#[and i can change my reply! i just don't wanna god mod and say she was there if you don't want it that way lol]

[jundlcndwastes]

↪ 𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬 𝑨𝑻 𝑴𝑬 . ( a collection of lyric starters from an assortment of billie eilish songs . | i don't know what feels true . - ellie williams ( maybe after joel saves her from the hospital, and they're back at jackson? ) asked by @goldnsnds

Juniper was holding onto an extremely heavy secret, one that she didn't wish she had the burden to bear. But she would. For both of their sakes. She had been standing in the very same room as Joel when Marlene had told them what was going to happen to Ellie. Her DNA or her blood or whatever scientific reason behind her being the cure wasn't something that they could extract and keep the young girl intact and able to leave once she had given them her "donation." Marlene never even had the balls to tell Joel upfront that taking her to Jackson was Ellie's death sentence. Being the cure meant sacrificing her life for the greater good. If Juniper wasn't a moral person whatsoever, if she put the world in front of the life of one girl, maybe she would have agreed with Marlene that Ellie giving up her life to save the rest of earth's population was the right thing to do.

But dammit, she did have morals, and she had grown to care about Ellie so damn much ever since meeting her. "I think she'd wanna do what's right" made Juniper see red because how the hell were they supposed to know that? What, did she tell them that before she was tricked and sedated and prepped to be surgically probed? Fuck no! And even if Ellie did feel that way, how could they let her? The world wouldn't be worth living in with the weight of a dead child on their conscious. If that's the way that Juniper felt, then she knew Joel was thinking the same thing when he gunned down Marlene to save Ellie.

❝ What do you mean? ❞ She asked her, having a feeling what she meant but pretending to be blind to it all the same. Juniper tried making some eye contact and didn't want her to lead her on into believing things didn't go down the way she and Joel said they had. Sh