#2. god knows if they even can do anything or if theres some condition written in already thatd stop them

[lesbianyosano]

legitimately what the fuck was that

[volcanocraft]

hoooolyly shit cluster b joel smallishbeans mentioned..... i love cluster b hcs (especially bpd) in general (coughcough projection) so i look around regularly and theres barely ANYTHING. all this to say if u find anything interesting then do post about it

Cluster B Joel is so REAL & TRUE!!! I personally headcanon Joel Smallishbeans in Hermitcraft + Life Series to have BPD, Empires Mezalean King Joel to have NPD, and God Joel to have HPD. Not to say they are interchangeable, but each character has those specific struggles.

The main takeaway from this is that C!Joel has a personality disorder for SURES!! I truly do think he is the BPD rep we need. He is such an intimate and fascinating headcanon, especially in the backdrop of his interactions and just general character.

What I really love is that Joel is able to have BPD (or another cluster B) and still make sense as a character without being demonized or reinforcing stigmas. He is very caring and can be callous, but he is also highly self-conscious at the same time. He can come off as conceited, but nobody takes it as an act of malice. When he does something mean purposefully, it reads as very impulsive or sensitive. Lots of reassurance on both the giving and receiving ends... He is just very human and has habits he can't control well (BPD), but he's not treated as a villain, and people love him all the same despite or for those "eccentricities." They don't end their relationship with him, and they don't think he's any less capable than other hermits because it's built on a solid, understood foundation, not face value. They also make fun of those quirks sometimes, but in an effort to point them out, not dehumanise them (I miss you empires...)

It sucks that BPD, NPD, etc. are such controversial headcanons to have or sensitive topics to bring up. and you can't bring up their internal conflict and experiences without someone chiming in about how unsympathetic their condition actually is. But thats why I fucking love the BPD Joel headcanon because he is a great example of what its actually like having this disorder: secure friendships with rocky interactions + a thriving environment (hermitcraft especially) + reactionary but not inherently antagonistic or malicious actions even if its self serving.

I don't think joel is written in the lens of bpd for any of these but: @transfemzedaph has some of my most favourite writing on him if you want some more content anon. Specially this post (mounders), this mezealan kingjoel/rendog fic, and smallishtay being unbearable!!! and then this fic by zedif-y is fucking awesome too (he is so fucking bpd coded here...) and @theminecraftbee (the GOAT) has a whole persona au on him, i dont know persona but the fics are really good anyways, especially this one and this one about martyn + secret life

Love to draw something for it. The only thing I've ever thought of is the permit office doubling as a pharmacy and Joel has to wait 2 business days for his SSRI refill because they only open on the weekends and grian wont make exceptions

[ambitionsource]

also 001 zc im springing it all on u

spring it all on me baybee. i’m ready. i’m thrivin

Zay & Charlie

When I started shipping it if I did: oh if i were a viewer, i think i’d be sniffing out this storyline EARLY. literally from the moment charlie leaps up to volunteer to tutor him in 103 and then is all “you’re so unapologetically yourself” with all that Awe i’d be like... mhm. okay. mhm ok mhm mhm mhm right mhm....... although i think i would be skeptical. i would be kinda like (as i think some of you were) are they actually going to go through with this...... are they playing me 4 a fool.... but then when you watch 112 after so much build and theres the RUNNING ACROSS THE CITY TO GET TO THE AUDITION AND AINT NOOOO AWWWYWYWYWYWYAAYWAAYYYYY AND THE LOUVRE KISS LIKE WAHAHAHWAHWAHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH -- yeah i’d be in it from there. you don’t see it coming going INTO the first season, but to be honest zc kind of Owned the first season in the later half there. they were subtle in some ways but then they really just brought the mf PUNCH

