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AUDIO_LOG_DURATION: APPROX. 15 MINUTES, 26.8 SECONDS

BEGIN TRANSCRIPT:

[FOOTSTEPS] [KNOCKING]

Arthur: Lazarus? You in there..?

[WIND RUSTLING] [FAINT WHISPERS]

Arthur: Oh, I- Bellatrix: He's upstairs.

[FEET SHUFFLING]

Arthur: Okay, I'll- Bellatrix: Don't be too loud.

[TAPPING] [SIGH]

Arthur: Yeah. Yeah, alright.

[FOOTSTEPS] [METALLIC FOOTSTEPS] [KNOCKING]

Arthur: Laz..? It's- Careful. It's just me.

[SHUFFLING] [HOOFSTEPS]

Lazarus: Arthur. Talk to me. What. HAPPENED? How did it-- How did it get so…

[INAUDIBLE] [FLOORBOARDS CREAKING]

Lazarus: [SIGH] I saw… I saw the logs. Heard the logs, I should say. AUDRI had a hard time with most of it, but…

[BEADS CLATTERING]

Lazarus: I'm not sure I'm followin' exactly what in the hell made him drag Rigel into this.

[SHARP INHALE]

Arthur: I-…

[FLOORBOARDS CREAKING] [SIGHING]

Arthur: I tried to talk to him. I just-… I just wanted to check in. Wanted to-

[WAVERING SIGH]

Arthur: Is he okay..?

[CHAIN CLINKING]

Lazarus: He's… [INDISTINCT]

[DEEP BREATH]

Lazarus: Rigel is gonna be alright. He… He hit the emergency stop. He didn't wanna let Raphael through. Not here. Not now.

[BEADS CLATTERING]

Lazarus: So he… He…

[SHAKY BREATH]

Lazarus: He shut down.

[HOOFSTEPS]

Lazarus: This's happened before. But not like this. He's never gone under like this. Neither of us have, not since…

[SILENCE]

Lazarus: But he'll… He'll be alright. He's tough. He's been through worse, so much worse. He's strong. He's gonna make it.

[FEATHERS RUSTLING]

Lazarus: But I… I don't think there's anythin' I can do now but… Wait. An' that… I don't much like that.

[FOOTSTEPS] [FLOORBOARDS CREAKING]

Arthur: I thought… [INAUDIBLE] Arthur: I thought he said he was free from this..? He told me [INAUDIBLE]

[WAVERING SIGH]

Arthur: He told me… that he was-

[INHALE]

Arthur: Gods, this is all my f-fucking fault.

[SIGH]

Lazarus: He… He tells himself that he is. He wants to believe it. An' most of the time, just believin' it can't touch him is enough. But if it really wants to… It's got its claws in him deep. In all of us. That's just the nature of the beast, ain't it?

[BEADS CLATTERING]

Lazarus: Arthur-- Hey, now. Easy, you're alright…

[HUMMING]

Lazarus: This ain't-- this ain't NOBODY'S fault but its. You hear? Not yours, not Ri's, an' sure as hell not Amir's, neither, so he'd best not be wallowin' when I get down there to check on him. Hell, it ain't Lukas's fault, even. Understand? Look-- Listen to me, Arthur.

[SHUFFLING]

Lazarus: I do not blame you for this. I can't. I won't. Alright? So don't you start beatin' on yourself. I can't--

[RUSTLING]

Lazarus: [MUFFLED] I'm only one man, Arthur. Rigel needs you to be strong for him, too, okay? He needs all of us. We can't fold now. We can't let it pull us all under.

[SIGH]

Arthur: I-

[INHALE] [SLIGHT GASPING]

Arthur: No… No. I can't-… He was supposed to be immune to all of that shit! He said he had a handle on it.

[FEATHERS RUSTLING] [BED CREAKING]

Arthur: He wouldn't… He wouldn't lie to me. He-

[INHALE]

Arthur: I just… wanted to check on him. Wanted to make sure Lukas was alright… Now look what I've fucking done.

[BED CREAKING]

Arthur: Look at him… His fucking- Laz, his scar. Lazarus: I…. I know, hun. He don't lie on purpose. He just… I think he lies to himself. Makes it easier to bear.

[HOOFSTEPS]

Lazarus: I know. Believe me, I know.

[SHUFFLING]

Bellatrix: [DISTANT] [INDISTINCT] …bsolutely not-- Stop--

[MUFFLED FOOTSTEPS]

Lazarus: You love him. I can't never, ever blame you for tryin' to reach him. None of us could've known this was gonna happen, Arthur. You haven't done anything. I makin' myself clear enough yet?

[FEATHERS RUSTLING]

Lazarus: [QUIET] I woulda done the same thing. Hell, I have done the same thing, thousand times over. Rigel 'n' I… We've been where you are. It wouldn't've lashed out like this if you weren't on the right path. It knows--

[RAPID, FRANTIC KNOCKING] [DOOR HANDLE JIGGLING]

Amir: [MUFFLED] Bella-- [INAUDIBLE] --the door, please--

[SCOFF]

Arthur: You heard all of that and you're genuinely not holding me even a little bit responsible?! I practically fucking egged it on! I-!

[DISTANT TAPPING]

Arthur: I feel like I have to pick fucking sides every time it gets brought up. I feel like it'd be easier if I didn't. If I just didn't care so bloody much! If- Bellatrix: [DISTANT] [INDISTINCT] -usy. [DISTANT] [INDISTINCT] -go work on your-

[METALLIC JINGLING] [SIGH]

Arthur: If I just… hardened myself… this would be so much easier. But I can't. I can't just…

[INHALE]

Arthur: [STRAINED] Every fucking time I see him falter, it's like someones twisted a knife in my guts. That [INAUDIBLE] thing wants me to pick sides and… Sol preserve me, Rigel's over here growing our fucking child and I STILL can't do it.

Lazarus: Then don't.

[BED CREAKING]

Lazarus: I mean it. Don't. It wants you to harden yourself, to give up on some part of the love in you and let it wither. It knows that's the one thing it can't stand. Listen to me. Listen to me, Arthur-- Lazarus: If you give up on him, if you let it take him from you, it wins. That's why it's hitting you where it knows it'll hurt you the most. It wants you to give up, because if you stand firm, it won't be able to push you over on its own. If you pick a side, you're telling it what it can and can't have. Don't cede no ground to that thing, it's all mind games 'n' empty threats. If it could take either of 'em without a fight, it would've already. It can't. That's why it needs us to give it footholds, that's why it pokes and prods.

[FEATHERS RUSTLING]

Lazarus: An' believe me when I say it, Rigel is gonna be fine. We've survived so much worse. I have faith in him, just like I have faith in you an' Amir to finish the job here. He's in good hands. I will not let any harm come to him, or little Callie, neither. That thing will need to pry them outta my cold, dead hands, and even then, no grave will ever hold me down until I see them home safe. If you can't listen to nothin' else I say to you, listen to that, okay? Rigel is NOT fighting this battle alone. He'll never be alone, not while I live an' breathe.

[DISTANT SCUFFLE]

Amir: [MUFFLED] [INAUDIBLE] --ELL ME SOMETHI-- [INDISTINCT] --ING ALIVE--!!

[HUFF]

Lazarus: What in the hells is goin' on out there--?

[SNIFFLE]

Arthur: I- What-? Bellatrix: [DISTANT] [INAUDIBLE] -est. [INAUDIBLE] -FUCK OFF MY FUCKING TENNO.

[DOOR SLAM]

Arthur: [GASP] Sol's-

[RUSTLING] [FORCEFUL, DISTANT TAPPING]

Arthur: Oh- Oh buddy. I know.

[BED CREAKING] [FABRIC RUSTLING] [SOFT, HIGH PITCHED GROAN]

Arthur: I know. Come here.

[BED CREAKING] [METALLIC TAPPING]

Arthur: [SOFT GRUNT] Yeah. Come here. Shhh…

[WAVERING WHIMPER]

Belltrix: Sorry. Is he-?

[MUFFLED CHILD CRY]

Arthur: Shhh… I know. Bellatrix: … Shit. Sorry. Amir was at the door.

[BED CREAKING] [MUFFLED CHILD CRY]

Arthur: What'd he say? Bellatrix: [SIGH] Kept asking about Rigel… You know what he's like.

[MUFFLED CHILD CRY]

Bellatrix: Arthur, I am not letting that neurotic fucking mutt in here. Not with him like this.

[LOW GROWL]

Lazarus: Bella-- Lazarus: Oh, Vega, sweetie-- You have 'im? You're sure? Thank you.

[HUFF] [HOOFSTEPS]

Lazarus: [STRAINED WHISPER] Bellatrix. D'you really think all that was necessary? Here? Now? Bellatrix: [SCOFF] You fucking heard him! He's like some cracked out fucking pobber! If you're not firm with him- Lazarus: Do me a favor, will you? Drop the fuckin' attitude with me, Bella. We're all wound up. Shoutin' at him ain't fixin' anything, an' you know it. Bellatrix: While he's trying to rest?? While you two are trying to talk?! Yeah, maybe I should've let him right the fuck in! Let him stomp and trample over everything I'm trying to fucking work on in here! Not trying to keep anyone alive or anything!

