#Farlen x y/n

[aetheternity]

As the world caves in. (Farlen x reader)

Synopsis: Farlen is a new member of the Survey Corps and you're attracted to him the second you lay eyes on him.

You'd been talking with Hange about it all night into the morning. The new recruits from the underground. You couldn't help it, when you wanted something you just had to have it no matter what.

"You're telling me he's not cute to you?" You asked as you leaned your back against the table, looking at Hange upside down.

"You always worry about the wrong things." Hange replied, with a strained smile.

"Doesn't matter.." You replied, seeing the group of three entering as you spoke. The three of them really never separated. It annoyed you a little that you couldn't find an opening to get him alone. "I'm gonna talk to them before you do!" You smirked and with that you were up.

"Y/N!!" You heard Hange hiss but the noise was quickly dissipating as you walked further into the crowd.

You slowed your pace a little staring in the opposite direction of Farlen, Isabel and Levi perfectly placing yourself at the right angle. And-

His cup clattered to the floor with a pretty obnoxious thud. You grunted, that wasn't quite what you had in mind..

"Geez, you can't watch where you're going?" He huffed, reaching down to pick up the empty cup.

"Yeah! What's up with you!" Isabel added

You smiled, leaning in a little closer. "Oh.. sorry, I didn't see you there. But now that I'm looking I'm intrigued."

His blue eyes widened and his lips parted staring at you with slightly furrowed brows. "You're.. Farlen aren't you? And you're Isabel and Levi?" You asked even though you knew pretty much everything that Mike and Erwin knew about them.

"Who's asking?" Isabel huffed, crossing her arms.

"I'm Y/N, I've been in the survey corps for almost two years now. I've heard a lot about you guys." You explained "Though I was never made aware of someone so cute joining our ranks."

"Eww." You heard Isabel whisper. Levi just glared, eyebrow slightly raised.

"I-I uh.. Me? You think I'm cute?.." Farlen asked

Now Levi's stare was turning into one of disbelief angled at Farlen. "Hmm." You just hummed as a reply leaning in closer to him. "Uggh I can't believe I ruined your shirt.. and spilled your drink. I'll go get you another one, ok." You remarked and with a little bounce you were walking away to get him a drink replacement.

You managed to find the table where the three of them were sitting easily though as soon as you approached the conversation between them seemed to die off.

"Here you go and listen if you need any help getting the stains out-" You leaned into his ear feeling a spark run through you at the sudden jolt of his body from your presence. "I'm always around."

And with that you circled on your heels, hips swaying right back to your table. You plopped down in front of Hange trying to ignore the roll of her eyes.

"You can't try to get with any of them. You should know that the commander is not gonna be happy about this."

"Aw let him not be happy. The man never smiles anyway."

"Not a shred of life preservation exists in you does it?" Hange laughed

You turned to look over at Farlen your chin resting on your palm. A little shocked that he was already looking at you. You sent him a wink and his skin bloomed pink as he swiveled around. You almost laughed.

"No one in this very room has a shred of life preservation. A wise woman once said, take as you may a sexy man while you're still young and before you get defiled by titans."

"You definitely just made that up." Hange replied, setting aside her book and picking up her cup of water.

~~~~

"Jeez Hange it's so late at night. Aren't you tired?" You asked

Your feet were kicked up onto her desk as you stared down at the notes in front of you. Your yawn was the thing that actually made her look up from the mountain of books stacked in front of her.

"If you're tired take a break."

The chair clattered against the floor as you stood arms outstretched above your head. "I'll be back in a couple minutes." You remarked

Helping Hange so late at night wasn't exactly your favorite thing to do but you did love walking through the empty corridors at this time. Staring out at the deep blue of the night sky with stars dotted over it like a huge tapestry. Air filling your lungs from open windows and the soft flicker of candlelight keeping you company.

Though tonight you heard voices. Slightly inaudible but definitely more than one voice. You slipped around a corner, tilting your head as the sound grew. After a little more walking aimlessly you could fully hear the conversation and each person individually.

You smiled a little when you recognized Farlen's voice on the other side of the door. With zero hesitation you pushed it open. Farlen's eyes immediately widened and his mouth hung open while Levi and Isabel's faces scrunched up.

"What're we talking about?" You giggled playfully

"Don't you ever mind your business!" Isabel huffed, her cheeks puffing cutely.

You smiled at her. "I can't help it.. the gossip around here is amazing."

Before you could completely register his movements Levi was forcing you out of the room, shoving your shoulders back against thick walls. You winced at the sudden pressure and the pain flowing through the back of your neck.

"This has nothing to do with you. You should butt out while you still can."

You blinked at him, his dark eyes honestly intense enough that for a second you did feel a bit intimidated.

"Levi.." Farlen tried

Levi backed up slightly and Farlen stepped forward a little. "How much did you here?"

You giggled looking down at the ground. "What? About your plan to kill Erwin and steal some documents from him?"

"Now can I take her out?!" Isabel huffed but Farlen just pushed her back.

His blue eyes wavered a bit and he stepped a little closer. "How do you know that?"

"Lucky guess.."

"Don't fuck with me."

You sighed in mock defeat. "I didn't hear your conversation. I've known there was something off about you guys since day one but if I wanted to talk I would've already."

"Why would you not rat us out? What possible reason could you have for keeping our secret, you know your precious commander could die and it'll partially be your fault." Farlen said

You rolled your eyes bringing a hand smoothly up Farlen's arm, squeezing his shoulder blade a bit before resting your fingertips against the back of his neck, thumb softly stroking his jawline.

"I wasn't lying when I said I think you're cute Farlen so I couldn’t bare to see anything bad happen to you."

Isabel made a sound like she was gagging and she turned away. Farlen's hand came up to yours gripping it with surprising roughness he pulled it away from his face.

"We have a mission here. You need to stay out of it." He said letting go of your hand.

Levi gave you one last glare before they were all turning but your words made Farlen look back. "You should know at no point will you ever have to trust me. But I doubt anyone you ever meet will come at you with this much intensity completely based on pursuing a relationship." You turned and now Isabel and Levi were watching too. "Hope you succeed." You said 

And with that you were gone. Surprisingly you felt a pang in your chest. You couldn't help the grunt that slipped off your lips into the quiet hallway as you gripped your shirt between your fingertips increasing your pace.

