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APPLICATION Â !
welcome back to hogwarts, GINNY WEASLEY ! according to your file, youâre a TWENTY ONE year old PUREBLOOD. as iâm sure you remember, last spring had its challenges, but iâm confident youâll take your studies more seriously this year. as a FOURTH year GRYFFINDOR, focusing on POTIONS AND ALCHEMY, youâve got a lot on your plate. our records show that you're STUBBORN and BRAVE however, they seem to have left off that you're RECKLESS  and EMOTIONAL. if iâm correct, youâre siding with THE LIGHT. letâs hope you make it through the year in one piece.
AESTHETICS Â !
an old DIARY that rests on a weathered desk, its pages open to a SPECIFIC memory, worn and loved CONVERSE, self-knit jumpers that make you feel LOVED, a wand carefully tucked away and almost invisible but EASY to reach, a collection of potion bottles, each with a HAND-WRITTEN label, lined up neatly on a rustic wooden shelf, a WEATHERED broomstick leaning casually against the corner, its bristles slightly frayed from countless adventures, a patchwork of magical knick-knacks COLLECTED over the years, each with a story and a bit of magic of its own.
MINI PLAYLIST !
i.  I  LIVED    -    OneRepublic  .
ii.  LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO    -    taylor swift  .
iii.  SO  WHAT    -    pink  .
iv.  QUEEN  OF  KINGS    -    alessandra  .
STATISTICS Â !
full name : ginevra  molly weasley
nicknames : ginny, gin,Â
birthday : august  11
age : 21 Â
sexual orientation : bisexual
romantic orientation : pan romantic
house : gryffindor
   BACKGROUND  !
Early Life (Pre-Hogwarts, Ages 0-17)
Ginny Weasley was born on August 11, 2003, as the youngest child and only daughter of Arthur and Molly Weasley. Growing up in The Burrow, a warm but chaotic household in the countryside, Ginny was surrounded by her six older brothers: Bill, Charlie, Percy, Fred, George, and Ron. Being the youngest, Ginny developed a fierce independence and determination from a young age, often trying to keep up with her brothers and prove herself in their eyes.
Ginnyâs early years were filled with a mix of playful adventures and magical mishaps, as she eagerly observed her brothersâ use of magic. She demonstrated a natural talent for magic even before receiving formal training, often performing small feats of magic unintentionally. Despite her brothersâ protective attitudes, Ginny was never one to back down from a challenge, and she quickly earned their respect.
By the time she reached her teens, Ginny was brimming with excitement to attend Hogwarts, just as her brothers had before her. However, she had to wait until she turned 18 to begin her magical education. During these years, Ginny practiced magic in secret, using her brothersâ old textbooks and any spare wands she could find. She also developed a deep love for Quidditch, often sneaking out to fly on her brothersâ broomsticks. By the time she was ready to attend Hogwarts, Ginny was more than prepared, with a strong sense of self and a determination to make her mark.
First Year at Hogwarts (Age 18/19)
Ginny Weasley began her Hogwarts journey at the age of 18, entering the school with a mixture of excitement and determination. She was sorted into Gryffindor, like all her brothers before her, and quickly began to make friends and immerse herself in the schoolâs activities. However, her first year took a dark turn when she came into possession of Tom Riddleâs diary, which led to her being manipulated into opening the Chamber of Secrets. The ordeal was traumatic, leaving her shaken and vulnerable, but Ginnyâs inner strength allowed her to recover and learn from the experience. This challenging year marked the beginning of Ginnyâs transformation from a shy girl into a resilient and determined young witch.
Second Year at Hogwarts (Age 19/20)
Returning to Hogwarts for her second year, Ginny was more determined than ever to prove herself. She joined the Gryffindor Quidditch team as a Chaser, quickly establishing herself as a talented and competitive player. Ginny also began to step out of her brothers' shadows. Despite the lingering memories of her first year, Ginny focused on her studies and extracurricular activities, steadily gaining confidence and becoming more assertive. Her second year was one of rebuilding and growth, as she started to carve out her own identity at Hogwarts.
Third Year at Hogwarts (Age 20/21)
Ginnyâs third year saw her continuing to grow in confidence and skill. She played a crucial role in Gryffindorâs Quidditch victories, becoming a key player on the team. Socially, Ginny began to emerge as a leader among her peers, known for her sharp wit, courage, and ability to stand up for others. She also became more involved in the wider issues affecting the wizarding world, particularly as Voldemortâs return became an increasingly looming threat. This year marked Ginnyâs evolution from a quiet, reserved girl into a strong, vocal, and determined young woman, ready to take on the challenges ahead.