[SIGH]

Lazarus: Well, if it's disruptin' your work so much, why don't you go see if Luna's got a minute to help you handle visitors, 'stead of bitin' everyone's heads off? Go on, we can cover for you. Bellatrix: [SCOFF] Fine.

[RAPID TAPPING] [DISTANT TAPPING] [BED CREAKING]

Lazarus: Hi, bug. You doin' alright? That woke you up, didn't it?

[CHILD YAWNING]

Lazarus: I know, I know, you're so tired. See, Arthur's got ya! You're comfy now, arent'cha? Yeah, see, you're alright…

[FLOORBOARDS CREAKING]

Lazarus: [HUSHED] You alright stayin' with 'im for a minute? I oughta go track Amir down and see if he's alright, but I shouldn't be long… Arthur: Uh-Yeah. Yeah, yeah. Shhh-sh-sh-shh….

[MUFFLED HIGH PITCHED GROANING]

Arthur: [HUSHED] I've got him, don't worry. Go on. Can't imagine that little explosion did him any good.

Lazarus: Don't think it did any of us any good…

[HOOFSTEPS]

Lazarus: Keep�� Keep an eye on Rigel for me, too, will you? I know they're both safe with you. Arthur: Yeah.

[FLOORBOARDS CREAKING] [DOOR CLOSING] [MUFFLED CHILD GROAN]

Arthur: I know… I know.

[BED CREAKING]

Arthur: I kn-know, I-

[SOFT COOING] [FABRIC RUSTLING]

Arthur: [HUSHED] I'm sorry.

[FEATHERS RUSTLING] [SOFT CHILD WHINE] [SNIFFLING]

-- END AUDIO LOG --

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b3114d0nn4 · 4 days ago

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efervon4u · 5 months ago

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1045: Chris?

9877: Hey Ali :)

1045: There you are! I was starting to get worried.

1045: T said you ended up on STORMFALL???

9877: Only temporarily lol

9877: They've shunted me over to recon now. IDK why

9877: Maybe Viktor has it in for me

1045: I still think you put too much stock in that

1045: Odds are he doesn't care we exist

1045: How's recon?

9877: Cold as hell.

9877: I miss hot food.

9877: But I'm here.

1045: Hey it could be worse, no lieutenant screaming in your ear.

9877: True. True.

9877: How're the girls?

1045: Doing good :)

1045: They send their thanks for your little present.

9877: Aww I'm glad they're enjoying it.

9877: Didn't feel right, no presents on Solstice.

9877: It was the least I could do.

1045: It was more than they were hoping for.

1045: You're a good man Chris. They already wanna know when "uncle" is coming back around.

9877: Uncle?

1045: Mhm. Victoria insists that you are, and I quote;

1045: "A cool guy, and not dad, therefore, he's Uncle"

9877: Damn gonna make me tear up

1045: Don't freeze on your own tears lol

9877: ha ha

1045: In all seriousness, I... I wanted to check in.

9877: I figured.

1045: It's been years, but I know the day isn't easy

9877: I don't wanna talk about it.

1045: You never do.

9877: I... I know. I'm sorry.

9877: I don't mean to be a shit friend, I just... I can't think about it.

9877: It doesn't help. I... I have other problems right now, anyway.

1045: Right. The "new weird" one?

9877: Yeah. It's... I can't explain it. I'm sorry.

1045: It's okay. I won't push.

1045: Just make sure to let Amy help take your mind off things if you won't talk to me ;)

1045: I just figure maybe you'll talk to the guys you've been staying up to text if you won't talk to me

9877: HEY

9877: NOT YOU FUCKING TOO

9877: BLOCKING YOU

1045: Don't blame me for speaking the truth!!!

9877: HE'S MARRIED (I think)

1045: Boo

1045: Doesn't change my point though. You've got friends, Chris.

1045: Please don't forget they can help you, even if you don't wanna let them.

1045: Look at us, it can do a lot of good, to talk to somebody.

1045: Promise me you'll talk to them, if you won't talk to me.

9877: I hate it when you make sense.

1045: Christov.

9877: Yeah, yeah.

9877: I promise, Alicia.

1045: Thank you.

9877: You're an angel, Ali

1045: Don't flatter me. :P

9877: I mean it.

1045: Just... Let people help take care of yourself, okay?

1045: And you better come back in one piece.

9877: I'll do my damndest. All I can promise.

1045: Good.

1045: I have to put the girls to bed, but don't you stay up too late brooding now.

9877: lol

9877: Yes ma'am. My best to your little ones.

1045: Night, Chris.

9877: Night.

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liminus--star · 27 days ago

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LIMINUS--STAR: arthur.

LIMINUS--STAR: tell me you're there.

BR0ADSW0RD: Yeah. Are you alright?

LIMINUS--STAR: doesn't matter.

LIMINUS--STAR: i've done something awful, and i don't know what to do about it.

BR0ADSW0RD: What's *that* supposed to mean?

LIMINUS--STAR: i think i've just killed us all.

BR0ADSW0RD: What's going on?

LIMINUS--STAR: ...

LIMINUS--STAR: they know.

BR0ADSW0RD: Who knows.

LIMINUS--STAR: they know where we are.

BR0ADSW0RD: Shit.

BR0ADSW0RD: Never mind. I know exactly fucking who.

LIMINUS--STAR: tomorrow night, there's going to be a strike.

LIMINUS--STAR: she said she was going to do... something about it. i don't know what she meant.

LIMINUS--STAR: but she said that if she fails, we need to evacuate.

LIMINUS--STAR: i have no idea how she knows.

BR0ADSW0RD: She..? You mean that *damn* pilot?!

BR0ADSW0RD: Fuck's sake.

LIMINUS--STAR: she came to me all frantic

LIMINUS--STAR: wanting to know if it was true

LIMINUS--STAR: i didn't tell her

LIMINUS--STAR: i just asked what she knew

LIMINUS--STAR: she ghosted before i could say anything in response

BR0ADSW0RD: Still, I *knew* this would be another fucking security liability.

BR0ADSW0RD: Fuck. Okay. We've got warning, though.

BR0ADSW0RD: That's good.

LIMINUS--STAR: you can blame me for it once we all make it out of this. if we all make it out of this.

LIMINUS--STAR: i...

BR0ADSW0RD: Did you catch what they'll be bringing? Just normal shells or the efervon special?

LIMINUS--STAR: i have to believe that she meant it. that she's going to try and stop it somehow. i'm worried what it might cost her, but she seemed to be about to do something drastic.

LIMINUS--STAR: no idea.

LIMINUS--STAR: i can only assume that "tomorrow night, be ready to evacuate" means a strike

LIMINUS--STAR: that's all i got.

BR0ADSW0RD: If it was a shelling like Lukas gave us, we could be able to outlast it. The Drifters have certainly upped the security around here and have given this place quite a bit of structural reinforcement.

BR0ADSW0RD: But if it's efervon...

BR0ADSW0RD: That'll sink into the building itself through each and every crack. We'll be gassed out before we can even reach the door.

LIMINUS--STAR: fuck

BR0ADSW0RD: The fumes alone will kill us.

BR0ADSW0RD: There's a few safe houses we can relocated some of the people we've taken in here.

BR0ADSW0RD: But they're small.

BR0ADSW0RD: We wouldn't have enough space for everyone.

BR0ADSW0RD: That's what the mall was supposed to be.

BR0ADSW0RD: And here I've boxed us in like fucking sardines.

LIMINUS--STAR: i'm sorry, arthur. i'm so, so fucking sorry.

BR0ADSW0RD: No.

BR0ADSW0RD: No no. Don't apologize.

BR0ADSW0RD: It's better I know this now. We can do something about it now.

LIMINUS--STAR: if it weren't for me, they likely wouldn't know.

BR0ADSW0RD: I'm pretty sure PIA was working on some sort of... anti-air system. No idea if it's actually functional by now but it could hold off the bulk of it.

LIMINUS--STAR: if he didn't know i was here, he wouldn't be coming down so hard.

LIMINUS--STAR: it all comes back to me.

BR0ADSW0RD: I...

BR0ADSW0RD: Flare.

BR0ADSW0RD: We're *all* wanted.

LIMINUS--STAR: you have to have seen the leaks

LIMINUS--STAR: it's personal now. he wants us all dead, but he wants *me* specifically.

BR0ADSW0RD: Just because he pointed you out doesn't mean you're the only one he wants dead.

LIMINUS--STAR: i was supposed to die with the rest of them. i got away. now he wants to finish it.

BR0ADSW0RD: Flare...

LIMINUS--STAR: ...we won't have enough space for everyone wherever we end up going.

LIMINUS--STAR: i'm staying.

BR0ADSW0RD: FLARE.

BR0ADSW0RD: That is OUT of the question.

BR0ADSW0RD: If you stay, you will fucking DIE.

LIMINUS--STAR: and?

BR0ADSW0RD: You want to give him what he wants?!

BR0ADSW0RD: You want to feed yourself to Viktor? Are you kidding me?

LIMINUS--STAR: i'm tired of running from the repercussions of my actions.

LIMINUS--STAR: i'm tired of seeing other people get hurt while he tries to get to me.

LIMINUS--STAR: and...

LIMINUS--STAR: i want to believe that it won't happen.

LIMINUS--STAR: i want to believe she won't fail, whatever it is she's going to do.

