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#“it wont hurt to go onto this terf blog just this once. I'll just find the information about binder injuries and then leave”
thateclecticbitch · 9 months
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I think I've had a resurgence in Obsessive Compulsive symptoms. Have made the decision to go on hiatus for the time being while I get my mental health back in order.
#*sigh*#Dammit#And I was doing so good too :(#Although it may be that I've had a resurgence in symptoms for a long time and they just got progressively worse in the past month or so#Now that I think about it. The trigger for it happened last year.#Yep#Yeah#It was the fucking...#WHY are the ONLY readily available resources talking about binder injuries radfem blogs???#“it wont hurt to go onto this terf blog just this once. I'll just find the information about binder injuries and then leave”#And all I got was lectures about the dangers of binding and an existential crisis! Hurray! /sarcasm#And you know what? NONE OF IT EVEN HELPED WITH ASSESSING THE SEVERITY OF MY BINDER INJURY!!!#I just needed to know if it was serious enough to go to the doctor about it. IF the doctor even COULD do something about it.#Arugh!#Idk this just seems like a serious gap in resources yall#And that gap is being filled by websites and blogs that have had a net negative impact on my mental health#And I mean#Shit some of it was helpful#I managed to suck it up and stop using cloth binders altogether for my health and safety#And I'm grateful that I did#if only because i would have gotten heat stroke this scorching summer if I hadn't made the switch to trans tape#But the obsessive thoughts. The mental compulsions.#The reassurance seeking from friends and family and strangers#Not to mention the EXTENSIVE and TIME CONSUMING rituals of combing through pages and pages of websites to test my doubts and ease my worrie#Yeah... I could have done without those.#At least this time around the subject matter doesnt make me want to fucking kill myself 💀#Silver linings#Okay... logging off for the foreseeable future#trans#transgender
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