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A letter from me to you. 

I don't know, maybe it's just random thoughts at 2 am, but if this letter reaches you, it means the universe is ready to send it to you. 

Oh, if your wife reads it too, I just want to say hello there. Don't worry, this letter doesn't mean your man is still in touch with me. No, we haven't talked since you two got married. This letter is not about me trying to romanticize our memories again. No, it's not. This letter is about me trying to heal.

Okay, let's start. First of all, I'm sorry. I apologize for being a spoiled baby and a crazy person who tried to control and change you. Perhaps I was too young to understand you. I thought I only needed love in our relationship, and I forgetting about other important things to maintain it.

When I say to you that “I've forgiven you but can't forget you” it's not just about the mistakes you've made but also the mistakes I made that failed our relationship, 

although your mistakes were WAY worse, haha.

What kind of boyfriend turns off his phone and plays with another girl?

What kind of boyfriend go to matchmaking event with another girl? 

What kind of boyfriend says harsh words to his girlfriend? 

What kind of boyfriend tells his girlfriend to go away when she's trying to explain her feelings? What kind of boyfriend surrenders when his girlfriend leaves? 

What kind of boyfriend already sleeps with another girl when his girlfriend is still thinking about getting back together (yes, I know because I checked your phone when you took time to pray 😄🙏🏻)? 

what kind of man spreads fake stories that I was caught cheating in my room?

Indeed, you're the kind of man who doesn't have the courage to let go a girl you never truly wanted in the first place. Instead, you stay with her hold her hand so tight but leaving her wondering about her presence in your life all this time.

Haha, that's why I say I CAN'T FORGET, BUT I CAN FORGIVE. you owe me not only the apologies 🤣🤣

But Finally, I am sending you this letter to share something great with you , that after a long time of carrying all the grudges of anger and sadness, I've decided to let them all go. 

I’VE FORGIVE AND I’VE FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING. 

I'm letting it go to the universe, so I can walk through this fleeting life properly and lightly.

Only love and beautiful memories do I keep as a sign of my love for myself.

Thank you for everything.

May Allah Bless you and your family.

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saya tidak lagi mengenalmu.. terlalu banyak kebohongan yang kamu buat untuk menyamarkan yang mungkin bisa memperindah bentukmu di mata orang lain.. bagi saya kamu yang kemarin sudah cukup sempurna, hanya saja saya dan kamu memang tidak bisa bersama, saya sangat mengerti dan pahami mungkin karena semua ketidak siapan kamu dan ketergesa gesaan yang saya buat.. tapi dengan memperindah bentuk mu dan menyamarkan nya menggunakan saya sebagai produk gagal mu, sungguh sangat membuat saya sakit hati... apa tidak bisa kah kau menyempurnakan bentukmu dengan tetap menjadi dirimu ? tanpa cerita produk gagal dimasa lalu mu.. karena hidup adalah masa dimana kamu memulainya sekarang bagaimana kamu memperlakukan orang orang di dekatmu sekarang bukan di masalalu..

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Last Hope

I don't even know myself at all I thought I would be happy by now The more I try to push it I realize – gotta let go of control Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen So let it happen It's just a spark But it's enough to keep me going And when it's dark out, no one's around It keeps glowing Every night I try my best to dream Tomorrow makes it better Then I wake up to the cold reality And not a thing is changed But it will happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen It's just a spark But it's enough to keep me going And when it's dark out, no one's around It keeps glowing It's just a spark But it's enough to keep me going And when it's dark out, no one's around It keeps glowing And the salt in my wounds isn't burning anymore than it used to It's not that I don't feel the pain, it's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore And the blood in these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has And that's the hope I have, the only thing I know that's keeping me alive Alive Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen Gotta let it happen It's just a spark But it's enough to keep me going (So if I let go of control now, I can be strong) And when it's dark out, no one's around It keeps glowing It's just a spark But it's enough to keep me going (So if I keep my eyes closed, with the blind hope) And when it's dark out, no one's around It keeps glowing

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It's dangerous to fall in love But I want to burn with you tonight Hurt me There's two of us Bristling with desire The pleasure's pain and fire Burn me

Fire meets gasoline - Sia

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Back to you - John Mayer

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Hingga pada akhirnya aku harus puas pada kekalahan yang tak pernah aku inginkan. dulu ia yang sempat ku bahagiakan dengan segala kekuranganku telah menyeberang melalui ceruk paling dalam sebagai pengorbanannya kepada dada yang telah membuatnya rela mempertaruhkan segala hal yang dulu pernah ia janjikan kepada musim yang kerontang. apakah ini sebuah pertanda bahwa aku memang telah ditakdirkan hidup di bawah bintang kematian?. bahwa akan selalu ada keping kehilangan di setiap hati yang ingin kurambah dengan keabadian.

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Masa sihhhhhhhh

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Satu dua detik aku berpikir.. Berpikir tentang satu dua perkara yg tidak kunjung berhenti dipikirkan.. Kamu.. Diujung sana.. Kenapa?

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With or without you..

See the stone Set in your eyes See the thorn Twist in your side I wait for you Sleight of hand And twist of fate On a bed of nails She makes me wait And I wait without you I can't live with or without you I can't live with or without you Through the storm We reach the shore You give it all But I want more And I'm waiting for you I can't live with or without you I can't live with or without you I can't live... I can't live with or without you And you give yourself away And you give yourself away And you give... And you give... And you give yourself away My hands are tied My body bruised She's got me with Nothing to win and Nothing left to lose And you give yourself away And you give yourself away And you give... And you give... And you give yourself away I can't live with or without you I can't live with or without you I can't live... I can't live with or without you

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