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Forgive me if this is too blunt or just out of the blue, but I've been thinking - imprisoned, rather, in my Bridgerton brainrot - and you are the best Fandom Psychoanalyst(tm) I know; every day I wake up with the dire need to be known and told by you. all this to say, which Bridgerton sibling do you think I'd vibe with the most? romantically or platonically, really, but I just have ~feelings~ about big family units and period dramas so yeah. this is a very random question so please just ignore it if you want askfbsjsb

oooooh..... believe it or not i actually have thoughts about this (because while i was on my bridgerton brainrot, i was trying to figure out how i could possibly end up knowing the bridgertons logically asdfghgfdfg. you were my link, actually, because i reasoned your family would be influential™ enough to be a Prominent Figure in london society - i'm thinking like the daughter of a marquis or something - and that you could be my friend somehow and easily introduce me (and my small army of siblings) to the bridgertons asdfgdsdf.)

anyway - thoughts and theories under the cut <3 (also, clara, i would do anything for you. you're never too blunt <3)

okay, so initially, when i was trying to figure out how you were connected to the bridgertons, i was trying to find one of the older sisters for you to be friends with, but honestly,,,, there was no right fit. not that i don't think you could be friends with them! it's just like,,,,, you wouldn't be friends who frequently call on each other during the season and spend hours at each other's houses. you'd be like,,,,,, friends who chat when walking in the park, or pass gossip on your way to your opera box, y'know? so i was thinking, trying out different scenarios, and then it hit me:

you'd clearly get along with hyacinth. she is by far one of my favorite characters in bridgerton, so maybe it's the fondness i have for both of you that creates such a pairing in my mind, but also i think that it's because you both have that spark! that spontaneity! that high-energy! that warmth and creativity! also, because she is younger than you, i feel like you'd find her sharp tongue and inability to lose an argument endearing. to me, hyacinth has all of the fun opinions of eloise, but actually knows when to hold her thoughts, or at the very least, how to keep her voice down so that it's palatable when out in society. plus, she doesn't give off an air of superiority, y'know? i feel like daphne and eloise do, and i feel like you wouldn't vibe with that.,. maybe it's because she's younger that i feel like she's more genuine and benign in her faults, but she just so fun, and i think you'd just find her very endearing. i could easily see her looking up to you - and i actually have thoughts about how you two would meet and become friends...

so here me out: hyacinth knows italian. it's actually a big plot point in her story, and she's like,,,, 3/4ths fluent, but my headcanon is that when she learns italian, her love for languages grows to astronomical levels. little kids with niche interests my beloved,,,,, she's already a big history buff (and i associate you with history, so i hope i'm right in thinking you like that too, lol), so with her love for languages, she's constantly pestering her siblings to get her a tutor for something more. ofc she's going to learn greek with a tutor, and be instructed in history as well, by dear hyacinth is simply rAvEnOuS in pursuit of her interests, and that leads her to bombarding daphne, begging her to teach her french. daphne is,,,,, how do i say it lightly,,,, an average student when it comes to languages, and she can't possibly let her siblings know (could you imagine the nuclear fallout when they realize she's not the perfect diamond she presents herself to be???) so she instead "casually" mentions to hyacinth that you speak both french and spanish fluently (and probably others too, regency girls really did have to do it all). and that during the social season, your family always comes to london... so if she truly wants to learn.... it's really not daphne hyacinth should be bombarding..... and she hears that you will be arriving in london shortly..... and the look in hyacinth's eyes is criminal. and like.... part of daphne feels bad, later, when hyacinth does go up to you, with her very matter-of-fact tone, asking you if you really do speak all of those languages, and if you have the time to call on her and teach her in the afternoons. after all, it's dreadfully boring just spending time with her stuffy old tutor and bRoThErS all day.... now, violet is rightfully horrified when she sees this go down - and even more upset when she realizes that level headed DaPhNe was the one to suggest it - so she immediately invites your family over for dinner to formally apologize (esp since i'm p sure a viscount is below a marquis), but you actually agree???? happily???? apparently you were very pleased to find another girl who loves history and languages, and hyacinth is very endearing, isn't she?? (and hey, maybe if your parents encouraged it because it was high time they have friends with influential members of the ton, it needn't be mentioned.) either way, you end up calling on the bridgerton household two times a week (sometimes three, if your schedule so permitted), and from there you slowly become close with daphne and colin as well, because aren't you so much better than their siblings, anyway? and lol, even anthony will start to make comments about you being his favorite sister (mostly when he's arguing with daphne, but also when eloise is being, well.... eloise...) and let me reiterate quickly and say you'd get along well with daphne, because really, she's an amiable girl and she has an inquisitive nature that makes her fun to chat with. and of course you'd get along great with colin. i get big best friend vibes with the two of you - colin would just make you laugh like you've never laughed before, and he'd always sneak you treats after helping hyacinth, and he'd walk with you around st. james park and delight you in all of his grand dreams of travel (and listen to you regale your own) and he'd be so genuine that i have no doubt you'd have quite the crush on him for a few years, which (sadly) doesn't go very far, but the ache ebbs with every passing moment, because it's colin. and he never knew, and you never told him, and how could you possibly hold anything against him when he is all the brightest things in the universe and made of the sun itself, and therefore unable to understand your stars? there are moments when your world slows, and you're caught in something you cannot speak of, your quiet vibrancy in the midnight sky is something breathtaking and beautiful to behold - but colin bridgerton can never see it, and can you hold it against him? when he's something apart from that? when he's something everyone feels, but few can ever reach? and even in those moments when colin's light fades - when he's at his lowest and eclipsed by that persistent moon - he can't see you. he can only see himself, and the absence of him, and he's always so far, and always so unknowing. he is colin, and that's all he ever can be.

