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hummingbird-games · 8 months

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this sounds extremely fatalistic and especially insane to say during BHM from yours truly, but I'm spiraling and looking at data and the state of the world (& my country specifically) and the stories I want to tell and the people who stories are centered and...

I don't think I ever want to charge money for my games. ever. they'll be free for the unforeseen future because I'm not tanking my health further by stressing out over what hateful, racist, insane players think. I'm already catching strays from trying to have f!MC protagonists??? can you unpack why that makes you wanna lash out and be nasty?? but preferably with someone else that's not me.

people talk such a big game about diversity and being inclusive and listening to Black voices and then turn around do the exact opposite. every single time.

ugh, I have a queued post going up...tomorrow?? that's a reblog from last year, but a warning: I was a very different person with a very different well of energy when I wrote it and when I scheduled that reblog.

#gamedev rambles #I...just wanna tell stories #and experience others' stories #but putting a price tag on me #even when I'm putting in work??#it's so clear what players want (and don't want)#and Crushed did pretty well with a majority Black cast #but it's a BL so I wonder if that cushioned it's fall??#HSD:JY has more scrapes and bruises from the general public (and I try to focus on the positive feedback but like. damn)#and so with The Knight Dance I'm actually scared #because it's an all black cast AND it's sapphic and those are 2 things I discovered a while ago that don't hold ppl's attention #or it does hold attention but the wrong kind #lol does any of this make any sense??#I'm not going to stop making games or being a part of this community #but I am going to shuffle my feet more lol #LOL ramblings brought to you by 1) discord and 2) realizing I effing hate programming and need to find a way to pay someone to #do it moving forward. so. almost zero correlation

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