#ANSWERED || Divine Inquires { ARAHABAKI }

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@prodigls asked: " i know we haven't seen eye to eye, arahabaki, " dazai says quietly as he stands a few feet from the god. " but why him? why did you have to bring fyodor back? "

He shouldn’t have come back to the city , he just wanted to say goodbye .

It was late , the lingering glow of the sunset had long since been obliterated by the sky rapidly falling into a dark , moonless night . He had waited for it , until the salmon pink & violet sky had dipped into twilight blue before plunging into a vast expanse of jet black that engulfed the city , the brilliant luminosity of the stars nearly drowned out by the light pollution of Yokohama’s businesses .

The shadows were welcoming , at least to a creature such as him . A sharp contrast to the bustling of the daytime , now it was near silent , save for the passing traffic .

Ara leans over the railing of the building , staring at the sky . “ …I don’t think it will come as any surprise to you , but I am quite fond of you , Dazai . ” He says softly . “ You’re aware of my feelings . I’m sure you’ve known of them for longer than I have . ” Ara had grown up with Dazai & Chuuya , in a manner of speaking . He was always there , buried in the red-haired boy’s soul . Every mission , every screaming match , every laugh & touch . He was there . Of course he had developed feelings , bound to this human body , subjected to human emotion . How could he not ? He had never asked for this . He never asked to love either of them .

“ It… wasn’t to hurt you , Dazai . I promise . Fyodor… reminds me of myself . Cast aside & ostracized for being something she never asked for , nor had a say in . I stayed with Chuuya after our separation because he didn’t want me to leave . Because he believed he needed me to be strong . Chuuya has always been strong , but he doesn’t do well left alone . ” He pushes himself away from the roof edge to look at Dazai . “ Meursault made it clear no matter what , he would always have you . His heart has always belonged to you , & he doesn’t need me . I do not belong here . I don’t belong anywhere , because of my aunt . She took away my heart . I’m going to pay her back in kind . Fyodor is going to help me . I will not drag you into a divine war that will cost Chuuya your life . Aside from you , he is the only human with the intelligence to take on my family . We have an… understanding . I do not believe he intends to target your city again . ” So long as he has me , goes unspoken .

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Prompts // Always Accepting!

@longerhuman asked: ❝ baki - kun , is there a reason you’re so jumpy today ? i WAS going to show you something , but since you’re in a bad mood … ❞ ( for arahabaki < 3 ! )

            Was he jumpy?

            Ara had mostly managed to compose himself after his earlier... episode, but he supposed the evidence that something was wrong could still be picked up on, especially by one as observant as Dazai. Trying to ignore the way his eyes still hurt from the crying earlier, the god did his best attempt at mimicking Chuuya-kun's 'unbothered' smile, the one he wore often when he needed to look okay, too. He had no mirror on hand, but he hoped it looked convincing enough.

            ❝ Boku no Hikari no Yami, what makes you ask such a question? ❞  Ara inquired, carefully, setting aside the book he'd been reading entitled Potions & Libations of Ancient Morocco. Truthfully, he was grateful for the distraction, & felt a stab of affection for the brunet. It was hard not to feel fond of his light's more mischievous half. 

            ❝ I am well. I must simply be... tired. When you spent as long as I did not needing to worry about pesky mortal needs, sometimes you forget sleep is something you humans need, nightly. What a waste of the time when the most interesting things happen! ❞  He shook his head before shooting Dazai a curious glance.  ❝ Ah well. What was it you wished to show me this time? ❞