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losterthanlost · 3 years

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May 23, 2021

Hello.

Bago-bago lang ko naghawa sakong higdaan. Naga soundtrip ko ug "The Water is Wide" on loop. I learned about this song thanks to the movie Pure Love / Unforgettable. Medyo gaemote gihapon ko paggapaminaw kay sad jud gihapon ang movie para sa akoa.

So nganong gasulat man ko ug entry dinhi imbes na mag acads? Hmm cguro kay nagagi sa akong isip ganina na maghimo na lang ko ug entry while gaisturya about sa akong chem postlab ug ubang requirements aron maprocess jud nakog tarong akong thoughts about unsaon pag answer ato haha.

Okay so chem postlab diay akoang ginahimo gabii. Grabe hinaaaay kaayo ko maghimo ba. Murag kaya man to humanon gahapon ba. Pero lagabii tung nagwts gets na jud nako, nagpadistract ko sa youtube ug twitter sa laptop ug medyo pud diti sa tumblr. Hahays. I really hate it when I do this.

Sa chem diay, ang last na part na ginahimo nako is tung about sa kung unsaon pag-incorporate sa atung added na CaCl2 didtua sa computation. ICE table na unta to ang akong himuon. Unya nastuck ko and like nakita nako ang oras gabii na kaayo sa isip nako dapat kato na problem tung sayo sayo pa nako gisugdan isip. Postlab questions ug formatting na lang unta akoang giatupag karon. Pero gaga man ko so... hahahahays.

Okay so ICE table... hmmm M =mol/L. Tapos ang given lang na value nung inadd ay mL. So, kailangan kong iconvert ang mL into L. Yung L kasi sa mol/L anu yan eh uhm yung total volume ng solution.

AY WAIT! Ang given pala sa added CaCl2 ay 5mL and 1.00 M. So... may M na siya. Pero aning gagawin sa 5 mL? Di naman pwedeng 1.00 na pang kasi di naman solution yun.

So ang 5mL is V1 and ang 1.00 M is C1. Ang V2 is yung total volume and ang C2 yun na yung gagamitin ko??? Cge nga try ko. Total volume is 25 mL nung Ca(OH)2 + yung 5 mL ng CaCl2. So 30 mL = 0.030 L. Okie calcu ko. Answer ko is 0.1666666667 M.

Okayyy ngayon paano ko isua iincorporqte para sa pagsolve nung Ca+?

OOP lapit nako matapos kasooo ahahahhaha tama na yung logic ko about sa C2 kaso dapat mauna talaga yun gawa bago number 3. Tapos iba na rin pala ang V2 ng exer 2 kasi 30 mL na pala talaga dapay. Sksksks. Okay okay

Cge redo ko muna exer 2 calculations hnggg.

YESSS feeling ko okay na ako sa mga calculation sksksksksks.

Okay irewrite ko na lang sa bond paper. Tapos pic tapos past sa document ko. Tapos answer na agad ng postlab questions.

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PUTAAAAAAA AGHHHH

😭😭😭😭

Mag-ulit koooo two trials pala each activity.

So yung values na gipanggamit ko, mali.

Hnggg okay ulitin ko na lang.

Samoka ani uyy.

Grrrt.

Pero at least mas gets ko na ang himuon.

So sa activty 1, yung wala pang common-ion effect, after masolve ang Ksp per trial, i average ko daw. Yung average ang magserve as experimental value. Then icompare ko with the literature value by using the %error formula.

Hmmm... oki oki.

Tapos sa activity 2... ang flow is same ang number and and number 2. Pero ang number 3 is ang tung mgsolve sa C2. Ireport ang C2. Tapos 4 na tung [Ca+] ug [OH-]. According sa tung nafigure out ko kagina. Then number 5 na tung mgsolve sa Ksp ug sa solubility which is in g/L. Finally sa number 6 is ang iaverage nag Ksp ng both trials to serve as the experimental value and icompare sa literature value using the %error fomula.

Okiii.

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I really hate myself.

After I posted this entry, (this is an edit btw), all I did was read a new au.

I still haven't proceeded to solving my chem calculations. 😭

I really hate myself.

Hngggggggg

Okay I should make a time limit challenge with this one. If I succeed then that means I can finish my chem 19 psets this week. I think there are laready 3 psets in total and they're all waiting for me to either finish them or for me to fail the subject all together.

I can't afford failing a subject as a scholar. 😭

Hnggg okay I think I should fix my table and set my body and I will go through this time rave challenge with my chem post lab.

Okiiiii. Lezzgo.

Hngggg no I can't huhu.

Okay I think I should think like...

Aghh wait I also remember this waste of money I did. I paid 999 pesos for a scam eco pads. They are fking fake. Really not the bamboo stuff the ads were saying. I shouldn't have taken the order. I should've just cancelled it.

I'm fucking stupid. ☹

BUTTT

It's either I find a way to report them OR I will just take it as a lesson. The 1k wasted money will serve as a lesson and a punishment for me so that I will surely never buy online again.

Hngggggg

AHHHHHHH

I need to focus on chem post lab first.

My literal mood right now.

HNGGGG

Okay okay.

I should think like this.

Whenever I know what I should do.

But if I feel uncomfy to do it.

Even if my mind is flooding with excuses why I don't need to force myself to do it.