   PERSONALITY  !
Ginny Weasley is known for her fierce independence, sharp wit, and unwavering courage. She has a strong sense of justice and is never afraid to stand up for what she believes is right, even if it means going against the norm. Ginny's fiery temper is balanced by her compassionate nature; she cares deeply for her friends and family and will go to great lengths to protect them.
Ginny is also highly competitive, especially when it comes to Quidditch. Her determination to excel in everything she does is a reflection of her desire to prove herself, not just as the youngest Weasley, but as an individual with her own strengths and capabilities. Despite her strong exterior, Ginny has a deeply empathetic side, often understanding others' emotions and offering support when needed.
Ginnyâs ability to remain calm and collected in high-pressure situations makes her a natural leader. She has a keen sense of humor, often using sarcasm to deflect uncomfortable situations or to lighten the mood. However, Ginny is not one to tolerate injustice or cruelty, and she has little patience for those who underestimate her or her loved ones.
   HEADCANONS  !
Wand Affinity: Ginnyâs wand is made of cherry wood with a dragon heartstring core, known for its power and loyalty to its owner. The wand is particularly attuned to Ginnyâs fiery nature, making her spells especially potent.
Quidditch Superstitions: Before every Quidditch match, Ginny wears a specific pair of socks given to her by Fred and George, believing they bring her luck. She also has a pre-game ritual of touching the handle of her broom three times before mounting it.
Secret Keeper: Ginny has a knack for keeping secrets. Many of her friends confide in her, knowing she will never betray their trust. Sheâs also known to quietly fix problems behind the scenes, helping others without seeking recognition.Â
Hidden Talents: Beyond Quidditch, Ginny has a talent for potion-making, which she rarely shows off. She learned this skill from her mother, who taught her to brew complex potions as a way to calm her mind. Ginny often uses this skill to help her friends with their studies or to create special concoctions for pranks. This is also the area she chose to study in to have a second choice in case quidditch doesn't work out for her.Â
Fear of Vulnerability: After the incident with Tom Riddleâs diary, Ginny has developed a fear of being controlled or manipulated again. This fear drives her to be fiercely independent and to constantly work on strengthening her mental and magical defenses.
Favorite Spot: Ginnyâs favorite spot at Hogwarts is a secluded area by the Black Lake, where she often goes to think and practice spells. Itâs a place where she feels most at peace, surrounded by the calm waters and the sounds of nature.
   HEADCANONS  !
Give me everything !!
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â  Reverend Putty ?  â  It's no phenomenon for Orel to stop Putty after a sermon , yet , this time there was absence of his usual rambling.  There's been a change to Orel these last few months maybe to most of the uncaring eyes in town it was barely noticeable , aside from the limp , of course .  Whenever Orel wandered through town there was a smile on his face and just the smallest , barely noticeable hint of sadness in his eyes like the faintest of wrinkles bellow eyelids .Â
Now he's the last out of church , instead of reciting the entire sermon back to @rvrend , scrawled on a tiny note book , filling sheets of lined paper , he gently tugs at middle aged man's sleeve . â  I've been thinking a lot lately and it's not just because of your sermon on family .  âÂ
He's been struggling with his own , Putty already knew that , not everything but he at least knew Orel was struggling with honoring Clay . â   You and Stephanie are kinda like ... well I just think you're both real neat and it's nice to have people to believe in still , you know ? Besides Jesus and God of course !  â   There's a lot more to his words than he's letting on , so much that would just be dishonorable to the family he already has . He's a Puppington he must remain that , be a good son . Even if he knows Clay isn't really a father worthy of that deep down . It still hurt to admit it and Orel isn't quite sure anymore whether his loyalty lies at home because he truly believes in it or if he's afraid of betraying his father and his family . - đđšđźđ„đ đđĄđđ đđĄđđ§Â đđđđ«đđČ đĄđąđŹÂ đđšđ ? đđĄđđ§Â đĄđ đđđ«đ đ§đšđ đđŻđđ§Â đđĄđąđ§đ€Â đšđ đąđ đđ§đČđŠđšđ«đ .
His smile threatens to fall so he takes a step back . Then retrieving from his pockets the extensive notes you'd come to expect .
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"You don't owe me or anyone else an explanation. But..."