and so you continue to fit in with the bridgertons - secure in your place, comfortable in this little hollow you've carved for yourself (filled with language and history, laughter and delight - spilled ink and untranslatable joy filling your days with beauty), and always writing to me, your bestie from overseas who will very soon join your household for a social season to stir up some drama <3. a new family???? with two strapping young boys???? at the ton?????? from the AmErIcAs?????? the politics! the scandal!

(how would we know each other? literally have no clue. maaaaaybe my grandfather would know your family since he's spanish, and ~connections are made~ and that's how we become pen pals??? maybe pen pals are just a thing™ that happens in the periphery of the bridgerton world??? idk idk. this is bridgerton. logistics do NOT need to be sound).

but anyway, as you continue to find yourself comfortable in the bridgerton household - calling on the family frequently, enjoying time with them at the theatre, walking through the pleasure gardens in their company, and generally fitting in as one of their own. during this time, you start to get some heat from your parents to get a move on with the marriage market. you haven't been out in society for too long, but your parents are probably like !!!! you know all the men of the ton !!!! we want you to be happy, but really, it's simply a matter of choosing, now. there's not going to be anything markedly different, anymore. which one do you think you could be happiest with?

(and honestly, being an Accomplished daughter of a marquess means you get your pick of the litter, clara. there is no shortage of men vying for your hand, and honestly? you've considered a few. benedict will laugh, if you ever mention it, and list off a million reasons why you shouldn't take them seriously. and he seems so genuine about it that you never stop to wonder if he's compiled a list of everyone's faults, just so he can brandish them the moment someone's name passes through your lips. and he seems so genuine and knowledgeable about it, that you always go to him, first. what do you think of so-and-so? and you'd sit across from him as he sketches, never knowing his subject has now changed to you. what does he think? he thinks there are worse catches - like poisonous snakes. or perhaps just a really large fish.)

