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galaxseacreature · 2 years ago

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Last week I helped with a training for one afternoon and we were in a lovely little park by a lovely little stream and many of the salmonberries were ripe! And I couldn't figure out how that snuck up on me so completely. Someone pointed out that it's June and I just laughed it off as how time flies by. Only many hours later I realized-it’s because of my new job. I started at the beginning of May. A month of not being significantly outside near daily after two years of it. That's all it took. Such a short time to come so untethered

#I really am happy about my job! but I have been thinking melancholy thoughts about this #I've really come to value the low key awareness of natural rhythms #Not for a purpose just in general like oh the osoberry leafs out first in the spring and watching the relative order of things #I don't want to be like one of those white girls but when I volunteered on Kuaihelani we had a huli 'ia practice #And regularly communicating our observations of seasonal changes across the landscape legitimately improved my ambient awareness #And...idk I felt like that skill made me more...in context as a creature of the world #So yeah 2 years outside almost every day and I didn't have a log or anything but the general awareness has been a part of me #So to be blindsided so badly #To miss all the middle stages of salmonberry ripening. Not to have a first day of seeing a ripe berry in the field #It's grief. A small petty tremendous grief #Like I'm ok and it's a valuable reminder I need to figure out how to get myself outside closer to every day again but on my own time #But it's real #And so is being happy about my new job genuinely! I just needed to express this too and I don't have great spaces to do that #So here we are! Thanks for listening if you're still here haha

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