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i miss renjun so much it physically hurts me

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ChenJi: Can we ask a stupid question?

Boyoung: Better than anyone I know, tbh.

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ok I am creating a new plan for Zhouxia tomorrow since i’m free from work!!! (and lowkey Phoenix bc that Jaemin storyline deserves J U S T I C E )

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STFU I FORGOT ABOUT MY SOMIN X JAEMIN LOVE INTEREST STORYLINEEEE fitting because I am such a jaemin girl now

I Know Him

Synopsis: She wasn’t sure if it was their first meeting but in this life, it was their beginning

Note: as widely anticipated! Somin and Jaemin’s introduction, hopefully it lives up to the hype!

*not proofread

Sitting in her room, this surely had to be the first time she had done a live in their dorm. Of course their dorm had been shared before through relay cams, but with the members each doing their own thing - Somin had been missing the fans.

As she switched on the live, views began soaring, comments of hello’s and I missed you’s flowing onto her screen, Somin gave a small wave as she took a sip of her tea.

“Hi everyone! I wanted to come and see you all, it’s been a while since I went on live by myself isn’t it? I’m not at the company today, I actually just finished watching a drama!”

Nodding along to comments from fans, she noted a lot of requests asking about the drama she was watching, if she had eaten, where the members were.

“Hmm, where are my members? Renjun is with YangYang I think, same with Chenle actually. Haechannie and Mark oppa are at a schedule, but I’m going to have dinner with some of the 127 oppa’s tonight! I miss seeing them… And the other three? Ahh, I actually don’t know - they’re somewhere probably”

Seeing the same thing repeating in the comments prompted the girl to turn back to her other screen accidentally hitting play, the ending title from Hotel De Luna playing over her small speakers she had connected.

Offering a small smile to the live, slightly embarrassed with herself, Phoenix shrugged her shoulders

“Was that Hotel De Luna? Yeah, I was rewatching my favourite episode again, sometimes when I don’t want to rewatch an entire drama that I’ve seen a lot I just watch my favourites”

Stretching, fans watched as a small smile landed on her face,

“You know, I’m not sure if we’ve said this before, but how Jaemin and I met is kind of similar to a drama. I’d watch it if I’m honest”

Leaning closer to her screen, Somin tilted her head to the left,

“Do you guys want to know how we met?”

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like HOW could I not bring her back my sweet babyyyy🥹😭 maaaan I put her through hell

Memories of You 

synopsis: Zhouxia goes through her mind of memories as she prepares to leave behind the ones she’s lost (June prompt 16 ‘I don’t think it was possible to love someone this much’)

note: okay so this does indirectly mention Jonghyun and Sulli, not by name but as reference for pure character development - so please be cautious reading if you are very sensitive to this! also i will be trying to pump out the rest of the june prompts before the end of the month so we may start getting double posts.. so enjoy!

Life right now felt so right, it was like everything in her world was finally making sense. She was with her family, she had found a home where her mind, body and heart was so safe that she thought nothing could break her down. In a way it scared her, she faced so many doubt and fears but walking into the room seeing all their faces it made her feel like every bad day was worth something.

Zhouxia loved sitting and watching time pass, it used to worry her about how much time would pass her by and the fear of never being good enough would always loom over her head. Even in such trying times she never felt like anything would work out but once again, it somehow fell into place. It was weird, despite them all having worked together, having their labelmates around seemed to liven things up even more. Through the announcement of Mark and Dream reuniting, having her first family back around her and even the staff cooing and cheering them all on, it was a moment that she wished she could freeze forever. Zhouxia wanted to savour these moments, saving them as they are right now, the sounds of laughter filling the air and the smiles that illuminated all of their faces. 

Slowly she stepped away and out of the picture, feigning innocence to their calls to join in - acting like she was consumed by someone else. If at any point she did leave, she didn’t want to be part of such memories, it scared her. Like when she would look at images of her when she was younger sitting with her seniors, her eyes always strayed towards their faces. It felt like at times she never remembered their laughs, or the sound of their voices. Before they move to a new building she wanted to run and hide, saying goodbye felt so hard to her. 

As she walked the halls, she took note of the memories that she had created between the walls. She remembers the first time she met Suho and his kindness as he showed her the direction she needed to head. Or even the first time she was awestruck by some members of SuJu and SHINee, even know she has to think back and laugh. Even as she remembered all these times, as the walls became emptier and the rooms lost that strong presence that they always had, Zhouxia was still uneasy about this new chapter. 