LIMINUS--STAR: if putting my trust in her kills me, that's what i deserve at this point.

LIMINUS--STAR: we need to focus on the people who are actually blameless in this.

LIMINUS--STAR: i'll help get everyone out. but i won't take space that could be used for someone else.

BR0ADSW0RD: Flare, I will fight to convince you deserve to survive this, but I also have hundreds of lives to work with right now.

BR0ADSW0RD: Just *please* don't turn this into some kind of suicide mission.

LIMINUS--STAR: gods willing, it won't be.

LIMINUS--STAR: focus on the civilians. tell me where you need me, and i'm there.

LIMINUS--STAR: just... don't expect me to leave with you.

BR0ADSW0RD: I would rather you did.

LIMINUS--STAR: i wouldn't be able to forgive myself if i ran from this and someone else suffered for it.

BR0ADSW0RD: Ugh.

BR0ADSW0RD: Fine.

BR0ADSW0RD: Let's hope to Sol she figures something out.

BR0ADSW0RD: But if she doesn't... give them hell, you know?

BR0ADSW0RD: We've got plenty of long range equipment in the stockpile. Should keep you well armed until they either give up or exhaust themselves.

BR0ADSW0RD: Or...

BR0ADSW0RD: Well.

BR0ADSW0RD: I guess it'd be the new year soon anyways...

LIMINUS--STAR: oh, trust me, i have every intention of going down swinging and taking as many of them as i can with me.

LIMINUS--STAR: my thinking exactly.

LIMINUS--STAR: even if it all goes to shit, at least it won't keep me down for good.

BR0ADSW0RD: Yeah...

BR0ADSW0RD: Fuck's sake...

BR0ADSW0RD: I have to go get the rest of them in on this.

LIMINUS--STAR: sorry.

LIMINUS--STAR: i'd offer to be the messenger, but...

BR0ADSW0RD: No. Don't worry. I can handle breaking the news.

LIMINUS--STAR: i think it might be better if i didn't show my face right now, honestly.

LIMINUS--STAR: i just feel so guilty.

LIMINUS--STAR: and foolish.

BR0ADSW0RD: Hey. Viktor breathing down our necks isn't anything new in this mall.

BR0ADSW0RD: We've all felt it.

LIMINUS--STAR: still. i try to make a difference, try to get to know someone... and it just leads them right to us.

BR0ADSW0RD: What do you mean lead them to us..?

BR0ADSW0RD: Do you think she had something to do with them knowing?

LIMINUS--STAR: i don't know.

LIMINUS--STAR: they've been finding those traces on her commpack. she says they're left behind from...

LIMINUS--STAR: conversations we've had.

LIMINUS--STAR: they managed to figure out they were with me. they managed to figure out that i'm connected to all of you. and now they know where we are, and Áine is the first one to tell me about it.

LIMINUS--STAR: i can't help but feel like all three of us have been played for fools.

BR0ADSW0RD: Or she could have led them right to us...

LIMINUS--STAR: i...

LIMINUS--STAR: no

BR0ADSW0RD: She *has* taken a liking to you.

LIMINUS--STAR: no. she wouldn't do that.

BR0ADSW0RD: Flare. Think about it.

LIMINUS--STAR: i don't believe it.

BR0ADSW0RD: Flare.

LIMINUS--STAR: i *can't* believe it.

LIMINUS--STAR: she's been so...

BR0ADSW0RD: So friendly. So interested. So stupid about her own fucking actions.

LIMINUS--STAR: honest. forthcoming. vulnerable.

BR0ADSW0RD: Chris was right about everyone in Scaldra knowing...

LIMINUS--STAR: no.

LIMINUS--STAR: no, no no.

LIMINUS--STAR: i don't...

BR0ADSW0RD: Gods, how do you even know she's telling the truth about "making it right" or whatever she promised you?

BR0ADSW0RD: Shit.

LIMINUS--STAR: i can't

BR0ADSW0RD: Fuck's sake.

LIMINUS--STAR: i can't think like that.

LIMINUS--STAR: not now.

LIMINUS--STAR: please.

LIMINUS--STAR: i believe her.

LIMINUS--STAR: i do.

BR0ADSW0RD: What? Please don't say the obvious?

LIMINUS--STAR: we both do.

BR0ADSW0RD: I might be paranoid but I'm not ALWAYS proven wrong.

BR0ADSW0RD: And Lizzie isn't exactly the *expert* on who should be trusted.

LIMINUS--STAR: you leave her out of this.

BR0ADSW0RD: Tell me I'm wrong here.

BR0ADSW0RD: I'll wait.

LIMINUS--STAR: she's suffering enough right now.

LIMINUS--STAR: go fuck yourself.

BR0ADSW0RD: Yeah. That's about what I expected.

LIMINUS--STAR: i didn't have to tell you about this, you know.

LIMINUS--STAR: i could have just let it happen.

LIMINUS--STAR: maybe i should have.

BR0ADSW0RD: Flare...

LIMINUS--STAR: What.

BR0ADSW0RD: You're angry for falling for this, but you don't need to say shit like that.

LIMINUS--STAR: I DIDN'T "FALL FOR" ANYTHING.

LIMINUS--STAR: STOP IT.

BR0ADSW0RD: Alright, alright. Bad wording. It's still unconfirmed right now.

BR0ADSW0RD: But I swear, it adds up far too well.

BR0ADSW0RD: And I'd rather you not cuss me out for suggesting it.

LIMINUS--STAR: well, if that does end up being the case, i suppose me staying behind will be two birds with one stone then, wouldn't it?

BR0ADSW0RD: No because I still wouldn't want you DEAD.

LIMINUS--STAR: get the security risk off your fucking shoulders, get me my comeuppance for being so fucking stupid

LIMINUS--STAR: i just

LIMINUS--STAR: fuck

BR0ADSW0RD: Don't put fucking words in my mouth.

LIMINUS--STAR: she reminds me of so many people i've known, arthur.

LIMINUS--STAR: so many people that aren't fucking here anymore

LIMINUS--STAR: because of me.

LIMINUS--STAR: i can't think that of her.

LIMINUS--STAR: i can't imagine she'd do this to us.

LIMINUS--STAR: to me.

LIMINUS--STAR: not after all of this.

BR0ADSW0RD: You've known her for a year, Flare.

LIMINUS--STAR: whatever.

LIMINUS--STAR: you knew the drifters for less before you started letting them drive you around.

BR0ADSW0RD: That is not even remotely the same and you know it.

LIMINUS--STAR: is it?

BR0ADSW0RD: They took the time to prove themselves first.

LIMINUS--STAR: she more than proved herself to me.

BR0ADSW0RD: Right.

BR0ADSW0RD: Ten more times and I think she's good in our books.

BR0ADSW0RD: I know you've got a favorite scaldra now but...

LIMINUS--STAR: you're insufferable.

BR0ADSW0RD: I'm being realistic.

LIMINUS--STAR: i don't have to take this from nomantak's housecat, you know.

BR0ADSW0RD: You are out of your fucking MIND, mate.

LIMINUS--STAR: maybe so.

BR0ADSW0RD: I hope to the fucking Gods I'm just being a paranoid, jaded bellend about her, because the alternative is going to be MUCH worse on all of us.

BR0ADSW0RD: And absolutely fucking devastating on *you*...

BR0ADSW0RD: House cat...

BR0ADSW0RD: Har har.

BR0ADSW0RD: You're absolutely hilarious.

LIMINUS--STAR: my actions have consequences. i'm not gonna act like they don't. if this gets me killed, that's on me.

BR0ADSW0RD: At least I can own up to the fact that my favorite has been a horrible fucking dickhead quite a few times.

LIMINUS--STAR: HAH

LIMINUS--STAR: bit of an understatement, that

BR0ADSW0RD: If your girlfriend turns out to be a scaldra spy, you *know* what will have to be done.

LIMINUS--STAR: if--

LIMINUS--STAR: HA

LIMINUS--STAR: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

LIMINUS--STAR: that's...

LIMINUS--STAR: that's not what this is.

LIMINUS--STAR: and you know it.

BR0ADSW0RD: Sol and fucking Lua, I don't have the time to debate your fucking love life with you.

BR0ADSW0RD: Whatever it is, there is a non-zero chance she could have led them to us.

BR0ADSW0RD: And I'm not one to point fingers.

BR0ADSW0RD: If it wasn't her, fine! I will personally fucking apologize to the both of you.

BR0ADSW0RD: But do not forget this conversation if it is.

LIMINUS--STAR: lizzie is fond of her, yes. i'm capable of being unbiased, believe it or not.

LIMINUS--STAR: oh, i won't.

LIMINUS--STAR: and you better not, either.

BR0ADSW0RD: Great.

BR0ADSW0RD: Glad we've got that out of the fucking way.

BR0ADSW0RD: I need to gather the group. Tell them about all this shit...

BR0ADSW0RD: Best we all start getting ready for this.

LIMINUS--STAR: agreed.

BR0ADSW0RD: I'll talk to you tomorrow then.

[ BR0ADSW0RD has gone offline. ]

[ LIMINUS--STAR has gone offline. ]

#HEART2HEART.CMD

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HEART2HEART.CMD//EXPORT:TRUE ARCHIVE_DATES: 2.10.99-3.31.99 USERS: BELLADONNA ~{@ (USER1) / SOLBURNSINVICTORY (USER2) EXTRACT_AS: .TXT PROCEED TO EXTERNAL LINK?