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€sasha liked frank. liked what she did with him. violence interwoven with intimacy, unsure when one ended and the other began. but what she didn't like was the time between hunts. the days, and the nights, when she'd have to go back to normal. if she could ever be such a thing.
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€and sasha hated questions. got angry when asked too many. but he'd only asked one, but it was the important one. was it you? didn't know how to answer, because she wasn't ashamed of what she'd done. if anything, she was proud. he'd had so much control over her since a young, primitive age, and so it had only seemed fitting that she'd end his control; but only by ending his life.
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€" yes, it was meâ yes, he deserved it. is that what you want to hear? "
a meme for muses who can't open up.
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He had taken refuge behind a couple of barrels , thankfully the contents were already empty . Peering over the top Globox finds silver , a being practically covered in silver from head to toe . Perhaps he should be reassured by the lack of rust , robopirates were always impossibly crusted with a thick layer of rust .
Globox still debates whether he should spritz @shiningsilverarmor with a rain cloud as a precaution , however , leaning over the barrel to peak proved a task he had greatly over estimated , applying too much pressure to the barrels they begin to topple and roll out , scattering . Leaving Globox exposed , flinging his arms above his head in a futile attempt to shield and hide himself . It was too late for that .
â AH ! Nice robot , you can't see me, I can't see you - â / đ
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( sabrina carpenter + twenty + she/her ) look who has entered camp halfblood college ! meet MILENA BIANCHI , the child of HADES . they have been living in long island for two years and are currently studying photography. when someone describes them, they are often described as AMBITIOUS and RECKLESS. zeus believes she is responsible for stealing the lightning bolt but is that something they are capable of doing?
  AESTHETICS  !
the smell of an expensive perfume always leaving you wanting more.  the feeling of being in love without actually being in love . never doing anything unprepared and looking effortless while doing it, big blue eyes filled with mischief and wonder and an even bigger smile that follows.Â
   MINI PLAYLIST !
i.  PASSAGES   -   three  laws  .
ii.  SURRENDER -    birdy  .
iii.  LONG WAY DOWN -    tom odell  .
iv.  MY MISTAKE -    gabrielle aplin  .
   STATISTICS  !
full name  :   milena bianchi
nicknames : lena, milly, blondie,
birthday : february 14Â
zodiac sign : aquarius
age : 20
sexual orientation : bisexual
romantic orientation : pan romantic
relationship status : single
parentage : hades
powers : necromancy, umbrakinesis, osteokinesis, phobikinesis, geokinesis, ferrokinesis, hypnokinesis
Milena is the total opposite of what you would expect from a Hades child. Ever since she was a child, she was nearly sunlight personified. She is mostly seen smiling and is always there to try and get a smile on someone else's face.Â
She was the child of a young and naive teen mom, Valerie and Hades. Growing up, the relationship between her and her mother couldn't have been more perfect. They always proved people wrong when they told them they wouldn't make it and that her mother was too young. If you ask her, she couldn't be luckier.Â
When she was 3, her mother started dating someone new and eventually even married the man. Milena always knew the man she called dad wasn't her real father, but she never cared. For a long time, in her own perfect mind, they were the perfect family.Â
   PERSONALITY !
personality traits + : empathic  , magnetic , determined , ambitious, friendly
personality traits - : impulsive , quick-tempered , blunt , brash , reckless , naive
moral alignment : Chaotic neutral
temperament :  Sanguine
  HEADCANONS !
Milena is 95% sunshine and rainbows and 5% absolute rage. She usually has perfect control of her anger ( that also feeds her powers ), but every once in a while, she does lose control, and then she turns into an actual menace.Â
She's really protective and loving towards her siblings. Before she got to the camp, she had always been an only child, so the feeling of actually having siblings was totally new but very welcome to her. She loves the new family she has found here and can be very affectionate towards them.Â
more tba.
