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[smolcuriouskitten]

R.I.P.

tw; death, abuse mention, guilt, etc. proceed at your own risk!

"A death that follows me is the death of my mom. She was killed at the hands of my ex-husband and I was in the next room. While I couldnt directly hear anything, I always wonder how differently my life would have been if she had lived for a little longer." She then goes through her memory box and pulls out a red casette tape, looking down at it. "This was the recording where she was killed. I cant listen to it." There was a pause and a deep sigh. "Part of me wants to know what her last words were, if she was calm or anxious or scared. What was the crowds reaction as it happened, what Magic said. All of those things run through my mind and it's exhausting every time I look at the tape."

She chokes up, putting the tape down and grabbing a red fedora that was also in the box. "Then once I discovered what he did, I killed him too." She feels the tears running down her face. "It wasnt my choice, when witches go through an emotionally taxing experience where they could be put at risk, coupled with the fact that he was abusing me, my magic got tired of it and a force equivalent to the sun was blasted at him at full force." At this point she was sobbing, putting the fedora down and grabbing a little teddy bear that was in the box. "The building burned at my doing and it hurts to remember. My mom's body still inside and I thought my husband got out when I later found out I killed him. I felt like a monster and I couldn't shake the feeling even if everything wasnt my fault. Or at least I like to tell myself that. So I locked myself in my house for awhile out of fear that I would hurt someone."