#(i am still sitting on mark's kryptonite ask lmao)

[rinbylin]

6 Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you?

ruin a pairing i was already neutral about/not very into to begin with or something i liked? :]

i don't think the latter is ever possible or it hasn't happened at least. i like what i like bc of what i read from the text so i don't think people's readings of it can sway that. also generally i'm selectively involved in fandoms... the former however........

like. oh i'm actually ok with them and i have a specific way of reading them that doesn't seem to match many other people's. and it's okay...it's okay...it's okay- [clenches fist] [distances myself from it publicly]

questions designed to make you hate me ask

[daisychainsandbowties]

what are your top fav pieces of star wars media (books, games, movies, shows, all count) and why?

you're my hero for asking this

the prequel movies. i just love obi-wan with his gay little padawan braid. i love the designs of all the drones (especially the separatist drones because they share one brain cell & juggle it like a hot potato). the podracing scene i must have watched 500 times at least, & it was the precursor to my obsession with any and all racing games (there’s actually a podracing ps2 game! but also i loved jak X combat racing, & wipeout fusion. anything that let you race and also fire missiles). & then obi-wan kenobi in the subsequent movies - i was obsessed. also, the prequel movies were my first intro to tragedy as a concept, which you can tell i am still !!! about. i love when the ending is already over at the beginning. also my mom hated the prequel movies so only my friends had the DVDs. i used to treasure any time i got to watch them. 

the Jedi Apprentice and Jedi Quest books. the jedi apprentince books follow the story of Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon, and the jedi quest books follow Obi & Anakin. as you can imagine it was kryptonite for a trans kid obsessed with obi-wan. they are also in general really good & fun books with serious storylines & also a lot of lightsaber fights. you can listen to all of the jedi apprentice books on youtube (narrated by an AI, i think, but still good.) https://youtu.be/NA4IfH1qG2s 

jedi: fallen order. this game is everything a star wars game can & should be. it’s gorgeous. it has a combat system that feels a bit like dark souls or probably most of all sekiro - only easier, generally lol. the lightsabers and the environments are just bursting with colour, and having a little droid pal or just a little pal in general is my favourite genre of video game (see: jak & daxter, ratchet & clank). i grew to love the player character, Cal, especially once my little droid BD-1 came into the picture, but as you all know Trilla Suduri is more my style. she’s a wonderful antagonist. genuinely scares the shit out of me when she shows up. her VO does a stunning job. & yeah, the central message of the game and the structure of the levels (except Zeffo. fuck you Zeffo) is a really chill balance of combat, parkour, and exploration. out of all the planets i really really really really love Bracca and Dathomir, because they are soooo atmospheric & dark. this is why my au is based off fallen order - because it isn’t afraid of getting dark, & Trilla is one of the most compelling characters in any video game for me. 

the LEGO star wars games. formative for my whole sense of humour. also being a completionist with video games (not so good) i HAD to unlock all the characters. also shoutout to the podracer game. i recently got it again on playstation & raced all my previous records again & it reminded me how solid old racing games are. (and how addictive lmao) 

i was raised on the original trilogy. we watched A New Hope on christmas every year, kind of haphazardly while cooking, so it gives me warm family feelings. my mom was a total nerd about it (her whole family is, actually) & she would sit there & do what i do with the lotr movies, giving me random bits of lore. no surprise she was in love with Mark Hamill as a teenager. i love those movies though & am still struck by how moody & atmospheric it is. nothing tops the emotional moments on tatooine with the infamous binary sunset. C3PO was important autistic rep for me too 😂 i love him to pieces, & obviously i fell instantly in love with princess leia, and han solo. luke took me years to like, actually, but he’s very precious to me now - i always thought that he took his losses too calmly, but now i can see that he’s a really emotional character, & actually a really gorgeous snapshot of a certain kind of masculinity that i feel very close to. the og trilogy is so wonderful & it was one of the formative films of my lifelong obsession with galaxies far far away. 

i absolutely adored the recent Kenobi show (& also Andor, but not so much). they just really knocked it out of the part for me with Inquistor Reva, & also how they discussed Obi’s trauma & his grief, but also the bright spark of young Leia (i will fight ten horses for her etc etc). it was also leaning into the scarier and more serious parts of star wars lore - what with the Inquisiton being what it is. so many of the characters in this stole my heart, which is amazing considering how few episodes there were. 

last but certainly not least, it has to be Knights of the Old Republic. i used to beg my dad to go on his desktop computer when i was a kid. i played it many times for many hours. it was my first RPG and it was STAR WARS and i got to make decisions and change the narrative. my favs being my edgy boi (gender-neutral) Revan, & Bastila because she was peak ‘overachieving girl goes apeshit to nobody’s surprise’, and also HK-47 (will always stan a murder robot). it was the first media i had massive and convoluted personal lore for, so you could say it made me Worse, but it’s really one of the games of all time for me.