  CONNECTIONS !
other : iâm basically open to every thing so let's do all the plottingÂ
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okay yeah i think imma go ahead, dan the man -> raphael danilo alejo-osorio. also goes by rafa raph raffie rafalama-bang-bang rafanathan rafanjamin ( but if you slip up & call him dan he dont care, learning curve ). also goes by ruff. bc dog-coded. he will punch y-
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her knuckles wrap gently against the door, the one she was told was assigned to captain john price. thereâs a nervousness coursing through her, wishing that agent laswell hadnât left her to her own devices, that the woman would have introduced them herself. she knows kate has more important things to do than help curb juneâs anxiety at meeting new people, doesnât really make her wish any less.Â
â hello, â she does her best to smile, hands tucking themselves behind her back, â agent laswell sent me? said there was a laptop that needed opened? âÂ
@brvo6 / x
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·Ëâ§Ë @vulpesse âĄàż âč * đČđłđ đ±đłđ€đ± đąđ đ«đ«
twilight burns a hole in the abyss that is dubbed night . he who plays the part of ( đđđđđđŸđđđ ) , despite the previous fear that drove the people of suna to outcast him [ ... ] a normalcy among the jinchuriki apparently . đ±đŠđ°đ±đđŠ đ§đŠđąđł đžđ©đąđ” đ”đ©đŠđș đ„đ° đŻđ°đ” đ¶đŻđ„đŠđłđŽđ”đąđŻđ„ . and most of all â what they cannot control .
and that ' s why you ' ve outlived the fates ' sever , admittance of a death avoided . đĄâđđđđ đĄđ đĄâđ đđđ„ . and now , there ' s a new fox , hardly giving gaara any warnings . a breath held , blue eyes narrowing in the moonlight . â are you friend or foe ? â he ' s not sure if he ' s expecting the truth , tone even in his query as his gaze feeds .
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â look, hon⊠â the older lady sighs and scratches some more-dead-than-usual skin from her rotting neck.â i dig whatever thing ya got goinâ on, butâŠi canât letcha back in. themâs the rules, bj.â she coughs three times and pulls out a cigar with holes shot through it. scatter while you can, she seemed to say. soon, nobodyâs gonna want to take you back.
@spectergeuse
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plotted starter for @feleshero â„ïž
the night had been fairly quiet, or as quiet as they e v e r are in the city. as she was far for the only one in a mask making rounds it was typically fairly balanced, but if she were honest she were almost a little bored as she sat atop the pale, translucent skateboard, hovering above the buildings. it was on of her preferred methods of transport when she was bored, or she just knew she wasn't going to be out for very long. she liked that while the wheels impacted nothing in the sky, she could so easily d r o p to the streets as well. PLUS, she could practice the balance she needed to show off around her brothers. while they'd always thought her powers were c o o l , they were only as impressed as they were jealous . . . and they generally weren't jealous that she could follow the ' never wear the same outfit twice ' rule without becoming an capitalistic monster. however, they were always impressed by anything r e m o t e l y athletic. hence the needing of any new tricks to show off when she ended up back in chicago for the holidays.
ultimately, versatile had grown b o r e d of the balancing and had decided to sit on the board as well as she watches for anything along the city streets. brows furrow slightly beneath her domino mask as she notices some a c t i v i t y on the roof of a nearby building. her head cocks slightly and before she's even decided her next move she's on her feet, and then she's merely floating in the air. the blue-green mist below her feet keeping her afloat. she sees the the feminine form shift through the large window, a large frame tucked beneath an arm. well, that seems like a straight forward theft to her.
within seconds the hero is flying down to the roof, a glowing bow-staff appears in her hand as she drops onto the roof a few yards from the stranger â     well well well,     â she drawls, dropping the end of the staff to the floor, casually holding it in place with the palm of her hand atop it as she takes in the other woman. â     i'm not really an art collector myself, but this seems like an o d d way to start a collection.     â
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Orel used to read the passage of the The Boy Who Cried Wolf to an obsessive degree though he couldn't liken to the boy in the story's compulsive lying đĄđ đđąđ đđđ„đąđđŻđ đđĄđđ đ°đšđ„đŻđđŹ đ°đđ«đ đđĄđ đšđ©đ©đšđŹđąđđ đđš đŹđĄđđđ© .
He has equated the characteristics of a wolf to his father . Only claiming any depiction he had made of the beastly mawed creature in his own homemade stop motion film , claiming that of a dog . His way of denying it not only to his father , no, to himself too . That was until his father's nature revealed itself raw in the open exposure of the woods during this hunting trip , Orel had tried to limp away while his father lies in a drunken stupor... it's a fools errand the only way back home was by car and he was not in any state to walk that many miles , he has a tourniquet over the offending wound in the form of a tight rag from his ripped sleeve at least .. still he needed medical attention .
