve .Ā watchingĀ theĀ veryĀ obviousĀ tearsĀ fallingĀ fromĀ herĀ eyes ,Ā sangwooĀ wantedĀ soĀ badlyĀ toĀ beĀ ableĀ toĀ reachĀ outĀ andĀ comfortĀ her ,Ā butĀ heĀ knewĀ thatĀ atĀ thatĀ momentĀ heĀ couldnāt .Ā heĀ didnātĀ knowĀ whereĀ heĀ stoodĀ withĀ herĀ orĀ howĀ theirĀ relationshipĀ wouldĀ endĀ upĀ afterĀ everything .Ā Ā ā itāsĀ notĀ thatĀ easyĀ forĀ me ,Ā aza .Ā iāveĀ neverĀ beenĀ withĀ someoneĀ thatĀ iāveĀ trulyĀ hadĀ feelingsĀ for .Ā beingĀ withĀ youĀ wouldĀ beĀ onĀ anotherĀ levelĀ thanĀ whatĀ iāveĀ hadĀ withĀ anyoneĀ elseĀ becauseĀ thereĀ wouldĀ beĀ feelingsĀ andĀ soĀ muchĀ more .Ā andĀ thatāsĀ alwaysĀ scaredĀ me , āĀ heĀ explainedĀ inĀ someĀ attemptĀ toĀ tryĀ toĀ getĀ herĀ toĀ understandĀ thatĀ theĀ reasonĀ forĀ himĀ neverĀ pursuingĀ anythingĀ forĀ herĀ pastĀ friendshipĀ wasĀ hisĀ ownĀ faultĀ andĀ notĀ hers .Ā Ā ā iĀ knowĀ iĀ donātĀ tellĀ youĀ whatāsĀ goingĀ onĀ inĀ myĀ head ,Ā butĀ iĀ justĀ donātĀ knowĀ how .Ā itāsĀ justĀ soĀ hardĀ forĀ meĀ toĀ talkĀ aboutĀ whatĀ iāmĀ feeling .Ā iĀ hateĀ thatĀ iĀ hurtĀ youĀ byĀ doingĀ thatĀ andĀ iĀ hopeĀ youĀ knowĀ thatĀ itĀ hurtsĀ meĀ toĀ knowĀ thatĀ iĀ did . āĀ lettingĀ outĀ aĀ deepĀ breath ,Ā heĀ desperatelyĀ ranĀ hisĀ fingersĀ throughĀ hisĀ longĀ hairĀ inĀ desperation .Ā Ā ā youĀ stillĀ toldĀ himĀ whereĀ youĀ wereĀ goingĀ whileĀ iĀ wasĀ leftĀ inĀ theĀ darkĀ aboutĀ it .Ā iĀ canātĀ helpĀ butĀ feelĀ jealousĀ aboutĀ itĀ evenĀ ifĀ thereāsĀ nothingĀ goingĀ on . āĀ despiteĀ hisĀ words ,Ā heĀ knewĀ heĀ wasĀ justĀ comingĀ upĀ withĀ thingsĀ toĀ deflectĀ fromĀ whatĀ theyĀ wereĀ actuallyĀ talkingĀ aboutĀ andĀ thatĀ heĀ reallyĀ shouldnātĀ beĀ projectingĀ hisĀ jealousĀ likeĀ thatĀ atĀ thatĀ moment .Ā feelingĀ herĀ handsĀ grippingĀ hisĀ face ,Ā sangwooĀ lookedĀ backĀ intoĀ herĀ eyesĀ andĀ feltĀ hisĀ heartĀ tugĀ atĀ theĀ sadnessĀ heĀ sawĀ inĀ them .Ā Ā ā i ...Ā yeah ,Ā iĀ thinkĀ youāreĀ right .Ā iĀ thinkĀ thatāsĀ bestĀ forĀ usĀ rightĀ now , āĀ heĀ agreed ,Ā hisĀ voiceĀ falteringĀ sadlyĀ forĀ aĀ moment .Ā heĀ thenĀ grabbedĀ herĀ handĀ inĀ his ,Ā givingĀ itĀ aĀ smallĀ squeeze .Ā Ā ā noĀ matterĀ whatĀ endsĀ upĀ happening ,Ā rememberĀ thatĀ iĀ careĀ aboutĀ youĀ andĀ thereāsĀ noĀ oneĀ thatĀ couldĀ takeĀ yourĀ place , āĀ heĀ spokeĀ softly ,Ā lettingĀ herĀ handĀ goĀ inĀ theĀ sameĀ Ā wayĀ heĀ hadĀ toĀ letĀ goĀ forĀ now .
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