#⌜ *¨*•.¸ ebb and flow┊ᴏᴋɪɴᴀɢᴀ ʏᴜᴜᴛᴏ / ᴍᴀɪɴ ᴠᴇʀꜱᴇ⌟

[hancfubuki]

@stylesofh2o​ && chanwoo / x

        he found himself acting out of IMPULSE more often than usual, perhaps it was the sudden CLOSENESS that recently bloomed between them. he couldn’t quite remember when EXACTLY he started feeling some sort of attraction towards the barista, though when he remembered those first meetings where the chanwoo would bring him coffee for free out of nowhere and he simply felt annoyed as he is not exactly a people’s person. a giggle fled from his lips as his palms slid down on his chest as he got closer when their lips brushed again. “y’know. it’s the chapstick.” he teased back as one of his hands went to brush one of the blond locks away from his face. 

       the height difference between them was MINIMUM yet, yuuto was still considered a short man. though at this moment he didn’t care about the fact that for a second he had to stand of his tip toes to reach his lips perfectly. but before he could completely close the distance he simply decided to keep teasing him for a few more seconds by kissing just the corner of his mouth before moving to his ear. to whisper softly 

      “if... you ask for it properly, i might.”   

[hancfubuki]

@stylesofh2o​ && chanwoo / x

        “ah, i don’t know if i could. i get shy in front of cameras, besides we haven’t done it yet and i don’t want millions of spectators to watch our first time. it would be weird.” though he knew that chanwoo didn’t mean that, but for some reason he was finding a way to avoid the subject. it seemed something interesting, but he is not good with pain. “just kidding, i know you didn’t mean that.” he finally managed to say as his fingertips still caressed chanwoo’s cheek. “i have only tried it once, and i didn’t really like it as i was on the submissive side.” he couldn’t help but laugh at the thought and that failed attempt. “can you believe some idiot thought i was submissive? i mean, i can be a bottom, but that doesn’t make you automatically submissive and lot of guys seem to forget that.” and without realizing he burst into laughter. a weird sight to see as yuuto was normally serious and bossy but, that was pretty much the joke. though he didn’t hesitate in pulling chanwoo’s closer by making him sit on his lap before placing a kiss to his jaw. “but... unlike me, you seem to greatly handle pain though. and that interests me, so why not?”

[hancfubuki]

@stylesofh2o​ & CHANWOO / S.C

NO EYES - CLAPTONE (feat. JAW)

            it was unknown as why would someone visit a cafe shop this late. but yuuto was one to frequent those places as he considered them more CALM than his own house. nothing against that though, but they were kind of loud sometimes and studying out with a good cup of coffee sounded like a good plan from time to time. as he was a REGULAR there, he already sort of formed a bond with the barista.

            on his usual table, he ordered the same as always but this time with his book closed, simply staring at the people that come and go from the shop. it was incredible to see how CROWDED this place always, and it was no surprise why the owner decided to close that late. “so many maybes, so many ways. so many ladies, so many men... it's a lonely night.” he muttered, as he moved aside his now empty cup of coffee towards chanwoo to ask for a refill. “everybody's happy, been turning around and looking for a friendly light. but i see nothing.” and honestly, he was only MUTTERING probably complaining because he did had a rough day, not to mention that his nature was actually derivative from jealousy. “no eyes, no eyes on me.”

[hancfubuki]

@muselobby​ && kentin / s.c

           “why does your face look like a dorito? bad plastic surgery?” 

[hancfubuki]

nonverbal memes

@stylesofh2o​​ said: [ cry ] w/ Chanwoo bc I crave SAD COMFORT.

         days were usually busy at the restaurant, customers walked in and out every minute and neither of the brothers had time to count nor attempt to MEMORIZE their faces. yuuto specifically, just served without caring about minimal details such as faces or voices as he was simply doing his job. sei on the other side had this friendly vibe that made each customer to feel at ease, as if they were at home. probably everyone that knew yuuto and sei knew they both worked as a restaurant, sometimes friends visited but yuuto had more DISCRETION when it came about his work, mostly because well, his brother was 99% of the time there so he had a list of people that would NEVER be invited. 

         of course on top of that list was chanwoo. which could be considered unfair because of the fact yuuto spent his free time at his work, but he did have a VALID reason ( or at least he considered it that way ). despite the AMBIGUITY of their relationship, yuuto was pretty sure that he developed feelings towards the older. not that he hid it either, in fact he tried to make it clear with every action and word and mostly his insecurities prevent him from having a HEALTHY relationship. sure, he didn’t mind chanwoo meeting his mother, who could be found all the time there, he didn’t mind him bumping into his father either. in fact, he thought they could get along. but sei? seiji was the MAIN problem here and the entire reason why he didn’t want chanwoo to get close to his family restaurant. 

