#(though this post might remind some of them that they didn't unfollow lmao)

[roadsaltedpretzels]

Hello world I’m still alive I think I’m gonna start posting here again

I’ll explain where I’ve been in a readmore if anyone is curious for some reason but anyway hi folks I can finally draw again and I think I might finally be back

So to keep the very long, tedious story short, about 2 years ago I started having constant pain in my arms and hands that eventually became intolerable and I completely lost the ability to draw (or do Most Things) for months. Turns out I have a herniated disc in my cervical spine, probably from a really bad car accident I was in. The pain has since gotten much better (tho still more or less constant) but the depression it contributed to didn’t really get better with it, especially with a bunch of other stressful things that have been happening. I was also feeling really uninspired in general and kind of hated my art at the time, so all that compounded resulted in a total loss of art drive. I legit have barely drawn anything in 2 years. Which worsened the depression, since drawing was the most important thing in the world to me. It’s been a bad spiral.

Well, last month, one of the worst things that could happen to me happened and now I’m out of a job and somehow, some way, I’m actually starting to bounce back up now. I’ve been playing a lot of pokemon in my ample free time and it’s actually been giving me the inspiration and drive I’ve been missing for so long. I’ve drawn more in the last 2 weeks than I have in the entire 2 years since I stopped posting here.

So yeah, I think I’m gonna start sharing some art again. I don’t have a ton of it but out of what I have, a lot of it’s going to be pokemon. I also have some dnd character art I managed a while ago. I was always too shy to share ocs since I figure no one would care about them, but that’s about all I have now, so it’s going to have to do.

I’ll also be opening commissions here pretty soonish, so keep an eye out for details if you’re interested! I don’t have any other source of income right now so it would be a big help!!

Thanks for sticking around if you did! No idea how active I’ll be from here on out or what I’ll be sharing primarily but I want to get back to creating. I’ve missed it very badly. 

[buddysmut]

I miss talking about gfriend too :(

Since may that year i think my buddy friends start to looking for another group. They stop talking about gfriend, even they have any activity with their new agencies. I know it's hard and hurted them but yea🥲

I feel lonely tbh, buddies on twitter and instagram are busy spreading campaign to boycott that shitty agency and hates to other fandom that hates gfriend.

It's kinda ashamed but i did messaged umji and the other girls about my feeling lmao..

Putting this under a read more because the reply turned out so long.

Yeah, that's something i noticed too. I don't interact with alot of the bigger Buddy accounts non twitter. But years ago I did see a few using their same screennames to comment on some of my fics on other sites lol

But there were a few that I had to unfollow, because even months after the contract stuff happened, they would still constantly be posting stuff about it. And it was the same things every time. I just got tired of seeing it. Like, yeah, it's bad and unfair to the members. But move on already. Yerin already had a new contract, I think even Yuju had news of being a solo artist by then. And they were still talking as if the girls were just homeless or something. It just felt like they were forcing drama.

I think it can be okay to move on to other groups. I've only been into kpop since 2016. And I to this day have only followed maybe 4 groups total. I went to music school for many years. So I really don't follow music unless it's something that I think is good. And ofc GFriend really stood out. So it's hard for me to even find any new groups. I know alot of people follow groups for visuals alone. But that's just boring to me.

I've seen alot of the boycott stuff too. I think people should just focus on what the members are currently doing. For example, I saw some rumors about how Sowon might have been let go from IOK recently. And then after a day, no one has mentioned her. It just feels strange. Years ago people would have been speculating and trying to find out what actually happened.