#heart2heart.cmd

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h16h-v0l7463 · 6 months ago

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HEART2HEART.CMD//EXPORT:TRUE

ARCHIVE.DATE[OVERFLOW.ERROR]//USER1:H16H-V0L7463//USER2:BR0ADSW0RD//KIM.LOG.TXT

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BR0ADSW0RD: You're going to give me a FUCKING HEART ATTACK one of these days.

H16H-V0L7463: sorry

H16H-V0L7463: hang on

H16H-V0L7463: typing and runnung

H16H-V0L7463: i can explain

H16H-V0L7463: when i find somewhere to hide

H16H-V0L7463: i fucked up

H16H-V0L7463: last thing i want

H16H-V0L7463: is them storming the mall looking for me

H16H-V0L7463: gotta get far enough away

H16H-V0L7463: pull their attention. wait them out

H16H-V0L7463: i’m good at that

H16H-V0L7463: talk soon

BR0ADSW0RD: AMIR

BR0ADSW0RD: Fuck's sake. Running away without explanation is MY THING. [H16H-V0L7463] has gone offline. ---> //CONTINUE? [Y/N]

#HEART2HEART.CMD #[[part 1 of many. breaking this one up by timestamp. stay tuned its a doozy

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b3114d0nn4 · 2 months ago

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HEART2HEART.CMD//EXPORT:TRUE ARCHIVE_DATE: 4.28.1999 USERS: BELLADONNA ~{@ / BROADSWORD / H16H V0L7463 PROCEED?

#heart2heart.cmd

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br0adsw0rd · 4 months ago

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#no more roadblocks and checkpoints: ic #heart2heart.cmd

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HEART2HEART.CMD//EXPORT:TRUE ARCHIVE_DATE: 3.31.1999 USERS: BELLADONNA ~{@ (USER1) / EFERVON4U (USER2) EXTRACT_AS: .TXT WARNING: COMPLETE EXPORT UNSUCCESSFUL. FILES MAY HAVE BEEN CORRUPTED. PROCEED?

Belladonna ~{@: Osito I've barely had any time to talk with you How are you holding up?

Efervon4u: Holding up just fine, seems like I'm one of the few people who are, these days. I know you're a busy Ingerasul, don't you worry about me. :)

Belladonna ~{@: That's not a promise I'm going to make A lot has happened since we came back It's not any easier on you than it is on anyone else

Belladonna ~{@: You're really fine?

Efervon4u: Yes, I'm really fine.

Efervon4u: I think I'm mostly detached mentally from the whole... Lukas situation. I know it's in capable hands.

Efervon4u: That and the new guys are kinda fun.

Belladonna ~{@: Jajajaja sí ███████████████████████████████ And in such a short time Good for you

Belladonna ~{@: Can I talk to you about it The Lukas thing If it's not too much I know what I have to say about it isn't always... Easy to listen to

Efervon4u: I don't do it because it's easy, you know that.

Efervon4u: ████████████████████████████

Efervon4u: Talk as long as you need. I'm here to listen. :)

Belladonna ~{@: I talked to him today A̷͙̬͉̲̬̥͔͓̰̫̼̤̩͛n̵̢̛͈͉̤̞̱̳̩̗̜͚̐̽̇̂̆̄̍̈̍̋̍̐̕͝ḑ̷̢̨̧͖̫̣̻̺̮̯̒̏̏̄̕͝ͅͅ ̴̨̨̛̪̥̠̤͖̥͉̫̻̿̌̇͆̍͐̀̀̓̆̌͋t̴̛̗͖͋͗͗��͜ḧ̴̢̢̛̛̲̦͈̺͖̯͔̦̝́̾̽͌͗̌̉͋̈́͊͘░▒████████████████ ███████████████ Í̴̢͕̫̞͖̦̥͔̱͊͑̂̎͗͌̑̇̏̅͒̚͜͜ ̸͍̗̹͎̬̗͌͋̋̓̀̈́̽͗͒̓̚͝͝m̴̧̘̭̣͕̮̏͆̈̓̋̆̈̽a̴̖̍̈̓̏ͅd̶̺̳̪̼͙̪̰̠͚̺̲͚̅͋̐̀̚̕e̶̲̦̘̠̝͔̗̼̹͉͂̎ ̵̳̲̩͉͕̆̂̈́͗͒͛̿̆̀͂̈̓i̷̢̜̪͕͇͓̮̻̲͔̊̔͑͝t̴̛̒͑͂̎̽͛̄͒̈́̀̂͋͘͜͝ ̵̡̪̻̱̳͒̀̾́̑̈́̂̽̆̎͘a̵̢͍̻̻̦̙͙͉̦̣̍̄̎̈́́̈́͒͐̋͛̈͘̕̕ṇ̴͈̹̉̊̽g̷̢̡̨̮͍̜̪̞̈́̈́ŗ̸̥̹̹̦͇̖̩͌̑̃̀̈́̔̅͆̑̎͊̏͝ͅy̴͍̦̫̣͈̫̣̻͚̦͈͚̙̯̘͛̒͝͠ ̴̗̆ ̷͖̥͓͎̜̙͙̲̠̣͖͇̲̱̄̊̍͘ͅ

Belladonna ~{@: I̶̡̖̠̲̲͔̭͌͊͌́̈̔̍̓ͅ ̸̮̪͚͙̖̊̃̎̏́͝j̷͉̤͆̾́̍̓͠u̶̫̙̭͇͔̲̼̺̠͒͗͑̉̆͝ş̶͍̣̗͖͇̭͓̈́̕̚͜͝t̷̳̟̝̬̜̪̮̼̄̆ ̴̢̜͈͕̥̆̇ẃ̷͉a̸̤͖̱̙̩̩̦̿n̴͈̤͉̮̣̟̼͒͠t̵̞͔͖̞͊̏͗̃ͅe̸̻̖̱̤͇̦̭̞̚͠d̴͕̖̫̃̀̿͆̈́̚ ̶̟͍͓͔̖͖͊̓̋̽̓̅͌͝h̵̟̠͖̣͙͍͈̓͂̂͋͒͝͝i̴͇̯̜͙͈̺̖̍̒̈͛͊̅̕͝m̷͍̞̟̗̉͘ ̷̡͓̺͍͖̣͓̣̌̑̒t̷̛̻͓̞͇̄́̐̔̓̚͝░▒██████████████████ T̴͙̝͈̏h̸̰̗͈͇̭͑̍e̵̛͚͍̼̩̅ ̷̨̞̣̮͇̻̏͂̓͌͜͝w̵̤̾̐̏̋̈́͝ͅḩ̷̨̭̻̭̫͓͂̒̄o̸̢̹̠͌̇l̸̛̬̬͙͉̤̟͕̀̏̓͊̾͝ȩ̴͓̯͔̋̃̑̑͘ ̷͕̦͘ẗ̶̬̦͋̉̀͌i̷̧͙͓͔͂m̵̨̳̥̫͚̲͛e̸͎̖̓ ̴̢̲͠I̷̦͊ ̴̼̮̏̾w̵̧͐͜͝à̸͕͕͝s̸̥͕̊͌ ̴͒͜s̶̢̮̆̌c̷̤̆a̸͓̗͂͝ṟ̸̐̕e̸̺̯͊d̸̤̊͌ͅ ̷͖̲͌ş̸̙̐h̷͇̆i̵̟̚t̸̥̮͝l̶̨̘̓e̶͎̙̍s̷̢̛͇s̴̷͚̊t̵h̸a̶t̵ ̵I̵ ̴w̸o̷u̸l̶d̸ ̸p̵u̵s̷h it too far And that it would get him to bomb the shit out of the mall again

Belladonna ~{@: I don't know how he does it

Belladonna ~{@: I̴'̷m̴ ̶f̶r̶i̷g̶h̴t̸e̴n̷e̴d̷,̸ ̷o̴s̴i̵t̴o̷ It will get worse before it gets better I just hate to think of it

Efervon4u: You've every right to be.

Efervon4u: I wish I could say he wasn't the man I know but this is all... Pretty par for the course.