My thoughts: so. clearly. i love them. fdkjshgkjsg i think i have a lot of fondness for them because they really organically blossomed in the first season in a way i wasn’t expecting. as y’all know, we broke the story for the second season first and then backtracked to s1, and i will be candid... charlie was like... not a person when we first outlined s2 JFGDSKLGKDFGKLFDH. he was in a relationship with zay, and it was supposed to be this big surprise going into the second season, but otherwise we really didn’t like... know what to do with him or honestly had THOUGHT about it. but then as we started working on s1, he just kind of... emerged, as well as their storyline of barely acquaintances to friends to unexpected lovers. and i really really love what they grew to be. they’ve been one of the best parts of writing the show tbh and i have so much fun writing their scenes, even when they’re challenging (cough 208 cough, one of the most difficult scenes i’ve ever written in anything ever)

What makes me happy about them: i love how they see the other person for who they actually are, how they can cut through the bullshit and see the other for how they wish they could be seen (charlie seeing zay as more than the popular “cool” kid that he has to put on as a sort of defense to survive at aaa, and zay seeing charlie for who he actually is beneath all of the facades he’s created to please the rest of the world) and how that allows them the courage to try and actually BE those things. like. charlie may not have ever gotten to a point of really considering accepting his own sexuality if it weren’t for zay, i think -- especially since zay then gave him this incredibly SAFE space to figure it out AND loved him at the same time. i love how they demonstrate such a Balance for one another (there’s that key word again!), like how in s1 a core part of their friendship is the fact that charlie seems to be the only person zay really has who cares about all the things he cares about but also isn’t... a crazy monster the way everyone at aaa is fDJSKFLDG. and zay brings balance to charlie in showing him its okay to have fun, to be imperfect, to throw a swear word around or not give a damn sometimes or do things just because he wants to. and that’s important! that’s major! and then i just love love love how they’re playful with one another but it comes from this very sincere fond place. their dynamic would not be what it is without their sort of teasing nature, but it NEVER feels like it’s coming from a place of animosity, it’s always this affectionate kind of banter. i’m really picky about how teasing translates into romance, and i think the way they make it work is a fave thing about them for me. i’m forgetting like 4324325 things i wanna say here but i love them MUCHO

What makes me sad about them: so. hm. yeah. you know how there are those otp ask games or gif memes and there’s always that category that’s like “it’s right, just not right now” ships? i have always disliked that category bc i think people constantly misinterpret it (or its just a poor label to apply to a ship lmao), but i think they are actually a perfect example of what i think that label is supposed to represent. charlie and zay are 100% right, but not right now. they can’t be right when charlie is still trying to figure out so much of his sexuality and his sense of acceptance, because no matter how much they love each other it’s just not fair to zay to have all these conditions on their relationship. like, it’s great that he likes him enough to be okay with it, but it shouldn’t be that way in a truly healthy situation. yknow? and when the rules keep changing or grow to be confusing (i.e. how charlie seemed to be improving in 207 but then backslid majorly in 208), you end up with like... well, miscommunications like 208. and those can be brutal.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: again, i’m just projecting based on my experience in fandom and observing fandom, but here are a handful of things i think would be common in zc fic that would drive me up the wall. 1) babying and/or pandering charlie to the point that he’s just like... this uwu baby gay that completely strips him of his complexity, surprisingly sharp sarcasm, all his uneven edges and quirks, etc. 2) fetishizing of them both or more specifically, racism surrounding the portrayal of zay 3) a complete bashing of charlie’s faith, as that goes against how he’s written + his arc as a character [ like if you gotta work thru ur own grievances with organized religion then by all means, but it would probably bother me bc of his characterization and im literally not even religious lmao ] 4) banter that crosses the line and goes into that territory of lowkey bullying or tasteless that is a squick for me

Things I look for in fanfic: so of course, characterization that allows for the complexity of both of their characters would be A1 from day one as usual. would always love something that highlights the dance thing since that is... so important to their relationship in the show lmao. people who could capture their delicate balance of banter would be whew!!!! also random but i thought about it earlier today -- when winter olympics rolls around again, who is gonna write the ice skating au? it’s only a step or two away from dance y’all, let’s SEE IT!!!

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: zay would make the best of any relationship he gets into, but he and riley could be cute as i have mentioned before (altho i naturally prefer them as best friends, but they would treat each other the way they deserve which is important). there’s a character coming in s4 who i actually really enjoy with zay, but that’s a spoiler and neither here nor there... as for charlie, i again will make my vague comment about appreciating lucas x charlie... and that’s all i can say on that.............

