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violasmirabiles · 8 months

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the parents are going up north for a couple of days thank FUCKING god its not enough but i havent been able to be insane in peace since FUCKING october and its . not to sound dramatic but Not Good For My Mental Health which i obviously cant let them know partly cos its not All their fault but also because im (irrationally!!!!!! irrationally) afraid theyll kick me out the second i say anything even remotely negative even jokingly. anyway my grand plan while theyre gone is to lie on couch and stare at ceiling (but, importantly, in the living room and not in my bedroom) and . well translating all the dollars trilogy event fics into finnish probably. insert that celibacy gif but edited so it says unemployed.

#also i will probably look at potential apartments #this is made harder by my shit brain being all 'am i unreasonable for wanting [very reasonable thing] even though i am me*'#* me and specifically me wanting things in general is bad and not allowed how dare i (source: hell brain)#(also bear in mind whenever i move out i dont want to move again in a Very long time to in ideal case ever. hate moving)#(i dont need a Lot i just want. my bed in a Properly Separate space from my living room. a space to call my own)#(back when i lived in turku the apartment had an alcove that literally only fit my bed. there were shelves above my bed & a few closets too #(couldnt even open all the closet doors properly but honestly thats the sort of Separate Space For My Bed that i mean)#(also there has to be enough space for a washing machine in the bathroom or i Will die)#(none of this is Unreasonable really)#(i dont have to live close to the city center i need a grocery store within walking distance & a bus and or tram stop close by)#(WHYYYYY is my brain playing this hell game here im having a shit time as is)

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