~~~~

By morning the stack of papers on Hange's desk had diminished slightly and honestly you were surprised. The mountain seemed completely unmovable but now you could see Hange's face without having to move your head.

"Ok!" Hange announced causing you to flinch. "We did a sizable amount of work!" She patted your head giving you a light thumbs up.

"Without a lick of sleep." You yawned

"You're off tonight so you can sleep then." Hange retorted, heading to the door.

"What about now??"

"Training starts right now. You head out I have to get these papers to the Commander."

You groaned loudly as you exited the cramped space. Though it felt nice to stretch the noises your back made when you did so were less than nice. You twisted your shoulders first to the left and then to the right as you walked, little details from last night flooding your memory.

It had been nice to not have them for a while. Your thoughts completely bombarded all night with paperwork and Hange's chatter. You didn't mind spending so much time with her, especially since Hange really was the only person in the survey corps you considered a friend.

Though your brain continually played everything over again on a steady loop. Farlen's words echoing off your skull.

We have a mission here. You need to stay out of it.

The same pang returned but slightly duller. You just ignored it. It took a few minutes to get your gear on and as soon as you did you rushed out to the clearing, feeling the wind brush past your face. The feeling soothing in comparison to the hot room you'd been in all night.

It only took a few minutes for you to get to the clearing. Immediately being called to do drills with your odm gear. You ran past Farlen who happened to be standing next to Isabel and this time you didn't say a word.

Two hours had passed and training was starting to slow as people jumped off their horses and sat themselves down to drink. You sat where you always did, on top of one of the fences to watch as everyone talked and sometimes laughed with each other.

"You don't hang out with anyone?" You jumped, hoping it didn't look as dorky as it felt. Farlen stood by your side, his soft blue eyes illuminated by the glaring sun that washed over every inch of territory around here.

"Hey." You replied looking back out towards the captains standing together conversing.

"Can I.. sit?" He pointed awkwardly to the fence by your side.

You nodded, bringing your water back up to your lips. You glanced over at him through the corner of your eye and he shrunk where he sat.

"Didn't know what you were gonna say before you came over here?"

"I don't.." Farlen sighed, playing with his fingers in his lap. "Look.. I.. it's good that you like me. I'm sorry. I've never had a girl or anyone feel this way towards me.."

"What makes you think I still do?" The flicker in his eyes as he looked back up to you made you waver. "Sorry I'm kidding."

He huffed with a playful roll of his eyes, looking back down to his hands. "Isabel and Levi don't want me to hang around you.. or to talk to you at all.."

It was hard not to say all the thoughts currently clouding your mind. Even if you knew you shouldn't say something you normally said it anyway but somehow you managed to suppress the urge.

"I.. I don't really know anything about girls or relationships or anything like that but at the moment I have to focus on my mission and once that's done.. me and Isabel and Levi are gonna leave this place.. I'm sorry."

You leaned closer to him. "What do you think of me?"

"When?"

You giggled, "Now? In general? When we first met?"

He paused staring into your eyes. "Now.. I think you're.. close." You pressed a kiss to his cheek. "In general.. I'm not sure." He continued 

His hair clung messily to his forehead and you couldn't help but brush any stray hairs aside. His entire face seemed to not only flush color but heat as well. His gaze transfixed, not pulling away or moving closer.

"When we first met?"

He gulped, "Beautiful.."

"Hmm?"

"I.. thought you were beautiful."

Your smile was almost shitty as you reached over to his other cheek pressing a slightly longer kiss on it.

"You're not so bad yourself."

"I feel like you're trying to make this difficult." He hummed you were surprised when his forehead came down to rest on yours.

"If there's one thing I've learned from the Survey Corps-" You brushed your knuckles against his, slipping your thumb over the back of his hand. "It's do what you can while you still can."