She wished with every fibre of her being that if she picked up the phone right now he would answer, she wanted to call him and just voice her fears knowing that he would have the right answers. She wasn’t aware how long she had been slipping into this mindset but it was something that was growing stronger and just like how she wished she could freeze NCT right now, she wished that he had been able to freeze and be by her side. 

Finding her way to the hallway right behind the practice rooms, her eyes caught the once hidden scribble on the wall.  Always climb to where the stars reach the moon, I’ll be waiting for you

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..hello🥹

so I am wanting to get back into writing & I realised how much I want to re-write the girls.? So I’m thinking of re-creating the girls from the beginning?? is that bad? does anyone still read oc’s? it is kind of self indulgent so I think I might & Zhouxia is going to be my first re-write & then possibly move onto the rest of the girls… but I think because I became friends/friendly with so many oc creators that I put so much pressure on myself & I felt like my real life was such a mess that I really couldn’t do it. I was honestly thinking of getting back into my fsm days (on my other acc) and it’s something I’ve thought of so much so idk I hope you guys are still around🥺

if not I mean, this started as a way to create my own universe & readers/likes/reblogs was always meant to be a bonus but ummm hi? Thankyou for still loving my girls

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2sun on and off cameras

Click Below to See the Video

*quotations in the bottom of the pictures are narrated by the video editor. dialogue in italics are spoken in english, dialogue in bold are spoken in chinese. content warning: one curse word*

*did i write this because i miss haechan? yes. yes i did. get well soon haechannie 🥺*

00z lives 2018 vs. 2020

in the 2018 live when talking about spoilers, hannah and haechan both started doing the same choreography, so jeno stopped haechan while jaemin stopped hannah.

they exchanged a look then continued the choreo, so jeno shoved haechan off the chair while jaemin pulled hannah onto his lap, acting like a straight jacket

(then moments later spoiling choreo again while dancing to chewing gum until renjun shoved them both away)

in the 2020 live, hannah and haechan explained the iphone macbook bit to jeno, then haechan reached over her to pinch jeno’s ears while hannah poked his side.

jeno just pinched haechan’s arm and started tickling her side, making them both start yelling

Bonus Clip #3 | Analog Trip NCT 127: Escape From Magic Island

they all agreed to throw haechan into the water, and he runs away and hides behind hannah

and she looks at the older members, grabs a paddle and looks at them “i will splash you if you touch my twin!” but there was a splash behind her.

she turned around and saw haechan dove into the water willingly, so she gave him a look

“i can’t help you if you do stuff like that!” “it was throw or be thrown!”

he was thrown anyway while taeil lifted her in a fireman’s hold, bringing her to johnny

[BE ORIGINAL] NCT DREAM(엔시티 드림) ‘ISTJ’ (Behind)

while monitoring their cuts, haechan’s backhugging her, patting her stomach and she starts squirming before breaking from his hold

he looks at her offended, then there’s a small pause before she pulls his shirt up, making him panic to hold it back down and hide his own stomach

he moves to do the same to until he realized she was in a bralette

“try. try. just you try, lee donghyuck” “don’t test me, lee haeeun”

and he just throws her over his shoulder, and she’s yelling and mark's just following them all “guys? guys? haechan, put her down”

PADO Dance Practice Behind VS Concert Performance

during a break, there’s just a clip of them trying to (for lack of better terms) out-babygirl each other while doing the chorus, and all the other members are just watching all amused

cut to them dancing the chorus after their shared pre-chorus facing each other, eyes intense just until the second “you got me so satisfied” where they turned to face opposite directions, but beside each other instead then fist bumping as the piano chords sound at the end of the chorus

2sun during concerts compilation

cue a compilation of them hoeing it out together during baby don’t like it stages

them stacking accessories on each other during candy stages

their slow motion to normal speed high five during faster stages

their play arguments before mfal stages

2016 Chewing Gum Making Film

taeyong speaking to the camera: “it’s so interesting. our 127 maknae is over there acting like an oppa to our haeeun. it’s so interesting to see, i don’t think he’s like this even with his actual siblings.”

the camera pans to hannah and haechan, but the two are just seen eating, so the camera pans back to taeyong

taeyong: “you didn’t catch it? such a shame, it was really cute.”

2017 Doyoung Hosting the NCT Dream MFAL Comeback Show

“hey, lee haechan, why are you being like this? where’s the maturity you said you’d have because you’re a hyung in dream?” “hyung, are you haeeunie?” “no?” “exactly.”

