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my favorite flavors are mint chocolate chip and cookie dough 🫶 what about you!!!

Who wants to go get some ice cream with me??

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ohhh mir i think you would enjoy thunderbolts! aside from the buckie content obvs i really resonated with the story and themes <3

hi baby!!

can I be sooo honest 🥺 I think that's why I have been putting it off

I am nervous I don't need to cry and feel things more than I do!!!! lmao

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Who wants to go get some ice cream with me??

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I literally can't speak two words in my own home without getting screamed at

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🌻 a sunflower for everyone who is not feeling well today

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I hate to see Bucky Barnes go but I LOVE to watch him leave.

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I decided that the only thing that could currently fix me is both of them at the same time

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Made this for u 💝

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Soooo I have to be completely honest right now. I am having a hard time! All my chronic fatigue and pain isn't getting better. I fall asleep the second I step through my front door. I can barely get through a work day. Aside from this, I gained about 45 pounds in a very short amount of time. Fine. These things happen. I have been all weights, mostly heavy, my entire life.

The problem is some of it is from overcoming my eating disorder (which is AMAZING) and the other part is it is health/autoimmune disease related and they can't figure out what. I grow out of my clothes on a week to week basis and it is really impacting my mental health, not because I am fat or larger, but because I genuinely don't know what to be wearing when I fit into something the day before, put it on the next and discover it is almost two sizes too small. I don't know what I look like or what size I actually am

This is also affecting my body heat and production of sweat like crazyyyyy and I am constantly overheating. Work is a nightmare between fidgeting in clothing that do not fit and fighting passing out from a heat stroke

I am plummeting!!!!

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And what if Thunderbolts* reignites my need to be writing ?????

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Is anyone else feeling really stuck? When I say stuck I mean unmovable? I feel like I have been hidden beneath a glass dome while everything else around me keeps moving and I can only watch.

Like, for fucks sake, I have people's christmas presents still sitting in my closet. in my basement even!!!!!! I am horrible!

I am not real!!!!!!!!!

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SEBASTIAN STAN VANITY FAIR, 2025 PHOTOGRAPHED BY NORMAN JEAN ROY

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“... I think we are. we can be the ones that are coming.”

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thinking of him🥺🥺🥺🥺

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Tomorrow is my first day off in 19 days !!!!

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being held would be so cool. wish physical touch was real