He's exhausted , injured and afraid when his eyes spot @lonetala in the dark , a heave of his chest as he tries to still his heart , grabbing the cloth at that side of his chest . â  Okay , okay , it's going to be okay . â He leans up against the tree , hoping to stay hidden and out of sight . Pistol clutched tightly to his chest . Orel would honestly sooner die than shoot another creature , ... though he had to do the hard thing before . â  Please stay away. I don't want to hurt you ... â
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€" no one had ever bought me an ice cream before. it tasted kinda gross, though. "
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đđąđŠđđ§đŹđąđšđ§Â đ±Â , đ đđąđŠđđ§đŹđąđšđ§Â đđąđ„đ„đđ đ°đąđđĄÂ đŠđđ§đČ đźđ§đąđŻđđ«đŹđđŹÂ đąđ§đđ„đźđđąđ§đ   ' đđĄđ đđ„đđđ đšđ đđ«đđđŠđŹÂ ' the small tear of fabric between worlds created a suction affect leading to some creatures being ripped away from their home world's gravity itself .Â
Now in the new dimension the streets are cold and unforgiving in New York . The fae amphibian learnt all too quickly that his kind didn't belong here . An alien essentially . He scurried to the nearest place to hide . Changing hide out to hide out , three days has past until he takes refuge within the sewers , hearing water was the main driver for the decision .
When the toad dropped from the manhole and into the sewer he spun around , a gasp initially at seeing a ray , about his height down here , though shock subsides as he visibly relaxes , just thankful to find someone like him out here in this strange place . â  Sorry , I didn't know you lived down here , ... I was wondering where all the - us-guys were . â  For lack of a better word . The humans used the word 'mutant' . At least that's what he thought they were screaming . Should he be wearing clothes like @eyeknowmayhem ? â Are you hiding too ? â / đàŒ for Ray
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@duckycarvalho / DUCKY
â I can't just LEAVE willy-nilly whenever i want. i have a JOB to do here. â
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mental checklist â running down through every single possible leftover thing she could think of that she needed to pack, or that needed to stay in the small living space of her apartment, for the landlord to pass on to the next tenant. maria stood there, in the entryway under the warm-toned lights above her head, eyes flicking all over the space around her, taking note, making sure she had everything she needed ready to go, or stay put : the living room, the small hallway leading to her room, the little dining space and the kitchen tucked away around the corner, mind racing as she mutters to herself, brow pinched together.
she could feel the small tremors of nerves in her hands. her heart racing in her chest. this was it. the last night. in texas. with mama and ana, with her friendsâ
it was difficult to manage without anyone catching on, but . . . maria had feigned going to her classes the last two weeks, instead meeting with her department heads, the offices, to get herself officially dropped out. and she managed to secure another apartment, in washington â over the phone. with stops, she still had three more days to drive from austin all the way out to the northwest.
( she could already feel the pangs of regret, of reluctance, to go. to finish loading her car of what remained of her apartment, to set juniper in her carrier beside her in the passengers seat, and then take off. )
there was no going back on this, though. couldn't be. any feeling of regret had to be stifled, shoved back in, swallowed back down to gut. it was too late to try unraveling everything she'd set in motion these last couple of weeks. it was . . . had to beâ with free hand she lifts up juniper's carrier, the other swinging duffles over shoulder, as she set chin firm fromt he urge to just . . . drop everything and stay put. stay with everyone. starts yet another trip downstairs, to her car.
maria already said her goodbyes â at least, she never said them out loud . . .
that last library visit with sonny, scouring over book titles, his ramblings at what ones were worth reading, what books most accurate. she was proud of him, and hoped she would come across his name in the papers someday for some grand achievement he's accomplished â perhaps many, to be fair.
danilo tagging along with her to a gallery opening, them both quietly talking among themselves, dan cracking sarcastic jokes at some of the pieces but otherwise, letting her ramble, on and on, about the ones she adored the most ( as he had watched her quietly, a small smile across face, happy that she seemed to be getting back to herself after everythingâ it stings still . . . she knows he's going to be upset when he realizes she's gone . . . )
julie and connie, with a final girls' night and sleepover in their dorm ( by her own suggestion, her place being emptied and packed ). peering at them both over rim of wine glass as they drank and snacked on the treats she and connie baked together earlier in the day. wanting those last moments to simply watch them both. remember their faces and their laughter, their banter. set in stone how much she adores the two of them, her best friends, the girls she's grown so close to and fond of.
danny, after helping her, unknowingly for the last time, on her car. she'll be driving so many miles. she wanted to be sure it would make the trip. and she knew danny would go over every little bump and scrap and odd noise made without fail. and then treated him, when he was finished with some nice and home-cooked. one of her last sit-downs in her apartment, with gentle banter and teasing jokes passed between them both.