*doyoung looks at the crowd with an accusatory look while the dreamies laugh*

“no, but it really is weird seeing haechan being an oppa to hannah. he’s like a different person.”

2018 Taeyong Vlive

“haeeunie is my daughter, everyone. now that she’s in 127, i’ll be taking care of her more. but i don’t think i can ever beat haechannie. haechannie is our maknae, but he’s like a real oppa with our haeeunie. he avoids doing it on camera, but he always takes care of her very well. it’s sweet, if you think about it.”

2019 Chenle and Jisung live

jisung: “hannah noona and haechan hyung? they’re with the 127 hyungs right now, working very hard.”

chenle: “right. i feel so thankful to them for working hard for both 127 and dream. i feel sorry whenever i see them go from one schedule to another, it’s like they aren’t resting.”

jisung: “but they’re taking care of themselves for sure! haechan hyung especially makes sure hannah noona always eats and sleeps well”

chenle (imitating haechan): “haeeun-ah, time for lunch” “haeeun-ah, let’s go to bed, you need energy, okay?” “is our haeeunie okay? is she hurt? is she tired?”

jisung: “woah, you sound exactly like him!”

2020 Kun live

“kun baba?” *chuckles* “i am. i’m huanuo’s kun baba… partly. don’t get me wrong, i love hannah and the fact that we’re working together again after two years, but i don’t see her all the time, you know? i can’t be her baba all the time because she’s always off on schedules.” *sighs* “i’m just glad she has haechan. You may not believe it from haechan’s very bright and energetic energy, but he becomes very mellow and caring when he’s with her. it’s like watching him turn into a dad.”

2021 Yangyang live

“do you ever get jealous of haechan and hannah? no, i don’t. maybe once, but that was for, like, two seconds. yeah haechan is actually very big brother to her, you know? you guys have never, like, hung out with just those two without staff or cameras, there’s a switch. i mean, hannah is still her, but just a little more kid-like. just a little. haechan becomes like an extra protective big brother. they really are like actual siblings. them and mark hyung, too!”

2022 Sungchan live

*sounds of the door opening, sungchan looks, bows his head, then looks back to the live*

“i thought it was hannah noona. she likes checking on me every now and then, but i forgot she’s still on tour. that was a staff just now. hannah noona… she’s like my second mom. she really takes care of me well, which is why it’s a little strange for me to see her with haechan hyung. He’s like hannah noona’s personal hannah noona. do you get it? did i say that right? it’s a little bit like if me, chenle, and and jisung have hannah noona, noona has haechan hyung.”

2023 Yuta on Weverse

hannah is ignoring me right now

not by choice

haechan has my kitsune wrapped in a blanket because she has a cold right now

i want to take care of her but haechan said it’s his job and she’s his responsibility

when did he get so grown up, our maknae?

[N’-153] We gon’ resonate 🔥 | NCT 2020💚MAMA 안무연습 비하인드🌟

around 7 minutes and 20 seconds into the video there’s a really quick moment where you can see them behind johnny dancing while the choreographer was discussing details

she was looking down, and he was just a little hunched over to be more at level with her while holding her face, looking like he was asking her something, and she shook her head, then he nodded, and that was all seen before the clip cut

Mark’s IG Story

hannah straight up just walked into a glass door because she was on her phone, then haechan cradles her forehead, lightly scolding her for not looking where she was going meanwhile mark’s just in laughs going “cute, why are the babies so cute”

[Un Cut] Take #3 | ‘Kick It’ Dance Practice

while taeyong’s talking about the famous dance moves in the choreography, you can see hannah and haechan’s reflection in the mirror where he had sat on the floor, making her sit next to him then urging her to drink water while they both marked the choreography in the mirror

2020 앙게이트 20 📝 #1 | 2020 ENQUETE 20 | NCT RESONANCE Pt.2

in the very corner of the video when jaemin is answering the eighth question, they’re walking, and hannah trips. haechan quickly catches her, wrapping an arm around her shoulders and helping her walk

DREAM SKETCH : Page #2 | THE DREAM TOUR BEHIND

at the very beginning of the video when jisung is vlogging with the mirror behind him, you can see the reflection of hannah and haechan on the couch where haechan is rubbing something onto her knee

“woah, can you see that? this is rare to see on camera, everyone. haechan hyung’s natural state when he’s with hannah noona. let’s not disturb them, he’s putting muscle reliever on noona’s knee because it’s been bothering her”