         and as well, this wasn’t exactly an issue on his brother side but he was so HURT in the past that he is simply just SCARED that another one of his partners prefer sei over him. sei did remember what happened back then, but he tried to make it clear that he would never do anything like that to his own brother so he basically just kept up with his own life without taking into consideration how FATAL this was for the younger of them. and well, yuuto did talk about a mysterious chanwoo, but never described him nor showed a photo so how was he supposed to know that the customer right in front of him was that person? the thought didn’t even cross his mind as he was taking the order though, he did feel a murderous gaze coming into his direction. 

           “why are you talking to him?” yuuto mumbled coming from behind, his expression was DIFFERENT from what was usual on him as the anger was boiling through his veins. he didn’t even say a word to chanwoo as he was too focused in ‘confronting’ his brother. yet yuuto was not the jealous type, but when something revolved about the older okinaga he snapped in seconds as if he was a time-bomb. “seiji, i’m talking to you. we are not doing this again. you enjoy this, don’t you? i bet you are even doing it on purpose.” 

            “yuuto, you are scaring the customers. i don’t know what you are talking about.” sei responded, looking at chanwoo with an apologetic face still without knowing what was going.

            “oh, right! i forget how dumb you actually are. is your memory failing know? do i need to refresh what happened years ago? and now you come here and do the same with chanwoo?!”

            “chan...?” sei blinked twice in confusion, looking back at the customer then again at yuuto. oh. “i didn’t even know it was... yuuto listen to me. i don’t know what you mean, i was just taking his order.”

           “just shut the fuck up.”

            “yuuto, please. you are really scaring our custo--” though sei couldn’t finish his sentence as the next thing he saw was yuuto ready to strangle him. but in a blink of the eye, chanwoo was already up and ready to stop the red-head. "i’m sorry we met in these circumstances, but please take him to the back room.” more than ashamed, sei was worried about his brother’s behavior. yet again, yuuto wasn’t this type of person and the fact that he is causing these feelings on him was simply heartbroken for the two of them. sei sighed and stayed in the main room as yuuto was finally taken away to calm down. 

            at first, he didn’t want to LISTEN any word, not even if it was chanwoo. he was angry, hurt, desperate. a river of emotions flowing inside his heart, causing his brain to be foggy and not allowing him to think straight. it was too much for him too handle and only until that moment, he realized how broken he actually was. how much he hated himself, how his self-esteem was touching the floor,  how he compared to sei for absolutely no reason. sei never meant harm, right? chanwoo wasn’t supposed to be here in first place, but who was he to even deny him to come to public space. chanwoo was another customer, and his brother was doing his job. and he felt stupid, felt broken, felt even more desperate than before. because it took him a while to realize how the old scars were still open, because when he thought he got over the situation with tomoe was a simple fantasy that he created to blind himself from the truth. that after that day, he became broken and it would take him a while to pick up all the pieces. 

           and without even thinking, he finally allowed himself to fall into chanwoo’s arms, weeping, taking out everything as he never did it before. “i’m sorry.” he mumbled in between his cries, his face hiding onto chanwoo’s chest as he gripped the hem of his shirt. taking a deep breath, he realized that it would be better to explain what was going on. “i’m not like this... i just get extremely insecure when my brother is around. he is better than me at everything, he is popular, he is more handsome-- people just fawn around him always. all my life i have been just his little brother and that’s all. years ago i was dating someone that seemed to genuinely care for me and just for me. so i introduced him to my family, he spent a lot of time at my house but he always insisted sei to join us. i found it weird, but i thought if we were watching a movie there shouldn’t be anything wrong with him joining. that was probably the worst mistake in my life, because...” he let out a long sigh, tears still running down his cheek as his gaze torn apart. “he just used me to get closer to sei. and that had cause me permanent damage. i thought i was over it-- i try to convince myself i was over it but i didn’t even want you to come here because i was afraid you two could met. after that happened, i spent years not allowing guys i’m interested in to come any closer to sei, and that’s not normal. how did i not realize it sooner that it was not normal...”

          “i’m sorry, chanwoo. i’m really sorry. i didn’t mean to cause a scene and it’s not that i don’t trust you. i do, but... my insecurities sometimes take over me. i’m so embarrassed right now, we are not even dating yet i’m here getting jealous because my own brother is taking your other. i... would understand if you don’t want me close after this, but believe me... i really, really like you.”