#(literally rn. writing a quick start guide in between posts)

[haunthead]

sometimes i think 'i should make a promo for this blog' but frankly the broader bg3 fandom scares me

[yawnjunn]

:*:✼ TXT attending your concert ✼*･ﾟ

Woahh its been a while huh...got super busy with life, just failed my physics exam 😜✌️ and now im on my school break, i decided to write this post bcs im SUPERRR bored rn but anyways

╰┈➤ idol!ot5! txt x idol!gn!reader

╰┈➤ no warnings, just fluff

╰┈➤ quick guide : y/n = your name, y/g/n = your group's name, y/f/n = your fandom's name

yeonjun(연준) :

☆ This man isnt afraid to attend your concert WITHOUT covering his face, yk how some artists covered their face and attend their friend's concert? yeah...not yj tho

☆ He might only bring a lightstick, not those extra banners or signs or whatever

☆ The only reason why he only brought a lightstick was bcs, he treats your concert like its his monthly/weekly routine

☆ Youre having a 2 day concert in seoul? You know damn right he'll be there despite his busy schedule

☆ Having a concert in japan? Finds a way to get to japan just to attend your concert

☆ so thats why he didnt feel like the need to bring extras cs in the end, yk hes gonna attend anyways

☆ but that didnt stop fans from screaming whenever they saw yeonjun

☆ he'd probably try to make a conversation with your fans while waiting for you to perform with your group

☆ "so how long have you stan y/g/n ?"

☆ "im a y/n biased, and you?"

☆ when you came on stage and during the breaks between performing, you called out yeonjun

☆ "yeonjun i know youre here somewhere, cameraman pls find yeonjun and point the camera at him"

☆ and when the camera is on him, hes smiling brightly and covered his shy face after getting those cheers from your fans

☆ you'd probably ask him to dance to one of your songs

☆ "yeonjun dance this song for me pls" then hes like shaking his head and all, refusing

☆ but the moment the music started, he danced so well that he literally became the hot topic of your group's show

soobin(수빈) :

☆ well soobin however, he'll come 2 hours early before your concert starts

☆ the reason he came early was because he was excited to give out his handmade freebies

☆ the night before, soobin had asked if he could hand out some freebies to your concert and you found this soooo cute that you told all your fans to find soobin for freebies

☆ he may be a little bit biased but all his freebies are just you.

☆ you wonder, what did he made? well...he made a banner, your photocard that he printed himself using his company's printer, candies of your fav and pastries that he had bake

☆ believe me or not, he woke up as early as 4 am just to make cute little pastries as your concert take place in morning

☆ he believed your fans wouldnt get breakfast, so he baked the pastries for them 😭

☆ as soon as your concert starts, he whipped out his phone so fast and record it and whenever you came on screen, hes like "wahhh theyre so pretty"

☆ when you start singing, he starts crying???? hes way too proud of you that he starts crying and vent to his friends sitting next to him

☆ "you know how hard my baby worked? im so proud of them, i remember them crying every night to me because of training and now look at them, theyre on stage now"

☆ his friend sitting beside him was like, soobin are u okay??? are u drunk?? but either way, his friend can only smile and nod while listening to soobin rant

beomgyu(범규) :

☆ idc what anyone says but this man will be fighting for a front row ticket

☆ literally camps outside the venue like..literally

☆ you had offered him to enter the venue earlier than anyone before the show starts

☆ but he refused this bcs he wants to get them freebies from your fans 😭 instead of giving them out, he wants the freebies himself

☆ goes from fan to fan, if he sees a fan handing out freebies? he'll be speed walking, another fan giving out freebies too? he'll be speed walking

☆ receives the freebies until it couldnt fit in his little bag that he brought with him

☆ as soon as the security lets everyone inside, he'll be running just to get close to the barricade

☆ since hes an idol, i know its ridiculous but he'll be surrounded by 2 of his protocol team 😭

☆ even though he had brought his 2 protocol teammates, he'd somehow make them enjoy your concert too

☆ like when your group tells the fans to jump, beomgyu would convinced his protocol buddies to jump aswell

☆ you spot beomgyu in the crowds and he'd wave you like crazy, like a fan boy 😭 ...does beomgyu knows that youre his lover???? 😭😭😭

☆ but anyways, he'll go on weverse and post the concert pics and take a photo of the freebies he received

☆ "what an amazing night, they look so beautiful tonight and thank you to y/f/n for giving out the freebies, i'll be keeping it forever"

taehyun(태현) :

☆ this man is quite lowkey but he is a hardcore stan of yours

☆ hes a bit dissappointed when he founds out that he wasnt the first one to arrive at the venue, he was like "2 hours before the concert starts, and theres alot of people waiting..." poor him, he thought he was the first 😭

☆ he'd show up with his mask on and a cap as he didnt want the fans to know he came to see you

☆ but that kinda failed as your fans started to notice his famous boba eyes in the crowds

☆ this made him open his mask, since theres no point in using it 😭

☆ as soon as y/g/n performs, yk damn well he'd be taking tons of videos

☆ he'd sing along to your songs and dance to some of it

☆ he memorised the fanchant too !!!