THAT is the time my body should walk straight into my task and start doing it.

Shut my whining self up and just continue with my work until it's all done.

Phones and other social media things DON'T DIE.

They will still be there even after 3 days of not interacting with them.

Okay I should start this.

So now I should:

Take a bath

Fix my table

Do my chem post lab within an hour

Okayyyyy grrrt.

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Saya dulu lebih berat dalam dakwah.. Lanjutin perjuangan saya yah… Jadi Ikhwan jangan cengeng… Nggak punya duit jadinya nggak dateng Liqo.. Nggak ada motor yaa halaqoh boro-boro.. Murabbi ikhlas dibikin melongo.. Binaan nggak ada satupun yang ngasih info.. Ngeliat binaan malah pada nonton tv liat presenter homo.. Adapula yang tidur sambil meluk bantal guling bentuk si komo.. Oh noo… Jadi Ikhwan jangan cengeng… Jadi Ikhwan jangan cengeng… Jadi Ikhwan jangan cengeng… Jadi Ikhwan jangan cengeng… Jadi Ikhwan jangan cengeng… ———————————————————– Akhi… banyak sekali sebenarnya masalah Ikhwan.. Dimanapun harokahnya… Akhi.. Di saat engkau tak mengambil bagian dari dakwah ini.. Maka akan makin banyak Ikhwan lain yang selalu menangis di saat mereka mengendarai motor.. Ia berani menangis karena wajahnya tertutup helm… Ia menangis karena tak kuat menahan beban amanah dakwah.. Akhi.. Di saat engkau kecewa oleh orang yang dulunya engkau percaya.. Ikhwan-ikhwan lain sebenarnya lebih kecewa dari mu.. mereka menahan dua kekecewaan.. kecewa karena orang yang mereka percaya.. dan kecewa karena tidak diperhatikan lagi olehmu.. tapi mereka tetap bertahan.. menahan dua kekecewaan… karena mereka sadar.. kekecewaan adalah hal yang manusiawi.. tapi dakwah harus selalu terukir dalam hati.. Akhi.. disaat engkau menjauh dari amanah.. dengan berbagai alasan.. sebenarnya, banyak ikhwan di luar sana yang alasannya lebih kuat dan masuk akal berkali-kali lipat dari mu.. tapi mereka sadar akan tujuan hidup.. mereka memang punya alasan.. tapi mereka tidak beralasan dalam jalan dakwah.. untuk Allah.. demi Allah.. mereka.. di saat lelah yang sangat.. masih menyempatkan diri untuk bangun dari tidurnya untuk tahajjud.. bukan untuk meminta sesuatu.. tapi mereka menangis.. curhat ke Allah.. berharap Allah meringankan amanah mereka.. mengisi perut mereka yang sering kosong karena uang habis untuk membiayai dakwah… Akhi.. Sungguh.. dakwah ini jalan yang berat.. jalan yang terjal.. Rasul berdakwah hingga giginya patah.. dilempari batu.. dilempari kotoran.. diteror.. ancaman pembunuhan….. dakwah ini berat akhi.. dakwah ini bukan sebatas teori.. tapi pengalaman dan pengamalan… tak ada kata-kata ‘Jadilah..!’ maka hal itu akan terjadi.. yang ada ‘jadilah!’ lalu kau bergerak untuk menjadikannya.. maka hal itu akan terjadi.. itulah dakwah… ilmu yang kau jadikan ia menjadi… Akhi.. jika saudaramu selalu menangis tiap hari.. Bolehkah mereka meminta sedikit bantuanmu..? meminjam bahumu..? berkumpul dan berjuang bersama-sama…? Agar mereka dapat menyimpan beberapa butir tangisnya.. untuk berterima kasih padamu.. Juga untuk tangis haru saat mereka bermunajat kepada Allah dalam sepertiga malamnya.. “Yaa Allah.. Terimakasih sudah memberi saudara seperjuangan kepadaku.. demi tegaknya Perintah dan laranganMu… Kuatkanlah ikatan kami…” “Yaa Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahwa hati-hati ini telah berhimpun dalam cinta kepada-Mu, bertemu dalam taat kepada-Mu, bersatu dalam da’wah kepada-Mu, berpadu dalam membela syariat-Mu.” “Yaa Allah, kokohkanlah ikatannya, kekalkanlah cintanya, tunjukillah jalan-jalannya. Penuhilah hati-hati ini dengan cahaya-Mu yang tidak pernah pudar.” “Lapangkanlah dada-dada kami dengan limpahan keimanan kepada-Mu dan keindahan bertawakal kepada-Mu. Hidupkanlah hati kami dengan ma’rifat kepada-Mu. Matikanlah kami dalam keadaan syahid di jalan-Mu.” “Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Sebaik-baik Pelindung dan Sebaik-baik Penolong. Yaa Allah, kabulkanlah. Yaa Allah, dan sampaikanlah salam sejahtera kepada junjungan kami, Muhammad SAW, kepada para keluarganya, dan kepada para sahabatnya, limpahkanlah keselamatan untuk mereka.” Aamiin Allahumma aamiin. ~~~ Tulisan ini diperuntukkan untuk yang merasa.. sama sepertiku yang juga merasa… Semoga dikuatkan.. Amiieenn… Depok, 18 Maret 2010 Muhammad Maula Nurudin Al-haq ___

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