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friezaglasiencold · 8 months

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‘Smouldering coals’ my ass, you clearly adore Kuriza. Emotionally repressed man who cannot comprehend that he loves his child unconditionally because his own father was awful my beloved and detested.

My father was a rat of a man, but that’s hardly relevant. I never said I didn’t care for my child.

And to think… here I was, being so vulnerable with my feelings. Shame on you, and shame on me for trying.

#img response #((he’s being a bit sarcastic but he is actually put off by this even if he can’t explain why))#((because he really Doesn’t feel love the same way a “normal” person might and he was trying to communicate that))#((he likes his son but he just isn’t able to be attached to someone in a non transactional way or at least he doesn’t think so))#((he’ll discover his love for the kid as time passes and his feelings become stronger))#((but that revulsion toward affection that he feels with others… it extends toward Kuriza too))#((when his kid shows him love there’s a significant part of him that’s completely disgusted by it…))#((it’s the first time he’s really been disturbed by his own emotional response or lack thereof))#((he only carried the kid himself as a weird sort of self-imposed science experiment. Just to see if he could))#((parenting doesn’t come naturally to him at all))

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