Dance Practice Behind | Ep.1 | 2023 NCT CONCERT - NCT NATION: To The World

when jisung, ten, and renjun are talking, you can hear haechan and hannah in the background

“haeeun-ah, have you taken your medicine?” “yes, and i’m fine” “just making sure. i didn’t see you eat breakfast today” “i’m good, oppa, i had a sandwich a while ago, and jungwoo oppa and i are gonna have a big lunch. it’s just a cold, stop worrying” “you know i can’t do that”

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notes: hannah tries her best to send taeyong off to the navy. (dialogue written in italics are spoken in english)

setting: jeju international airport, 240415

wc: 1,175

content warning: taeyong’s enlistment

“You good, Hans?”

Mark’s voice pulled Hannah back down to earth. As soon as he sat down next to her, she leaned into his side and glanced at Donghyuck, who stood a few steps away on the phone with Taeyong. She was the last of the three of them who’d be on the phone with him since they decided to go by age.

She groaned while pulling her hat down by the visor. Next to her, Mark was shuffling in his seat until he had his arm around her, lightly patting her shoulder.

“This isn’t fair,” she ran her hand down her face. “Is it so hard to say no to even just one event so we could have all come home yesterday?”

She could feel the 99-liner squeeze her shoulder, “You know how it is, Hans. Hyung knows, too.”

“We tried so hard,” she slumps further into his side, “and we don’t even get a glimpse of him in real life before he leaves!”

The two of them could only sit in silence after that. The three 127 maknaes had taken it upon themselves to rearrange their schedule in order to reach their leader’s send off, but they were beat.

That’s how they found themselves in Jeju.

The stress of trying to make it in time was something she didn’t think she’d ever go through. Months ago when their leader first told them he was enlisting, she thought she’d be right there with the rest of 127 (and maybe all of NCT) to send their leader off.

She didn’t expect to look at their managers’ itinerary only to find they wouldn’t even be in Korea on the day of.

“Hyung wants to know why his princess is pouting.”

“I’m not pouting,” Hannah looked up to glare at Donghyuck until she realized who was on the small screen looking at her. “Oppa!”

The older 00-liner snickered while handing her the phone and placing the bluetooth headphones over her ears. In her excitement to stand up, she elbowed Mark in the ribs.

“I gotta take this,” she jogged over to the isolated corner for a semblance of privacy then looked at the smiling man on the screen. “Boss! How are you? Are the oppas treating you okay? Did you get my present? Have you met any other people you’re entering with?”

“Calm down, Haeeunie,” Taeyong chuckled, “breathe. I’m alright, missing you kids. Everyone’s treating me the same, I haven’t really met anyone yet, and what present?”

A grin made its way to her face, “I snuck something into your backpack last week when I helped you pack some stuff.”

“I’m looking forward to it,” he smiled at her.

Seeing him smile pulled at something in her chest. She squeezed her eyes shut, slipping her sunglasses on. She did not want to cry in front of Taeyong, but it felt impossible to do. She went for the second best option: not letting him see.

“Hey,” Taeyong held his phone closer to his face so she could only see one of his eyes on the screen, “I want to see your face before I go.”

That did it. A tear escaped.

“Oh,” she sighed while taking off her hat and moving her sunglasses up her head to hold her hair back, “I hate that we’re not there with you!”

He gave her a sad smile once he held his phone at a normal angle again, “Don’t worry about it. We know how hard you three worked to get here, and I love you for it. You did everything you could, and that’s what matters, alright?”

“Alright,” her voice came out as a whisper. “I’m really sorry, Oppa.”

“Nothing to be sorry about, Haeeunie,” he reassured her. “I promise. And you know I don’t take my promises lightly, especially not with you.”

She bit her lip, nodding instead of talking. Talking would just make her cry harder. But Taeyong wasn’t done talking.

“You know what?” His tone brightened, “I’m going to make you another promise right now. After basic training, when I get my phone back, you’ll be the first person I call after my mom and my sister. Sound good?”

“Sounds great,” to her luck, her voice didn’t shake, “and I’ll have Hyuck and Markie with me.”

“Good, good,” Taeyong nodded.

Hannah smiled, “And you bet I’ll drop any schedule I have then and there and drag those two with me so we can talk to you.”

“Unfortunately, I don’t expect any less.”

“Unfortunately?”

“As your leader,” he shrugged with a mischievous smirk, “but, as one of your big brothers, I say have at it, Boss Lady.”

