#ALSO something about him finally committing to tim only after lucy left with that stunning spiel. like even here even with tim dying

[dykecadence]

you literally made me start tearing up with your tags about hawk, like for some reason I had never thought about how in the end he got what he always wanted working abroad and for what? He’s completely alone

LITERALLY he spent his whole life pursuing this empty dream only to finally get it and have it mean NOTHING. he got what he wanted. hes alone now he can fuck whoever he wants and its just as empty as its always been. he could never commit to anything in his life except for this dream; not to tim and certainly not to his family. he lived a half-life expecting he would one day get to do whatever the hell he wants but instead he ended up old, friendless, and depressed beyond belief like i cant help but feel bad for him despite EVERYTHING hes done to make me feel otherwise because. idk the hubris of it all. expecting the things that satisfied you in your 20s to still be what you want when youre 70. something about spending 30 years on one dream, staying still while everyone keeps moving and keeps changing. hawk got the life he always wanted and, like always, only realized what he really wanted when it was too late