#(''this is a timeline'' i say about literal canon. i am in denial city)

[jennycalendar]

this is a timeline where spike and jenny need to have a conversation. i think he would really want her to hate angel and then have such a :( moment when he realized she didn't.

[drrockbell]

Who's death would Ed be more affected by; Alphonse or Winry?

Just stab me in the heart with a knife anon😭

I’m so sorry I have no idea when this ask was sent! It had to have been more than a week because I just went through for the first time and saw that I was getting submissions from posts I made at that time. I don’t know if tumblr is no longer notifying me or if they’re just getting that badly buried.

Alright, on to this ask!

This is something I’ve thought about when I was still in middle school and addicted to angst (I still am, but not as bad)

I’m going to give analysis to many different scenarios, because I feel like there are different levels to this, including pre and post ending and the cause of death.

Right off, I am going to not include 03 in this, because I feel the answer is obvious. Though Winry is Ed’s second closest bond, with Izumi and Pinako trailing right behind, the purpose of that adaptation is was to tell the audience that Al was Ed’s most important person.

I feel age would be a very important aspect to this. If at any point before Ed is 15, I believe Al would affect him more. He was in denial of anyone else being his family and forcefully put all of his attention on his little brother. After this, around the time Winry meets Scar, I feel like Ed’s feelings would be very similar. He’s maturing, allowing her into his life, and is recognizing that his family doesn’t stop with blood.

Post canon, specifically after his marriage with Winry, Ed’s feeling may rapidly change. For some people, romantic love can really take over their heart, and I feel that Ed is this type of person. When you share your body and trust for another person at such a level, you will feel attachments to them that you just can’t with anyone else. Ed sleeps with Winry every night and wakes up to her every morning. They probably work together, eat together, and most of their time is spent with each other. Ed’s attachment to her would only grow stronger with the birth of their children too. We all know how much Ed is fascinated and appreciative with life and birth, and making children and raising them makes their bond stronger and is something he can’t and would refuse to do with anyone else.

Al most likely has his own life, may not even live in the Rockbell home any more and is most likely starting his own life with Mei. This is perfectly fine. I don’t think Ed and Al would feel any jealousy or want to cling to the other after they’re adults. They both understand that they have their own lives they want to live and it just so happens that they want to spend them with another person.

So I suppose the short answer to that portion would be he’d feel more for Al before age 15, about the same before his marriage, and then Winry post canon.

The cause of death would have a lot of different reactions. Ed knows that himself and Al are putting themselves in danger every day, he knows that they’re choosing to take risks. While no matter what, Al’s death while he still in a suit of armor would just feel like another failure on his part, at the end of the day he understands the risks and knows that it could happen.

Winry on the other hand is someone Ed can’t fathom being in danger. Even when he had to let her go in Baschool, he was agonizing over it. Also, Winry is someone he intentionally pushes away for her safety. She’s not supposed to get involved in his journey, she’s not supposed to be within any contact of his enemies, she’s not supposed to witness the danger that he sees everyday.

With Al, Ed is mentally and emotionally preparing himself everyday that something horrible can happen, while he’s in denial that the same could happen to Winry. If it was her death, then the shock and guilt would be far worse.

Now for things like freak accidents, or illnesses, then the reaction would be the same. Granted, illness would just send Ed back into horrible memories, but he knows that he can’t prevent them. However if he was away from that person, like Winry died in Resembool while he was traveling or Al died in another city from Ed, then that would just feed his guilt more. He’d remember all the times Winry asked to call her and how he never did it and he’d believe that he was never there for his baby brother like he should have been and only caused him pain.

I’m definitely not saying that one’s death would feel better or worse than the other, but the different levels of guilt or violent change of things would be very different based on the timeline and circumstance.

Losing either one of these people would just destroy him and he’d never be able to spring back up the way he usually does. Honestly... I think it’s very possible that he could literally die himself. I was going to save this thought for Winry specifically, but when someone is so depressed from loss, they can stop eating, drinking, they’ll throw up everything they consume, not be able to clean themselves. When you’re in so much emotional pain that you can’t even move or think, there are so many toxins released in your body that if you don’t end your own life yourself, your body can just shut down on its own. It’s horrible to think about, but thinking realistically for a person like Ed, I think this would be a very real and likely scenario for him.

Ight this has been an angsty post and thank God we will never have to see Ed go through any of this, because he’s been through too much. Anyway Valentines Day is tomorrow and I am hoping to make something for EdWin and hopefully uplift this very sad atmosphere.