My happily ever after for them: god i just. i want them to be happy and in love. and i mean that in that they’re happy with themselves, so they can be happy with one another. like, TRULY happy without all these conditions or strings attached. and to be able to be happy together IN PUBLIC. literally can you imagine. CAN YOU IMAGINE??

Who is the big spoon/little spoon: hmmmmmm again, i think it would vary. but i think my inclination is that typically zay is the big spoon, although i will say i think charlie is overall more cuddly (not that you’d ever assume so in public bc he’s so repressed DSJKFJDSKLGFDLKG)

What is their favorite non-sexual activity: i assume we wanna discuss the ones... that aren’t dance DJSKLFJDKGJFDLKJGKDJHLKDH. aside from the obvious, i really do think zay and charlie like to go out and explore together and just like... share experiences. like going to art museums is a big one, and seeing live performances. art is something that really connects them and i don’t think that can be understated, and one of their favorite things is experiencing art together and then getting the other to talk about their opinions on it. i also do think that while zay isn’t big on literature, he can be swayed if charlie reads to him. art completely aside, i think they like to go to the grand central market and browse / try new things. they also like window shopping, but that’s kind of funny bc their styles are so different so they’ll be like ooh and the other will be like rly. FDNSJKFDJSLGJDSG. omg they should have a day where they just get to dress the other person up all day in different stores... THERES a fun activity... zay is dressed head to toe in GAP and he’s like please set me on fire fJDSKFJDSKLGJKDLFG

send some winter hiatus asks !! or try this one

[gooodmorninsunshine]

Lets Get Very Real: Warning*

Hey Hey Lovely, Amazing and Wonderful Humans

***Caaaanda! seee-ten billl just passed last night, we are at a whole new level of ceeeensorship! we must write to our senate this goes against the Chaaarter of Riiights! Speeechlesss, literally and figuratively***

Sorrry this is so scrambled I will re-write on a better typing program as soon as i get to itt. 

I am going to mispelll and drag letters on I am being cccensored and many things are being taken down off FBB***

All of this is very very well documented. Many people have tried to warn everyone. I promise this is real, as wild as it sounds. 

Please keep an open mind, also don’t message me in anger or rage or opposition. I ask you to ask open and honest question in a respectful dialogue. Leave the ego, There is only room for awareness and growth through this. 

This ones gonna be a little different, there is a lot of information going around and its overwhelming for many. I would like to try and connect the dots a little and allow yourselves to look things up. They have studied human behaviour and reactions for a very long time and predicated how the masses would react to this. 

WARNING: this may make you extremely uncomfortable. this is going to force you to questions and absolutely everything you have ever known. Remember the only thing that is important here is to get to the bottom of your true nature, love and light. 

Level 1: Our current ‘emergencyy’

There has already been several leaked emails from ffffaucci. 

Over 3000 and counting but media keeps censoring us.

The details link funding to the laaab, where this vvvvvirrus was made.

It was made to scare people, put you all in a state of fear.

It was made to mock us, wear face coverings and sixxx ft. apart. This is how they appear during rituals. 

it was made to diviiiide us, who will obey and conform and who will not. 

Essentially those who do not get the ouchiie faaauci are the ones who are the problem. We question the science, the business, the docs, nurses, institutions, we see all of patterns throughout our history. there are millions of us. Some of us do not want to speak out right now, and some of us are talking, we are trying to get you back to your true nature, love and light is what we truly are. 

Outside play have fun, create anything and everything, write, sing, dance, find yourself during this time of uncertainty and systematic chaos. Hang with friends, laugh, go out, lay in the grass under the sunshine. Have fun, this is important. 

Currently all of this is a business and for profit. and we have many many links to show you. However facct chekkk keeps taking our stuff down so please look elsewhere, such as telegram, bichute, etc. 

Level 1: Create a problem! Make people scared and divide them.

Fear is the frequency that they want us all to get on, we will go into this more after but a lot of basic stuff right now in order to get the basic points across. 

*Please remember you must vibrate with love, patience, happiness, this is the frequency they want to discourage and have been doing so for centuries, even longer***

Level 2: Create a solution

jabbbbbby jab - they tell you it will save you and it forces you to dislike, generate hate and anger towards other people. 