Efervon4u: Lukas, he... He d̸̥̜̠̀̅̕o̷̬̪̻͑̒̈̓ẹ̷̞̞͈̉s̶̛̬̙̥̈́ň̷͍̫'̷̯͚͑t̵̢̠͆̿̒ ̴̟̳̿͌̀b̷̩̦̗̄́ͅe̷̡̟̦̤̅͆͋l̴̙̠͋i̸̢̻͓͈̐̆̽̓e̸͓̟̩̾͜v̶̙̱͗̕̕͠ế̶͠��͓̼̮ ̵̠̓̚í̴̢̠͚n̷̡̘̦̙̔░▒██████

Efervon4u: ████████████████████████████████████▒░Ḫ̴͇̭͍̿͊̍e̶̝̬͊̅͛͝ ̴͓͈̬̳̀̋͝d̸̯̳̚ơ̶̾̃͜ȅ̵̯̣ṣ̶̃̾͑̍ͅñ̶͍̻̻̳̈́̑͝'̸̬͓͛̂͆͜t̶̗̍̃ ̶͉͇̯̣̈́͛̚w̸̡̑̎a̶̛̻̥̫̽̃̇n̴̹͎͙̎͗t̷̞́̎͂̕ ̶̲̙̟͎̊ț̴̨̛̣̰̽̃̚ò̵̙͂͌̾ ̷͇̩̰͂̌̓͐g̷̠͇̀̉͝o̵͓͚̿̆͋͝ ̶̰̲͖́̓̀͝b̷̜̖̜͓̉̍͛̐a̵̱͉̲͆̓c̸̹̰̳̈̉̐͠k̸̛̜̱̉͠░▒█████████████████████████

Efervon4u: H̷̫͙͈̉̈́̔ē̶̜ ̴̬̘͒͂̋̏k̷̰̆̏ň̷͈͚̇̃o̴̤̠̜̪͊̽͂ẅ̷̢̟̪̯́̈́̈́s̸̮̩̘̊͛͝ ̷͇͕̫̾̒͌̈́h̴̥̻͋̒i̴̘̹̿̋s̴̙̙̩̱̆̌̔ ̴̤̲̼̃̈̅ţ̶͉͎̞̎̒ḭ̷̡̜͍͠m̸͖̤̻̗͊͐e̸͚̻̪̔́ ̷͚̹̘̽̈ͅi̶̜̐̇͠s̵̝͖͛͗͊ͅ ̶̧̦̩̉r̴̯͍̖̅͜u̶̙̪̠͂̄n̸̡͎͂̈́̚n̶͖̊̎i̸̺͑n̵̠̦̦̠̎̒̆̒g̸̡͐̾ ̸̱̰̰̀̒̇͋o̶͚̿͛́ṵ̴̧͚͂́͜ț̸͍̃̈,░▒████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████

Efervon4u: So, he just... Commits. Once he's chosen his course, he doesn't let it go. If that ship's gonna go down he's standing on the prow shouting to the gods.

Efervon4u: ███████████████████████████▒░ He picks the wrong battle. Like now.

Belladonna ~{@: And I don't like what he's done Believe me I've reconsidered my stance on him a few times ████████████████ I only started talking with him because I was afraid A̶m̴i̶r̴ ̵a̵n̸d̴ ̷A̶r̶t̵h̸u̸r̵̷̥̩̒̆w̵̜͍̽e̴͉͘r̵̟̐ë̶̡̟̎ ̵͚͕̾u̴͈̝̕n̸͓͚̄̍ŕ̵̹͜ā̶̻v̶͙̲͑̒e̸̪̎l̷͇̄i̷͎̔n̶̳̦̄g̵̨̈ ̴̼̈░▒████████████████████ █████████████████████████

Belladonna ~{@: I like to think it's paid off a few times ██████████████████████████████████████████ █████████ ██████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████

Belladonna ~{@: I know it doesn't justify what he did W̶̩̿̉h̸̡̳̆a̸͎͝t̷͔̯̆ ̸̭̚h̸̛̹̀ẹ̷̲̾́ ̵̽͌͜m̷̩̞̂i̸̢͎͖̫͇̻̾̊͂͐̍̈́ͅg̶̹̮͇͕̟̣̒̔̀̾̓̈́͠ͅh̸̨̰̻͖͒̽̇͘͜ţ̸̞̳̩̬̪̳̋̒̀ ̵͇̮̘̓̀̅̏̾c̵̮͔͈͓̣̹̆̏̀͝o̶̮͚̳͕̼̗͒̌̐̒̉ñ̸̹̩̆̓̽t̶͖̹̰̳̻̞̰͝i̶̦̕n̸̠͋͒͗̃͠ǘ̷̮͕͉̾̊͂̓̚͜e̶̩̬̟̻̣͆́̋ ̶̜͕̃t̷̥̥̦͔̍͗o̴͈̪̰͕̳̔̌̾͠ͅ ̴̣͕̞̮͊̀̇d̸̹͇̲͈̰͐͐̃̋̋͘ͅő̴̯̹̺̙̈́̆͝ █████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████ █████████

Efervon4u: Ḩ̵̛̺̬̖̱̱́̏͛̐̏e̴͙̱̰͆̓̈́̈́̒̉'̴̛̠̓̃͘̚s̴̟̑̏̈͆̀̕ ̵̳̜͔̪̟͌̌̌̊̅͝ͅș̴̾͐̌̂͝t̶͙̺̫̟̱̦́̒̎͜i̶̙͔̗͇͆̉͒͂͗͋͜l̴̢͔̤̮̻̮̇͛̂͋̌l̶̮̖̤̗̍͌̇ ̵̣͈̘͇̌̎͜a̷̧͉̫̪̥͋̇́̈́̈́̔̕ ̷͉̈́̑̿̎̾͝ͅṁ̸̨̯͒͊͒̒̿͝a̷͖͉̾͝n̸̘̯̈́.̶̲̱̙͉̻̈́̇͗̈́̅̋

Efervon4u: █████████████████████████████████████████ ██████

Efervon4u: █████████████▒░but I think I got one lesson he never quite learned.

Efervon4u: Ỉ̵̥̦̉ ̶̢̀k̵̫̭̀͊ṋ̸͊e̵̪͕̓w̶̫̙̐ ̵̧̇͝w̴͇͝h̴͈̿e̵̩͆̈́ń̵̖̾ ̴̹͒a̴̘̞̕ṋ̸͉̏̔d̵̮̉͘ ̸͖̚ẅ̵̠̙́͘h̵͖̞̊e̷̠̔r̶͈̃̂ę̷̗̍̀ ̸̩̈́t̴̯̋o̵͔̣͊ ̶̹̏s̸̲̑t̵͙͐ô̶̤͍ṕ̸̺ ̶̮͉̓a̵̗̅͗̓̐̌n̷̲̝͆̉͝d̵̦͎̭̣̦̲̋̈́͋͆̃ ̵͍̩̝̦̯̈́̈́͋̾͑͂̏ȁ̴̞͔̋̋̊̈́̃c̸̲̱͓̰̱͙̐̐c̵̥̩͙̆͝ẽ̶̝͗͗͘̚͘͠p̴̟̩̼̠̰͈̳̒̑́͘t̸̫̜̹̣̣͋͛̌̕̕ ̶̰͖̄̈́t̶̨̠̺̥̦̣̄̆͂̉̐̇͜͠ḧ̴̨͉̜́̿̐̈͐́a̶̖͖͆t̴͔͆͐̀̓̔͆ ̸͉̳̩̈́̾̋̆̋̐̑ṣ̵̻̮̋̽̐̅̋̂͠ǫ̴̻̪͐̿̉̈́̇͘͜m̸̬̜̩̞̯̤͕̏̾͂͂͋́é̵̢̗̤̤̯̏̉͂̽̇t̷͎̠͑̀̍h̵͙̺̃░▒█████ ██████████████████████████████▒░ẃ̸̡̬̰͔͊̈́́̀͝͝ả̶̢̨̪͚̱̥́͋̚ś̴̛̰͔̝̲͉͙͇̅͊̈̐̇n̵̡̈́̀̈́̓'̷̞̦͖͇͌̀̏̓t̷͙͎͛͊̌̊͝ ̶̦͚͚̙̻̙̓̅̂̒͌̽̔g̴̻̩̖̟̦͆͑̉̎́ơ̵̗̅̕͠i̸̠̓͋̕ń̵̖̮̘̜̙̳̖̎̔̎̄g̸̹̳̤̟͉̩̜̿̏͝ ̷̭͎̰̖̻̣̑̇̄̀t̶̛̰̗͈̯͉̅ͅö̸̖̫̼́̀͘͝͝ ̵͎̺̹̕w̴̮͖͇͂̾͛ò̶̧̬̺͉̻̒̊͒́̽̚r̷̨̠͇̲̫͂͒͋͂̽̄͜k̵͙͛̐̄̈̏͒.̸̡͒

Efervon4u: █████████████████████████████

Efervon4u: ██████████████████████████████████████████ ▒░̴̧͚͍̺͇̳̎͜͝I̸̡̦̬̺͗̋̋̌̒̐ ̷̨͕̦̈̇d̸̡̟̮̹̪̼̯͗̓́͋̔ö̵̤̗̪̜́͝n̸̢̬̪̗̟͜͝'̸̣͙͕͙̀ṯ̷̩̠̟̙̠̓̾͠ ̵̤͍̹͛̉́̍̚̚o̵̲̓͘w̶̫̳͔̫̲̮̓̓̒͂̆̀͛e̸͖̽͐̄͛͛ ̸̢̤͇͍̻͙͖͐̎̈́̆͛h̵̢̩̼̻͈̭̀̆í̵̢͋͊ͅͅm̵̧̯̣͔̯̰̈̀͌͑ ̴̡̳̺̘̱̟̒̐̈́̌̿͊m̵̫͔̪͗̃͊ọ̵͍̯̱̭̋̃̏͝r̶̲͉̻̮̳͙̅ė̸̻͕̯̪̰̯͙ ̶̖̺̽̉ͅt̴̡̙̼̅̓̕ḧ̵̡̦̘̳͕̟́░▒████████