[fullmetalscullyy]

Uh Hi! So I am new to the Royai fandom and I am looking for fics and honestly I don’t know where to start :( Do you have some writer recs or fics recs for me? Thankyou!💕

hey anon!! welcome!! yo there’s so many good fics out there you’re in for a real treat!!

i have far too many to choose from but i guess i can choose a top 5? 10? 15? we’ll see how long this list ends up being lmao

Vacuous Heart of Blood by MoonStarDutchess - supernatural au with roy as a vampire? sign me the fuck up. this is 100% one of my all times favourites and i very highly recommend reading it! the world building and the relationships are phenomenal. it’s ongoing and has been for years but i’ll follow this fic until i die i’ve read it like eight times already sdkfnd

In His Bed or Mine by Pokypup49, Rando29 - royai swingers au with havolina thrown in there too! oh. my. god. the way pokypup49 writes royai makes me melt on the spot i’m not even kidding. they’re so in love with each other in this fic (and!!!! there’s an ongoing prequel to this fic too!!! Only You) there’s smut, there’s exquisite romance, and there’s beautiful angst. it’s literally got everything!

The Trickster and the Lionheart  by  LadyAureliana - THIS FIC. OKAY. SO. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. it’s one of my all time faves. fbi agent roy is on the hunt of thief riza….. oh hell i’ve read it about five times i won’t lie. just… please read it. it’s so worth your time.

Best Kept Secret by MoonStarDutchess  - another one from this author which explores what would have happened in canon if royai had been secretly married from the start. top tier angst in this fic too

may i feel, said he by bergamots, haganenobeato - smut for days and good smut. porn with plot? real life consequences and conflict about what the characters are doing? excellent relationships? this fic has it all. a college au where professor mustang and student hawkeye have the hots for each other and it is /chef’s kiss

Ex tempore by Tasia (ruikosakuragi) - historical/gangster au where riza gets transported back in time to meet mobster hughes and roy. ongoing and still in the early stages but oh my god there’s so much going on already and i adore it

City of Stars by Tasia (ruikosakuragi)  - another one of tas’ fics! this one is a modern au with aspiring actor roy meeting upcoming songrwriter riza in la. the setting and the progression of their relationship is beautiful ;_; it’s my go to comfort fic when i want to feel warm and fuzzy inside

Breach of Contract by Stockholmsyndrom  - victorian au 👀 marriage of convenience 👀 the pining!!! 👀 it’s heavenly. definitely worth a read!

Unexpectedly by waddiwasiwitch - college au where riza finds out she’s pregnant and who does she confide in?? her best friend roy of course! the pining!!! the denial (“we’re just friends”)!!! the aaaangst i love it sm

Where is Our Gravity? (Hunger Games AU) by the_musicalbookworm - fuck me up the royai in this is phenomenal. it’s a mix of edwin and royai but omg read it. please read it. it’s so beautiful. it says its ongoing however they are oneshots and are mixed up in the timeline so it’s not like there’s an ending missing

Our embalmed hearts, our desolate kingdoms by spooky_bee  - neon genesis evangelion au! this… this fic had me binging it immediately. the relationships in this are perfection

Royai kid by ohmytheon  - now, this is a series on ao3 and i urge absolutely everyone to read it all!!! oh god… basically post canon events where royai had a kid. the angst… oh my god. it gets me man. it’s perfect. if you want to cry and scream (”close your eyes, bug”) then read this part of the series: i would part the sea

Atlas by Tasia (ruikosakuragi) - historical/espionage au!! yooooo tas nails the history aus again. she’s an expert and the amount of thought and thoroughness she puts into these fics realy brings them to life. they’re so real and you as the reader really feel like you’re there with royai. well worth a read!!

Buried Alive by rizahawkaye - riza kicking butt? riza stealing the show? riza in general being an absolute badass?? this fic has it all. an au where she fakes her death to go undercover to infiltrate the group who tried to kill her. the group? based in ishval. the ocs and the villiaaaans omg they’re perfect in every way

Reign and  Sovereign  by  sarabethloves  - fantasy au where riza is the queen of aerugo and roy is the king of amestris. that description is excuse enough to read it for me bc fantasy royai aus own me. there’s pining, there’s romance, and there’s angst!!!!! my faves!!

The Amestrian Revolution by  LadyAureliana - roy and riza are on there way to fuck up fuhrer bradley!!! an au where they’re members of the resistance who are fighting against bradley’s 300 year rule of tyranny. the action is /chef’s kiss

ok so that was so many lmao but i can’t pick a few. all of these are my all time faves, although i’m sure i’ve missed some!!! if you want anymore just hmu i’ve accumulated a collection over the years haha