they say love sometimes settles in the stomach â with a hot, good meal shared between those one loves.
maria can only hope the three of them know just how much she loves them.
and then the last, earlier in the evening on this final day in austin. out in a field of wildflowers â a last ditch attempt to ease her anxiety enough to follow through â laying among the tall grass with the soft-colored petals above their heads, between them and the sky, with leland. and theres a twist in her chest, remembering the gentle laughter shared between them both. his silly grin crossing his face . . . it was cruel of her, probably . . . leaving tonight. when he's last to see her. she silently prays he wouldn't blame himself, for not catching on, not stopping her. not returning to her apartment with her â to see the state of it, boxed up and ready.
her visit the weekend before, back home with her mom and ana, where she broke the news to them. and left ana with a stack of albums, to give to each of her friends, in due time.
each of those last little meet-ups ending in a see you later.
unaware of what hers in response really meant â a goodbye.
i'm so sorry â
maria swings open car door and sets juniper on the seat. she can feel the heat in her face, the tickle of her nose as eyes glossed over. she curses to herself, stuffing duffles down at the base of the seat. bites down hard on insides of cheeks, scowling at herself for getting worked up again, for wanting to stop herselfâ
we need to get goingâ but i don'tâ we have over thirty-four hours to drive, we have to goâ i don't want to be aloneâ
her name cuts into her thoughts. called out into the night air behind her, and every part of her wants to collapse in on itself. nausea fills deep in her gut, acid burning her throat. she wanted to avoid thisâ
of course, it would have been connie.
of course, she'd be the one who noticed something wasn't right. as perceptive as she could be. or perhaps it was all just pure luck for maria that connie would choose tonight, of all nights, to stop by . . . maria slowly closes the car door fully, at this point mostly to stop the cold night air from freezing juniper, and she hesitantly turns to look back at connie.
â were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? â
meeting her eyes worsened the twists in her chest and gut. clinks! of wine bottles in bag draped over the crook of her arm, standing there, half shrouded by the trees blocking the lights from the apartments, from the streetlights. nothing could ever quite dull down those piercing green eyes though, staring back at her. throat tightened in on itself. as the seconds of silence falling between the both of them, connie's little hum, from some weeks ago â murmured into the air of maria's room, between the bitter taste of the wines they drank from â played back in her minds' voice : i still saw a future with everyone. like we'd be friends for years . . . i don't anymoreâ recollection brings a fresh burn of saltwater to her eyes, that itching sting across her nose. unintentional, she knew, so very deep in her heart â but, those words stuck at the forefront of maria's mind for days. and they rang clear as day, as if connie were repeating them in her ears, every step she'd taken until now.
meeting with her department heads. dropping out. behind every little fib she'd pose of where she'd actually be during her class periods. when she left her job at the florist shop. and behind every last meeting with each of them â we won't be friends in a few weeks or months time, anyways . . . maybe its just for the better, this way . . .
the dark and shadows hid her well â maria couldn't figure out, past the clouding of tears in her eyes, what the hell connie was even thinking in this moment. or even really, what her expression gave away. marias hand grasped one another, anxiously wringing and squeezing her fingers, as her eyes tore away from connie, stared down at the asphalt below her, biting on insides of her cheeks. until she could find her voice amidst all the panicked, racing thoughts buzzing around in her head. glasses clinked! quietly, as connie shifted where she stood, ever so slight.
regret sat hot across her face. she should've chose a different night. she should have left sooner. she waited too long. she never should have packed her shit up.
she should have talked to themâ
throat and tongue move like sandpaper in her mouth as she, quietly, breaks the silence of the night, of the dark around them.
" I don't . . . iâ " she stops herself, for a second, two, to swallow â to fight for some string of words she can tumble out, for some kind of excuse, a reason, anythingâ instead, her voice grows more quiet, uncertain, regretful, " i didn't know how to not make anyone worry . . . look at all of you and not feel like i did this to you . . . " maria's eyes lift to connie, split second, before they drop again. something like shame. something like guilt.
" goodbyesâ felt more permanent . . . felt more likeâ like everything was going to be over, for good, a - and i don'tâ i didn't want it to feel like a goodbye, like an end, and i - i couldn't . . . i didn't know how to talk about any of this without it upsetting anyone . . . i'm sorryâ "
@fcused : â were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? â
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