Problem - Reaction - Solutions have been going on for a very long time. I am not questioning alll vaxxxx right now that’s a topic for another day. I am simply telling you this specific one is brand new type, still in exxxperimental phase, not ready until 2023. Tested animals died and many people are dying right now. 

They are dying from symptoms that mimic the flu, essentially the airborne stuff going around. People are passing away with phenomena, anemia, kidney and organs shutting down and a ton of carrrdiac arrest. Many many cases of this happening. 

The #’ss are not truthful and have never been

This is a business's, all for profit and theyre all in this together, anyone that is mainstream has been bought off, they are corrupted and working with the same evil people for their one agenda. WE have many many links to show this, we have traced accounts back and this is a business, i promise you. 

Level 3: Take away you’re freedom, issolate you. Also we were never that free to begin with, work to survive, cost of living and wage not equal. Forces you to be constantly stressed and check out more. 

Serious psychological affects to this we will get into another time and ive written about previously on here. 

They want you to be scarred, they want you to stay inside, depressed and alone. no community, no love for yourself. Please be aware another lockdown is coming, 2nnnd varriant is coming, they are always ten steps ahead of you and they have been planning this for a very long time. We underestimated the cleverness of some of the upper hands, but most of us are aware and trying to get the info out. 

Level 4: Emergency acttts: 

They can implement a lot of laws this way if the state/country has declared it an emergency. They have already talked about not re electing during thiss time. 

They make it all sound lovely for reasonings however this is called dictatorship. 

They introduced more taxes during WWtwo and they were supposed to be temporarily. I  don’t have time to go through all the examples but we must start looking at our historic patterns and see some similarities. 

Level 5: Gradual Use methods are everywhere 

Veeegan movement: Get people used to the IDEA of plant bassed food

Minimlism moveement: Get people used to the IDEA that owning less will make you happier

.*Pay attention to grocery stores: Prices will go up in meat and stores will begin to run out, this is happening already below us.  *Also not a bad idea to watch the magnetic videos of them sticking to their meat, baby food and cereals, get one and try it at home. Gaberrs baby one is the most common right now, many videos circulating. 

Air bnb, car shares, Condo’s quickly being built right now, bike lanes, this was all to get you used to the IDEA of renting to own. 

Level 6: History, wars, oppression,

all systematically planned. for centuries and even longer

They have been studying your behaviour. 

They know and predict how humans act to situations based on past events and the reactions of the people. 

Our historyy: long long examples to get into again this is just the basics. 

Oppress men and women so they no longer think for themselves, 

introduce institutions, medicinee, pppharma, bankss, and labels

**Symptoms and conditions are real but you are not broken. you simply live in a world that was not designed for humans to thrive** look back at other reading for more on this**

Level 8: Climate: This is false, this is how they are going to get you to believe them. Look at pictures of water levels from 1900 to now. The same. 

Our climate is a little bit messy but its earth and it heals itself. 

They have taken a ton of whales and sea life out of the ocean, they help minimize most of the carbon in our atmosphere, so yes sea life is super important and they seriously need to ban all fishing in order to restore it. 

Agriculture demands have increased and this produces carbon and methane. 

They have polluted the planet, selling us technology that breaks in a year so we buy more. Selling us items covered in plastic, selling us garbage to create more garbage to diminish the land, and of course for profit. Items used to be built to last, you could honestly have a fridge last 40 years. 

They are the ones ruining the planet and if it all stopped earth would replenish itself. 

Think of logging, more useless buildings being designed. 

They will tell you cliiimate is a serious threat but this is simply not true. They are all working the same agenda

In order to push their rent to own agenda they must tell you they are fighting against climateee. They all flew their own personal jets to the summit june 13* They do not care about the environment. 

Level 7: The darkness, theres more in between these levels but lets get to the bottom of this. 

This is all very very well documented and I ask you to start looking it up before the c-tenn billl passes and all the libraries are closed*

Sataonicccc cult and FreeeeeMassson - Hollllywood - all llinked

These people legit worship the darkness. they are fueled by evil greed and power since the beginning of time. 