Belladonna ~{@: No You don't You're right about that

Belladonna ~{@: I've been thinking about it too Ẅ̸̡̩̳͎̞́̇͝e̶̘̰͎͈̖̊̚'̷̪̝͉̺͕͚̤̈̊v̴̛͉̥̬̬̯̐̔̐̿͝ë̴̺̼́̂̆͐̒͘͜ ̷̦͔̒̓a̸̢̧̖͍̖̦͗͒̍͗̉l̷̙̅͛̓̅l̸̯̖̯̰̤͍̳͌͗̽̓̀͋̿ ̷͙̫͕̭͑͛̾̐ḏ̶̢̙̫͎̥̓͊̿͊̿̉ȯ̵̧̡͎̹̲̀̽͘͜n̸̳̖̄̅̎̚͜͠e̸̱͑̎̆̐̉̚͜ͅ ̴̬̀͋͘͠t̶͓̂͒̆͛ẽ̵̬̫̮̩͗̇͑̊̑̀r̴̳̭̼̭͇̺̓̃̽̆r̶̡̧͎̯̰̯̦̄̐̊̊͒́̒i̴̟̮͠b̶̟̺̮̫̱̀̍̇͐l̴͓̱̀̚e̵̛͖͉͉̪̦̼̖̊̋̈́ ̵̞̮͔̬͗̀̊͊̐t̴͔̜̗̒̆ͅḩ̶̟̥̘̺̕i̸̹̝̪̿̈́̓n̵̖̝͎̜̣̤̄͜g̷̢͎͉̫͓̥͐̏ș̸̛̬͓͍̼̅͒͜͜░▒█████████████████████ ████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████████████████████

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Belladonna ~{@: Feels like this shit is the only thing rattling around in my head these days And I know Amir talked to him tonight too T̶h̷i̵s̸ ̷w̵e̸i̷g̸h̶s̷ ̷o̷n̸ ̷h̷i̵m̷ M̷̨̨̤̰͔͛͛̒̚̕͠ò̷̞͓͇̓̕ṙ̶̝̩͈̃̑̇͋̑̅e̴̛͈̓̅̆́͋ ̶̝̼̞̙̣̬̓̈́̍̄t̵̢͉̠̝͎̻̱͋̅̈h̶͎͎̞͍̲̖̖̩͐͑͑̓͒̕̚͘á̶̞n̷͍̳̲̪͖̯̒̋͆̇̓̐ ̵̛̹̗͎͎̲͆̅͊̋̑I̷͓̤̟̜̦̹̘͊̓̄̊̈́̀̚͘ ̶̛̖̥̜̦̤̘͒͊͌̐͑̓̚ẗ̴̻̞̩̘͖̲́̄̎͋h̴̻̗͙̻̲̆͐̃̀̕ͅi̴̡͍̺̠͓͍͍̖͝n̵̨̞̼̥̿̇̃͌̚k̴̞̝̰͉͎͑̄ ̷̧̩͔̍͘Ï̵̛͓̻̯̣̓̈͆́͠͠ ̴͙̩̟̏̓̾c̷͓͍̄░▒█████

Belladonna ~{@: I̶ ̸t̸r̵y̸ ̷n̷o̶t̷ ̶t̶o̶ ̴h̶o̶v̵e̵r̸ ̴b̷e̵ç̴̧̯̠͔͉̩̥̮̀a̵͎͑̋̌͐̀̋̍͝͠͝u̷̮̖̝͋̄̀̑̓͆̈̐͝ś̵̢̙̹̠̯̪͑̅͐̐̿͑͝e̸̢̛̖̯̟̥͕̪̣͌̋́̋͋͂͂ ̷̡̻̖͙̍̾̐̎̎̄I̴̟̦͈̰̹̙͑̾̎́̍̕ͅ ̴̘͈̮̗͍̙̲͜͝░▒████ █████████████████████████████████████████ ███████████ ██████████████████ I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't make it Chris I don't know what that would do to Arthur

Efervon4u: Forgive me for saying it, but you worry a lot, Ingerasul.

Efervon4u: I know better than y̸̢͑o̷̞͑ȕ̷̩'̵̤̚d̵̰͌ ̴̤̍p̶̦͆r̵̻̂o̵̙̊b̴̹͛a̶̬͗ḇ̵͂l̸̟̈́ý̶̲ ̴̺̌l̸̛̩i̵̦͝k̷͎̃e̸̞͌,̴̮̏ ̴̼͘b̶͈̉u̴͚̖̍̾͒̅̌̕͠t̸͕̩̉͊̀́̂ ̸̡̭̠̙̲͓͐̊͌͝t̷̙̲̪̠̫͉̅̽̉͒̽͒̊h̴̛̲͖͕̾͛̚̚͝ë̴̛͚̥̩̰͙̖́̚̕y̴͈̭̒̄̒̑̓̇'̵̫͈̃̚l̶̝̹̼̊l̶̙̣͑̑͒̒̒͗░▒█████████ ███████████████████████████████████

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Efervon4u: B̸u̷t̶ ̴p̶l̶e̴a̸s̷e̶,̸ ̷i̵f̶ ̷n̶o̵b̷o̵d̷y̴ ̶e̵l̵s̶e̴,̷̵̢͖̫̺̫̒̽̀́́̓t̴̡̪͔̞͚̋̇̄͂͋̕͝ͅr̸͙̙͔̥̳̟͚͋͐̿́ǘ̸͕͕͖̀̽̓̋̕s̶̢̖̟̙̹̓̈̀́̒̓t̴͐͋̔̅͛��̧̢̝̞̰ ̷̨͉̘̠͚̲̓̀m̷̛̪̤̎́̈́̋͘e̸͉̯̬̜̼͐̋͒̅͗ ̶̗̟͈͈̄͂░▒██████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████

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Belladonna ~{@: Can you come to the infirmary I hate to drag you out of your room and make you sleep over here I'll probably wake you up constantly █████████

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Efervon4u: I'll never hear the end of it.

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BR0ADSW0RD: I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I know this isn't doing favors for your nerves. BR0ADSW0RD: I just can't sit here and let her fucking blame us for that cunt's orders. BR0ADSW0RD: I can't.

H16H-V0L7463: iknowiknowiknow H16H-V0L7463: i just H16H-V0L7463: who’s to say if we piss her off enough she isn’t gonna turn and report all this

BR0ADSW0RD: Ugh.

H16H-V0L7463: like yes they could track us down but also H16H-V0L7463: if they find out what sevens was doing H16H-V0L7463: i don’t wanna see him get dragged through the mud for this H16H-V0L7463: it wouldn’t be fair H16H-V0L7463: it wouldn’t be right

BR0ADSW0RD: I don't like when you make sense.

H16H-V0L7463: me neither man H16H-V0L7463: i just don’t wanna end up giving them even more ammo

BR0ADSW0RD: I don't fucking like her.

H16H-V0L7463: i don’t want to prove them right

BR0ADSW0RD: Beyond just the stupid beard thing. BR0ADSW0RD: This whole thing is just... BR0ADSW0RD: It leaves a bad taste in my mouth. BR0ADSW0RD: I hate it. H16H-V0L7463: i don’t know how to feel about it BR0ADSW0RD: I hate the anxiety of not being able to trust this account like I used to.

H16H-V0L7463: on the one hand, i know sevens cared about her. i want to trust his judgement. it feels like he would want us to get along. H16H-V0L7463: but on the other… H16H-V0L7463: she’s so angry. and i get why. but it feels wrong to fight her on it H16H-V0L7463: she knew him longer than we did.

BR0ADSW0RD: Am I suppose to fucking roll over and let her berate me?!

H16H-V0L7463: she’s got every right to hate us. and i hate that. H16H-V0L7463: i don’t know! H16H-V0L7463: i don’t fucking know!!!’

BR0ADSW0RD: She acts like she's got all the fucking answer. Like it's so easy to just blame one person and move on!

H16H-V0L7463: i can’t bring myself to block or ban the account because it’s. it’s still sevens’ account.

BR0ADSW0RD: Damnit...

H16H-V0L7463: but i don’t know what to do

BR0ADSW0RD: She responded again.

H16H-V0L7463: fuck H16H-V0L7463: ugh H16H-V0L7463: UGH H16H-V0L7463: i hate that she’s right H16H-V0L7463: i really really really hate that she’s right

BR0ADSW0RD: Right??

H16H-V0L7463: but what the fuck else are we meant to do? H16H-V0L7463: roll over and die??? H16H-V0L7463: it’s us or them.

BR0ADSW0RD: No FUCK THAT. She's a fucking hypocrite if she thinks what the scaldra is doing is ANY BETTER than what we do.

H16H-V0L7463: i wish to fucking hell that i didn’t have to mow down an entire squad just to get anywhere without getting shot at H16H-V0L7463: but i’ve been trying to just run and avoid them and they just H16H-V0L7463: keep H16H-V0L7463: chasing H16H-V0L7463: we’re six people and we’re being hunted H16H-V0L7463: how the fuck are we not supposed to fight back?

H16H-V0L7463: the other day i got fed up with it H16H-V0L7463: and you’re going to get mad at me H16H-V0L7463: but i already did it. so it’s whatever. H16H-V0L7463: handful of em had me cornered and i just didn’t fucking care anymore

BR0ADSW0RD: Amir...

