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proper nutrition

today's Unhinged Autism Food is: a bowl of shredded cabbage. both green and red! and with some carrot bits mixed in!

(I'm a diabetic and sometimes getting the veggies in is Hard)

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current autism: hyperfixating on "The Rose and the Thistle" by Flobots. hyperfixation started Saturday night. I have listened to this song on repeat for approximately 7-8 hours since then. I have ideas for a music video, have begun choreographing a dance, and am sketching a digital art piece based on the song. the lyrics are half memorized (would have been memorized long ago but they be dense and I haven't been trying very hard). contemplating writing some substitution lyrics for when I wanna sing it but I'm feeling more lyrical than rap.

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at a pagan market (I paid for two months ago) as a tarot reader

why am I here? I don't want to be nobody here has talked to me. "be friendly and welcoming!" bitch I'm tired and sad this sunk cost fallacy got me down bad my love said to me "you like reading tarot!" I mean, yeah I do when my mind feels aglow but today I feel heavy anxious and weary why am I here yet where else could I be?

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MAGA GOOFS: if we eliminate government jobs those departments will become more efficient so we have fired thousands of park rangers.

EVERYONE: okay what about police officers?

MAGA GOOFS: how dare you

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Seriously. I'm starting to block y'all on sight it has been quite long enough of a campaign to get you weaned off this terf's books and shows (and now games!)

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Sunday Reflection/Projection Spread, 10/6/24

reflection/projection: the card on the left is a reflection of the previous cycle, and the card on the right is a projection for the next cycle. the middle space is left blank; that is the space we inhabit, in the moment, taking the lessons from the past to incorporate them into the future.

reflection: 4/Acolyte of Earth, Centering: presence in body, wisdom of place, seeing here and now

projection: 2/Exile of Earth, Darkness: loss of perspective, obscurity, protection, retreat, coldness

there is a continuing theme of Earth: foundations, deep insight, inhabiting physicality, external examination.

last week was a time for confidence, stepping outside of comfort zones, and taking risks. while intoxicating, these kinds of actions take energy, necessitating a time for rest. in the next week focus on introspection, specifically on identifying and filling personal needs.

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me: my backlog of YouTube vids I wanna watch is getting p big, hope I can find some time to watch soon

me, waking up with a nasty cold: I DIDN'T MEAN LIKE THIS 😭😭

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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Tarot 8/1/24

theme of the day: mirage, inverted (reality, reliability, firmness, goals, unknowns, consequences, affecting surroundings)

what lies beneath: alloy, inverted (combining weaknesses, greater risk and greater reward, march of progress, artifice)

advice: warmth, inverted (protection, distance, loneliness, mementos)

takeaway: it is sometimes necessary to sacrifice in order to achieve what you want. choose your risks and sacrifices carefully, always keeping in mind your long-term goals.

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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Tarot 7/31/24

theme of the day: storms (overwhelming force, imbalance, lashing out, force of nature)

what lies beneath: passion (enthusiasm, shared emotion, closeness, intuition, risk-taking)

advice: dreamer, inverted (groundedness, contentment, cut off from insight, realism)

takeaway: avoid being too swept up in excitement or too overwhelmed by outside pressures to lose sight of your options (you always, always have options). keep your feet on the path you have chosen and your eyes on your desired future.

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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Tarot 7/30/24

theme of the day: spark (beginnings, untapped potential, uncertain future, rescue)

what lies beneath: trust (trust in others, personal connection, vulnerability, uncertainty)

advice: partnership (duality, communication, mutuality)

takeaway: it is quite possible to reach our dreams, but only if we take the time to develop healthy relationships. we need the support of others in order to shine our brightest.

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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Spread 7/29/24

theme of the day: conquest, inverted (idealism, mediation, communication, cooperation)

what lies beneath: karma, inverted (new direction, unfair realities, escape, lessons learned)

advice: settling (resolution, ended chapters, aftermath, lowering intensity)

takeaway: embrace your community, whoever that is, wherever you find them. take advantage of your support system to let yourself relax and rest, and to avoid stretching yourself too thin.

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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Spread 7/28/24

theme of the day: char, inverted (introspection after conflict, starting over, fertile ground, challenging self)

what lies beneath: conquest (victory, pain, loyalty to a cause, aggression, conflict)

advice: life, inverted (grinding down, profound challenge, growing into strength, and learning from difficulty)

takeaway: having hard times, even tragedies, is a necessary part of life. process your feelings, grieve what you have lost, and then move forward wiser and more confident. choose to be a pheonix over and over again.

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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Spread 7/27/24

cards pulled:

Karma (Tao, cycles, cosmic fairness, arbitration, nonlinear progress)

Focus (continuance, clear paths, staying the course, reducing distraction, detail-orientation)

Temper, inverted (slow action, iteration, strength through practice, specialization

takeaway: I am the author of my life story. as I stay focused on my abilities and goals, I will make slow but steady progress toward the things I want.

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me: hey I'm gonna make some rice and eat it with beans

my (Mexican) partner: ... like... Mexican rice?

me: no, like rice pilaf with broth and spices

my partner: ... but you're going to add onions and peppers and tomatoes, yes?

me: ...no

my partner: I will not help you with that because I disagree

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I firmly believe that any power one gains is only ethical if used to enrich the lives of as many as their power can touch.

Some other handy quotes

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I'm Pissed At Myself for Not Doing This Earlier: An Autobiography