As fra as messaging them, I wouldn't feel too bad about it as long as you are respecting their privacy and not bothering them. But it does remind me of how I always joke that Umji has found my stories before. I know other idols I follow, like Wendy, have said they read smut type stories online. And at some point, I kept seeing alot of stuff GFriend would post on their own, or in content they appeared in that were suspiciously subtly hinting at stuff from my stories. I know it is 100% coincidence. But it always made me laugh. I have seen screenshots one time of Umji's tablet, and you could see she has English twitter. So it could be possible lol

As far as current projects, for me personally, it just doesn't feel the same. I like VIVIZ. But their singles so far just don't grab me the same way GFriend singles did. But it's a new company, and they are just 'starting out' in a way. So I am giving them time to get things figured out again. With Yerin, I was kinda shocked she got picked up so quickly. And I was surprised she didn't pursue music as her main focus. But I am happy she at least is able to do multiple media under her contract. I also love the running gag about her drama being so delayed that she will have multiple music releases before it finally comes out lol

I'm really happy for Yuju so far. I think her solo debut went well, and I liked the music. But I did see people talking about how she didn't do as high of a range, and they mentioned how that was probably forced on her by SourceMusic at the time. I get why she would avoid it if she is doing what she wants. But it is kind of disappointing to not see her full range displayed spread over a whole mini album. But people also said it's probably painful on her vocals to be doing the more difficult ranges. So I fully understand her choosing to do things how it has been so far. I don't know anything about vocal training though, so I'm just going by what I have heard.

As far as Sowon, I just have no idea what to think. She hasn't been as present on social media. She hasn't done many appearances. And honestly, know how she was under SoMu, I wouldn't be surprised if she caused alot of problems between her and IOK. I feel like she would have still tried to act like she was the boss, and the company probably didn't put up with that. So I wouldn't be surprised if they mutually agreed to just let her go, or if it was more on the company's side. Either way, the fact that there was basically no promotion for her movie shows that there was some kind of negativity between them.

I told a friend I was shocked she didn't stick with being part of a group. And they mentioned how Sowon likes the variety shows and stuff like that more than the stage performance aspect of things. Which makes sense. But it makes me wonder how many of the members as a group decided not to pursue the ot6 under a new name and company, and how much of it was VIVIZ deciding to get together on their own.

[mac-rat-art]

Not to be salty about the poll results, but what's your target audience whenever you reblog the post, though, like genuinely? Those who already follow you? Because regardless of whether or not folks are actively searching for new artists to commission, reblogs don't show up in site-wide search results, sadly.

Plus, anyone who visits your blog will very likely end up seeing your already-pinned commission post, and thus probably won't need to be consistently reminded that you're open unless stated otherwise.

I find constant reminders genuinely annoying (might actually jump ship due to the increased frequency tbh), and blacklisting won't stop tumblr from showing dashboard [1] notifications, nor does it actually "erase" entire posts. Instead, it just hides their contents behind a slightly-smaller "this post contains filtered tags [#commission reminder tag] [View post]" wall, which isn't a whole lot better.

Please reconsider.

(completely separately, I wish you good luck with getting your surgery funded, whatever ends up happening ^w^)

All of these are very good points! Some artists I follow do weekly commission posts, and I do consider it a sort of 'reminder' that I am taking them. Like an advertisement I guess? I've only gotten three since I started (and those were from Twitter), and I know there are several factors like people just not being interested, not having money, etc. And some of it is...people just not seeing posts I think? I have over 100 followers, and the vast majority of my posts get around 10 notes (which I am thankful for, don't get me wrong!). I don't let the numbers game get to my head, I make art primarily for me, it's just you do like to know people like the stuff you make, you know? That tangent aside, I definitely don't and won't hold any ill-will to people who unfollow. I think that's silly to be mad at!! I unfollow people a lot! So if anyone wants too, they're more than free to. I hardly check the number anyway lmao I didn't know that's how Tumblr itself did blocked tags like that (I use TumblrSaviour still) and while XKit has a post-blocker, that's a lot of work to just use for one thing.

So I definitely will be thinking on it! I might just start doing it once a month on the first, so it won't be too annoying, and I can still get the 'I'm putting myself out there' feeling

Thanks so much for reaching out! Feedback on things is definitely appreciated! And if you want to unfollow still, I wish you well, and I enjoyed having you! (and thanks so much!! :3 I'll be calling doctors tomorrow and I'm nervous and excited!)