They participate in very disturbing rituals. This is where pedohilia began, this is where murder and corruption began. Before Catholics, before Christianity they infiltrated everyone's minds. Yesss J is a real person, however that letter did did not exist in Hebrew. It was a Y: More info on this later: or ask me if your interested. 

The light and love I am referring to is the universe, god. 

Carl Sagan, Neil degrassi tyson, this is the real stuff they were trying to tell us but we not allowed to tell us the whole truth. they simply hinted at it. Look their stuff up about the comsos. 

We are all one, collective consciousness is real.

When we know this we are the happiest we could possibly be and we are connected to eachother. This is the level we need to get to very quickly. 

I urge you to find peace and love in your life as soon as possible

Return to your true nature without all of the conditioning that has been done to us.

You must break free from the darkness, you must vibrate love because that is the only thing that the universe understands, that is our true real self. 

Frequency and vibration is very real

They wanted us to feel, alone, sad, jealous, un happy, more advertisements, more products more this more that chase this happiness and etc. I ask you to try and see this and break out of the chains they have placed upon you since birth. 

Level 8: Illuminnnati, elites, worldd econimc forum, politics, evill worshippers, Hollywoood, all involved, all the same agendaaa. 

Start looking up Holllywood celebs talking about how they had to sell their soul to the devil. They were involved in very serious and disturbing rituals in order to begin their fame. look up rrrred shoee club as well. 

twenty seven club, many deaths, false, they were about to expose this. Some of them sure did take their own lives because they were under a serious oath not to expose any of this. There is so much information on this. 

Riiituals: they have always wanted you to participate in these because it goes against what the universe wants. this includes all holidays, notice how many gifts you must get someone for xmas in order to make them feel special? This is profit and evil to unknowingly force you into a ritual

Rituals include face coverings, sixxx feet apart.

alooot of the missing children? used for rituals and sacrifices and other evil beings out there. 

This is of great intensity, this is what weve been trying to warn you about.

Everything in our entire lives is false. We are real souls having an experience on earth, full of energy, filled with love and light. 

The only thing that is real if your true self and love

This is going to be very uncomfortable for many. Start looking stuff up, start getting to the bottom of things, start questioning things. 

Level 1 is just the distraction so you wont dig any further. So that people will argue with eachother about not wearing a covering, or your standing to close to me, or no I watch the news so I know what I’m talking about. This is all basic level stuff for people to feel heard. They know you will argue with each other and sanitize everything. When germs are the only thing that keeps our immune system strong. The body in incredible and you must go back to remembering this. 

NO MORE LEVELS: The Ultimate Goal: complete slavery, complete obedience, and they have been planning agenda 21 for a very very very long time. Depop, there are to many people on the planet but they cant create genocidee again in an obvious way. so its done systemically over a longer period of time. 

Diseases, all could be cured, fast food etc, all to make you sick over time.

Pollution and flouride, among other metals in food sources and water, all put there by them. 

They no longer want to pay for the current pension plans, this virus only affects the elder and very sick. The survival rate for healthy people is 99%

They have very clearly stated over and over again there are to many people on this planet. They want to pick who the next generation will be, hense changing the chinaa law to 3 children. Hense getting your kids vaccc without parental consent. Hense why they are handing out ice cream if you get the shott, this method is straight out of a pedophilia manual. Do you know how many women have had ovary and mensuration problems since getting the shot? Do you know how many men have had bruising down there? Many but it gets getting deleted and we are trying to warn ya. 

Soon passsports will divide us, you will be allowed to do things and we will not.

More lockdownss, more lies to influence the agenda. 

You think you are doing your part by gettin the jab but you are extremely misinformed and this is not your fault. Why would you even question this stuff until now? 

I know this sounds wowsers, but remember institutions were put there for you to question anything other than what you are being fed. Authority was put there to scare you and force obedience. 

Please please, start looking into this stuff, please don’t dismiss this because if you do, I’m sorry but you are becoming part of the problem not the solution. We need you to understand us, we need you to look deeply and start questioning your reality. 