Laughs slipped past her lips, in time with his. “You better look out, oppa, because I’m planning on doing something to anger the company for not having the balls to reschedule or say no to one event.”

He grinned at her, “Can’t wait for you to tell me all about it. Don’t give your oppas too much grief.”

She was about to retort when a muffled voice caught Taeyong’s attention. His frown told her all she needed to know.

“How much time you got there?” she asked him.

“Not a lot,” he admitted, “but I’m gonna tell you what I need you to hear right now before I leave, okay?”

“Okay.”

“First of all,” he began, “it’s not your fault, okay? We can put the blame on the weather. Second, I miss you, and I’m going to miss you, but this’ll pass and either you’ll be able to visit me or I can go on leave. Watch over the boys, you know most of our brain cells rest in you. But also don’t forget to allow them to take care of you. I love you, Haeeunie, a lot.”

“I love you, too, Oppa,” she smiled at him, wiping away the tears that were starting to fall. “You stay safe. Don’t get sick, don’t get hurt.”

“I’ll try my best,” he nodded, “now go and get the other two with you so I can say bye to all of you!”

With a nod, she walked back to the two boys with her, sitting on Donghyuck’s lap and throwing her legs over Mark’s. She handed the phone to Mark, who turned the bluetooth off.

“You kids take care of each other,” Taeyong began with a smile. “I’ll see you when I see you. It won’t be too long.”

The three 127 maknaes said their goodbyes and watched as Taeyong clicked out of the call. They sat in silence for a few seconds, staring at the black screen.

That was it.

That was them sending their leader off. That was the first time they were sending off one of their big brothers, and this was how it ended.

“This isn’t fair,” she muttered, leaning her head on Donghyuck’s shoulder.

Her twin flame sighed, “It really isn’t.”

“It’ll be okay,” Mark gave her knee a squeeze. “Hyung knows we love him and that we’d do anything to be with him right know. He’ll be okay.”

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We'll Be Okay

Masterlist

Summary: They say their temporary goodbyes.

A/N: Emotional damage...🥲 take care, 우리 Bubu~😭

She observed all family and friends who gathered on this day, all those who were to say their temporary farewells to their son, brother, friend, father, uncle, boyfriend - all the males who were enlisting at this time.

She hated that she was here yet again.

First Gongmyung, and then Jungkook, and now Taeyong. It was too soon for her liking. Too soon.

She allowed him to spend time with his family first; she didn't want to intrude on their moment no matter how many times they told her she wasn't. So, while Taeyong spent his last moments with his family, Boyoung stood off to the side watching the world around her move while she stayed frozen in time. She was distantly aware of Johnny’s arm wrapped around her shoulders for comfort with an umbrella over them (originally she wanted to be an angsty teen and stand in the rain, but the members nagged her about getting sick so Johnny had to trap her in his hold and hold an umbrella over them), with Jaehyun’s hand holding hers on her other side. She could feel Yuta and Doyoung’s presence behind her, as well as the other members nearby. But she couldn't talk to them, not when she was trying not to cry and bawl like a baby as one of her many father figures enlisted for the military. She hoped to stand in the rain to hide her tears and be dramatic, but the members wouldn't allow that.

A chest blocked her view of the men who already lined up and said their farewells to their loved ones, her eyes trailing up to connect with the familiar teary doe eyes of her NCT leader. Boyoung swallowed deeply, hoping the lump in her throat would go down for her to speak.

It didn't.

“Bub…” was all Taeyong uttered before the female silently cried. And oh, how they hated when she would silently cry rather than loudly. “Aigoo, Bub…” Sniffling himself, Taeyong pulled her out of Johnny's grasp to hug her tightly instead. Boyoung clutched his hoodie desperately, trying to control her sobs by inhaling his familiar cologne. Who knows when she's going to smell it again?

“You'll be okay,” he assured her shakily, caressing her head endearingly. It took everything in him not to cry in front of everyone - his mother and Boyoung crying were making it hard for him. “You still have the other members with you, yeah? You're not alone -”

“But you will be alone,” she whimpered, pulling away from his hug to look at him through her blurry gaze. “A-And it's not like your presence isn't going to be missed - you're our leader, our pillar!”

“And you're our glue,” he cooed, wiping her tears away. “As long as you are with the members, we'll be together, yeah? You're a big girl now, Chwe Boyoung. Aigoo, how far you've grown~”

“I still need you,” she confessed, another sob escaping her. “I know I kept saying I'm a big girl and am independent, but I still need you, Oppa - I was lying I still need you, so you can't leave -” Despite the sombre mood at first, it was replaced with light-hearted laughter from Taeyong and the members who heard her. It amused them slightly how desperate she was for him to stay that she would even go back on her pride of being independent.