H16H-V0L7463: threw my hands up and i was like look. fine. i’ll put my shit down. i’m just trying to get home. can you let me go? i don’t want to hurt anyone. H16H-V0L7463: it was stupid H16H-V0L7463: they played me for a fucking idiot H16H-V0L7463: waited for me to drop my gun and THEN opened fire H16H-V0L7463: and they didn’t try to kill me either. H16H-V0L7463: just hit me in the shoulder and the knee H16H-V0L7463: they were laughing. they wanted to watch me bleed. H16H-V0L7463: i probably could’ve got past em and booked it H16H-V0L7463: but i was just so fucking tired and angry andithurtand

H16H-V0L7463: and i killed them

H16H-V0L7463: and i dragged my sorry ass home

BR0ADSW0RD: I wish you told me sooner.

BR0ADSW0RD: I'm sorry, dear.

H16H-V0L7463: we heal quick. it doesn’t even hurt anymore H16H-V0L7463: but i just don’t know what else i can do

BR0ADSW0RD: It's not the physical hurt that worries me.

H16H-V0L7463: i’ve tried running. i’ve tried hiding. i’ve tried puffing up and trying to scare them off. i’ve tried being honest. i’ve tried being nice. H16H-V0L7463: the only thing they understand is killing H16H-V0L7463: and even that just makes them hate us more

H16H-V0L7463: i was so. so happy when sevens was hanging around H16H-V0L7463: it felt like i was right all along. of course we’re all people! maybe this doesn’t have to be like this. maybe we can figure something out H16H-V0L7463: …but i think it just made me stupider

BR0ADSW0RD: You're not stupid. BR0ADSW0RD: You're hopeful.

H16H-V0L7463: like fuck, i’ve been running around with my guns unloaded because i can’t stop thinking about it

BR0ADSW0RD: You wanted to believe there was more to this situation than hatred and killing.

H16H-V0L7463: every single one of em has a family and friends and a life and a home H16H-V0L7463: why do i have to be the one to take it? H16H-V0L7463: why the fuck does it have to be us or them?

BR0ADSW0RD: I wish it wasn't so... For your sake. BR0ADSW0RD: That's... a question I don't think I can properly answer for you. Not in the way you need it.

H16H-V0L7463: sometimes i feel like if i could just figure out how, i could make everyone understand that we’re just people. that we’re all on the same page H16H-V0L7463: but it keeps opening me up to getting kneecapped in a back alley

H16H-V0L7463: cuz if they believe we’re these fucked up techrot drones or whatever the hell viktor keeps saying, at least there’s still fear. they don’t know what we’re capable of. it’s like a monster movie and we’re the monsters H16H-V0L7463: but people are weak and stupid H16H-V0L7463: people will let you trick them into thinking you’ll let them go if they surrender H16H-V0L7463: people can be beat and tortured and starved out and humiliated. monsters can’t. H16H-V0L7463: but it still hurts so much to know that’s what people see when they look at me

BR0ADSW0RD: I'm sorry. BR0ADSW0RD: I want to say I wish... this never happened. That we never got trapped here and were outside the walls when they got put up. BR0ADSW0RD: That we got to watch this happen to other people and not us, but... BR0ADSW0RD: I can't wish that. BR0ADSW0RD: With all we've done so far? I can't wish that....

H16H-V0L7463: i just wish i could commit to one or the other. it would be so much easier if i could let myself be the monster or whatever

BR0ADSW0RD: Amir.. BR0ADSW0RD: We can be both.

H16H-V0L7463: but i don’t like hurting people H16H-V0L7463: i don’t WANT to like hurting people H16H-V0L7463: but

BR0ADSW0RD: We are the monsters meant to save this city whether the scaldra likes it or not.

H16H-V0L7463: some part of me H16H-V0L7463: feels GOOD when they see me and scatter H16H-V0L7463: some part of me feels like i’ve earned it H16H-V0L7463: some part of me wants to chase them

BR0ADSW0RD: I understand that feeling all too well.

H16H-V0L7463: some part of me hears thecracklingandthescreamingandthecarnage H16H-V0L7463: and wants to throw back my head and howl H16H-V0L7463: i don’t like it. H16H-V0L7463: i shouldn’t like it H16H-V0L7463: but. H16H-V0L7463: it feels. right. H16H-V0L7463: it’s like

H16H-V0L7463: exhilarating

H16H-V0L7463: i think some part of me knows i was built for this

BR0ADSW0RD: Amir...

H16H-V0L7463: and it’s scaring me H16H-V0L7463: there are times when i catch myself HAVING FUN H16H-V0L7463: i’m LAUGHING. i’m PLAYING WITH MY FUCKING FOOD H16H-V0L7463: and i don’t know where it comes from H16H-V0L7463: but it makes me worry

H16H-V0L7463: maybe

H16H-V0L7463: maybe we really are the monsters here H16H-V0L7463: maybe we’re so far gone we don’t even realize it H16H-V0L7463: maybe they’ve got the right idea hunting us down

H16H-V0L7463: i dunno. i dunno.

H16H-V0L7463: maybe i should go lie down or something

BR0ADSW0RD: I have to believe I'm not a monster. BR0ADSW0RD: As much as my own mind disagrees with me. BR0ADSW0RD: I have to believe I'm doing the right thing. BR0ADSW0RD: I have to believe what I do well help someone eventually. BR0ADSW0RD: I'm sorry.

H16H-V0L7463: you’re fine H16H-V0L7463: and you’re right H16H-V0L7463: i’m just H16H-V0L7463: frustrated

H16H-V0L7463: i wish i could just find the fucking solution and be able to walk away from this problem H16H-V0L7463: i wish i could be right when i tell myself that if i just keep talking eventually they’ll understand H16H-V0L7463: i think i just have to accept that we’re gonna be misunderstood and hunted forever by most of em. H16H-V0L7463: and just… find a way to make myself not care

BR0ADSW0RD: Please care, Amir. BR0ADSW0RD: Please. BR0ADSW0RD: It's not you if you don't care.

H16H-V0L7463: UGH H16H-V0L7463: UGHHHHH H16H-V0L7463: IM TIRED OF CARING. IM TIRED OF BEING THE ONE WHO CRIES AND SHAKES ABOUT IT H16H-V0L7463: I DONT WANT TO HURT H16H-V0L7463: IS THAT SO BAD?

BR0ADSW0RD: Sorry.

H16H-V0L7463: IM TIRED. ITS SO MUCH. IM TIRED. H16H-V0L7463: i don’t know how any of you do it H16H-V0L7463: i feel like my hearts on the outside H16H-V0L7463: everyone else can walk it off but all it takes is one or two things and i hit the ground

H16H-V0L7463: i have to let it go.

H16H-V0L7463: why the fuck do i care what the fuckinf scaldra think about us anyway??? H16H-V0L7463: they’re the ones TRYING TO KILL US H16H-V0L7463: i have you guys! the civvies like us for the most part! i shouldn’t be so upset about this!!!! H16H-V0L7463: i just can’t fucking handle being misunderstood

H16H-V0L7463: it drives me crazy

H16H-V0L7463: i need to find whatever fucking wire is loose in my brain H16H-V0L7463: and cut it.

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INCOMING KIM REQUEST SUBJECT: "Help, if you want it."

H16H-V0L7463: yknow… i’m gonna be real, boss. i dunno if i do.

H16H-V0L7463: i’ll level, your advice got me into some pretty deep shit yesterday.

H16H-V0L7463: i can listen. but i might not agree with you.

H16H-V0L7463: just bein honest

SOLBURNSINVICTORY: Step one, Breathe. Step two, focus on the Heart. Don't let it get away from you. Step Three, elaborate, if you please. Did it not work? Or something else?

H16H-V0L7463: it worked, i think

H16H-V0L7463: i stayed in control, if that's what you mean.

H16H-V0L7463: but it scared the SHIT out of everyone

H16H-V0L7463: and that's the last thing i want

H16H-V0L7463: it was like..

H16H-V0L7463: you hunt, right? you've mentioned it before.

H16H-V0L7463: you ever come across anything rabid?

H16H-V0L7463: like, obviously too far gone, stumbling around foaming at the mouth twitching and spitting, snapping at the air and shit

H16H-V0L7463: you know that feeling you get when you realize what you're looking at?

H16H-V0L7463: it's like.

H16H-V0L7463: fear and pity and disgust all at once

H16H-V0L7463: you're looking at something gross and dangerous that you know can't be helped.

H16H-V0L7463: that's how they were looking at me.

H16H-V0L7463: i thought i was getting better

H16H-V0L7463: i tried to explain it

H16H-V0L7463: but… they didn't believe me

H16H-V0L7463: they don't trust me.

H16H-V0L7463: all the shit you've been saying to them about me, whatever the hell you've been saying, it's got them convinced that you're in my head. that you're using me, trying to turn me into something i don't wanna be.

H16H-V0L7463: so explain that to me, lukas.

H16H-V0L7463: what the fuck is really going on, here?

H16H-V0L7463: what do you want?

SOLBURNSINVICTORY: So it did help, and again they decide they know better than you what's working. As for myself, I want to help you, if you believe nothing else I say believe that. Though I'm sure if they're telling you about what I've said you've already drawn your own conclusions. If you want the truth out of me, you'll have it, but I'd be remiss if I didn't permit you the opportunity to decide you don't want to know. It's easier to kill the man you don't know, after all.

H16H-V0L7463: i’m not doing this for my sake. i’m doing this for THEIR sake. if it scares the fuck out of everyone around me every time i try to handle it, there’s no point in bothering.

