#( He missed Patience but now he's thrown into the emolett zone )

[sharp-teeth-and-archived]

retrograderesemblance asked : "i wish i would've told you the truth sooner." from patience to hewlett

Unprompted ask. / @retrograderesemblance -- always accepting

        𝐅𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐅𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐞, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐞. 

        Despite Edmund’s arrival to the colonies was made by an act of desperation to keep his family’s finances afloat, even with the revolution at everyone’s doorstep, Edmund’s outlook had been optimistic at the start. However long this war may go on, Edmund would stick to it as a testament to his King and as long as his parents needed him here, but it seemed at every corner he turned, the bright, optimistic view he harbored, in the beginning, drew darker and darker. The colonies were in turmoil from the revolution, but that ill will and madness seemed to infect those on his side as well. Led by his gullible broken heart, Edmund was quick to find himself in a similar situation to the last with Mrs. Wright, and this time, he didn’t know if he should toy with the idea of “love” any longer. Love would only be in daydreams, in fairy tales and novels, and within his mother's reassurances that it was still attainable for him; life was too cruel for a fleeting emotion to remain permanent.

        This time, he harbored no anger, instead, all he felt was disappointment in himself. He should’ve known better than get himself tangled in another relationship.

        His finger stilled in its glide over the top of the envelope in his hands. The thought of heading out the door and sending the letter to his mother left his mind as his lips thinned, pressing his lips together in his contemplation. His love’s words hung in the air, yet he couldn’t piece together what to say in return. He had run from Setauket, from his failure of a wedding, and now here he was in York City with another woman that occupied his thoughts just as much as Mrs. Strong did. If not, more. He could only run so far, but even that didn’t seem to serve him.

        He looked up and it took more strength than he imagined to look Patience in the eye.

        ❝ I wish you would’ve told me sooner, too, Mrs. Wright. ❞