They didn't mind it, it softened them to see she still needed them no matter how old they got.

“Aigoo, so cute,” Taeyong giggled, patting her head. “Boyoung, I'll be done before you know it, eh? I’ll be back next year.”

“Anything can happen before next year comes,” she refuted. “You could get hurt o-or worse!”

“I'm not going to get hurt, and I'm not going to die,” he told her firmly, hands holding her shoulders so he could make eye contact with her. “I'll be strong, and take care of myself so I can return to all of you, yeah?”

“Don't lose yourself,” she whispered, hugging him again. “If it gets hard, please don't forget who you are.”

“As long as you don't forget who you are either,” he negotiated. “Don't forget that you're strong, Boyoung. Beautiful, kind, strong, brave, unstoppable, and many more.”

“You're also all those things, Oppa,” she murmured. “You're all those things, and…and…you're one of my main father figures a-and one of the most important people in my life…don't forget that, please. I know I don't express it a lot, but I do care about you and I do love you, and I'm really grateful to have you in my life and care for me and raise me. No one can ever replace you. And I swear, I will fight whoever dares say something mean about you, I don't care who it is -”

“Aigoo, aigoo!” He laughed at her words though he began to cry as he buried his face into her hair. He didn't realise how much he needed to hear those words from her until then.

She grew a lot, he thought to himself fondly.

“Oh! Before I forget…” Boyoung quickly whipped out her phone, calling someone. They picked up immediately. “Oppa, Mark Oppa and Haechanie wanted to say bye again.” She handed the phone to the leader so he could see the two members’ faces and say his last words to them - comforting them due to their inability to arrive at the place on time. This was the only time Boyoung was grateful to be on break from schedules. If only the others had the chance as well…

An announcement rang, telling them it was time for the enlisted men to gather. Taeyong said his last farewells to Mark and Haechan (who felt a bit better after being able to talk to their leader) just in time for Boyoung to hug him again. Boyoung tightened her hold on him for a few more seconds before Johnny, Yuta, and Doyoung had to gently pull her away from their leader.

“You take care of yourself, and you take care of everyone else afterwards, okay?” Taeyong instructed, cupping her face to wipe away her tears. “Take care of our fishies as well, they're in your room safe, right? We’re gonna be fine, I'll see you during the breaks.”

“Okay!” she sniffled, laying her hands on top of his on her face. “I promise I'll be a better person when we meet. I promise I'll get better!”

“I know you will, you're already being amazing~” He kissed the top of her head a few times. “I love you!”

“I-I love you too!” she rushed just as Taeyong’s mother came to have her last goodbyes with her son. She backed away into Yuta’s chest, turning around to face him and wrap her arms around him. The Japanese member held her shaking body to his body, caressing the back of her head while whispering comforting words in his mother tongue.

Time in the military can change a person, and time in the military can be dangerous for them. They're protecting Korea, anything could happen. And Boyoung was scared of losing him, hence her sobbing state.

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“Keep an eye out for Boyoung,” Taeyong murmured to his mother and sister, hugging them and kissing them on the cheek. “I know she is strong, but still look out for her, please? And make sure she eats, her favourite dish that I cook is -”

“We know, we know,” his mother patted his chest assuringly. “We'll look after her.”

“She's gone through a lot, and I was always there for her -”

“All of you went through a lot,” his sister cut off. “But use this time to relax, get healthy, take care of yourself. Boyoung will be okay, she has the other members with her. And I'll even invite her to hang out with the nephews.” Taeyong grinned at her words.

“Take care of yourself, eat well, you hear me?” his mother warned with a shaky voice, hugging him. “Stay healthy, and we'll stay healthy including Boyoung.”

Saying his final farewells, he went to line up.

He saw his family from afar, his eyes softening at the sight. His biological family together with the members who also became his family.

Boyoung's tiny form stood in between Johnny and Doyoung, holding onto both of their hands. Yuta and Jaehyun were behind her with a hand on each of her shoulders, with Taeil and Jungwoo on either side of the two members.

Seeing their emotional gazes - seeing Boyoung's teary gaze from afar made him glance away and to the front. Seeing her from the distance made him think of trainee Boyoung, and he did not want to cry at the thought of how tiny and lost she was, and how she clung onto him and followed him around since then.