and really, you and benedict get along perfectly - you always have, in your own way. he's always sort of been there, a quiet but kind presence that seems to make everything better. he's truly one of the most gentle souls you've ever met - not without his faults, of course (i haven't read his book but i hear miss julia quinn does not spare him from her list of toxic™ men) - but there's something about him that's contemplative and reasonable, and always searching for something. and since you always seem to have some semblance of an answer - even if it is just the belief that benedict is talented and could pursue anything his heart desires - you often sit down across from him and ask him to tell you about those nebulous thoughts of his. he has a question, you can see it a mile away. he has something he's searching for, you recognize that look, and who knows? maybe you have the solution in the palm of your hands. even if you just talk circles around an issue, it's usually enough to satisfy him. benedict has always been easy to please, though harder to understand. getting him to speak is easy enough, but getting at the heart of him is the trick - and sometimes you seem to have an ace up your sleeve. maybe it's in the way you don't really try. maybe it's in the way you always do something to catch him by surprise. maybe it's in the way you always have some new project to work on, or some new excitement to bring that fire into your eyes. maybe it's because he looks at you, and all he sees is someone he knows and someone he trusts, and someone he loves, but someone who is away from him already.

because, oh, does benedict know. benedict knows everything, so he knows about your feelings for colin, and he knows they're unrequited, and he knows it's villainous to love you, though he can't stop it, the same. and worst of all, he knows he loves you... but he also believes that the two of you would be a terrible match.

after all, it's not as though you seem all that initially compatible. you are like colin - blazing and vivacious, everywhere and gone, in pursuit of those days in the sun. and benedict is the opposite - quiet and self-deprecating, observant but unsure, idealistic and free, yet riddled with self-doubt. he wants to be more like you; and maybe that's what his love is, truly - admiration that's gone too far, romanticism that's lacking a realistic lens - or maybe that's just him doubting his own thoughts. (it wouldn't be the first time, after all. and it certainly won't be the last.) benedict would be happy with simply being seen. you wouldn't be fulfilled unless you've seen everything. he doesn't think either of you could ever be happy together. you'd both be settling for the other, and there's nothing benedict wants more than to be himself and to be free.

but wHy am i waxing poetic about benedict bridgerton falling in love with you??? is it simply for the angst??? simply for the ~yEaRnInG~ that i actually think is very on brand???? no, i actually think that despite all of benedict's Thoughts about how you would only make each other unhappy, you'd be perfect for each other - especially when your pastime is soothing his overactive mind. benedict has this quiet brand of rebelliousness while you are made of spontaneity. i think you very easily feed into the others brand of chaos, and that while you bring out the life inside of benedict, he cools down your summer heat. he can bring you back down to the earth, and you can show him the beauty of the skies, and it's a balance stricken that can't be achieved elsewhere. furthermore, you're both romantics, and there's no other way to describe it. you're both all in, with all your cards on the table. when you fall in love, you fall and fast and don't mind the fall. you enjoy it, actually. there's nothing quite like the joy of it all. when benedict falls in love, he falls swiftly and deep, and while it's a quiet storm that rages in his heart and mind, with the rest of him still trying to catch his breath, there's something about you that brings it out of him. no one can make him more forthcoming than you. no one can coax out his love so tenderly and so unabashedly than your sweet hand. and beyond that, there are times when you freeze in place - when you're paralyzed by something that's not quite fear, but not quite dejection, but slows down your world, the same. sometimes, you're quiet, and your sparks are distant stars, but you're still burning, the same. benedict sees you, then. he always has, and he always knows how to blanket you with the evening, and to find the beauty in the stillness the same, and how to hold you until morning.

uhhhhh.... i told you it was going to be rambling under the cut,,,,,,,,,,,,

i'm a little on the fence with breaking your heart over colin bridgerton, but you and benedict are the perfect combo of the impulsive-one being in love with the braincell-carrier-one, and a slow burn with a side dish of angst is my bRAND, clara! plus, like,,,, i've really thought about how similar you and colin are, and at first i thought that was perfect ship material but c'MON,,,,,,,, you know the benedict ship is superior asdfghgfdsdfhhgf, though both are absolutely perfect, and i could honestly see it going either way.

#asks #clara — 🌙#not me staying up until midnight to write this —#it's a love language actually <3 #also this is unedited as always. i hope it isn't as incoherent as my screaming feels #also not to be That Person but which bridgerton brother/character do you think i'd pair off with the best????#(also lol i had to copy and paste this like three times beacause tumblr wasn't letting me publish it - i hope its all here asdfghgfdsdfg)#if not.....#😔✌ press f to pay respects

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