H16H-V0L7463: all i want is to not have to worry about hurting people i care about

H16H-V0L7463: i’ve gone too far so many fucking times

H16H-V0L7463: i know you’ve seen all those fuckin scars on arthur’s face

H16H-V0L7463: his fucked up eye?

H16H-V0L7463: that was all me. i did that to him. he was trying to stop me, and he almost couldn’t.

H16H-V0L7463: i almost killed the both of us that night

H16H-V0L7463: all i want is for that to never happen again

H16H-V0L7463: but if ‘fixing it’ is gonna make everyone treat me like a fucking live grenade?

H16H-V0L7463: i dont know what else i have left

SOLBURNSINVICTORY: You have one thing you've always had, yourself. And another that's so often snatched away from you, your will. You need nothing else. I can give you the tools you need to endure, but I will not, nor can I force you to use them. But you did not answer my question. Do you want the truth?

H16H-V0L7463: …

H16H-V0L7463: i do.

H16H-V0L7463: i just wanna understand what the fuck is going on here

SOLBURNSINVICTORY: What I want is to give you what I saw for that beautiful fleeting moment, where our paths crossed for the last time. I want to see you stand TALL, Sparkplug. There's a shortage of true heroes in this world of ours, Sparkplug. Gone are the days when good was good, evil was evil. Things were much more fun back then, and we had men and women who could stand up to look the oncoming storm dead in the eye and say: "Not if I have anything to say." I thought I'd outlived them all. Then you came running out of your apartment. You faced down a dozen men twice your size, and you FOUGHT. Left me with wounds I'll remember all my lifetimes. I thought it was a brief glimpse. But then I saw it again. When the cards were all in my hand, Arthur detained and your honor slandered, you stormed up the boulevard like a thing out of legend. Took my plan, my every advantage, and you took matters into your own hand, twisting the arm of fate until it gave you everything you wanted. For that moment, I couldn't even make myself hate you. It was seeing something I'd thought long past. It was an honor to die at your hands. No masters but Sol in Victory at your back and the world unfurled before you. I don't know what you'll do with it, once you're there again, but if it takes me a THOUSAND lifetimes and a thousand DEATHS beyond that I WILL see you reclaim that glory. If I have to play the devil so be it. If I must be the beast from the bracken, so be it. The thing scratching at the walls wants me to kill you but I will NOT let it deny you what I know you're capable of. You WILL rise. Even if you have to go through me to do it. After that? I know the future, or lack thereof, is in good hands.

H16H-V0L7463: i…..

H16H-V0L7463: wow

H16H-V0L7463: give me a minute. i have a lot to say right now and i wanna say it right.

H16H-V0L7463: you just answered… a lot of questions i've been meaning to ask you for a while now

H16H-V0L7463: i'd been wondering when it happened. y'know, when i first… got you, i guess.

H16H-V0L7463: i was afraid it was gonna be that night.

H16H-V0L7463: i

H16H-V0L7463: the way you feel about that is very different from how i felt then

H16H-V0L7463: and how i feel now looking back

H16H-V0L7463: but…

H16H-V0L7463: i don't think one of us is more right than the other, is the thing.

H16H-V0L7463: we might both have a point.

H16H-V0L7463: lemme explain.

H16H-V0L7463: when i gave myself that shot, it was agony. i couldn't see. i couldn't think. my body was tearing itself apart and putting itself back together.

H16H-V0L7463: i felt like i was being eaten alive from the inside out…

H16H-V0L7463: i panicked. and i lashed out. i didn't know my own strength, i didn't realize what the shot had done to me.

H16H-V0L7463: i wasn't prepared to handle it…

H16H-V0L7463: I've never been the kinda person who enjoys hurting other people.

H16H-V0L7463: i try to avoid it.

H16H-V0L7463: and here i was… staring down the bodies i'd jsut cooked alive without even meaning to.

H16H-V0L7463: i still have nightmares about what i did

H16H-V0L7463: like full on drenched in a cold sweat waking up sobbing need-to-be-held-down-by-someone-because-i-start-thrashing-around-and-screaming-in-my-sleep nightmares about that shit

H16H-V0L7463: i still… i still see their faces when i close my eyes sometimes

H16H-V0L7463: all these loops later, i can't shake how awful it all was

H16H-V0L7463: i had no idea it was coming. i wasn't ready. it wasn't what i'd WANTED to do.

H16H-V0L7463: y'know… there are others like us out there, in the future.

H16H-V0L7463: warframes that used to be people.

H16H-V0L7463: the process drives them insane.

H16H-V0L7463: they lose their minds, they just start killing anything that gets in their way like animals

H16H-V0L7463: i convinced myself that i was gonna turn out the same way.

H16H-V0L7463: that if i 'fed' the urge, i'd just get worse and worse until one day i woke up and the shell was grown over my face, and i couldn't do a damn thing about it

H16H-V0L7463: so i ran from it. and, funny enough, running made it worse. it just kept building and building. by the time i got to you, i was…

H16H-V0L7463: i did what i had to do. i still don't like thinking about it, but i can't undo it.

H16H-V0L7463: the problem is how i got there.

H16H-V0L7463: i ran off into the night without saying a damn word to anyone.

H16H-V0L7463: lettie worried herself so sick over the both of us that she was already grieving by the time we got back. it tore my heart to pieces seeing how exhausted she was when i got back -- i put her through hell.

H16H-V0L7463: i wasn't thinking rationally.

H16H-V0L7463: and again, after i had gotten finished with you, i… i couldn't stop.

H16H-V0L7463: i tracked down the sorry son of a bitch who was trying to run off with Arthur, and i…. i missed Arthur completely. i was so focused on how angry i was, how badly i wanted to kill anyone who touched him. i knocked him over and hurt him even more because i was so lost in it. i wasted time that could've cost him his life chasing someone who was already running because i didn't know when to stop.

H16H-V0L7463: i want to figure out how to find that balance. be able to put it to good use, and know that i'm not gonna be a loose cannon.

H16H-V0L7463: so… i guess we kinda want the same thing, then.

H16H-V0L7463: the hard part is that, well… ugh i have this kneejerk reaction to not want to believe you could be right

H16H-V0L7463: that you're lying, you've got every reason to.

H16H-V0L7463: but i want to believe you.

H16H-V0L7463: you're right.

H16H-V0L7463: it's hard to kill the man you know.

H16H-V0L7463: i'll be honest… i don't want to kill you. i never did.

H16H-V0L7463: to tell you the truth, if Arthur's life wasn't hung in the balance last time, i was planning on letting you have me.

H16H-V0L7463: not cuz i was giving up, but cuz i thought it might be what you wanted.

H16H-V0L7463: i thought once you got it out of your system, you'd be able to move on. give you that catharsis, y'know?

H16H-V0L7463: i was willing to make that sacrifice cuz i felt like i owed you that much for what i'd done to you and yours.

H16H-V0L7463: i didn't really get it, obviously. i didn't know you as well as i thought i did. but i think i understand now.

H16H-V0L7463: at least, better than i did then.

H16H-V0L7463: …does that make sense?

SOLBURNSINVICTORY: An amount there of, yes. But there's a point where thinking rationally WILL fail you. There will come a time where the cold logical option is to cut your losses and give in. Do NOT. Even if it's after you've finally put me in the ground, I will crawl from whatever hell awaits me beyond the wall to make you regret failing to learn what I'm trying to teach you. Do not let this be in vain. Prove to yourself if no one else, you're a man who can be trusted to steer his own course. Listening to others because you trust them, not because you fear unjust reprisals.

H16H-V0L7463: exactly, yeah. i think i see what you’re saying. just like now. the logical option is to walk away from all this, or just start cutting down thralls, or write you off.

H16H-V0L7463: i know better, though. we’re gonna figure something out.

H16H-V0L7463: i can’t tell you what i’m thinking, i know you aren’t the only one listening.

H16H-V0L7463: i don’t want to show my hand.

H16H-V0L7463: but.

H16H-V0L7463: thank you. for being honest.

H16H-V0L7463: do you…

H16H-V0L7463: do you have any questions for ME? about all this?

SOLBURNSINVICTORY: Good. That's a good start. I'm glad to hear it.

I… Yes. One question.

When I say all this, and if… When. When the way I act doesn't match those words…

You understand what I mean, right?

H16H-V0L7463: i think i do, yeah.

H16H-V0L7463: i didn't for a bit, but i'm starting to.

SOLBURNSINVICTORY: A small mercy.

Sol is kind, even now.

Please, guard yourself, Sparkplug.

From me and worse.

H16H-V0L7463: Hang in there, big guy.

H16H-V0L7463: see you around.

_resorting_to_cheap_tricks_already_,_kiddo_?_

_for_shame_._

_i_would_have_hoped_you_'_d_have_known_better_._

_you_can't_"_save_"_him_,_kiddo_._

_you_'_ll_die_trying_._

_you_and_all_your_little_"_friends_"_will_pay_dearly_for_your_insolence_._

_you_may_have_won_this_round_,_kiddo_._

_but_watch_your_back_._

_i_won_'_t_let_it_happen_again_._

_a_new_year_is_just_around_the_corner_,_you_know_._

_better_make_it_count_,_kiddo_._

_:)_

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