Now, he was heading to the military, and he wouldn't be there to visit and take care of her, and it scared him.

They'll be fine, he thought to himself sternly. They're together and with each other, they'll be fine. Boyoung is a big girl now, she'll be fine…but she'll always be my Bub…

He thought of the pictures he has in his grasp; not just photos of his family and 127, but he also has a photo of him and Boyoung together - the first photo they ever took together during their trainee era. The two were so young back then, both lost and unsure of everything. Despite that, however, they had each other, and Taeyong grew stronger while protecting and raising her. 

She confessed to him how important he was to her, for raising her - she has no idea how much she also saved him and encouraged him to keep on going. We'll be okay, he assured himself, Standing straighter. We're stronger now. We'll be okay.  I’ll be back next year, and we're all going to be fine.

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na jaemin the man you are.. those tiktoks with aespa im mmmmmmmm

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THE ENDING??!?

230702 - On The Way

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Summary: Boyoung's status while on the way to the hospital

She couldn't open her eyes.

She could distinctly hear what was happening around her - a lot of yelling, arguments, panicked calls, instructions being ordered around - she could feel people touching her to check her pulse, lift her up to be placed somewhere, someone caressing her hair, and could even feel the temperature change from being cool in the air-conditioned building, to meeting the slightly warmer temperature outside.

Someone lifted her right eyelid to shine a light on her, but she didn't feel her eye move along to the light. She felt paralysed. She could hear and feel what was happening around her, but she couldn't move or even speak.

Was this what it felt like to be poisoned? Feeling numb and paralysed? She could feel herself start to slowly fade from consciousness…

"Boyoung-ah, can you hear me? Boyoung?" A hand cupped the side of her face, the other hand caressing back her hair. She felt herself slowly climb back up to consciousness - enough for her to hear around her. It was a voice that sounded familiar, that screamed comfort and safety. "Boyoung-ah?"

"Sir, you need to take a step back -" An unfamiliar voice said. The urge to retreat came inside of her, but she stayed when feeling the constant familiar hand caressing her hair and cheek.

"Is she going to be okay? She has to! Do you know what is wrong? What poison it was -?"

"Leeteuk Hyung, you need to let them do their job, please, you need to give them space." Another familiar voice - not too familiar, but it was enough for her to recognise the small assurance.

Leeteuk Sunbaenim? Yunho Sunbaenim?

"We need to contact her family and the members. I can help contact some people if needed."

"I need to call her mother first, can you call NCT 127's manager? He needs to know first what happened."

"What about the members -?"

"Call the manager first, we don't know how the members will react while they're on schedule."

Time flew…maybe…she couldn't tell.

She was suddenly in a moving vehicle - it felt like being in a bus, but this one was loud with a siren and was moving faster than the crazy buses in South Korea. Not only was there a siren going off, but a heart monitor and technical terms being thrown around - and there was also the sound of Leeteuk telling the news to her mother. She could hear her mother yelling down the line, demanding for answers.

"She's coding!"

Beep-beep-beep-beep-beep -

She began to somehow feel sleepy despite having her eyes closed already. The sounds around her started to fade more, and she started to feel numb all over. Breathing was suddenly harder to do, and her throat started to feel closed up and burned…

Is this what it feels like to die?

"Boyoung, don't you dare leave us! Boyoung! Boyoung-ah, come back to us! Boyoung! BOYOUNG!"

Everything faded, and she succumbed to the pull of bringing her to sleep. She succumbed to Death's call to his side, accepting the cold feeling around her.

Now, it was silent. She felt cold and empty, like she was in a cold abyss, all alone...

A bright light encased her, bringing her to a beautiful garden.

And then a voice spoke up. One she hadn't heard in years. One that brought immediate warmth to her, pulling her away from Death's side and somewhere that felt like home.

"Hello Boyoung-ah~"

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my heart is feeling things as I read through all these 😭

[3:27pm]

She sat quietly beside his laid out form on his bed, not initiating any conversation. All that was heard in the room was silence that would occasionally be broken by his sniffles.

"Hey," she murmured her greeting. He let out a small sound to greet her through his sniffles. "This stupid world, eh? Full of hate, corruption, war, bitter people, backstabbers..." Boyoung rubbed her hand on his back as his cries started getting louder. "I wanted to die," she admitted, "I wanted to die when I got poisoned because of all the hate and how people turned their back on me easily, hating me...and just the world in general. I...I was really tired...that's why I wanted to leave. I didn't want to exist in this world anymore..." She shifted closer to him on his bed so she was able to sit in front of him, one hand rubbing his shoulder while the other held his hand.