I am sorry to do this, but again please do not message me in anger, please take time to sit with this and ask yourself questions. If you would like to have an open and honest dialogue in a respectful manner, I am here, livin my best life because happiness, love and light is all we have.

Look into: People and Films have been trying to warn us for years 

*Christopher Nolan - Gradual use methods and predicative programming* 

*Stanley Kubrick - Gradual use methods and predictive programming* 

*Jay Weidner - Decodes Hollywood, Philosophy and Ancient civilizations*

*Carl Sagan - We are all connected = Collective Consciousness* 

*Carl Jung - Layers of subconsciousness and Psychological Conditioning*

*Black Mirror - The Rise and Risk of Technology*

*Stephen Greer - As soon as they declassify other entities and outer vehicles existence = Foreshadowing, Gradual Use Methods*

The list goes on and on We must return to our truest nature LOVE over Fear. Illuminat*e the frequency of love and you win!

Evil = An inversion of life, evil is deception, corruption, destroyer of life

Evil spelt backwards = Live = the opposite of evil. Life is love and light and creation 

Everybody Love Everybody*** We win, love and light will prevail 

Will write more and connect the dots more, sorry this is a bit scrambled but I just wanted to get out some basic information out. 

In the meantime look up *Georgia guidestones*

Look up Ob*ama in 2014 during one of his speeches “ in 5-10 years there may be an ai*rbour*ne V that we need to be prepared for

Join the F*B Groups, staaaand4thee - Cannnadian *d-e-a*ths & Ad*ver*s-e Rea*ctions 

Start asking questions, start researching. 

I suggest using a different browser such as brave/duck duck go - This will reset your algorithm's and the info will not be fed from mainstream

Will add more info soon*

[adityafulia]

2017, do i qualify ?

2017 has been a very molding year for me, sometimes I recalled it as a tragedy, some times i recalled it as a blessing year The start wasnt always been a smooth start, a lot of things happened I get tomknow myself, deeper,and deepet, the darkside the bright side, I learned to accpet myself , to maccpet all my bads and goods To overcome many sitiations, To conquered my old biggest enemy, called mindset Enough with all the selfpityness, the loneliness, the 'uncontentment" that imfelt while i'm on this position I learned to accept that all things can turn up to something that i could control Fully out of. My control I guess god is taking all the part of it,,has done so much to remind me That nothing is forever , and that is always 2 sides of the things Head and tail Or we can call it, plus and minus Theres always something that god bring me up to To a new journey by myself After all this time, that i've had enjoyed the comapnion with some girls (or just 1 girl) I also learned bout the commitment, loyalty, And lil bit about the forgiveness (im still working on it) Time flies Time flews Moments faded Relationship destryoyed Something has to be revealed. That im up to no good on such a commitment I guess that im not reasy to take all of it at once I know that imhave. Alot of things to do, but time is not always enough I guess god wants to remind me all of that That i cant always rely on people, rely on their streght to make me stay, It is me who have to be in charge of that, to be loyal To be honest,,,,,, honesty is just like 2eyed sword Can save you neither can also kill you to the deepest wound The wound that i have to pay for The wound that i recognized as a tool to shape me, to give some kind of undestanding Not that i didnt scare of anything niw, but i learn myself on how to keep ,oving on Im not scare, but im faithful that god still have so much for me Every detail has been written, and if the honesty killed me once, i wouldnot regret it, as long as i knew that isnthe right thing to do I think god will gave me some pthing right to experience, Whatever the results, that was gods jobs, gods control I really try to live ny life , to expereince the contentment given by god To pay what ive dine, to stop asking the qestion why, to stop thingkimg in a negative way, to stop mad at things, to accept all the conditions,good or bad, To fill uo my glass, to be patiently filling up the glasses, before i start filling up others, I priotize on giving myself time,time to accept and consumed all of this Even when i feel like i really want to fillothers glass I pm grateful, to be here, now, alive, to feel all of this things before i die, tonpay the price , the onsequences, the risk I can say that im brvae,but no, things is not bravery I called faith When im on knees or ehen im standing tall Gods always watching csring giving and loving I count on it, let it be good and bad in its timing I wont do the tricks no more, i wont Tricks doesnt works so well But faith does