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I was mentally abused by my rp partner

Okay, So I’m going to tell you guys something so this girl has done to me, AND A close friend of mine named cairo. Or @caiiiirofinn

Trigger warning: suicide / suicide attempt and mental abuse!!

- her name is robyn, and she is a very very very toxic person. many of you already know this person. I’ve sent some of you screenshots upon screenshots of how horrible she’s been to me, or how cringy she is and right now I want to expose her for all the shitty things she’s done to make my past year and a half a living hell.

Okay so when cairo and I dated a year ago, I’m going to note that all three of us were kind of pretty stupid. My accounts were cringy as hell, but I’ll get to that in a minute. Anyways this relationship was pretty rushed, and it caused all sorts of problems later but that didn’t change how I felt (still feel) about her.

I met Robyn around the same time we were dating, March 2017, and I started roleplaying with her because I wanted some plots. My standards were really low at that point, so surprisingly she was really good with her replies. Anyways we kept roleplaying, Even though Cairo didn’t like her. Still kept talking, a little less than usual since that was the case. Then shit started to change. One of my best friends committed suicide in my whole attitude changed. Eventually, Robyn started getting really jealous of the loads and loads of attention my girlfriend was getting, and she threatened to ruin my relationship if I didn’t talk to her more. Even though I told her that I needed cairo because of the difficult time I’m in right now. So she tried to make up a whole bunch of lies and tell cairo, even though I told her that she was insecure at that time. So I paid attention to her again, I started plotting with her and every second of it, I was uncomfortable but I actually kind of liked it if a way because I really liked the plot??? I’m going to skip This part of the cringy ass plot because it was kind of fucked up but basically my character cheated on cairo’s and I felt like shit. Cairo was already insecure because she was just cheated on irl by someone else so I feel like shit x2. And that’s exactly what she tried to do. A lot of shit happened when I was on school trip and basically Cairo got in another relationship without me knowing. I didn’t know we broke up or anything, because I was still away. And we had a massive fight. I tried to show no remorse or something ??? because one I didn’t want to cry in front of my friends and two I wasn’t home. I didn’t want to have a massive breakdown in front of my choir director and classmates. And at this point Robyn was trying to get into my head. Saying things like “she never loved you,” “she only cares about that boy,” etc. and she did, she got in my head and I started to believe her. As soon as I got home I started bawling. I hated myself. I hated that Robyn put me in this spiral, I hated that no one but her cared about me, so I had a planned date (4/30/17) to kill myself. And I tried. And the OD didn’t work, it just made me pass out in the bathroom and I went to the hospital and they released me a few days after on suicide watch.

Let’s skip ahead to the end of May, my friendships still suck and at this point I’m cutting myself off from everyone but Robyn. We had good times, but then some drama happened that a lot of you know of you know of already, (I didn’t want to bring him up but let’s just say the asshole ex that hacked my account is in jail now for harassing minors on the Internet. (-:) And a lot of you ended up hating me for it. So I left Facebook roleplay with Robyn And throughout the year, and a half, the following happened:

- the whole time she was extremely clingy and if I didn’t pay attention to her for a couple of seconds she would think I was not her friend anymore

- Constantly guilt tripped me if I didn’t reply right away

- Think i’m going back to cairo, and if I told her that I might, she’d remind me of all the mistakes cairo made and if I did I’m a shitty person

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And then, (I can’t remember when) But I started talking to everyone on Facebook again. And honestly I missed it here. I missed Cairo, I missed Angie, I missed some of you a lot, And soon I brought my characters back.

As soon as Robyn found out about this she got mad lol

Cairo and I started talking more and more again, and we started dating again in March of this year.

Throughout this time she

- Robyn reported my new roleplay accounts on fb

- Threw fits when I was gone for like 5+ seconds, This time worse

- Made me feel like shit because I talked and roleplayed with or texted other people.

- Took her (honestly unjustified) anger at me out on her muse.

- Recently a hissy fit because I got back together with Cairo.

The list goes on and on.

And last night, I kicked Robyn Out of my life for good because I want to be happy. She’s the one that’s for making it so difficult for me to be happy and have the motivation to write again, So she’s gone for good, And I feel great. I should’ve listen to anyone that warned me about her, Because she psycho and cringy af.