He squeezed her hand tightly.

"You wanna know why I'm still here? Why I decided to stay in this cruel world?" she wondered. She squeezed his hand three times. "Do you wanna know why you should stay here in this shitty world with me?"

"...why?" It was quiet, very quiet, but she was able to hear his small raspy reply, tears slowing down as he listened to her calming voice.

"I stayed for you guys," she whispered with a gentle smile in his direction despite the room being dark. "I stayed for you, all who knew me truly, who cared for me, who love me. I stayed for my mum, my grandma, my dog, but definitely the members." He started to cry again at her answer, his hold on her hand almost like a death grip. But she never complained and instead squeezed his hand as well.

"The world may be full of hate at the moment," she started, "but it's not going to be like that forever. There's going to be a time when all of these things will go away. There will be no more crying, pain, mourning, or hate...that time when those disappear will come for us soon. We just have to keep persevering and overcoming until then, okay? It might be a while, but it will come for us."

"How can you know?" he croaked. "It's tiring..."

"I just know," she said mysteriously. "But just know...you are not alone. I am here as well as the members and your family. That's all that matters, isn't it? We won't ever turn away from you. I'll always be at your side most definitely. Just like you always say to me, yeah? You've always been there for me, comforting me, encouraging me. And you also say that there are better days. That comforts me a lot...you should remind yourself as well, yeah? I'll help you. I'll always be with you, don't ever forget that."

"Thank you," he sniffled, tugging her hand to ask for a hug. Boyoung did just so, lying beside him and hugging him tightly to her, face buried in his chest. Her heart broke as she listened to him cry, tightening the hug and planting a kiss on his chest above his heart.

"People can be so mean and quick to conclusions without waiting for an explanation," she said solemnly, "but just know I'm always here to listen. I won't jump to conclusions. I know how it feels, so don't ever think I'll leave you. I'll always listen first. Just like how you listened to me."

"This isn't fair..." he whispered into her hair. "You're so young...and you're already experiencing all these things...I didn't want you to experience more pain- I should have done better protecting -"

"Don't say that," she chided, lightly headbutting his chest. "You've done amazing looking after me, but it's impossible to shield me from the world and it's hate and corruption and all that. But you've helped me a lot. Don't ever think otherwise. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. Don't worry about me, though. Just focus on yourself, please. You deserve to be loved and looked after as well. Thank you for looking after me this whole time, but I'm not little anymore, I can look after you too now."

"Aigoo, this world doesn't deserve you," he sniffled, kissing the top of her head. "You're too precious."

"The world doesn't deserve you," she added in firmly. "I'll fight anyone, I don't care -"

"It's okay, it's okay," he giggled, relaxing Boyoung instantly at the sound of his laugh. "I'm feeling better now. You don't need to threaten people."

"I mean...once you mess with my family -"

"Hush, my child, let's just cuddle until I have to go for schedules."

"...you're really feeling okay now, Oppa?"

"With you at my side," he squeezed her gently, "I'll always be okay."

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i had a thought,, enhypen female extra member BUT it’s Bite Me & she does one half of the chorus “it’s you and me in this world” AND ON STAGES SHE IS DANCING LIKE THE MV WITH WHOEVER DOES THE OTHER PART OF THE CHORUS

woah

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guys.. i saw Junny live on Sunday and woahhh my heart went beyond pitter patter you know..

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i reaaaaally want to give Zhouxia a comeback but i just don’t know how..

also hi guys, if you’re still around,, I missed you all so much & I am going to try my best to come back and start interacting again! if you’ll have meeee

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hello,

with new news about Lucas I will like to mention how he will be present in past fics/old content that is relevant only! (to ease comfort to readers who may not want to consume anything he is in, warnings will also be put at his parts so you may skip if you wish)

with light of me being in recovery due to a mental health issue I am suspending this acc until further notice. I do apologise as I was so excited to come back to posting but unfortunately due to my mental health and the recent medical treatment I have been subject to it’s unknown when I will be back…

I really do adore all the love I have received from you guys and I’m so excited to come back and write for you all so please wait for me 🥺

all the love,

S

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my heart is incredibly broken at the news of 문빈 and my love goes out to his family, friends, members and fellow aroha <3

bin was one of the brightest lights in my life as a fan and now he’s going to be the brightest star, please respect everyone’s grieving processes and i hope he is peacefully at rest.

all the love, S