#━━ bediah tunage ｢these are the daydreams that keep me clean｣

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hardly golden task 001: fanmix yourself

a current favorite song // shameful company by rks a song that would play in the movie trailer of your life // cat’s in the cradle by harry chapin a song with a story behind it // coney island by taylor swift ft. the national a song you’d make out to // spaceship by puddle of mudd a song that reminds you of your favorite season // ghosting by mother mother a song from a favorite band/artist // it’s called: freefall by rks a song that cheers you up // the middle by jimmy eat world a song that reminds you of home // behind blue eyes by the who a song that makes you think about the future // save me by jelly roll a song you prefer to listen at night // get on the road by tired pony a song you play when you’re sad // broadripple is burning by margot and the nuclear so and so’s a song with lyrics you’d like to tattoo on yourself // the funeral by band of horses a song you know all the lyrics to // s.o.s. sawed off shotgun by the glorious sons your favorite cover of a song // sleepwalking by this wild life a song that describes your default mood // you won’t know by brand new

[hardlygclden]

HARDLY GOLDEN - a playlist for the evolution of bediah boregard

part one | coming in kicking and screaming from growing pains: bediah’s youth is remembered in the static tunes of his father’s car radio, and the desperation to be just like him solely to keep him around. these are the echoes of his childhood when he didn’t realize this was all he had. rebellion struck early on when he started to see that he could be more than a tool, and he began to grow into the man that latched on to key west like a weed. what would it take for him to turn on the hand that gave him crumbs? bediah thrived in his father’s shadow, but his youthful shine would make him a nuance to the locals that they wouldn’t mind casting in brass. it didn’t last long, and he’d face consequence.

i. cat’s in the cradle - harry chapin ii. behind blue eyes - the who iii. hospital - counting crows iv. save a prayer - duran duran v. hey jealousy - gin blossoms

part two | blissful ignorance and rage: upon his reemergence into society after turning in years for his actions and those of his father, bediah unleashed what he had been reserved behind iron fences. he believed good was self serving and when he got what he wanted, he didn’t let go.

 vi. country song - seether vii. sex & candy - marcy playground viii. possum kingdom - toadies ix. machinehead - bush x. sos (sawed off shotgun) - the glorious sons xi. silver lining - mt. joy xii. keep it together - puddle of mudd xiii. steady, as she goes - the raconteurs xiv. spaceship - puddle of mudd xv. stockholm syndrome - muse xvi. you won’t know - brand new xvii. virgin - manchester orchestra xviii. the hand that feeds - nine inch nails xix. let’s talk about your hair - have mercy xx. fuck them all - the dangerous summer 

part three | to be good:  bediah learned to keep his down, to atone where he could while still being true to the spirit that he wanted to be his. 

xxi. ghosting - mother mother xxii. mess is mine - vance joy xxiii. where we are - the lumineers xxiv. our song- rks xxv. alligator - of monsters and men xxvi. don’t take the money - bleachers xxvii. this picture - placebo xviii. sometime around midnight - the airborne toxic event xxiv. shameful company - rks xxx. salt and the sea - the lumineers xxxi. shimmer - fuel 

part four | remembrance of what was wasted: there are parts of bediah he isn’t sure belong to himself, or the person he wanted to be in order to catch his father’s attention. his insistence robbed him of his youth, and he wonders what he can still have for himself. 

xxxii. act on impulse - we were promised jetpacks xxxiii. the middle (acoustic) - jimmy eat world xxxiv. diet soda society (acoustic) - the maine xxxv. scumbag (acoustic) - goody grace xxxvi. tell me you’re sorry (acoustic) - real friends xxxvii. she’s quiet - the home team xxxviii. hated (acoustic) - beartooth xxxix. in bloom (acoustic) - neck deep 

part five | to be better: to be good is hard, and so bediah will try to be better first. he holds his flaws not on his sleeve, but in his tattered pocket. he’s wrap their loose threads around his finger but never tug hard enough to know where they’ve unraveled from. 

xl. hear you me - jimmy eat world xli. exiles - third eye blind xlii. the funeral - band of horses [to know me as hardly golden, is to know all wrong, they were] xliii. its called: freefall - rks xliv. broadripple is burning - margot & the nuclear so and so’s xlv. civlian wye oak xlvi. save me - jelly roll xlvii. sleepwalking - live - this wild life xlviii. get on the road - tired pony xlix. coney island (ft. the national) - taylor swift l. i’ve given up on you - real friends li. placeholder - the story so far