☆ bro got jealous when he sees y/f/n got the banners like...ugh he wants one too????

☆ he was like "see i knew i shouldnt have brought lightstick only"

☆ politely asks y/f/n for some extra banners

☆ believe me or not, he'd use those digital text on his phone that says, "y/n please notice me"

☆ luckily you noticed this and blew him a kiss and in return, he gave you a big heart which made you giggle on stage which also made y/f/n cheer louder

hueningkai(휴닝카이) :

☆ you think hes gonna go alone to your concert? nope

☆ he'll invite everyone he knows, his members, his family, his staffs. literally everyone to show how talented you are

☆ as much as you would love your boyfriend to bring in alot of people, apparently it has limits

☆ so in the end, he only brought his 2 sisters, lea and hiyyih

☆ dont worry, he paid for their tickets lmao

☆ LOVES receiving freebies from y/f/n

☆ when lea or hiyyih got your photocard from the freebies, he'd say smthn like "can i have that..?"

☆ not only he likes receiving freebies but hes also a merch buyer. sees a cute wristband for the lightstick? he'll buy. a cute shirt? he'll buy. a batch with your face on it? he'll buy.

☆ he'll buy everything that has your name or your face on it, until lea told him to stop unless he wants his bank account balance to be $0

☆ he'll do anything to get noticed by you, even tho he knows youre his lover

☆ before the concert, he texted, 'i'll be on the middle row, 3rd line from the front!!'

☆ but he decided to go extra as he thought you'd forget to see him so yk what he did? he brought glowing light sticks with him to make him more noticable 😭😭

☆ when you noticed him, you gave him a heart and him being a fanboy of yours, he started giggling and bragged to his sisters, "did you see that? they definitely gave that heart to me"

☆ after the concert ends, he'd ask one of his sisters to take photos of him doing cute poses whenever youre on screen, like him doing a big heart whenever you show up on the screen

☆ fans found this cute as they started uploading his leaked pictures doing those poses

☆ people may or may not label you guys as the couple of the year 🤭

[badbitchfiles]

Venting....

I feel so stuck rn.

The plan I had to get out of my low paying job & expand my income fell through, and then my backup plan fell through. My business is making single sales/month, which I'm very happy with bc everyone starts somewhere but baybee the bills are due now lol. Plus I've kind of stalled out on the other business; I have a shitload of stuff designed but it costs money to put it in motion and.....🥴

I'm trying to remind myself that pressure builds diamonds*(which is what I told myself to get through the last time I had a season like this) and that every valley leads to a peak—and it gets really bad right before the peak—but my GOD! How much longer before I hit the peak? This is like the third time I've been through something like this and I'm trying to make this the last mfing time bc this is GHETTO!!! The stress, the anxiety, the confusion, the directionless wandering is for the fucking birds!

I'm between seasons rn, I'm in the middle of a transformation (and headed into—if i haven't already started—my saturn return, not to mention the foolishness that comes with being in between eclipses) and let me tell you the in-between part is NOT fun; the part where the old shit no longer works but you don't know where to even start to develop new shit. And then you look around and everyone else is having fun & living life meanwhile you're in a boat with a hole in it & the flex seal is nowhere to be found 😭 I'm trying to remember that social media is an illusion and even with the rise of "getting paid to be yourself online", most things we see are very much staged, edited and all the other fake things. Part of me wants quick money but then I remember that nothing worthwhile comes quickly and then I'm like "well maybe I need to start losing a couple hours of sleep & put more effort into my businesses" but I know how I function when I'm sleep deprived (which is not at all) and I REFUSE to fall into hustle culture bc that'll lead me right back into the generational trauma that I'm trying to heal from

BUT THENNNNN I'm like "Okay what are you doing differently to ensure that the pattern doesn't repeat again?" And.....I lowkey don't have an answer lol. Yeah I'm writing in my day planner but then I'm not doing the things I write down. I'm not keeping on top of my habits so how am I going to ask for something different when I'm not doing anything to open myself up to something different? I'm spinning my wheels by trying to do too much at one time and I'm looking outside of myself for answers instead of looking within

That being said, here's what I've found out about myself:

One of the first things to be neglected when I'm stressed & burnt out is myself (skincare, meditation, diet, etc)

I run to social media (namely Twitter & tiktok astrologers/tarot readers) for answers instead of looking within & fostering my relationship with my own tarot cards and guides. I've been feeling called to go back to my tarot cards recently too

I've learned that what works for most people probably won't work for me. Idk what it is but my path is to literally go as far away from the cleared path as possible. It's very difficult especially when you're the only one in the family deviating but 🤷🏾‍♀️

I lack patience (wbk it's definitely a fire & air ruled thing lol). It's very hard for me to develop a habit bc I expect immediate results—with the exception of going to the gym bc I genuinely enjoyed that like an alien lmao. I also overthink, get discouraged & talk myself out of changes before I begin bc I focus on the mountain in front of me instead of the stairs that will get me up the mountain in small, incremental steps. Also the best part of doing something is the things you learn along the way and I'm missing out on that

I'll do a separate post on what I want in life rn bc that's been weighing heavily on my mind too

*diamonds are basically worthless & the "value" they do have is through man-made price gouging)