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tiredassmage · 24 days ago

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⛓️ for tyr, 🍻 for alucren, and 🧨 for enok

(you can answer these for any version of the above guys, or even multiple versions if you have the motivation to /lh)

[ a collection of symbols & headcanon asks ]

Well, I thought I was gonna maybe have a straight line of swtor editions for this one, but I think Tyr's actually makes better sense for his xiv rendition.

[ ⛓️ ]ㅤ.ㅤ what does guilt feel like to them ?

In a few words? Tyr too often comes to wear his guilt like shame.

Sometimes it falls upon him like the blinding morning sun, making him duck his head and cover his eyes for want of relief. It's something almost heavy, but indescribable in his chest. It turns to lead in his veins, weighing down his limbs, making each step feel heavier and harder than the last.

He can't always place it. Much of what chases him into guilt are things he knows are, by logic, beyond his control. They're things he would not hold against another - one can hardly control where they're born, after all. But plenty of them are scabs he's had picked at by others all the same.

It drives him into himself. Against the demands of duty, he can't let any of that shake him, right? He can't give attention to the way the mortar crumbles under the weight, how cracks are setting in to the wall of resolve. If it's not their fault.., is it his? If not directly, then for showing weakness long enough for them to doubt?

A lot of this really digs its claws in during Stormblood, and a lot of it is Tyr trying to grapple with the bloody legacy of Garlemald - inescapably his, and also... not. He's marked as one of theirs, but what remained of his kin and elders of Lapis Manalis fled the northern cold while he was so young he has the barest memories of the caverns in which they would have one day trained him.

So, when every time he turns around, an introduction requires a thorough explanation, and no log of historic exemplary deeds will suffice for the here and now..? Was it enough? Is it enough? Will it ever be enough? Does he even have a right to care if it will be?

What that cost him in the long-run is added stress and strain on him and the ones he loves that do want to stand beside him - people like Astor and Yroh'a (@dawntread) that aren't asking him to bear that weight alone, and are fighting against the idea sinking in like venom to Tyr's veins that he knows it shouldn't hurt like this, there's an explanation for these things, so he'll tuck it back behind his teeth until he can swallow the bile and the feeling, because no one else deserves to bear that rotting feeling. So he tells himself, at least.

And ultimately? It clouds his judgement on the First. It makes him reach beyond his means in an attempt to lesson the load on his fellow Scions and adventuring companions, and instead he ends up probably in more trouble than he was already with the lot of them, given the state of the world. That's what drives him to attempt to call on his very limited training in the ancestral arts of the Reapers, and instead get himself saddled with a sineater companion he tries to make the most of in the hunt for the Lightwardens in Shadowbringers. Ultimately, what all that Light corruption compounded costs him is sight in his right eye.

And some would say this is why we need to talk about our feelings. /lh. Thankfully for Tyr, Yroh'a and Astor are about as stubborn as him, and can stick with him through the long process of learning the hard way about keeping too much knotted up in his chest, and he can finally start on working some of that out in their later adventures on the other side of their challenges on the First.

[ 🍻 ]ㅤ.ㅤ what kind of drunk are they ?

Admittedly, drinking isn't Alucren's vice of choice - and a lot of how she is while drunk is largely dependent on her reason for drinking.

As a general indulgence, it's something she's more likely to do socially; it was a common staple of the galas and parties her family used to often host or attend in years past on Dromund Kaas. A glass or two or three can be nursed easily while gossiping away the hours with the Empire's elite. It loosened even his tongue a little, though I'm sure it would surprise none to say that it just made her more prideful and showboaty about things.

And even at her lowest in the five years Taizi (@shadowsofdread) is missing in carbonite in timelines where we put Taizi up for commander, I'd say Alucren's preferred vice for numbing the grief of existence was more smoking than drinking, though he certainly performed plenty more of both than would be considered his normal. That and primarily sex, admittedly - with anybody that had a passing interest, and with very little of her usual strong boundaries. Several drinks, a few lazy cigarettes, and an unfamiliar partner that could easily be said to look ready to devour him were all easier things to pass the miserable rains and hollowed existence than staring into the mirror with knuckles white around the refresher sink and eyes aching from... Well.

The point was to not think about it. And certainly not to talk about it. On his slightly better days, enough of himself was present to complain when he could've been drinking some desert piss for all the good it tasted - though while such was more than enough to stop her or at least make her change her choice of beverage at her "best," before loss took over, such things never stopped her during those five years.

Understandably then, it's... not a vice she often indulges in after. It's wrapped up in memories she'd much rather forget - both for the haunting pain in his chest, and for the... amount of himself he gave up in longing to escape the worst of his feelings. She's really not keen to experience any part of that again.

Smoking on the other hand? Well, those were substances she was usually in a much better, comparatively at least, state of mind about consuming. That's something she mostly thought she did for herself, for fun - most of the times, at least. Though I think even that he tends to indulge in less afterward. Stepping into the Alliance and beyond with Taizi back at her side was an awakening in more ways than one, and it wasn't always a pretty one. A lot of days it looked like the galaxy's worst hangovers got together and threw a party, and then had their own hangover from that. She owes Taizi better than that.

And more importantly? She slowly begins to learn - and let sink in - that she owes herself better than that. And that's a life she'd like to be properly present for.

[ 🧨 ]ㅤ.ㅤ what’s the quickest way to set them off, even if they hide it well ?