You squeezed his hand once more separating yourself as Levi and Isabel started to approach. With one last shrug you were off.

~~~~

There was a mission outside the walls tomorrow so you'd gone to bed incredibly early considering your usual track record.

Around what had to be 12 am you were awoken by a couple sharp knocks on the door of your shared room. Your roommate huffed in agitation and you slid out of bed. You wrenched open the door fully intent on letting the person on the other end have it-

"Hey.." Farlen exhaled as if he’d been holding his breath.

"Wh-" You paused rubbing your eye as you looked over at Isabel and Levi their scowls enough evidence that they were here against their will.

"I needed to see you again." Farlen explained

"Well, twelve am is the impromptu time for bringing your friends to someone's room." His face fell and heat rose to your cheeks. "Sorry, I get sarcastic when I'm sleepy."

"You were sleeping this early?" Isabel asked

You shrugged with a soft smile. "I don't have the endurance you guys do."

"She's not like us Isabel." Farlen muttered

"Is that why you like her?" Levi questioned though it sounded more like a statement.

Farlen's face turned probably the brightest red you'd ever seen. "Oh so you do like me?" You said smirk evident. 

"I've.. I said it before.."

"Not in those words." You moved closer and Isabel grunted.

"It's getting gross again.." She remarked "I hope you didn't bring us here to watch you make out with her."

"No! Shut up!"

You hummed. "Shame, though if you'd come alone we could've done a little more than make out." Your fingers played with the top button on his shirt shifting over to the collar, gaze never faltering from Farlen.

"Tell her already." Levi huffed, eyebrows pinching together.

"The mission is tomorrow. After the mission we're.. leaving we'll have succeeded in our mission." Farlen said You tilted your head backing away a bit."We'll be citizens though. Which means maybe.. you could come visit sometime?"

For the first time since you'd met them Isabel and Levi actually looked apologetic.. Isabel more her big eyes soft. Levi's face mostly the same as always though his eyes wavered.

"If you choose to come to us because you wanna visit Farlen, then me and Levi bro will be cool with that. Right Levi bro?"

Levi sighed but didn't say a word. You looked back to Farlen, his features twisted with concern as he took in your expression.

"I hope you'll be happy up here on the surface."

"Wait, what.."

"What kind of life did you want up here Farlen?" Your fingers crept into his hair pushing the strands aside to press a soft kiss to his forehead. Your free hand squeezed his wrist.

"A life where I'd be free with Isabel and Levi."

"And now?"

".. Now I want you too. I wanna see where it could go.."

You rested your head on his shoulder. "Do you think it's possible?"

You felt his chin swiping back and forth against the back of your head and you sighed. "You're right."

With one final squeeze to his chin you tugged yourself away from his warm grasp. "Good night guys." Your door was opening and then closing just as quickly.

~~~~

It hadn't been raining when you guys first set out but by the smell of things you could tell it was gonna get dangerous out here soon.

"Split up in your groups! Don't lose sight of each other!" Erwin shouted over the onslaught of rain.

You could hear distant shouts and some fading gallops as the groups quickly followed orders. People are gonna start dropping fast you thought. You looked straight ahead catching Farlen's gaze as it fell back on you.

Right now the only people surrounding you were Isabel, Farlen and Levi. Gripping the reins on your house you trekked along with them keeping an even pace. The other's from your group had basically vanished and as much as Farlen's eyes boring holes into the back of your neck made you wanna do the same you stuck close.

Fate would do terrible things to those who strayed from the group.

"I'm going to grab the documents. Now while the storm is distracting everyone." You heard Levi yell to Farlen.

"You better not get hurt!"

"You got this Levi bro!" Isabel called in her normal playfully brash way.

Levi huffed and with a final "stay safe" he was speeding off.

"Should he really be going off by himself in a storm like this?" You asked, pulling your horse up next to Isabel.

"Don't worry Y/N, Levi bro is one of the toughest guys to come out of the underground. He'd never be beaten by titans or Erwin."

Farlen turned to look at you, "What if I stayed?"

"Huh? Stayed where?" Water was pouring down the hood of your cape into your eyes but you blinked it away.

"I could stay in the Survey Corps. We could stay in the survey corps!" Farlen announced

Isabel shook her head chaotically. "That wasn't in the plan Farlen!"

"You're not staying in the Corps for me!"

"But-"

"If you have the option of a better life you should definitely take it."

"How will I know which version of life would be better for me? Nothing is completely decided yet and we can still talk to Levi and-"

"ISABEL!" You yanked at your horse’s reins not even slightly prepared for the way you were thrown off. Your horse skidding in the collected mud.

Isabel's scream was silenced almost immediately as a huge titan with long black hair gulped and then regurgitated her head, swallowing down her limps with ease.

"Piece of shit!" Farlen yelled

"Farlen no!"

Farlen landed on the grass with a hard thud. His eyes wide and mouth hung in a wide O. A gasp fell off his lips and you looked to him a shooting pain flooding your right side. You heard his gasp once more eyesight hazy.

"Farlen.." You breathed out suddenly taking in the harsh reality of spreading pain. Blood running cold down your legs. "You're even beautiful now."

“Y/N!” 

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