Thank you for listening to the tea.

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just stopping by to say HAPPY FRICKIN HOLIDAYS and thanks for following me :)💗

Hi I just saw this omg!!! I actually moved accounts so I’ll follow you at @thomasthefferson lmao

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PSA!!!

i’m moving fuckers

sick of the age restricted shit

if y’all like my meaningless reblogs follow @thomasthefferson

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Hamilton: *Cheats on Eliza*

Hamilton: Philip, your mother can’t take another heartbreak.

Philip: *Dies*

Hamilton: *Dies*

Peggy: *Dies*

Angelica: *Dies*

Eliza: What the fuck

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how cabinet battle #1 should have gone

hamilton: HEY TURN AROUND BEND OVER I’LL SHOW YOU WHERE MY SHOE FITS washington: HAMILTON TAKE A W-

jefferson: WELL AT LEAST MY SON DOESN’T LOOK LIKE MY DEAD BOYFRIEND

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Breaking news: Lin loves hamilmemes

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When you forget you have it on shuffle….

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I’m complete Hamiltrash. Get over it, sir.

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ten duel commandments vs the world was wide enough

soundtrack: one two three four five six seven eight niiiiine-

me: *sweats* shit shit shit is it ten duel commandments or the world was wide enough i dont wanna cry

soundtrack: there are ten things you need to know!

me: 

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Reblog if you get it

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Eliza: i knew you’d fight until the war was won

Hamilton: war’s not done

Eliza: but you deserve a chance to meet your son

Hamilton: *points at eliza’s belly*

SON’S NOT DONE

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Aaron Burr: “The people don’t like you and you’re an asshole, but we can still be fiends”

[YT]

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HERE IT IS!!! my animatic for blow us all away!

i started this i think on friday? and just finished it today! this will be my first completed fandom animatic WHICH IS SUPER EXCITING

here’s some of my fav bits:

 I WORKED REALLY HARD ON THIS I REALLY HOPE EVERYONE LIKES IT!! and be sure to watch jay’s stay alive (reprise) animatic too since we worked together making them match!

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it’s quiet uptown | empty theatre 

*wear headphones

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child handling for the childless nurse

My current job has me working with children, which is kind of a weird shock after years in environments where a “young” patient is 40 years old.  Here’s my impressions so far:

Birth - 1 year: Essentially a small cute animal.  Handle accordingly; gently and affectionately, but relying heavily on the caregivers and with no real expectation of cooperation.

Age 1 - 2: Hates you.  Hates you so much.  You can smile, you can coo, you can attempt to soothe; they hate you anyway, because you’re a stranger and you’re scary and you’re touching them.  There’s no winning this so just get it over with as quickly and non-traumatically as possible.

Age 3 - 5: Nervous around medical things, but possible to soothe.  Easily upset, but also easily distracted from the thing that upset them.  Smartphone cartoons and “who wants a sticker?!!?!?” are key management techniques.

Age 6 - 10: Really cool, actually.  I did not realize kids were this cool.  Around this age they tend to be fairly outgoing, and super curious and eager to learn.  Absolutely do not babytalk; instead, flatter them with how grown-up they are, teach them some Fun Gross Medical Facts, and introduce potentially frightening experiences with “hey, you want to see something really cool?”

Age 11 - 14: Extremely variable.  Can be very childish or very mature, or rapidly switch from one mode to the other.  At this point you can almost treat them as an adult, just… a really sensitive and unpredictable adult.  Do not, under any circumstances, offer stickers.  (But they might grab one out of the bin anyway.)

Age 15 - 18: Basically an adult with severely limited life experience.  Treat as an adult who needs a little extra education with their care.  Keep parents out of the room as much as possible, unless the kid wants them there.  At this point you can go ahead and offer stickers again, because they’ll probably think it’s funny.  And they’ll want one.  Deep down, everyone wants a sticker.

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Hollywood’s attempt to create morally gray characters is ultimately a failure cause all they do is try to make the audience feel empathy for violent white dudes. Which isn’t groundbreaking at all

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Wait… so you’re telling me… that some people don’t cry for hours everytime they have a small argument with their s/o? Idk man hard to believe