Hrrrmmmm. Would you believe this was the one that gave me the most trouble? xD Not necessarily because there aren't a few times I could think of, but... synthesizing the inciting incident and... also trying to figure how that's consistent across the few versions of him that exist.

As a short rundown for those at home not in our dms /lh, Enok has a version in FFXIV (pictured above), is my Mourn Watcher in Dragon Age: The Veilguard, and also has a SWTOR edition running around in our heads way more than I've posted about alkdnf;ladsfn.

In general terms, he's an old soldier, and has a rather limiting tendency to take on blame that isn't necessarily his alone to bear. But bear it he will, because despite his attempts to appear otherwise, he unfortunately can't stop giving a shit about the younger people around him that still have nice things in-tact like their hopes and dreams and ideals.

And it's not that he's dispassionate about any of these things himself. He's just found himself often enough on the end of getting corralled into acceptance and keeping his head down and falling in line. And he figures he can take that, if the world keeps spinning 'round like it ought to.

For that acceptance, he doesn't look to have an outright problem with authority. But authority has often left him out in the cold, so to speak, and he's had to make do with himself and whatever luck the universe deigned to spare at the moment. He'll even take having a bad reputation for it, if that's what helps people sleep at night.

But his temper gets shorter when that same authority tries to pin blame for shit he's taken on himself. Because he's done that shitty song and dance and let it beat a good amount of defiance out of him, and sometimes, that's enough to light a fire in him again that says he'll be damned if he's gonna just stand by quietly and watch it happen to someone else.

My best example of this is probably from his SWTOR timeline; Enok there serves as part of recon forces in the early attempts to resettle Taris. Him and the several units he leads in the course of those efforts were some of the earliest boots on the ground, before proper bases and safe zones were even established.

And, unfortunately, Enok is a man who had a talent for surviving, despite the doomed odds and hells of that planet. He's burned and buried more young soldiers than he'd like to keep count of at this point. And that kind of cost for 'success' both wears on a man, and comes with a pretty twisted reputation.

A few times it's been enough for him to try telling Command and their esteemed governor exactly what he thought of her "victory for Republic morale." That it was getting a lot of good young men killed and little else, was what.

It did not, however, expedite his retirement. Instead, the ultimatum was fall in line, do the job, or have what little power he had in directly running with units stripped to be left sitting in quarantine. And possibly official repercussions for that "attitude." The discussion got... heated. And involved raised voices. Enok's not... entirely above throwing a fist about poor authority, even if his 'better judgement' has saved him from letting it fly... most times.

No good choices, by his count, but there was only really one feasible one left out of that. So, he took his discontentment and ground out an understanding through his clenched teeth and got on with it. Even though it forced him to put bolts through a few more of his own men.

He never will manage to forget how the stories about his reputation change in the last moments - where it's a choice between the twisted certainty of rakghouls or a quick certainty at the end of a blaster. That should be enough to outrage anyone with even a bit of a heart left. For better or worse, it'd seem Enok managed to survive with that in-tact enough, too.

#answered #ffxiv ocs #swtor ocs #vs: ouroboros | xiv!tyr #ch: alucren #oouurrermmm.. enok how do i tag the several versions of u in here technically lmao #ch: a vagabond with a bottle / short a light | enok strand #ch: enok fletcher #to a slightly lesser extent his da version as well but. still part of it #the specifics of that verse are still not quite solidified in my mind #but it's a fairly important beat to his characterization so it's in there somewhere i'm sure

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bouquetshark · 2 years ago

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REGRESSOR GIM COOKIE !!!

( I love him so freaking much 😭😭😭 )

Regressor!Gim Cookie Headcanons

As a general baseline, Gim Cookie is still pretty lazy—even when regressed. But nowadays he tries to do better for the Shrine Tree; though, it's not a guarantee if he can keep that promise...since The Shrine Tree insists he rest and relax. And who is Gim Cookie to say no to a nice nap, eating the chewiest yakgwa under a tree with his friends Vagabond, Rebel and Okchun Cookie?

• Regresses from 2-4, more or less depending on health/wakefulness.

• Found out about age regression through some old book's and diaries he scanned through --and with some reluctance on his part to try something new, decided to take a go at it. It ended up being very nice for him, so now he does it in his spare time or when napping.

• Completely non-speaking, uses notes or ASL/KSL (Korean Sign Language) to communicate. Vagabond is learning it as a surprise for Gim Cookie!

• Very cuddly and clingy when regressed—is normally seen around Okchun or Vagabond, his babysitter's! He doesn't really have a caregiver, mainly because of the fact he lives isolated on a mountain; so he primarily cares for himself, the mountains, and the Shrine Tree Alone.

• Doesn't hang out with other regressors much, if at all. it's not because he doesn't want to, but because a lot of Cookie's find him really scary—and he's given up on that dream. Luckily for him though, a certain blue fox visits him...

• Enjoys weighted blankets and pillows to hold or cover himself with. Has a nest-like pile of blanket's, pillows, sheet's, and a small heating pad on the bottom since he gets cold easy—and due to how high up the mountain is, the altitude makes it chilly at all times, so layer's are important!

• Okchun Cookie love's it when Gim Cookie comes to the village. She's practically all over him with affection!

#i accidentally posted this too early in thw editing process lmao 😭😭#gim cookie #cookie run #cookie run agere #sfw agere #agere post #cookie run headcanons #agere positivity #age dreaming #cookie run ovenbreak #other characters mentioned #kumiho cookie #okchun cookie #vagabond cookie #rebel cookie

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