#(also don’t worry about shyness. ive got anon asks on for a reason :) )

[quietwingsinthesky]

wanted to chime in with the Heaven Sent crying (and I'm shy) but basically: I watched this episode very close to losing someone IRL and that "…you still won't be there"? That burned itself into my brain stem and has lived there for the last eight years.

just. yeah. I hear you. (also, Capaldi was incredible. life ruiner)

Multiple people told me when I started this season that it had the best episode of all of Doctor Who in it, and I did not believe them. And I have now watched that episode. God.

Sometimes. u get to see something that gets it, you know? That episode did. I’m not even sure I have anything else to say but to just point at so many parts of it and go !!! Like. god. “you still won’t be there” or that bit at the end of the loop where the Doctor has to drag his dying self back and “how long can i keep doing this, clara, burning the old me to make the new me?”, that hit me like a sack of bricks. Punching his way through diamond for eternity… The fact we only briefly get to see Clara’s face once, and every other time she’s communicating with him, it’s through the chalkboards that—far as I can remember—she’s never even written on in any episode beforehand. The Doctor writes on them, just him, and now he’s looking for her and she’s gone and all he can do is hope his own thoughts sound enough like her to fool himself.

it is such an episode. episode of all time. im never recovering from this. capaldi has knocked it out of the park with practically everything he’s been given, but when it’s only him, just. wow. he is a fantastic actor, and an incredible doctor.

[natsmagi]

hello !! yet another different anon, but just wanted to share this while we’re on the topic of self-criticism - hopefully this doesn’t come off as patronizing, it’s just smth i’ve found helps me as an artist and hopefully it’ll help u :D

i think it’s rlly important to view old art more from the perspective of the feelings u had making it rather than the actual content of the art itself. sure, ur artistic skills have improved a lot over the years, and maybe when ur looking back at ur older work u see a lot of flaws in it - weird anatomy, bad lighting, articles of clothing that don’t make sense, etc (not saying ur old art has any of these i’m just listing examples i’ve had in my own lol) - but u had fun making it !! it’s a drawing of something u loved and still love, and it served its purpose as an outlet to express that love. when people go back and like those old drawings, they’re not seeing it for its flaws - they’re seeing it for the love it represents, a love they probably feel themselves. while it’s good to critique ur own work to some extent for the sake of improvement, people liking ur old stuff is far from cringe-worthy! it’s just someone enjoying something u once enjoyed too, like an internet happiness hand-me-down :)

again, this sort of mindset has rlly helped me personally - i don’t feel as nervous about drawing or posting, bc im just having fun !! it’s ok if it’s kind of janky or has weird details, it was made with love and people can see and appreciate that. nobody ever stops improving or seeing flaws in their work, so its best to focus more on the joy it gave u and push urself towards improvement with the promise of even more joy rather than forcing urself to improve under the threat of feeling ashamed of ur creations

hopefully all of this makes sense i kind of have the shakes rn lol. sorry for the super long ask, i just dont rlly know how to explain all of this in a short way-

hope u are having a fantastic day full of pretty girls !!!!

omg no worries at all!! your message read as very sweet so please dont stress urself out over how u came across!!

AND I DEFINITELY AGREE!! tbh its a mindset i tend to have, but i think where ive lacked is definitely in applying the "im just doing it for fun" logic to past me. i tend to be someone who very much lives in the present and have a bit of a disconnect both from the past and the future, and this can cause me to totally disregard everything about my past self and past work LOL. so honestly having all this put into words has kinda been an "OHH RIGHT" moment for me KASJHFJAHSDKJ

theres also the factor of my audience being bigger now........ im not really someone who likes having alot of eyes on me for various reasons, which sometimes causes me to waver a bit AKJSHFKJH THOUGH ITS NOT THAT BAD. i think most of my shyness comes from having artists i really admire now see my art and im like "FUCK IC ANT HAVE IT LOOK BAD WHAT IF THEY SEE" which can cause me to overthink things But also i tend to forget that those people even follow me 80% of the time. tbh all of my "insecurities" in regards to my art are purely circumstantial and only really present themselves if im in a flustered state, but a large portion of the time im just chilling KJAHSFJKHK

i do also wanna say tho that i think the viewing all art as coming from a place of love sentiment is very sweet........ esp bc in the beginning one of the compliments i got the most was along the lines of "your love for the characters really shines through!!" so to think that, in spite of potential quality, that love is still visibly present makes me very happy.......... Perhaps if u have genuine love for what u do itll shine through no matter what