#DONT BRING TWITTER SHIT IN MY SANCTUARY

[milkydraws8]

You tweet how you want people to die, because they're being "annoying nerds" by disagreeing about a movie, and are suprised people seeing it are uncomfortable?

[sweetestsugar1996]

Tumblr is such a lil sanctuary for me. its quiet, chill, pretty. nothing too abrasive ever happens. just watched the socail dellema on Netflix and reminded again of how we are victims of social media. I tried deleting twitter off my phone and failed this week. im on hiatus so its not like I have an excuse for mindless scrolling. 

anyway my brother died a month ago so im trying to be kind to myself or whatever. I feel this last week my shock has transformed to a mini depression, I just have 0 energy or will to do anything. I stayed at my parents for like 3 days when I planned on only staying 1 because the thought of leaving made me want to die. not the going home part but the moving part. and the operating my own life and being alone part. whatever. always the same shit inside. whether it from greif, hiatus, being a whore, school, work, unemployment, getting fat, breakups- theres always a reason for the dread. 

and im still talking to the piece of shit guy who I was seeing when he decided to use my brothers death as an excuse to breakup (thats the short version) cause I feel so distant from my friends. like i dont wanna bring them down into this depressing with me. I want them to be having a great day and not worry. guys I date I dont care. they get free sex so they deserve headaches lol